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The pain of this knowledge is bearable by meditation. From the void, the emptiness
from where it all came. What is The Void? Try to explain the emptiness into which
the Universe after the Big Bang, is still expanding.
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Now check RAEL. www.rael.org Rael is on the right track and Erich Von Danniken researched
this long ago. I agree that by the Elohim, the ancient script translators made gods
out of the visitors from the sky. Because it is plural of Eloha, angel, alien who
came from the sky, heavens. Write for all angels alien visitors from outer space,
traveling to this here experimental laboratory called Earth. For centuries man has
deliberately been kept less clever than its creators. But by 1946 they knocked two
times on Heavens doors, with the 2 nuclear explosions on Japan. The Elohim want us
to stop all wars and become friends. All One or None. Respect and kind regards. The
bible has recorded all the visits and many of the doings of the aliens and they were
not friendly at each other. A certain group of creation would be more intelligent
than the others and eventually control the earth.
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Science is developing so fast that man's abilities are par to the creators own. They,
the “gods” may not like it and as that was the reason for the disappearance of Atlantis,
we are in the same times now. However, the by the angels bred men on Earth have taken
to a god of atrocities, everything well recorded and written down in the Bible, sect
book nr 1 in the Western world. There are far more than a 100 horrific cruel and bloody
deeds by the god of the bible inspired men. I can only give you some, but the total
number is over 33 million people killed by “god” and his men, including the Flood.
To start with 1. Elisha (with help from God) sent two bears to kill 42 children for
making fun of his bald head. 2 Kings 2:22-23. Skip nine, here is nr 10. Samson killed
1000 men with the jawbone of an ass.
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Judges 15: 14-15, BT. Skipping 9, we get nr 20 Burned to death for offering incense
Numbers 16:35 250 31,391,379. With the flood that killed about 30 million the total
world ppulation at the time 21 For complaining Numbers 16:49 14,700 31,406,079 22
Massacre of the Aradites Numbers 21:1-3 3,000 31,409,079 23 For complaining about
the lack of food and water, God sent fiery serpents to bite the people. Numbers 21:6
100 31,409,179 24 God delivers the Bashanites into Moses' hands and Moses kills them
all Numbers 21:34-35 2,000 31,411,179 25 Phinehas impales a mixed-race couple having
sex Numbers 25:6-8 2 31,411,181 26 Israelites for "committing whoredom with the daughters
of Moab" Numbers 25:9 24,000 31,435,181 27 Midianite massacre (32,000 virgins were
kept alive) Numbers 31:1-35 200,000 31,635,181 28 God kills the entire Israelite army
Deuteronomy 2:14-16 500,000 32,135,181 29 The slaughter of the Zamzummim, Horim, Avim,
and the Caphtorim Deuteronomy 2:21-22 10,000 32,145,181 30 God hardened the king of
Heshbon's heart so that the Israelites could massacre his people. (included several
cities) Deuteronomy 2:33-34 3,000 32,148,181 31 All the men, women, and children in
60 cities Deuteronomy 3:3-6 60,000 32,208,181 32 Massacre of Jericho Joshua 6:21 1,000
32,209,181 33 Achan (and his his sons and daughters) for taking the accursed thing
Joshua 7:10-12, 24-26 5 32,209,186 34 The Ai Massacre Joshua 8:1-25 12,000 32,221,186
35 God slaughters the Amorites Joshua 10:10-11 5,000 32,226,186 36 Joshua kills 5
kings and hangs their dead bodies on trees Joshua 10:24-26 5 32,226,191 37 Massacre
of 7 kingdoms Joshua 10:28-42 7,000 32,233,191 38 The remaining kingdoms Joshua 11:8-12
10,000 32,243,191 39 Massacre of the Anakim Joshua 11:20-21 5,000 32,248,191 40 God
delivers the Canaanites and Perizzites Judges 1:4 10,000 32,258,191 41 The Jerusalem
Massacre Judges 1:8 1000 32,259,191 42 Ten Massacres, a wedding, and some God-proof
iron chariots Judges 1:9-25 10,000 32,269,191 43 The LORD delivered Chushanrishathaim
Judges 3:7-10 1000 32,270,191 44 Ehud delivers a message from God: a knife in the
belly Judges 3:15-22 1 32,270,192 45 God delivers 10,000 Moabites Judges 3:28-29 10,000
32,280,192 46 Barak and God massacre the Canaanites Judges 4:14 1,000 32,281,192 47
Jael pounds a tent stake through a sleeping man's head Judges 4:18-25 1 32,281,193
48 God forces Midianite soldiers to kill each other Judges 7:22, 8:10 120,000 32,401,193
49 A city is massacred and 1000 burn to death because of God's evil spirit Judges
9:23-57 2001 32,403,194 50 The Ammonite massacre Judges 11:29-33 20,000 32,423,194
51 Jephthah's daughter Judges 11:34-39 1 32,423,195 52 The spirit of the Lord comes
on Samson and he murders 30 men for their clothes Judges 14:19 30 32,423,225 53 The
Spirit of the Lord comes upon Samson and he kills 1000 men with the jawbone of an
ass Judges 15:14-15 1,000 32,424,225 54 Samson's God-assisted act of terrorism Judges
16:27-30 3,000 32,427,225 55 A Holy Civil War Judges 20:35-37 65,100 32,492,325 56
God kills Eli's sons 1 Samuel 2:25, 34; 4:11 2 32,492,327 57 God smote three cities
with hemorrhoids in their secret parts 1 Samuel 5:1-12 3,000 32,495,327 58 For looking
into the ark of the Lord 1 Samuel 6:19 50,070 32,545,397 59 The LORD thundered with
a great thunder upon the Philistines 1 Samuel 7:10-11 1000 32,546,397 60 The Ammonite
Massacre (and another God-inspired body part message) 1 Samuel 7:11-13 1000 32,547,397
61 Jonathan's very first slaughter (not counting the one before) 1 Samuel 14:12 20
32,547,417 62 God forces the Philistine soldiers to kill each other. 1 Samuel 14:20
1,000 32,548,417 63 The Amalekite Genocide 1 Samuel 15:2-3 10,000 32,558,417 64 Samuel
hacks Agag to pieces before the Lord 1 Samuel 15:32-33 1 32,558,418 65 God delivers
the Philistines. 1 Samuel 23:2-5 1,000 32,559,418 66 "The Lord smote Nabal." 1 Samuel
25:38 1 32,559,419 67 David spends the day killing Amalekites 1 Samuel 30:17 1000
32,560,419 68 God has the Philistines kill Israelite soldiers 1 Samuel 31:6, 1 Chronicles
10:6 100 32,560,519 69 Saul and his three sons 1 Samuel 31:6, 1 Chronicles 10:6 4
32,560,523 70 God delivers the Philistines to David (from the front) 2 Samuel 5:19
1,000 32,561,523 71 God delivers the Philistines to David (from behind) 2 Samuel 5:25
1,000 32,562,523 72 Uzzah for trying to keep the ark from falling 2 Samuel 6:6-7,
1 Chronicles 13:9-10 1 32,562,524 73 David and Bathsheba's baby boy 2 Samuel 12:14-18
1 32,562,525 74 God sent a three-year famine because of something Saul did. 2 Samuel
21:1 3000 32,565,525 75 Saul's two sons and five grandsons hung up before the Lord
2 Samuel 21:6-9 7 32,565,532 76 God kills 200,000 people because David did a census
that God told him to do 2 Samuel 24:15, 1 Chronicles 21:14 200,000 32,765,532 77 A
lion is sent by God to kill a prophet for believing another prophet's lie 1 Kings
13:1-24 1 32,765,533 78 Jeroboam's son 1 Kings 14:17 1 32,765,534 79 Jeroboams's familiy
1 Kings 15:29 10 32,765,544 80 Baasha's family and friends 1 Kings 16:11-12 20 32,765,564
81 The first God-assisted slaughter of the Syrians 1 Kings 20:28-29 10,000 32,775,564
82 God killed 100,000 Syrians for calling him a God of the hills 1 Kings 20:28-29
100,000 32,875,564 83 God makes a wall fall on Syrian soldiers 1 Kings 20:30 27,000
32,902,564 84 God sent a lion to kill a man for not smiting a prophet 1 Kings 20:35-36
1 32,902,565 85 Ahab for not killing a captured king 1 Kings 20:42, 22:35 1 32,902,566
86 51 men are burned to death by God for asking Elijah to come down from his hill
2 Kings 1:10 51 32,902,617 87 Another 51 men are burned to death by God for asking
Elijah to come down from his hill 2 Kings 1:12 51 32,902,668 88 Ahaziah is killed
for asking the wrong god 2 Kings 1:2-4, 17; 2 Chronicles 22:7-9 1 32,902,669 89 God
sent two bears to kill 42 children for making fun of Elisha's bald head 2 Kings 2:23-24
42 32,902,711 90 God delivered the Moabites 2 Kings 3:18-25 3000 32,905,711 91 God
calls for a seven year famine. 2 Kings 8:1 7000 32,912,711 92 Jehoram 2 Kings 9:24
1 32,912,712 93 Jezebel 2 Kings 9:33-37 1 32,912,713 94 Ahab's 70 sons 2 Kings 10:6-10
70 32,912,783 95 Ahab's hometown family and friends 2 Kings 10:11 100 32,912,883 96
Ahab's family in Samaria 2 Kings 10:17 100 32,912,983 97 God sent lions to kill "some"
foreigners for not fearing him 2 Kings 17:25-26 10 32,912,993 98 Sleeping Assyrian
soldiers 2 Kings 19:35; Isaiah 37:36 185,000 33,097,993 99 God delivers Israel into
the hands of Judah 2 Chronicles 13:15-17 500,000 33,597,993 100 Jeroboam 2 Chronicles
13:20 1 33,597,994 101 "The Lord smote the Ethiopians." 2 Chronicles 14:9-14 1,000,000
34,597,994 102 God kills Jehoram by making his bowels fall out 2 Chronicles 21:14-19
1 34,597,995 103 Judean soldiers killed for forsaking God 2 Chronicles 28:6 120,000
34,717,995 104 God delivered the Israelites into the hand of the Chaldeans. 2 Chronicles
36:16-17 1000 34,718,995 105 God and Satan kill Job's children and servants Job 1:1-19
60? 34,719,055 106 Ezekiel's wife Ezekiel 24:15-18 1 34,719,056 107 Ananias and Sapphira
Acts 5:1-10 2 34,719,058 108 Herod Acts 12:23 1 34,719,059 109 Jesus Eph 5:2 , Heb
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      <title>gods atrocities in the bible</title>
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The pain of this knowledge is bearable by meditation. From the void, the emptiness
from where it all came. What is The Void? Try to explain the emptiness into which
the Universe after the Big Bang, is still expanding.
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;
Now check RAEL. www.rael.org Rael is on the right track and Erich Von Danniken researched
this long ago. I agree that by the Elohim, the ancient script translators made gods
out of the visitors from the sky. Because it is plural of Eloha, angel, alien who
came from the sky, heavens. Write for all angels alien visitors from outer space,
traveling to this here experimental laboratory called Earth. For centuries man has
deliberately been kept less clever than its creators. But by 1946 they knocked two
times on Heavens doors, with the 2 nuclear explosions on Japan. The Elohim want us
to stop all wars and become friends. All One or None. Respect and kind regards. The
bible has recorded all the visits and many of the doings of the aliens and they were
not friendly at each other. A certain group of creation would be more intelligent
than the others and eventually control the earth.
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;
Science is developing so fast that man's abilities are par to the creators own. They,
the “gods” may not like it and as that was the reason for the disappearance of Atlantis,
we are in the same times now. However, the by the angels bred men on Earth have taken
to a god of atrocities, everything well recorded and written down in the Bible, sect
book nr 1 in the Western world. There are far more than a 100 horrific cruel and bloody
deeds by the god of the bible inspired men. I can only give you some, but the total
number is over 33 million people killed by “god” and his men, including the Flood.
To start with 1. Elisha (with help from God) sent two bears to kill 42 children for
making fun of his bald head. 2 Kings 2:22-23. Skip nine, here is nr 10. Samson killed
1000 men with the jawbone of an ass.
&lt;/p&gt;
Judges 15: 14-15, BT. Skipping 9, we get nr 20 Burned to death for offering incense
Numbers 16:35 250 31,391,379. With the flood that killed about 30 million the total
world ppulation at the time 21 For complaining Numbers 16:49 14,700 31,406,079 22
Massacre of the Aradites Numbers 21:1-3 3,000 31,409,079 23 For complaining about
the lack of food and water, God sent fiery serpents to bite the people. Numbers 21:6
100 31,409,179 24 God delivers the Bashanites into Moses' hands and Moses kills them
all Numbers 21:34-35 2,000 31,411,179 25 Phinehas impales a mixed-race couple having
sex Numbers 25:6-8 2 31,411,181 26 Israelites for "committing whoredom with the daughters
of Moab" Numbers 25:9 24,000 31,435,181 27 Midianite massacre (32,000 virgins were
kept alive) Numbers 31:1-35 200,000 31,635,181 28 God kills the entire Israelite army
Deuteronomy 2:14-16 500,000 32,135,181 29 The slaughter of the Zamzummim, Horim, Avim,
and the Caphtorim Deuteronomy 2:21-22 10,000 32,145,181 30 God hardened the king of
Heshbon's heart so that the Israelites could massacre his people. (included several
cities) Deuteronomy 2:33-34 3,000 32,148,181 31 All the men, women, and children in
60 cities Deuteronomy 3:3-6 60,000 32,208,181 32 Massacre of Jericho Joshua 6:21 1,000
32,209,181 33 Achan (and his his sons and daughters) for taking the accursed thing
Joshua 7:10-12, 24-26 5 32,209,186 34 The Ai Massacre Joshua 8:1-25 12,000 32,221,186
35 God slaughters the Amorites Joshua 10:10-11 5,000 32,226,186 36 Joshua kills 5
kings and hangs their dead bodies on trees Joshua 10:24-26 5 32,226,191 37 Massacre
of 7 kingdoms Joshua 10:28-42 7,000 32,233,191 38 The remaining kingdoms Joshua 11:8-12
10,000 32,243,191 39 Massacre of the Anakim Joshua 11:20-21 5,000 32,248,191 40 God
delivers the Canaanites and Perizzites Judges 1:4 10,000 32,258,191 41 The Jerusalem
Massacre Judges 1:8 1000 32,259,191 42 Ten Massacres, a wedding, and some God-proof
iron chariots Judges 1:9-25 10,000 32,269,191 43 The LORD delivered Chushanrishathaim
Judges 3:7-10 1000 32,270,191 44 Ehud delivers a message from God: a knife in the
belly Judges 3:15-22 1 32,270,192 45 God delivers 10,000 Moabites Judges 3:28-29 10,000
32,280,192 46 Barak and God massacre the Canaanites Judges 4:14 1,000 32,281,192 47
Jael pounds a tent stake through a sleeping man's head Judges 4:18-25 1 32,281,193
48 God forces Midianite soldiers to kill each other Judges 7:22, 8:10 120,000 32,401,193
49 A city is massacred and 1000 burn to death because of God's evil spirit Judges
9:23-57 2001 32,403,194 50 The Ammonite massacre Judges 11:29-33 20,000 32,423,194
51 Jephthah's daughter Judges 11:34-39 1 32,423,195 52 The spirit of the Lord comes
on Samson and he murders 30 men for their clothes Judges 14:19 30 32,423,225 53 The
Spirit of the Lord comes upon Samson and he kills 1000 men with the jawbone of an
ass Judges 15:14-15 1,000 32,424,225 54 Samson's God-assisted act of terrorism Judges
16:27-30 3,000 32,427,225 55 A Holy Civil War Judges 20:35-37 65,100 32,492,325 56
God kills Eli's sons 1 Samuel 2:25, 34; 4:11 2 32,492,327 57 God smote three cities
with hemorrhoids in their secret parts 1 Samuel 5:1-12 3,000 32,495,327 58 For looking
into the ark of the Lord 1 Samuel 6:19 50,070 32,545,397 59 The LORD thundered with
a great thunder upon the Philistines 1 Samuel 7:10-11 1000 32,546,397 60 The Ammonite
Massacre (and another God-inspired body part message) 1 Samuel 7:11-13 1000 32,547,397
61 Jonathan's very first slaughter (not counting the one before) 1 Samuel 14:12 20
32,547,417 62 God forces the Philistine soldiers to kill each other. 1 Samuel 14:20
1,000 32,548,417 63 The Amalekite Genocide 1 Samuel 15:2-3 10,000 32,558,417 64 Samuel
hacks Agag to pieces before the Lord 1 Samuel 15:32-33 1 32,558,418 65 God delivers
the Philistines. 1 Samuel 23:2-5 1,000 32,559,418 66 "The Lord smote Nabal." 1 Samuel
25:38 1 32,559,419 67 David spends the day killing Amalekites 1 Samuel 30:17 1000
32,560,419 68 God has the Philistines kill Israelite soldiers 1 Samuel 31:6, 1 Chronicles
10:6 100 32,560,519 69 Saul and his three sons 1 Samuel 31:6, 1 Chronicles 10:6 4
32,560,523 70 God delivers the Philistines to David (from the front) 2 Samuel 5:19
1,000 32,561,523 71 God delivers the Philistines to David (from behind) 2 Samuel 5:25
1,000 32,562,523 72 Uzzah for trying to keep the ark from falling 2 Samuel 6:6-7,
1 Chronicles 13:9-10 1 32,562,524 73 David and Bathsheba's baby boy 2 Samuel 12:14-18
1 32,562,525 74 God sent a three-year famine because of something Saul did. 2 Samuel
21:1 3000 32,565,525 75 Saul's two sons and five grandsons hung up before the Lord
2 Samuel 21:6-9 7 32,565,532 76 God kills 200,000 people because David did a census
that God told him to do 2 Samuel 24:15, 1 Chronicles 21:14 200,000 32,765,532 77 A
lion is sent by God to kill a prophet for believing another prophet's lie 1 Kings
13:1-24 1 32,765,533 78 Jeroboam's son 1 Kings 14:17 1 32,765,534 79 Jeroboams's familiy
1 Kings 15:29 10 32,765,544 80 Baasha's family and friends 1 Kings 16:11-12 20 32,765,564
81 The first God-assisted slaughter of the Syrians 1 Kings 20:28-29 10,000 32,775,564
82 God killed 100,000 Syrians for calling him a God of the hills 1 Kings 20:28-29
100,000 32,875,564 83 God makes a wall fall on Syrian soldiers 1 Kings 20:30 27,000
32,902,564 84 God sent a lion to kill a man for not smiting a prophet 1 Kings 20:35-36
1 32,902,565 85 Ahab for not killing a captured king 1 Kings 20:42, 22:35 1 32,902,566
86 51 men are burned to death by God for asking Elijah to come down from his hill
2 Kings 1:10 51 32,902,617 87 Another 51 men are burned to death by God for asking
Elijah to come down from his hill 2 Kings 1:12 51 32,902,668 88 Ahaziah is killed
for asking the wrong god 2 Kings 1:2-4, 17; 2 Chronicles 22:7-9 1 32,902,669 89 God
sent two bears to kill 42 children for making fun of Elisha's bald head 2 Kings 2:23-24
42 32,902,711 90 God delivered the Moabites 2 Kings 3:18-25 3000 32,905,711 91 God
calls for a seven year famine. 2 Kings 8:1 7000 32,912,711 92 Jehoram 2 Kings 9:24
1 32,912,712 93 Jezebel 2 Kings 9:33-37 1 32,912,713 94 Ahab's 70 sons 2 Kings 10:6-10
70 32,912,783 95 Ahab's hometown family and friends 2 Kings 10:11 100 32,912,883 96
Ahab's family in Samaria 2 Kings 10:17 100 32,912,983 97 God sent lions to kill "some"
foreigners for not fearing him 2 Kings 17:25-26 10 32,912,993 98 Sleeping Assyrian
soldiers 2 Kings 19:35; Isaiah 37:36 185,000 33,097,993 99 God delivers Israel into
the hands of Judah 2 Chronicles 13:15-17 500,000 33,597,993 100 Jeroboam 2 Chronicles
13:20 1 33,597,994 101 "The Lord smote the Ethiopians." 2 Chronicles 14:9-14 1,000,000
34,597,994 102 God kills Jehoram by making his bowels fall out 2 Chronicles 21:14-19
1 34,597,995 103 Judean soldiers killed for forsaking God 2 Chronicles 28:6 120,000
34,717,995 104 God delivered the Israelites into the hand of the Chaldeans. 2 Chronicles
36:16-17 1000 34,718,995 105 God and Satan kill Job's children and servants Job 1:1-19
60? 34,719,055 106 Ezekiel's wife Ezekiel 24:15-18 1 34,719,056 107 Ananias and Sapphira
Acts 5:1-10 2 34,719,058 108 Herod Acts 12:23 1 34,719,059 109 Jesus Eph 5:2 , Heb
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To Mr. Hoogedelgestrenge, Mr. R. Duncan The Minister of Justice Administration Office
Clem Labega Square, Philipsburg St. Maarten October 11, 2010 Subject: Obtaining a
residence permit for some young people born here Dear Honorable Minister,transferring
a lot of writings to my blog you can copy and use all my stuff Please review the following.
My request to you concerning the current situation for many years a group of young
people on St. Maarten, which alhier born and raised in a situation where their documents
to obtain a renewal of their residence permit by the relevant authorities to be takentreatment.
By this act, and sometimes negative attitude of the very people who are in this situation
helpfulness should be, remains the lack of help, with these young people are to say
the least subjected to mental terror. It is so bad that a small group of about 30
young people I know personally, frustrated and sometimes depressive symptoms. These
young people have their whole lives alhier to school, have good grades achieved in
the past several permits had under the sponsorship of their parents and now, upon
reaching their 18 years of age (majority), civil rights of these young people , namely
the renewal of their residence permit be denied. The problem is that when they submit
their application for a residence permit you an employer or an employment certificate
requests, as proof of being employed by an employer. The irony in this is that employers
alhier just going to the residence of the questions involved before they can hire
young people. So in other words, from pillar to post. With respect for your position,
I ask you, Your Honor Minister, to see whether you have an attachment to this legislative
proposal is to implement youth group of St. Maarten to be helpful. I am convinced
that you, being the only entity that an addendum or addition to the Admission and
Expulsion Ordinance can implement. These 30 young people on St. Maarten / St. Martin
born. The youth, who because of circumstances (free health care at the time), on St.
Martin, French side were born on the French side have never lived there and are not
trained and have nowhere else to go. It's a scary thought to their own beloved homeland
to be refused. It is my urgent request to you for your attention as soon as possible
to settle on this small group of young people and to authorize necessary to meet their
needs. Corrected an internal problem which needs should be. As I and these people
daily with the mental terror of fear of arrest should live, we need immediate relief
from arrest. I urge you to publicly give this group until a decision on their status
has been taken. Thank you in advance for your attention to this, I remain, Yours sincerely,
Tania Pedro Police, see Appendix for more Address: Kings of the Sea Road # 11, Sucker
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To Mr. Hoogedelgestrenge, Mr. R. Duncan The Minister of Justice Administration Office
Clem Labega Square, Philipsburg St. Maarten October 11, 2010 Subject: Obtaining a
residence permit for some young people born here Dear Honorable Minister,transferring
a lot of writings to my blog you can copy and use all my stuff Please review the following.
My request to you concerning the current situation for many years a group of young
people on St. Maarten, which alhier born and raised in a situation where their documents
to obtain a renewal of their residence permit by the relevant authorities to be takentreatment.
By this act, and sometimes negative attitude of the very people who are in this situation
helpfulness should be, remains the lack of help, with these young people are to say
the least subjected to mental terror. It is so bad that a small group of about 30
young people I know personally, frustrated and sometimes depressive symptoms. These
young people have their whole lives alhier to school, have good grades achieved in
the past several permits had under the sponsorship of their parents and now, upon
reaching their 18 years of age (majority), civil rights of these young people , namely
the renewal of their residence permit be denied. The problem is that when they submit
their application for a residence permit you an employer or an employment certificate
requests, as proof of being employed by an employer. The irony in this is that employers
alhier just going to the residence of the questions involved before they can hire
young people. So in other words, from pillar to post. With respect for your position,
I ask you, Your Honor Minister, to see whether you have an attachment to this legislative
proposal is to implement youth group of St. Maarten to be helpful. I am convinced
that you, being the only entity that an addendum or addition to the Admission and
Expulsion Ordinance can implement. These 30 young people on St. Maarten / St. Martin
born. The youth, who because of circumstances (free health care at the time), on St.
Martin, French side were born on the French side have never lived there and are not
trained and have nowhere else to go. It's a scary thought to their own beloved homeland
to be refused. It is my urgent request to you for your attention as soon as possible
to settle on this small group of young people and to authorize necessary to meet their
needs. Corrected an internal problem which needs should be. As I and these people
daily with the mental terror of fear of arrest should live, we need immediate relief
from arrest. I urge you to publicly give this group until a decision on their status
has been taken. Thank you in advance for your attention to this, I remain, Yours sincerely,
Tania Pedro Police, see Appendix for more Address: Kings of the Sea Road # 11, Sucker
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Dear Editor, title Troubled mind Dear readers, honorable leaders, ordinary citizens.
A person is born with the Universal Mind, the all knowing, empty Void, the Universal
Mind or Consciousness. The entity grows up and is easily impressed with all kind of
weird rituals and ceremonies that take place all around him. It is all show on the
outside. The Universal Mind is pushed aside, its place filled up with input from where
that individual happens to be. One becomes separate from the rest, or from that what
is unknown. The ego gets in the way of the Universal Mind. There begins a constant
denial of the Universal Mind and that leads to frustration, violence and misery. The
ego says that the suffering of the other must be ignored at all cost. A barrier between
them and I must be. The Universal Mind says the opposite, your pain is my pain. A
horrible situation that has no remedy other than that the individual commit complete
apostasy of his' or her's any sect, group, religion, club, organization that makes
him ignore the other. Only in Total Freedom can we help the brainwashed encapsulated
ones, to show them how stuck they are in their thinking. How hard is it to become
a free man with a Universal Mind? It starts by curiously asking and searching for
information. I will now tell you about the Gazans, whose suffering is so criminally
willfully ignored. A Universal Crime of enormous proportions. From Radio Palestine
I get the following, I quote: “ In 2008 Fr Manuel was with his Christian community
during their darkest hour when Israel, with a nod from America and the EU, unleashed
a deadly onslaught intended to finally crush the half-starved Gazans. At the height
of the killing spree, Fr Manuel sent this message from the smoking ruins to anyone
who would listen: "Our people in Gaza are treated like animals in a zoo. They eat
but remain hungry, they cry, but no one wipes their tears. There is no water, no electricity,
no food, only fear, terror and blockade… Our children are living in a state of trauma
and fear. They are sick from it and for other reasons such as malnutrition, poverty
and the cold… The hospitals did not have basic first aid before the war and now thousands
of wounded and sick are pouring in and they are performing operations in the corridors.
The situation is frightening and sad." In exasperation he added: "May Christ's compassion
revive our love for God even though it is currently in 'intensive care'." Was anyone
listening? End Quote. I hear you my son and I tell my readers to please get informed
over the criminal and cruel conduct of Israel towards the original occupants of that
land for centuries. The expansionist Zionists have their Universal Mind stopped, hidden,
buried, out of order. What happens inside Israeli society is no pretty picture, most
citizens are poor and have no pleasure nor peace. Shame on the leaders who lack compassion
and are mentally and humanely incompetent to rule towards peace and pleasure for all,
not just for them. The not going away UFO religion preaches that we are the results
from human cloning by aliens who visited Earth planet long ago. We now do understand
cloning a few years, but most news is suppressed and very much is unreported. A seven
year old cloned girl named Eve is mentioned. There is a company called Clonaid, in
connection with the Raelian Movement. It can store DNA of me and clone me back with
healthy limbs. Michael Jackson is posthumous honorary member of Clonaid. Cloned in
the image of the alien visitors from the sky, above, heavens, and plural, Elohim,
not single Eloha, they are translated as the Gods in the Good Book. The Bible has
many reports of aliens but they call them angels, men from the sky, expressed by wings.
The latest message from the extra terrestrials that observe our clumsy destructive
ways is that we the people must make peace; all together as brothers. The Universal
Mind has to be brought forward, a teaching for all. Genius leaders must take over
from the present incompetent bunch that can not stop groping blindly, in reverse gear.
To wage peace is a new thinking that will be resisted strongly. Pleasure is the message,
pleasure for all. Not just the pursuit of pleasure, but the experience of pleasure
always, all the ways. No place in the world takes so often the front page as does
Israel, and because I have some bonds with it from my past, I dare say this: The day
Israel starts to share in stead of confiscate the whole of Jerusalem, then there may
be a new day dawning. But to get that into the Zionist heads, to share something,
is like blasphemy. Here come the Universal Mind teachings handy. If they built a house
for any Palestinian family for every house they build for them self, there could start
a whiff of peace. The solution is so easy: SHARE. The bullying that Israel does now
is because it can. Nobody can punish them, nobody can teach them morals, and no one
can threaten others like them. A nuke on Mecca is a simple no-thought. If I was a
Zionist I would threaten to drop one on the Vatican and London and Washington as well
while we are at it. They have the bomb, so then; all submit! The misery created by
world leaders today has to go. Imprisoned in their old way of thinking their egos
need to die before they can start anew. Be ready for a new way of thinking. A break
with the past. Total apostasy in Latin, resulting in ataraxy, complete contentedness,
relaxation, liberation. Here come the pleasure people, giving and receiving massage
and cooking and eating good, making the best sex in 7th heaven but make no babies,
they are truly blissful. The date is set, 21 December 2012. The end of the Mayan calendar
of 2600 years. Captain Zen <img width="0" height="0" src="http://blog.atlantisring.com/aggbug.ashx?id=11352c03-a8ed-4221-aaf2-562b40bae990" /><br /><hr />
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Dear Editor, title Troubled mind Dear readers, honorable leaders, ordinary citizens.
A person is born with the Universal Mind, the all knowing, empty Void, the Universal
Mind or Consciousness. The entity grows up and is easily impressed with all kind of
weird rituals and ceremonies that take place all around him. It is all show on the
outside. The Universal Mind is pushed aside, its place filled up with input from where
that individual happens to be. One becomes separate from the rest, or from that what
is unknown. The ego gets in the way of the Universal Mind. There begins a constant
denial of the Universal Mind and that leads to frustration, violence and misery. The
ego says that the suffering of the other must be ignored at all cost. A barrier between
them and I must be. The Universal Mind says the opposite, your pain is my pain. A
horrible situation that has no remedy other than that the individual commit complete
apostasy of his' or her's any sect, group, religion, club, organization that makes
him ignore the other. Only in Total Freedom can we help the brainwashed encapsulated
ones, to show them how stuck they are in their thinking. How hard is it to become
a free man with a Universal Mind? It starts by curiously asking and searching for
information. I will now tell you about the Gazans, whose suffering is so criminally
willfully ignored. A Universal Crime of enormous proportions. From Radio Palestine
I get the following, I quote: “ In 2008 Fr Manuel was with his Christian community
during their darkest hour when Israel, with a nod from America and the EU, unleashed
a deadly onslaught intended to finally crush the half-starved Gazans. At the height
of the killing spree, Fr Manuel sent this message from the smoking ruins to anyone
who would listen: "Our people in Gaza are treated like animals in a zoo. They eat
but remain hungry, they cry, but no one wipes their tears. There is no water, no electricity,
no food, only fear, terror and blockade… Our children are living in a state of trauma
and fear. They are sick from it and for other reasons such as malnutrition, poverty
and the cold… The hospitals did not have basic first aid before the war and now thousands
of wounded and sick are pouring in and they are performing operations in the corridors.
The situation is frightening and sad." In exasperation he added: "May Christ's compassion
revive our love for God even though it is currently in 'intensive care'." Was anyone
listening? End Quote. I hear you my son and I tell my readers to please get informed
over the criminal and cruel conduct of Israel towards the original occupants of that
land for centuries. The expansionist Zionists have their Universal Mind stopped, hidden,
buried, out of order. What happens inside Israeli society is no pretty picture, most
citizens are poor and have no pleasure nor peace. Shame on the leaders who lack compassion
and are mentally and humanely incompetent to rule towards peace and pleasure for all,
not just for them. The not going away UFO religion preaches that we are the results
from human cloning by aliens who visited Earth planet long ago. We now do understand
cloning a few years, but most news is suppressed and very much is unreported. A seven
year old cloned girl named Eve is mentioned. There is a company called Clonaid, in
connection with the Raelian Movement. It can store DNA of me and clone me back with
healthy limbs. Michael Jackson is posthumous honorary member of Clonaid. Cloned in
the image of the alien visitors from the sky, above, heavens, and plural, Elohim,
not single Eloha, they are translated as the Gods in the Good Book. The Bible has
many reports of aliens but they call them angels, men from the sky, expressed by wings.
The latest message from the extra terrestrials that observe our clumsy destructive
ways is that we the people must make peace; all together as brothers. The Universal
Mind has to be brought forward, a teaching for all. Genius leaders must take over
from the present incompetent bunch that can not stop groping blindly, in reverse gear.
To wage peace is a new thinking that will be resisted strongly. Pleasure is the message,
pleasure for all. Not just the pursuit of pleasure, but the experience of pleasure
always, all the ways. No place in the world takes so often the front page as does
Israel, and because I have some bonds with it from my past, I dare say this: The day
Israel starts to share in stead of confiscate the whole of Jerusalem, then there may
be a new day dawning. But to get that into the Zionist heads, to share something,
is like blasphemy. Here come the Universal Mind teachings handy. If they built a house
for any Palestinian family for every house they build for them self, there could start
a whiff of peace. The solution is so easy: SHARE. The bullying that Israel does now
is because it can. Nobody can punish them, nobody can teach them morals, and no one
can threaten others like them. A nuke on Mecca is a simple no-thought. If I was a
Zionist I would threaten to drop one on the Vatican and London and Washington as well
while we are at it. They have the bomb, so then; all submit! The misery created by
world leaders today has to go. Imprisoned in their old way of thinking their egos
need to die before they can start anew. Be ready for a new way of thinking. A break
with the past. Total apostasy in Latin, resulting in ataraxy, complete contentedness,
relaxation, liberation. Here come the pleasure people, giving and receiving massage
and cooking and eating good, making the best sex in 7th heaven but make no babies,
they are truly blissful. The date is set, 21 December 2012. The end of the Mayan calendar
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Bij het afscheid van Leny Hagendoorn (Rhynhof, Leiden 25-09-’10) ■ Ieder mens is bijzonder,
maar Leny was opvallender dan de gemiddelde. Ik ken niet velen die met zoveel vitaliteit,
zelfstandigheid, nuchterheid en humor door het leven gingen. Het laatste van haar
94 jaren was begrijpelijkerwijs minder bruisend en in de laatste weken sloegen ook
verwarring en onzekerheid toe. Maar uiteindelijk is het heengaan verlopen zoals ze
wel eens vertelde hoe zij het wilde: Overlijden in de slaap. En dan niet te hebben
moeten meemaken volledig van anderen afhankelijk te zijn geworden. En evenmin de vertrouwde
plek in Oegstgeest en “haar sociaal netwerkje aldaar”(zoals we dat tegenwoordig noemen)
te hebben moeten verlaten. Het was zo langzamerhand inderdaad verstandig geworden
een verhuizing voor te bereiden naar haar ‘Drentse’ dochters Els en Marianne. Ze legde
zich slechts half daarbij neer. Ze was bang om overlast te bezorgen en lastig te worden
gevonden. Zoals ze meermaals zei: “Els en Marianne zijn zulke goede vriendinnen van
me en daar wil ik, door ze alsmaar te zien, geen ruzie mee krijgen”. Leny verbaasde
zich er vaak over – en niet zonder enige trots – dat ze een hoge leeftijd had bereikt.
Tegelijkertijd vond ze die prestatie zeer betrekkelijk en eigenlijk niet nodig. De
veroudering bij haar was vooral lichamelijk en ze betaalde die leeftijd vaak met veel
pijn, ofschoon ze zich niet beklagenswaardig vond. Daarentegen bleef ze tot voor kort
in mentaliteit aanmerkelijk jong en geestelijk sterk. Vroeger trok ze er vaak op uit
en dat was een hoogtepunt in haar latere herinneringen: Ze ging dan al dan niet met
haar auto en al dan niet naar het buitenland. Haar brede belangstelling deed haar
veel en velen bezoeken. Daarom voelde zij zich de laatste jaren gekortwiekt, thuis.
Anderzijds werden toen eenvoudige uitjes binnen het dorp of naar Den Haag, en natuurlijk
vooral die naar Tynaarlo, extra gewaardeerd. Haar belangstelling voor de buitenwereld
bleef lang levendig. Vrij naar Boutens: “En alleen is leven leven als het tot de dood
ons boeit”. Uit de talloze gesprekken – er was een jarenlange traditie gegroeid om
eens per week of twee weken bij ons thuis thee te drinken – herinner ik me met welk
een nuchterheid zij over mensen kon spreken: enthousiast en betrokken, maar zeker
ook vaak kritisch èn relativerend. Zij was een goede waarneemster en met een positieve
instelling. Zij genoot van het leven en wist niet wat verveling was. Het was veel
quilten en lezen en onnoemelijk veel andere dingen. Wat wij tweeën ook gemeen hadden
was het genoegen aan taal, aan opvallende formuleringen en de komische kanten eraan.
Maandelijks gaf ik mijn exemplaar door van het blad Onze Taal. En dan moest de thee
wachten, om direct gniffelend de achterpagina te lezen vol met rare, goed bedoelde
nieuws- en advertentieteksten. Zo had ze ook de neiging om serieuze uitspraken van
anderen met veel nadruk zo te herhalen dat ze lachwekkend werden. We hebben veel samen
gelachen. ■ Ach, die Leny. Ik zal haar missen, maar ik houd mijn goede herinneringen
aan haar. Het is goed zoals het met haar is gegaan. Tranen mag, maar er is mijns inziens
ook plaats voor tevredenheid. Ik denk dat het volgens haar zienswijze is, om - met
een kleine naamswijziging – te eindigen met een paar regels uit een gedicht van Anton
Korteweg: “ De wereld blijft min één bestaan, volop bestaan Zo is het ook nog eens.
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Bij het afscheid van Leny Hagendoorn (Rhynhof, Leiden 25-09-’10) ■ Ieder mens is bijzonder,
maar Leny was opvallender dan de gemiddelde. Ik ken niet velen die met zoveel vitaliteit,
zelfstandigheid, nuchterheid en humor door het leven gingen. Het laatste van haar
94 jaren was begrijpelijkerwijs minder bruisend en in de laatste weken sloegen ook
verwarring en onzekerheid toe. Maar uiteindelijk is het heengaan verlopen zoals ze
wel eens vertelde hoe zij het wilde: Overlijden in de slaap. En dan niet te hebben
moeten meemaken volledig van anderen afhankelijk te zijn geworden. En evenmin de vertrouwde
plek in Oegstgeest en “haar sociaal netwerkje aldaar”(zoals we dat tegenwoordig noemen)
te hebben moeten verlaten. Het was zo langzamerhand inderdaad verstandig geworden
een verhuizing voor te bereiden naar haar ‘Drentse’ dochters Els en Marianne. Ze legde
zich slechts half daarbij neer. Ze was bang om overlast te bezorgen en lastig te worden
gevonden. Zoals ze meermaals zei: “Els en Marianne zijn zulke goede vriendinnen van
me en daar wil ik, door ze alsmaar te zien, geen ruzie mee krijgen”. Leny verbaasde
zich er vaak over – en niet zonder enige trots – dat ze een hoge leeftijd had bereikt.
Tegelijkertijd vond ze die prestatie zeer betrekkelijk en eigenlijk niet nodig. De
veroudering bij haar was vooral lichamelijk en ze betaalde die leeftijd vaak met veel
pijn, ofschoon ze zich niet beklagenswaardig vond. Daarentegen bleef ze tot voor kort
in mentaliteit aanmerkelijk jong en geestelijk sterk. Vroeger trok ze er vaak op uit
en dat was een hoogtepunt in haar latere herinneringen: Ze ging dan al dan niet met
haar auto en al dan niet naar het buitenland. Haar brede belangstelling deed haar
veel en velen bezoeken. Daarom voelde zij zich de laatste jaren gekortwiekt, thuis.
Anderzijds werden toen eenvoudige uitjes binnen het dorp of naar Den Haag, en natuurlijk
vooral die naar Tynaarlo, extra gewaardeerd. Haar belangstelling voor de buitenwereld
bleef lang levendig. Vrij naar Boutens: “En alleen is leven leven als het tot de dood
ons boeit”. Uit de talloze gesprekken – er was een jarenlange traditie gegroeid om
eens per week of twee weken bij ons thuis thee te drinken – herinner ik me met welk
een nuchterheid zij over mensen kon spreken: enthousiast en betrokken, maar zeker
ook vaak kritisch èn relativerend. Zij was een goede waarneemster en met een positieve
instelling. Zij genoot van het leven en wist niet wat verveling was. Het was veel
quilten en lezen en onnoemelijk veel andere dingen. Wat wij tweeën ook gemeen hadden
was het genoegen aan taal, aan opvallende formuleringen en de komische kanten eraan.
Maandelijks gaf ik mijn exemplaar door van het blad Onze Taal. En dan moest de thee
wachten, om direct gniffelend de achterpagina te lezen vol met rare, goed bedoelde
nieuws- en advertentieteksten. Zo had ze ook de neiging om serieuze uitspraken van
anderen met veel nadruk zo te herhalen dat ze lachwekkend werden. We hebben veel samen
gelachen. ■ Ach, die Leny. Ik zal haar missen, maar ik houd mijn goede herinneringen
aan haar. Het is goed zoals het met haar is gegaan. Tranen mag, maar er is mijns inziens
ook plaats voor tevredenheid. Ik denk dat het volgens haar zienswijze is, om - met
een kleine naamswijziging – te eindigen met een paar regels uit een gedicht van Anton
Korteweg: “ De wereld blijft min één bestaan, volop bestaan Zo is het ook nog eens.
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I was so poor and my car looked so old that many people on the road flagged me down
to ask a ride, for a donation. Gypsy taxi it is called and unstoppable by the law.
Why we are so together I know not, but my old dog now comes along and that keeps me
from picking up people, I thought! But then one day these three young girls came along,
and two shared the back seat with Mr. Dog-face happily and giggling a lot. Threee
young girls means party, fun, feast, good news, pleasanteries. We talked about the
dog. He has several names, Stitch, was given by his former owner, Sugar-snout, when
the girls entered the car and when he gets in the vicinity of American tourist dog
lovers because he is black except for his white snout. As if he put his snout in the
sugar pot. Or Toothless, when people ask if he bites, because he left all his front
teeth in the Doberman from next door. True to his name I stitched him up twice myself.
The first time the veterinary hospital Cay Hill presented a bill more expensive than
what Emergency would have charged me for stitching my belly up. That dog was a guard
dog of the highest class. Guarding me wasis his calling and that's what he does for
a living. We swim often from Pedro's parking to the first float at Orient nude Beach.
There I meet the water and the air from over the Atlantic. The cleanest air and sea
one can dream of. On the swim back I meet people, some with hat and shades, drink
in hand, up to their neck in the water. They came from far away to enjoy this. They
love the dog swimming around and bringing anything I pick up from the bottom to the
beach. He is a sea rescue dog I tell the people, a genuine coconut retriever. Talking
about clean air. The ash cloud has stopped the emission of tons of CO2 because the
airplane engines are not made to inhale volcanic dust. Is what they said, because
now they want to fly through it to see what damage that does. The money they lose
by not flying is maybe worse than scrapping an engine after a dozen or so times through
the cloud. Mother Earth is shaking and spitting fire. Quakes and flooding, forest
fires and oil burning, is it really so dumb to think we do the right thing? Is it
possible that Mother Earth is upset over mankind's behavior? Nature and all it has
to offer must be more respected by the American Government. What I find in my yard
is enough to wonder. All that I see be arranged into a harmonious concept. For this
I go Zen. We are so hooked on the cell phone that the danger of it is neglected. Only
a lady from Curacao I heard had a small metallic plastic shield attached between her
and her phone so the waves can not reach her. The public must be made aware that shields
for cell phones are now available at several internet stores. Ask the phone shops...
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I was so poor and my car looked so old that many people on the road flagged me down
to ask a ride, for a donation. Gypsy taxi it is called and unstoppable by the law.
Why we are so together I know not, but my old dog now comes along and that keeps me
from picking up people, I thought! But then one day these three young girls came along,
and two shared the back seat with Mr. Dog-face happily and giggling a lot. Threee
young girls means party, fun, feast, good news, pleasanteries. We talked about the
dog. He has several names, Stitch, was given by his former owner, Sugar-snout, when
the girls entered the car and when he gets in the vicinity of American tourist dog
lovers because he is black except for his white snout. As if he put his snout in the
sugar pot. Or Toothless, when people ask if he bites, because he left all his front
teeth in the Doberman from next door. True to his name I stitched him up twice myself.
The first time the veterinary hospital Cay Hill presented a bill more expensive than
what Emergency would have charged me for stitching my belly up. That dog was a guard
dog of the highest class. Guarding me wasis his calling and that's what he does for
a living. We swim often from Pedro's parking to the first float at Orient nude Beach.
There I meet the water and the air from over the Atlantic. The cleanest air and sea
one can dream of. On the swim back I meet people, some with hat and shades, drink
in hand, up to their neck in the water. They came from far away to enjoy this. They
love the dog swimming around and bringing anything I pick up from the bottom to the
beach. He is a sea rescue dog I tell the people, a genuine coconut retriever. Talking
about clean air. The ash cloud has stopped the emission of tons of CO2 because the
airplane engines are not made to inhale volcanic dust. Is what they said, because
now they want to fly through it to see what damage that does. The money they lose
by not flying is maybe worse than scrapping an engine after a dozen or so times through
the cloud. Mother Earth is shaking and spitting fire. Quakes and flooding, forest
fires and oil burning, is it really so dumb to think we do the right thing? Is it
possible that Mother Earth is upset over mankind's behavior? Nature and all it has
to offer must be more respected by the American Government. What I find in my yard
is enough to wonder. All that I see be arranged into a harmonious concept. For this
I go Zen. We are so hooked on the cell phone that the danger of it is neglected. Only
a lady from Curacao I heard had a small metallic plastic shield attached between her
and her phone so the waves can not reach her. The public must be made aware that shields
for cell phones are now available at several internet stores. Ask the phone shops...
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Please sir, editor, would you have space for my piece here? titled Of my own free
will. A proposal to make it legal for doctors to assist a patient to die. No doubt
that many elderly people would find a great quiet if they could have access to step
out of life in an acceptable way on the moment that, concerning what awaits them,
seems most right to them. Let us talk death. Consider once the duty for which the
body was needed is fullfilled. The body was needed but now it is separating, freeing
itself, the duty has been done. The purpose fullfilled. The freedom to die comes in
question when the material body lives too long. A famous cartoon creator said that.
"My life is fullended, full filled, ready". We talk here about the most selfish, proper,
tender, intimate decision a human being can take, over his blood own material life.
Freedom to live reaches right untill the dying. People should allow others the light
in their eyes, even those who want to close them for ever. Socrates was given the
beaker of poison to drink, which he willingly took, for he was too righteous to live
on under his government at the time. Nothing has changed my beloved ones. A 42 year
old man killed himself by hunger in Cuba last week, he alsoo could not live with his
current government. The leaders act without compassion in violation with the law of
the gods, Elohim. Man-made suffering must stop.Man was made to have pleasure. Family
planning, one child policy must come instead of these idiotic wars and destruction
and land grabbing, and more refugee creating. The people who profit from weapons are
the whores of war, hyanas, feeding on cadavers. How pretty it could be when all the
money went to sharing the lands, building together, creating friendship and material
luxury for all. As if there are not enough "natural" disasters, acts of "god". The
right to step out of life is because the love for life is gone, the individual wants
to dissolve into the Void. Elderly readers who have lived life to the fullest, who
have seen all there was to see, heard all that was audible, are now losing their clear
eyesight and becoming deaf. The material body lives too long. When the suffering equals
the joy, one is bipolar, but that is not enough. Pleasure should be more than pain,
much more.I am convinced that I have the right to die. However it would be so much
nicer with some support. In some beliefs the unborn entity roams in the void and has
to live over again. It brings then as much as it can people of different sexes together.
The unborn want the living to have sex. Only when an infant gets born can the unborn
manifest itself through entering with its first breath and becomes a new person. On
our ageless quest for who we are we can become Saints, monks and wizards even. Each
life gives us the choice to come closer to the ideal you want to be. Once the Light
is obtained, the cycle of rebirth is over and when dead you are not born anymore.
You have become a ray of light during the life time and once dead you shine away as
well towards the Clear Light is reached. Other belief systems offer a simple bad or
good past life situation, and a meeting with "god" or his representative to determine
which it will be. God is actually the self who suddenly has lost all the lessons and
learned experiences of the past life and has become one with Universal Wisdom. So
it can judge itself and decide if another lifetime shall be lived, and how. It is
said that soldiers and those who caused suffering to others return as sufferers next
life. Apart from that, the taking of life in matters of duty and honor and dignity
was by the Japanese made the art of Hara Kiri. These days a car is often used as a
way to leave this valley of tears, by inhaling the exhaust gasses. A decent way to
go would be by drinking a pleasant tasting drink that would relax the mind and body
so much so that the heart muscle would stop pumping. In relation with the general
practioner, the house doctor, one who has a close enough understanding of the case
and perhaps from the family a person should self have the right to take his own life
and finish it on the moment it seems best. Without a future, with a worn out body,
with no more wishes or desires, with being ready, complete, a person must have the
right to stop living. In case of medical interference one must have the right to say
stop, no transfusion, no anti biotics, nothing to prolong the suffering. Death comes
to us all, as did life. Out of the void came this life to you, into the void you can
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Please sir, editor, would you have space for my piece here? titled Of my own free
will. A proposal to make it legal for doctors to assist a patient to die. No doubt
that many elderly people would find a great quiet if they could have access to step
out of life in an acceptable way on the moment that, concerning what awaits them,
seems most right to them. Let us talk death. Consider once the duty for which the
body was needed is fullfilled. The body was needed but now it is separating, freeing
itself, the duty has been done. The purpose fullfilled. The freedom to die comes in
question when the material body lives too long. A famous cartoon creator said that.
"My life is fullended, full filled, ready". We talk here about the most selfish, proper,
tender, intimate decision a human being can take, over his blood own material life.
Freedom to live reaches right untill the dying. People should allow others the light
in their eyes, even those who want to close them for ever. Socrates was given the
beaker of poison to drink, which he willingly took, for he was too righteous to live
on under his government at the time. Nothing has changed my beloved ones. A 42 year
old man killed himself by hunger in Cuba last week, he alsoo could not live with his
current government. The leaders act without compassion in violation with the law of
the gods, Elohim. Man-made suffering must stop.Man was made to have pleasure. Family
planning, one child policy must come instead of these idiotic wars and destruction
and land grabbing, and more refugee creating. The people who profit from weapons are
the whores of war, hyanas, feeding on cadavers. How pretty it could be when all the
money went to sharing the lands, building together, creating friendship and material
luxury for all. As if there are not enough "natural" disasters, acts of "god". The
right to step out of life is because the love for life is gone, the individual wants
to dissolve into the Void. Elderly readers who have lived life to the fullest, who
have seen all there was to see, heard all that was audible, are now losing their clear
eyesight and becoming deaf. The material body lives too long. When the suffering equals
the joy, one is bipolar, but that is not enough. Pleasure should be more than pain,
much more.I am convinced that I have the right to die. However it would be so much
nicer with some support. In some beliefs the unborn entity roams in the void and has
to live over again. It brings then as much as it can people of different sexes together.
The unborn want the living to have sex. Only when an infant gets born can the unborn
manifest itself through entering with its first breath and becomes a new person. On
our ageless quest for who we are we can become Saints, monks and wizards even. Each
life gives us the choice to come closer to the ideal you want to be. Once the Light
is obtained, the cycle of rebirth is over and when dead you are not born anymore.
You have become a ray of light during the life time and once dead you shine away as
well towards the Clear Light is reached. Other belief systems offer a simple bad or
good past life situation, and a meeting with "god" or his representative to determine
which it will be. God is actually the self who suddenly has lost all the lessons and
learned experiences of the past life and has become one with Universal Wisdom. So
it can judge itself and decide if another lifetime shall be lived, and how. It is
said that soldiers and those who caused suffering to others return as sufferers next
life. Apart from that, the taking of life in matters of duty and honor and dignity
was by the Japanese made the art of Hara Kiri. These days a car is often used as a
way to leave this valley of tears, by inhaling the exhaust gasses. A decent way to
go would be by drinking a pleasant tasting drink that would relax the mind and body
so much so that the heart muscle would stop pumping. In relation with the general
practioner, the house doctor, one who has a close enough understanding of the case
and perhaps from the family a person should self have the right to take his own life
and finish it on the moment it seems best. Without a future, with a worn out body,
with no more wishes or desires, with being ready, complete, a person must have the
right to stop living. In case of medical interference one must have the right to say
stop, no transfusion, no anti biotics, nothing to prolong the suffering. Death comes
to us all, as did life. Out of the void came this life to you, into the void you can
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by Tania Friendship Friends are like your family with strong bonds, but stronger than
blood. Friends are like the family God has stored for us to have; In other words friends
are one of the most precious gift God has given us to conserve. Friends are like stars,
they shine and lighten your path along the journey. Friends are like the angels, carnal
angels, they watch over us and protect us from harm. Friends are like the net, they
catch us when we fall. Friends are like the elevator, they help us go up when we are
down. Friends are like a diary, nobody knows us more than them and our secrets are
safe. Friends are like the network, no matter distance, time, location, we can always
stay connected. Friends are like a cycle, it goes on and on without ending. Friends
are like the tidal waves, so strong that no one can cease it from forming. Friends
are like atoms with magnetic gravitational force which pulls us together. Friends
are like a map, when your lost, they direct and indicate you, when you feel trapped
in a desert. Friends are like a dance or song that fills our soul and heart with rhythm
and vibes that make us joyous. Friends are like sweets or seasonings that add flavour
and spice to our lives to make us feel complete. Friendship is bonded to love which
transmits hope and faith and walk along side by side. When friendship fuses with love,
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by Tania Friendship Friends are like your family with strong bonds, but stronger than
blood. Friends are like the family God has stored for us to have; In other words friends
are one of the most precious gift God has given us to conserve. Friends are like stars,
they shine and lighten your path along the journey. Friends are like the angels, carnal
angels, they watch over us and protect us from harm. Friends are like the net, they
catch us when we fall. Friends are like the elevator, they help us go up when we are
down. Friends are like a diary, nobody knows us more than them and our secrets are
safe. Friends are like the network, no matter distance, time, location, we can always
stay connected. Friends are like a cycle, it goes on and on without ending. Friends
are like the tidal waves, so strong that no one can cease it from forming. Friends
are like atoms with magnetic gravitational force which pulls us together. Friends
are like a map, when your lost, they direct and indicate you, when you feel trapped
in a desert. Friends are like a dance or song that fills our soul and heart with rhythm
and vibes that make us joyous. Friends are like sweets or seasonings that add flavour
and spice to our lives to make us feel complete. Friendship is bonded to love which
transmits hope and faith and walk along side by side. When friendship fuses with love,
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28 october 2010 Hi again to all of you from all of me. Titled The war on [mental]
terror. Dear readers, First I congratulate Government for its coming into existence.
It was a difficult birth and when we thought to know who was the winner, it later
changed when two second and third parties promised to go together. Now the winner
of most votes is put in second place, I wonder if this was planned long before the
elections took place. No matter what, I just wish our leaders wise and just governing
and some relief for the poorest on Sint Maarten. Right now I have a hopeless feeling
that makes me want to cry. It makes me angry, and hate is overtaking my great love
for my adopted country [laws]. Yes, love is stronger than death, but suicide is now
on my mind. Or at least a hunger strike until this is solved. I talk about young persons
( there are a few dozen with the same problem actually) who was born in the French
Hospital from foreign parents that live on the Dutch Side. They had no money to pay
the Dutch Side hospital, that was the reason for going French Side hospital because
it is free. These [illiterate] parents took the child home after it was born and this
child never lived one day on the French Side. It happened 20 years ago. The good parents
worked and got permanent residence papers, the child grew up and went to school. Papers
like residence permits came about via the school direction and the child went through
all the classes, year after year in good order. Until at 18 years of age this young
student studied and got the graduation diploma of the Sint Maarten Academy. The “temporary
permit” for the child in school, even of foreign parents who have permanent residence
permits, was renewed automatically. Until the study was over. Suddenly the child is
no student any more and must ask for renewal of the residence permit again, the parents
can not do it when the 18 years line is crossed. The renewal is refused on grounds
of an absurd law. Now it is no more a child but a young person that wants to work
and/or study and it is refused permission to do so. This is the result of some absurd
discriminating laws aimed at keeping as many foreigners out as possible. But this
young person is from here, it was never off island, the family is here, the school
and friends. This person is not a foreigner. How is it possible that this young person
must suffer anxiety for immigration officers who will attack her expired permit any
time of day or night, any where on the island? This young graduated person was never
off island! During the campaigning days I mentioned it to a few politicians, and got
the assurance that the problem should be looked into. Looking into it does not help
immediately, we must get the assurance of the political bosses that these persons
will be integrated in our country once and for all. If anybody knows how this person
can be assured that no deportation to the country of the parents will take place please
let me know. And as I mentioned, there are a few dozen of young persons who have the
same fear and anxiety. Something must be done immediately to take this fear away ,
All the time I did not mention it but the war on terror begins in your own back yard
I would say. Mental terror is as bad as physical terror. What is terror? It is fear
multiplied. That's all. If these people have to live in fear of refusal by their own
country, this fear has to be removed at once. As a post script: the Minister of Justice,
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28 october 2010 Hi again to all of you from all of me. Titled The war on [mental]
terror. Dear readers, First I congratulate Government for its coming into existence.
It was a difficult birth and when we thought to know who was the winner, it later
changed when two second and third parties promised to go together. Now the winner
of most votes is put in second place, I wonder if this was planned long before the
elections took place. No matter what, I just wish our leaders wise and just governing
and some relief for the poorest on Sint Maarten. Right now I have a hopeless feeling
that makes me want to cry. It makes me angry, and hate is overtaking my great love
for my adopted country [laws]. Yes, love is stronger than death, but suicide is now
on my mind. Or at least a hunger strike until this is solved. I talk about young persons
( there are a few dozen with the same problem actually) who was born in the French
Hospital from foreign parents that live on the Dutch Side. They had no money to pay
the Dutch Side hospital, that was the reason for going French Side hospital because
it is free. These [illiterate] parents took the child home after it was born and this
child never lived one day on the French Side. It happened 20 years ago. The good parents
worked and got permanent residence papers, the child grew up and went to school. Papers
like residence permits came about via the school direction and the child went through
all the classes, year after year in good order. Until at 18 years of age this young
student studied and got the graduation diploma of the Sint Maarten Academy. The “temporary
permit” for the child in school, even of foreign parents who have permanent residence
permits, was renewed automatically. Until the study was over. Suddenly the child is
no student any more and must ask for renewal of the residence permit again, the parents
can not do it when the 18 years line is crossed. The renewal is refused on grounds
of an absurd law. Now it is no more a child but a young person that wants to work
and/or study and it is refused permission to do so. This is the result of some absurd
discriminating laws aimed at keeping as many foreigners out as possible. But this
young person is from here, it was never off island, the family is here, the school
and friends. This person is not a foreigner. How is it possible that this young person
must suffer anxiety for immigration officers who will attack her expired permit any
time of day or night, any where on the island? This young graduated person was never
off island! During the campaigning days I mentioned it to a few politicians, and got
the assurance that the problem should be looked into. Looking into it does not help
immediately, we must get the assurance of the political bosses that these persons
will be integrated in our country once and for all. If anybody knows how this person
can be assured that no deportation to the country of the parents will take place please
let me know. And as I mentioned, there are a few dozen of young persons who have the
same fear and anxiety. Something must be done immediately to take this fear away ,
All the time I did not mention it but the war on terror begins in your own back yard
I would say. Mental terror is as bad as physical terror. What is terror? It is fear
multiplied. That's all. If these people have to live in fear of refusal by their own
country, this fear has to be removed at once. As a post script: the Minister of Justice,
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Sent to papers jord she came and I loved her like mad. And still I do. She played
with me, uly 23 2010 Title: Department of Happiness. Dear editor, I propose a new
Department for our soon to be “Country Sint Maarten. It will be called “The Department
of [National] Happiness”. It will report chagrin and sadness and help to alleviate
any discomfort. 'Life, liberty, and the pursuit …' The notion of politicians trying
to make private individuals happy is not new. It can not be argued that the aim of
government should be to bring as much happiness to as many people as possible. Even
if the US Declaration of Independence in 1776 points out the inalienable rights of
man including "life, liberty and the pursuit of happiness” there is a dirty trick
in these words. No commoner of ordinary wits sees through this, let me explain. You
have the right to pursue happiness, to pursue it, not to have it. You must stay a
disgruntled lot, always pursuing, that is your right. But getting it should make you
stop slaving away for the big corporations. You will never get happiness, the voyage
towards it is the goal not the arrival. You are programmed to want a bigger car, better
salary, a second house and what not. However, We are not the USA and we must always
remember that as our New Country Sint Maarten, in these changing times it finds immense
new challenges and opportunities. Whatever work we do, whatever goals we have – and
no matter how these may change in this changing world – ultimately without peace,
security and happiness we have nothing. That is the essence of the philosophy of Gross
National Happiness. My most important goal is the peace and happiness of our people
and the security and sovereignty of the nation. Henceforth, as even more dramatic
changes transform the world and our nation, as long as we continue to pursue the simple
and timeless goal of being good human beings, and as long as we strive to build a
nation that stands for everything that is good, we can ensure that our future generations
for hundreds of years will live in happiness and peace. As Zen Captain of this nation,
my duty is not only to ensure your happiness today but to create the fertile ground
from which you may gain the fruits of spiritual pursuit and attain good Karma. I end
with addressing our most important citizens - our youth. The future of our nation
depends on the worth, capabilities and motivation of today’s youth. Therefore, I will
not rest until I have given you the inspiration, knowledge and skills so that you
not only fulfill your own aspirations but be of immense worth to the nation. This
is my simple duty. A strong motivated young Sint Maarten guarantees a strong bright
future. Here is my prayer for Sint Maarten - that the sun of peace and happiness may
forever shine on our people. I also pray that while I am but Zen Captain of a small
Caribbean nation, I may in my time be able to write here to promote the greater well-being
and happiness of all people in this world – of all sentient beings. We can bring greater
peace, happiness and prosperity to our country. I am confident because I know the
worth and character of our people. You are the true jewel of this nation. As citizens
of a slowly emerging land you treasure the qualities of a good human being – honesty,
kindness, charity, integrity, unity, respect for our culture and traditions, love
for our country and for God. Throughout our history our parents have upheld these
values and placed the common good above the self. My deepest concern is that as the
world changes we may lose these fundamental values on which rest our character as
a nation and people. Be vigilant and stay focused on happiness, With warm regards,
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Sent to papers jord she came and I loved her like mad. And still I do. She played
with me, uly 23 2010 Title: Department of Happiness. Dear editor, I propose a new
Department for our soon to be “Country Sint Maarten. It will be called “The Department
of [National] Happiness”. It will report chagrin and sadness and help to alleviate
any discomfort. 'Life, liberty, and the pursuit …' The notion of politicians trying
to make private individuals happy is not new. It can not be argued that the aim of
government should be to bring as much happiness to as many people as possible. Even
if the US Declaration of Independence in 1776 points out the inalienable rights of
man including "life, liberty and the pursuit of happiness” there is a dirty trick
in these words. No commoner of ordinary wits sees through this, let me explain. You
have the right to pursue happiness, to pursue it, not to have it. You must stay a
disgruntled lot, always pursuing, that is your right. But getting it should make you
stop slaving away for the big corporations. You will never get happiness, the voyage
towards it is the goal not the arrival. You are programmed to want a bigger car, better
salary, a second house and what not. However, We are not the USA and we must always
remember that as our New Country Sint Maarten, in these changing times it finds immense
new challenges and opportunities. Whatever work we do, whatever goals we have – and
no matter how these may change in this changing world – ultimately without peace,
security and happiness we have nothing. That is the essence of the philosophy of Gross
National Happiness. My most important goal is the peace and happiness of our people
and the security and sovereignty of the nation. Henceforth, as even more dramatic
changes transform the world and our nation, as long as we continue to pursue the simple
and timeless goal of being good human beings, and as long as we strive to build a
nation that stands for everything that is good, we can ensure that our future generations
for hundreds of years will live in happiness and peace. As Zen Captain of this nation,
my duty is not only to ensure your happiness today but to create the fertile ground
from which you may gain the fruits of spiritual pursuit and attain good Karma. I end
with addressing our most important citizens - our youth. The future of our nation
depends on the worth, capabilities and motivation of today’s youth. Therefore, I will
not rest until I have given you the inspiration, knowledge and skills so that you
not only fulfill your own aspirations but be of immense worth to the nation. This
is my simple duty. A strong motivated young Sint Maarten guarantees a strong bright
future. Here is my prayer for Sint Maarten - that the sun of peace and happiness may
forever shine on our people. I also pray that while I am but Zen Captain of a small
Caribbean nation, I may in my time be able to write here to promote the greater well-being
and happiness of all people in this world – of all sentient beings. We can bring greater
peace, happiness and prosperity to our country. I am confident because I know the
worth and character of our people. You are the true jewel of this nation. As citizens
of a slowly emerging land you treasure the qualities of a good human being – honesty,
kindness, charity, integrity, unity, respect for our culture and traditions, love
for our country and for God. Throughout our history our parents have upheld these
values and placed the common good above the self. My deepest concern is that as the
world changes we may lose these fundamental values on which rest our character as
a nation and people. Be vigilant and stay focused on happiness, With warm regards,
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Dear editor, another writing for the opinion pages. title: Antillean guilders can
bring a boat off course! Praise Mammon. In the Name of the Father, the Mother, the
Son, the Daughter, the Holy and unholy Ghosts. Money is something I do not understand.
I doubt that you will. However, I read a little on money and remember some things,
some little known facts. It is [for some] a religion, its god is called Mammon. The
financial "crisis" is engineered by its high Priests, the banks are its temples. The
crisis, a sure result of its mad schemes, a returning phenomena. The bank that print
dollars and doles them out has always known that the system must crash sometime. It
happened before. They make the dollar so worthless that trillions of debts become
a lot smaller. They are cheating all the whole wide world. Hail Mary. Next thing is
the silent whisper of the AMERO, a new money that will be the financial brotherhood
of Canada, the US and Mexico, based on the same principle as the European Euro. It
may happen sooner than we think that the dollar will be replaced because there are
far too many in circulation. Then, the Federal Reserve Bank of the USA is not Federal
at all and has no Reserves, it is just a privately owned print shop. It prints dollars
that it loans to the USA government and its banks and then charges interest over it.
That is how the Jews made their empire. Oh Jesus whip no more. When the accumulated
interests becomes more than the loaned money you get a "crisis" and many go bankrupt,
lose their house, or whatever else that has value. There are hundreds of thousands
of Americans right now sleeping in tents, in shelters, in schools, on cardboard in
the very street, as in Haiti as well as in Bombay, but that is from the horrible cruel
"caste" system/religion. Hari Krishna! in the USA it is the banks who didit Geo-seismic
waves can be produced by a simple device and is known can trigger seismic disturbances.
"So it is possible", said Tesla, "to trigger an event [that was likely to happen any
unpredictable time anyway]". The otherwise un-detectable way of triggering a[n earthquake]
disaster is only to deduct from the political force to make it greater than the home
disaster. Do not forget that through bank scams, newly created (in the tens of thousands)
homeless people in the USA are dying of frost and neglect. This greater disaster takes
away the attention on/off the home problem (the victims of the financial disaster).
Haiti is now a defacto US occupied territory. Curacao is almost in the same pocket,
because as soon as Venezuela gets completely financially squeezed out, war is inevitable.
The same scenario happened to Iraq. First bleed it, then kill it. Yin Yang. Geographical
financial blocks are the idea for the future, one sort of money for the whole of South
America, already the existing Euro for Europe, the soon to come Amero for North America,
another for Asia and then Russia and eventually the future One World Money for all.
Aum. Om Mani Padme Hum. When I come home I always put all coins I find in my pockets
in a nice white old porcelain teapot. That money is for the youngsters of the hood
who come sometimes asking a pittance. Last week I was myself looking for just that
and found enough. Coins from several countries, the USA, Europe, and the Antilles
most. I found a one dollar coin that I never knew existed. It has the statue of liberty
and the $1 sign on one side, on the other side the head of a former US president and
on the rim E Pluribus Unum, 2007, and In God We Trust. There you have it, one dollar
coins, made of copper clad in brass of a golden color, to make it look like it is
worth something. That is a real tricksters magic illusion. As a reward for work done,
as barter in business and industry, but in itself a dollar bill costs only 3 cents
to make, a coin just a little more. Amen. When in my hobby I needed pure copper I
found that the US cent, up to some years ago, was made of it. Since the copper price
went up they are now made of some cheaper metal, but only coated with copper. The
same is true for the traditional nickel 5 cent coins. They are not of dear nickel
any more. If you as politician or would be politician claim that our Antillean money,
coins that is, is as strong as iron, you have a point. In fact all Antillean one guilder
and 5 guilder coins are made of iron, cheapest and friendliest of all metals. When
you are a money magnet Antillean guilders will cling to you. Standing with Antillean
pocket change near a compass on a boat will bring it off course! Unfortunately the
Netherlands Antilles politicians decided decades ago to have the Antillean money coupled
to the US dollar and now we get the Amero. Soon all secret unregistered stashed dollars
become worthless, only a limited time will be given for the transfer of legal assets
into the new Amero. Had it been coupled to the motherland Netherlands Guilder in the
past, we would have the Euro now and be financially good off at present. Do any politicians
explain what will happen when the US dollar sinks so low that Europe becomes too expensive
for visits or studies? He who explains me that and tells me who exactly his top banker
is may get my vote. Shalom YHW. I suggest the New Country Sint Maarten Ducat. It should
have heads of old pirates like Stuyvesant, Piet Heyn and Maarten H. Tromp on the face
and old corsair pirate ships on the reverse. That would be the most sought after money
the world over. Real Pirate money. Allah oh Akbar. Rothschild once said: "I don't
care who rules the government, as long as I control the banks." To finish an agnostic
statement: That one or some of the clowns in our political circus now can please wriggle
some money out of the bankers for a little piece of road here and there please, if
you want to be so good. The Arch Road, around the corners of the Aflsuit Dijk, and
the Piece Between the Waste Management Dump entrance and the Little League Stadium.
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Dear editor, another writing for the opinion pages. title: Antillean guilders can
bring a boat off course! Praise Mammon. In the Name of the Father, the Mother, the
Son, the Daughter, the Holy and unholy Ghosts. Money is something I do not understand.
I doubt that you will. However, I read a little on money and remember some things,
some little known facts. It is [for some] a religion, its god is called Mammon. The
financial "crisis" is engineered by its high Priests, the banks are its temples. The
crisis, a sure result of its mad schemes, a returning phenomena. The bank that print
dollars and doles them out has always known that the system must crash sometime. It
happened before. They make the dollar so worthless that trillions of debts become
a lot smaller. They are cheating all the whole wide world. Hail Mary. Next thing is
the silent whisper of the AMERO, a new money that will be the financial brotherhood
of Canada, the US and Mexico, based on the same principle as the European Euro. It
may happen sooner than we think that the dollar will be replaced because there are
far too many in circulation. Then, the Federal Reserve Bank of the USA is not Federal
at all and has no Reserves, it is just a privately owned print shop. It prints dollars
that it loans to the USA government and its banks and then charges interest over it.
That is how the Jews made their empire. Oh Jesus whip no more. When the accumulated
interests becomes more than the loaned money you get a "crisis" and many go bankrupt,
lose their house, or whatever else that has value. There are hundreds of thousands
of Americans right now sleeping in tents, in shelters, in schools, on cardboard in
the very street, as in Haiti as well as in Bombay, but that is from the horrible cruel
"caste" system/religion. Hari Krishna! in the USA it is the banks who didit Geo-seismic
waves can be produced by a simple device and is known can trigger seismic disturbances.
"So it is possible", said Tesla, "to trigger an event [that was likely to happen any
unpredictable time anyway]". The otherwise un-detectable way of triggering a[n earthquake]
disaster is only to deduct from the political force to make it greater than the home
disaster. Do not forget that through bank scams, newly created (in the tens of thousands)
homeless people in the USA are dying of frost and neglect. This greater disaster takes
away the attention on/off the home problem (the victims of the financial disaster).
Haiti is now a defacto US occupied territory. Curacao is almost in the same pocket,
because as soon as Venezuela gets completely financially squeezed out, war is inevitable.
The same scenario happened to Iraq. First bleed it, then kill it. Yin Yang. Geographical
financial blocks are the idea for the future, one sort of money for the whole of South
America, already the existing Euro for Europe, the soon to come Amero for North America,
another for Asia and then Russia and eventually the future One World Money for all.
Aum. Om Mani Padme Hum. When I come home I always put all coins I find in my pockets
in a nice white old porcelain teapot. That money is for the youngsters of the hood
who come sometimes asking a pittance. Last week I was myself looking for just that
and found enough. Coins from several countries, the USA, Europe, and the Antilles
most. I found a one dollar coin that I never knew existed. It has the statue of liberty
and the $1 sign on one side, on the other side the head of a former US president and
on the rim E Pluribus Unum, 2007, and In God We Trust. There you have it, one dollar
coins, made of copper clad in brass of a golden color, to make it look like it is
worth something. That is a real tricksters magic illusion. As a reward for work done,
as barter in business and industry, but in itself a dollar bill costs only 3 cents
to make, a coin just a little more. Amen. When in my hobby I needed pure copper I
found that the US cent, up to some years ago, was made of it. Since the copper price
went up they are now made of some cheaper metal, but only coated with copper. The
same is true for the traditional nickel 5 cent coins. They are not of dear nickel
any more. If you as politician or would be politician claim that our Antillean money,
coins that is, is as strong as iron, you have a point. In fact all Antillean one guilder
and 5 guilder coins are made of iron, cheapest and friendliest of all metals. When
you are a money magnet Antillean guilders will cling to you. Standing with Antillean
pocket change near a compass on a boat will bring it off course! Unfortunately the
Netherlands Antilles politicians decided decades ago to have the Antillean money coupled
to the US dollar and now we get the Amero. Soon all secret unregistered stashed dollars
become worthless, only a limited time will be given for the transfer of legal assets
into the new Amero. Had it been coupled to the motherland Netherlands Guilder in the
past, we would have the Euro now and be financially good off at present. Do any politicians
explain what will happen when the US dollar sinks so low that Europe becomes too expensive
for visits or studies? He who explains me that and tells me who exactly his top banker
is may get my vote. Shalom YHW. I suggest the New Country Sint Maarten Ducat. It should
have heads of old pirates like Stuyvesant, Piet Heyn and Maarten H. Tromp on the face
and old corsair pirate ships on the reverse. That would be the most sought after money
the world over. Real Pirate money. Allah oh Akbar. Rothschild once said: "I don't
care who rules the government, as long as I control the banks." To finish an agnostic
statement: That one or some of the clowns in our political circus now can please wriggle
some money out of the bankers for a little piece of road here and there please, if
you want to be so good. The Arch Road, around the corners of the Aflsuit Dijk, and
the Piece Between the Waste Management Dump entrance and the Little League Stadium.
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          <font style="font-size: 16pt;" size="3"> I am in the garden to rake. Raking is
Zen, I love it. I am philosophizing over my longtime cohort in Tantra. She is technically
bad in bed but I love her trying to reach the climax and she is so very good in her
heart, she is so pure. Born under the sign of Virgo, she has a virgin like conduct
although she flaunts her long legs and make all the men look at her. She radiates
sexual power and very few men do not feel young when they observe her legs. On her
right calf and upper thigh she has some unclear tattoos, it makes one want to see
it closer. Part of her purity is now under attack. She has no nationality and no identification
papers at all. The authorities that must give her rights (and duties) are getting
to her head. She is not registered anywhere but in the French system from the hospital
where she was born, from where the French census gets the information and register
her as being born, nothing else. It does not give her automatically the French nationality.
It depends on her parents what nationality they have. Her parents however have never
done the needed registering. Her son, who also was born in the same hospital 20 years
after her was also never registered anywhere unless by the medical facility, automatically.
This pure young mother has hardly learned to write but never ever set a pen to paper
or it was to doodle. Her son of four is a very quiet boy who hardly reacts when addressed.
He is a little sweet boy without kindergarten knowledge, he grows up with the kids
in the hood. 
<br /></font>
        </p>
        <p style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
          <font style="font-size: 16pt;" size="3">She needs help, money, education, work, a
social worker. She has never seen the need for any papers. I respect that belief with
all my soul. My integration into the paper mill, the paper tiger I call it, went smooth
and easily in the Netherlands, a country of high education and control. Automatically
the authorities had my name when they gave me travel papers and driving license when
I needed them. Innumerable times I lost, renewed and showed my passport to border
guards and consulates and embassies, policemen inside countries and on many borders
on this planet. It is a man-made pain in the neck. I even had to renew a passport
one day myself in the Red Sea when an outstanding debt prevented me getting it renewed
at an embassy. After traveling through Egypt, Cyprus, Turkey and Greece I finally
had paid off my debt and I got an official "laissez-passer" from the embassy in Rome
so I could get back to Holland where i got a new passport. I will take financial help
from my government if I need it, after all, they made me take their passport and nationality,
let them care for their subject, me, if needed. I am also in the pure mind and realize
that we are all slaves of the authorities, the system, the matrix. My impossible dream
is a planet without borders where war is a crime. In my quest to find a pure friend,
I went around the world and found this young princess of Sint Maarten/Saint Martin.
Because I follow the rules and have my papers, I am. This lady is without any papers
so she is not. She gets no voting card, no tax forms nor any government related anything. </font>
          <font style="font-size: 16pt;" size="3">I
am surprised</font>
          <font style="font-size: 16pt;" size="3"> that such miraculous unregistered
pure person could be found on this tropical paradise island. I met this pretty woman
when she was 17 or 18. She came with a group of girls to welcome me, to check me out,
in Suckergarden, in 2003. When I found that she has no papers I wanted to help her. <font size="5">I
went and</font></font>
          <font style="font-size: 16pt;" size="5"> I got her a </font>
          <font style="font-size: 16pt;" size="5">extrait
d'acte de naissance, a </font>
          <font size="5">paper from Marigot Hotel de Ville saying  
dated 1re octobre 2001. I am sure it was dated wrong. I think 2005 was the year that
I got it. The clerk in the office may have had a reason to misdate the paper, some
immigration laws changed lately. 
<br /></font>
        </p>
        <p style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
          <font size="5">She does not go out in the day much, danger of controls are real, and
what will police do with one who has no identification at all? 
<br /></font>
        </p>
        <p style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
          <font style="font-size: 16pt;" size="3">She moves at night and walks with only the
simple birth certificate in her pocket, that should be enough we hope. Anyway, this
lovely cohort in the Tantra experience never enjoyed intimacy much, but she enjoyed
my respect because of her pureness. 
<br /></font>
        </p>
        <p style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
          <font style="font-size: 16pt;" size="3">We developed a deep trust and I heard many
eery things she witnessed in the night. She works not, and asked why, she replies
“My time has not yet come“. She lived a little both sides of the line that authorities
made on Soualiga long ago to each claim a part and she grew up innocent of authorities,
government laws and politics. She is the opposite from many many other girls. She
does not sex for money, she does nothing at all for money. When you observe neutrally,
she actually is a bit like a Buddhist monk. Not so surprising, she shuns the daylight,
when all the people are working in offices to pay loans for their SUVs and homes,
and she sleeps during that time, she lives at night when the money makers are not
sending disturbing vibes. She roams the island bars until early in the morning or
late at night, many times the rising sun puts her to bed. She goes to parties, celebrations,
BBQs, dancings, and even to whore house bars to pass the time. But never alone, she
is pure and she always wants a lady friend, or several, at her side. She tells me
laughingly that a nice girl wants to make love to her. Some girl may like that, but
definitely not not she. Why she always lives so, in the night life, with friends and
strange people who also like dancing, she replies:”That is to forget the misery that
goes on everywhere”. At the rare police controls she talks her way through. At shootings
in parkings and bars she is always far out of the line of fire, but her witness reports
are clear. She gets pocket change from people who have. But sometimes she is sick
of begging and comes to me for petty cash. In her world she always has to lie, make
promises that are never kept, she often has to offer something in the future, when
she gets some cash. She is just like a begging monk or priest or politician. She promises
you what you want. She has no money and no paper to prove who she is, no registered
address, and no national identity card. I think she may give up some little pureness
if she gets money from the authorities. She knows that French young single mothers
like she get money from the welfare office. Now she is a gypsy. I hope that the promise
of money may make this pure lady come to the registry office. She may be illiterate
but she is highly sensitive to the vibes and very assertive, she senses the bad vibes
coming from the census office, the door to a lifelong keeping up with the paper tiger,
the renewals, the voting, the passport. What those paper pushers are doing she does
not understand, it is not thought of in her pure world at all. And if you ever make
something and get it sold, you will get taxed. She is an undocumented original islander.
Kalinago are the original people of the Caribbean and in Soualiga she has no problem.
But in the Republic of France, or in the Kingdom of the Netherlands, with the two
lions of Zion holding the coat of arms with the crown on top. Kings and Queens are
fairy tale things, an invention of the high priests of old. Now the King or Queen
wants to know his or her subjects. Anyone within the Republic of France or the Kingdom
of the Netherlands must be known. But what if you have higher guidance and stay pure,
without a bond with any rulers. This is a wonderful island world for her. There was
a chance to convince her for the need of a passport to travel when she wanted to go
to Statia, to see a friend. Then she had heard from others that an identity card is
good to have. Otherwise it is impossible to leave the island. She knows now that she
needs a passport, or ID card but she will not understand why. I respect that, I see
her pureness. Her gypsy free soul. But to go to the registry office, she will still
not do. I should drop the case where it not that I heard her say that her sister is
doing paper work for her and if I could get her an updated birth certificate again.
I once got a copy of a birth certificate for her from the Hotel de Ville in Marigot.
A simple paper for anybody who wants to know if a person is born there.  I was
refused at first. In the internet, the cyber cloud, I looked the “Service de Public
Francais” </font>
          <font style="font-size: 16pt;" size="3">up again </font>
          <font style="font-size: 16pt;" size="3"> and
found that it was a service and duty of the Hotel de Ville to give out birth certificates.
I had to show it to the leader of the pack, a lady in an separate office who was in
command. After she verified that one of the two sorts of birth certificates could
be given, I got it. 
<br /></font>
        </p>
        <p style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
          <font style="font-size: 16pt;" size="3">Will be continued.  I thought for a title
“To the Burger Master,  Le Maire, the Mayor. But I called it Undocumented island
people. Who will care? The hotel the ville, the aide social, the news papers?</font>
        </p>
        <p style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
          <font style="font-size: 16pt;" size="3">Captain Zen</font>
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          <font size="3">
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&lt;font style="font-size: 16pt;" size="3"&gt;Undocumented island woman.&lt;br&gt;
&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p style="margin-bottom: 0in;"&gt;
&lt;font style="font-size: 16pt;" size="3"&gt;Dear you, read, if you have nothing else to
do.&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p style="margin-bottom: 0in;"&gt;
&lt;font style="font-size: 16pt;" size="3"&gt;&amp;nbsp;I am in the garden to rake. Raking is
Zen, I love it. I am philosophizing over my longtime cohort in Tantra. She is technically
bad in bed but I love her trying to reach the climax and she is so very good in her
heart, she is so pure. Born under the sign of Virgo, she has a virgin like conduct
although she flaunts her long legs and make all the men look at her. She radiates
sexual power and very few men do not feel young when they observe her legs. On her
right calf and upper thigh she has some unclear tattoos, it makes one want to see
it closer. Part of her purity is now under attack. She has no nationality and no identification
papers at all. The authorities that must give her rights (and duties) are getting
to her head. She is not registered anywhere but in the French system from the hospital
where she was born, from where the French census gets the information and register
her as being born, nothing else. It does not give her automatically the French nationality.
It depends on her parents what nationality they have. Her parents however have never
done the needed registering. Her son, who also was born in the same hospital 20 years
after her was also never registered anywhere unless by the medical facility, automatically.
This pure young mother has hardly learned to write but never ever set a pen to paper
or it was to doodle. Her son of four is a very quiet boy who hardly reacts when addressed.
He is a little sweet boy without kindergarten knowledge, he grows up with the kids
in the hood. 
&lt;br&gt;
&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p style="margin-bottom: 0in;"&gt;
&lt;font style="font-size: 16pt;" size="3"&gt;She needs help, money, education, work, a
social worker. She has never seen the need for any papers. I respect that belief with
all my soul. My integration into the paper mill, the paper tiger I call it, went smooth
and easily in the Netherlands, a country of high education and control. Automatically
the authorities had my name when they gave me travel papers and driving license when
I needed them. Innumerable times I lost, renewed and showed my passport to border
guards and consulates and embassies, policemen inside countries and on many borders
on this planet. It is a man-made pain in the neck. I even had to renew a passport
one day myself in the Red Sea when an outstanding debt prevented me getting it renewed
at an embassy. After traveling through Egypt, Cyprus, Turkey and Greece I finally
had paid off my debt and I got an official "laissez-passer" from the embassy in Rome
so I could get back to Holland where i got a new passport. I will take financial help
from my government if I need it, after all, they made me take their passport and nationality,
let them care for their subject, me, if needed. I am also in the pure mind and realize
that we are all slaves of the authorities, the system, the matrix. My impossible dream
is a planet without borders where war is a crime. In my quest to find a pure friend,
I went around the world and found this young princess of Sint Maarten/Saint Martin.
Because I follow the rules and have my papers, I am. This lady is without any papers
so she is not. She gets no voting card, no tax forms nor any government related anything. &lt;/font&gt;&lt;font style="font-size: 16pt;" size="3"&gt;I
am surprised&lt;/font&gt;&lt;font style="font-size: 16pt;" size="3"&gt; that such miraculous unregistered
pure person could be found on this tropical paradise island. I met this pretty woman
when she was 17 or 18. She came with a group of girls to welcome me, to check me out,
in Suckergarden, in 2003. When I found that she has no papers I wanted to help her. &lt;font size="5"&gt;I
went and&lt;/font&gt;&lt;/font&gt;&lt;font style="font-size: 16pt;" size="5"&gt; I got her a &lt;/font&gt;&lt;font style="font-size: 16pt;" size="5"&gt;extrait
d'acte de naissance, a &lt;/font&gt;&lt;font size="5"&gt;paper from Marigot Hotel de Ville saying&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;
dated 1re octobre 2001. I am sure it was dated wrong. I think 2005 was the year that
I got it. The clerk in the office may have had a reason to misdate the paper, some
immigration laws changed lately. 
&lt;br&gt;
&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p style="margin-bottom: 0in;"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;She does not go out in the day much, danger of controls are real, and
what will police do with one who has no identification at all? 
&lt;br&gt;
&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p style="margin-bottom: 0in;"&gt;
&lt;font style="font-size: 16pt;" size="3"&gt;She moves at night and walks with only the
simple birth certificate in her pocket, that should be enough we hope. Anyway, this
lovely cohort in the Tantra experience never enjoyed intimacy much, but she enjoyed
my respect because of her pureness. 
&lt;br&gt;
&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p style="margin-bottom: 0in;"&gt;
&lt;font style="font-size: 16pt;" size="3"&gt;We developed a deep trust and I heard many
eery things she witnessed in the night. She works not, and asked why, she replies
“My time has not yet come“. She lived a little both sides of the line that authorities
made on Soualiga long ago to each claim a part and she grew up innocent of authorities,
government laws and politics. She is the opposite from many many other girls. She
does not sex for money, she does nothing at all for money. When you observe neutrally,
she actually is a bit like a Buddhist monk. Not so surprising, she shuns the daylight,
when all the people are working in offices to pay loans for their SUVs and homes,
and she sleeps during that time, she lives at night when the money makers are not
sending disturbing vibes. She roams the island bars until early in the morning or
late at night, many times the rising sun puts her to bed. She goes to parties, celebrations,
BBQs, dancings, and even to whore house bars to pass the time. But never alone, she
is pure and she always wants a lady friend, or several, at her side. She tells me
laughingly that a nice girl wants to make love to her. Some girl may like that, but
definitely not not she. Why she always lives so, in the night life, with friends and
strange people who also like dancing, she replies:”That is to forget the misery that
goes on everywhere”. At the rare police controls she talks her way through. At shootings
in parkings and bars she is always far out of the line of fire, but her witness reports
are clear. She gets pocket change from people who have. But sometimes she is sick
of begging and comes to me for petty cash. In her world she always has to lie, make
promises that are never kept, she often has to offer something in the future, when
she gets some cash. She is just like a begging monk or priest or politician. She promises
you what you want. She has no money and no paper to prove who she is, no registered
address, and no national identity card. I think she may give up some little pureness
if she gets money from the authorities. She knows that French young single mothers
like she get money from the welfare office. Now she is a gypsy. I hope that the promise
of money may make this pure lady come to the registry office. She may be illiterate
but she is highly sensitive to the vibes and very assertive, she senses the bad vibes
coming from the census office, the door to a lifelong keeping up with the paper tiger,
the renewals, the voting, the passport. What those paper pushers are doing she does
not understand, it is not thought of in her pure world at all. And if you ever make
something and get it sold, you will get taxed. She is an undocumented original islander.
Kalinago are the original people of the Caribbean and in Soualiga she has no problem.
But in the Republic of France, or in the Kingdom of the Netherlands, with the two
lions of Zion holding the coat of arms with the crown on top. Kings and Queens are
fairy tale things, an invention of the high priests of old. Now the King or Queen
wants to know his or her subjects. Anyone within the Republic of France or the Kingdom
of the Netherlands must be known. But what if you have higher guidance and stay pure,
without a bond with any rulers. This is a wonderful island world for her. There was
a chance to convince her for the need of a passport to travel when she wanted to go
to Statia, to see a friend. Then she had heard from others that an identity card is
good to have. Otherwise it is impossible to leave the island. She knows now that she
needs a passport, or ID card but she will not understand why. I respect that, I see
her pureness. Her gypsy free soul. But to go to the registry office, she will still
not do. I should drop the case where it not that I heard her say that her sister is
doing paper work for her and if I could get her an updated birth certificate again.
I once got a copy of a birth certificate for her from the Hotel de Ville in Marigot.
A simple paper for anybody who wants to know if a person is born there.&amp;nbsp; I was
refused at first. In the internet, the cyber cloud, I looked the “Service de Public
Francais” &lt;/font&gt;&lt;font style="font-size: 16pt;" size="3"&gt;up again &lt;/font&gt;&lt;font style="font-size: 16pt;" size="3"&gt; and
found that it was a service and duty of the Hotel de Ville to give out birth certificates.
I had to show it to the leader of the pack, a lady in an separate office who was in
command. After she verified that one of the two sorts of birth certificates could
be given, I got it. 
&lt;br&gt;
&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p style="margin-bottom: 0in;"&gt;
&lt;font style="font-size: 16pt;" size="3"&gt;Will be continued.&amp;nbsp; I thought for a title
“To the Burger Master,&amp;nbsp; Le Maire, the Mayor. But I called it Undocumented island
people. Who will care? The hotel the ville, the aide social, the news papers?&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
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&lt;font style="font-size: 16pt;" size="3"&gt;Captain Zen&lt;/font&gt;
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        <font size="5"> On Dec 24, 2009 1:28pm, abaldal@gmail.com wrote: &gt; 
<br />
How sorry is this world with its endless sufferings.How can one celebrate the birth
of Jesus when you know the atrocities done by man against men. With the most sophisticated
murder machines and total lack of compassion or respect for life one one side and
the life saving hospitals and healing institutions and medical organizations on the
other side. There are two forces, one is killing and sickening, the other to life
and health, and they are in perpetual conflict. Enemies are invented or made by stealing
from them. No matter what goes on in the minds of the leaders of the atrocity scenarios,
I question: Have they been born with the lust for murder?" Answer: "no sir, it is
a learned behavior". The Yale University in the USA delivers these monsters. There
is a cabal of so called human leaders who are proud of the number of people they kill
and have killed. They are cultivated minds, at birth there is none of that inherent.
I don't think they traveled around the world in the flesh and with other people for
months at the time. Just my point of view because I found that people all around the
planet are ONE LOVE, discovered by traveling. There is another group of people who
like to save lives. They have no particular place of education, they are planet wide.
It is a normal thing to do to help and heal a wounded victim. Switzerland is holding
the loot and spoils of war of many countries, and got its flag's colors inversed as
the Red Cross symbol, an UN organization created to clean up after wars. So these
forces, of making babies unlimited and more people who will join armies on one side,
and the others who try to balance or diminish the world population with sickness,
war and catastrophies on the other side. If people do not voluntarily make less babies,
the government should set rules and regulations to manipulate population growth and
wars. China did it. We here on SXM are on the side of the life savers, a rule or law
to curb population growth is impossible. A birth right is the claim to a certain national
property, where the birth took place. Therefore, there will always be soldiers in
the years to come. As long as we make babies there will be soldiers. Women, to stop
getting pregnant wash with lemon juice right after unprotected sex. The use of condoms
can not be stressed enough, however, after a bursting condom, and a serious lemon
wash, women, use eggwite to restore inside condition like before lemon wash. This
a way to deny the next generation of controlling leaders their prey and victims. Men
do your vasectomy. That way you never again let a soul suffer the flesh on the planet.
Prevention before culling, eat the egg before it hatch. It is hedonistic also much
better. Have sex and rock 'n roll, take only prescription drugs. When you see a kid
getting sick and you can not help you suffer too. To prevent that suffering, make
no more kid, or baby. I say, let them unborn souls stay where they are now. Men, do
not enter the birth canal from the wrong side. For women I recommend the same as for
the men vasectomy, irrevocable closing of the pipes after the first child or the second,
one child for her and one for the child father is enough. Only by this method can
the planet get out of the vicious circle of bringing more suffering into the world.
Tantra sex and dancing and partying is the best way to free up out of present misery
. But close your doors to the unborn who seek entry into the flesh. The yet unborn
may become a killer or a healer or a homo, and suffer he will. No matter what race
you was born from, first stop making more men. If all women decide to make more daughters
than sons, wars world wide would stop for lack of soldiers. The few men allowed would
have enough seed to impregnate all the women and get a lot more loving than they get
now. That's my Christmas story, be good Captain Zen With the voluntarily family, the
global family planning, we can save the planet. There can be a good life for all sentient
beings when we do not greed and just make fewer of us. We, the living, wish for the
dead and the unborn to stay well where they are now for the New Year 2010 </font>
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&lt;font size="5"&gt; On Dec 24, 2009 1:28pm, abaldal@gmail.com wrote: &amp;gt; 
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How sorry is this world with its endless sufferings.How can one celebrate the birth
of Jesus when you know the atrocities done by man against men. With the most sophisticated
murder machines and total lack of compassion or respect for life one one side and
the life saving hospitals and healing institutions and medical organizations on the
other side. There are two forces, one is killing and sickening, the other to life
and health, and they are in perpetual conflict. Enemies are invented or made by stealing
from them. No matter what goes on in the minds of the leaders of the atrocity scenarios,
I question: Have they been born with the lust for murder?" Answer: "no sir, it is
a learned behavior". The Yale University in the USA delivers these monsters. There
is a cabal of so called human leaders who are proud of the number of people they kill
and have killed. They are cultivated minds, at birth there is none of that inherent.
I don't think they traveled around the world in the flesh and with other people for
months at the time. Just my point of view because I found that people all around the
planet are ONE LOVE, discovered by traveling. There is another group of people who
like to save lives. They have no particular place of education, they are planet wide.
It is a normal thing to do to help and heal a wounded victim. Switzerland is holding
the loot and spoils of war of many countries, and got its flag's colors inversed as
the Red Cross symbol, an UN organization created to clean up after wars. So these
forces, of making babies unlimited and more people who will join armies on one side,
and the others who try to balance or diminish the world population with sickness,
war and catastrophies on the other side. If people do not voluntarily make less babies,
the government should set rules and regulations to manipulate population growth and
wars. China did it. We here on SXM are on the side of the life savers, a rule or law
to curb population growth is impossible. A birth right is the claim to a certain national
property, where the birth took place. Therefore, there will always be soldiers in
the years to come. As long as we make babies there will be soldiers. Women, to stop
getting pregnant wash with lemon juice right after unprotected sex. The use of condoms
can not be stressed enough, however, after a bursting condom, and a serious lemon
wash, women, use eggwite to restore inside condition like before lemon wash. This
a way to deny the next generation of controlling leaders their prey and victims. Men
do your vasectomy. That way you never again let a soul suffer the flesh on the planet.
Prevention before culling, eat the egg before it hatch. It is hedonistic also much
better. Have sex and rock 'n roll, take only prescription drugs. When you see a kid
getting sick and you can not help you suffer too. To prevent that suffering, make
no more kid, or baby. I say, let them unborn souls stay where they are now. Men, do
not enter the birth canal from the wrong side. For women I recommend the same as for
the men vasectomy, irrevocable closing of the pipes after the first child or the second,
one child for her and one for the child father is enough. Only by this method can
the planet get out of the vicious circle of bringing more suffering into the world.
Tantra sex and dancing and partying is the best way to free up out of present misery
. But close your doors to the unborn who seek entry into the flesh. The yet unborn
may become a killer or a healer or a homo, and suffer he will. No matter what race
you was born from, first stop making more men. If all women decide to make more daughters
than sons, wars world wide would stop for lack of soldiers. The few men allowed would
have enough seed to impregnate all the women and get a lot more loving than they get
now. That's my Christmas story, be good Captain Zen With the voluntarily family, the
global family planning, we can save the planet. There can be a good life for all sentient
beings when we do not greed and just make fewer of us. We, the living, wish for the
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I am not much suicidal any more and found out that My brother has a beautiful daughter
that is in a dance group. I hope to see her dance on my island, there is one called
"Motiance" and another group has been formed. Is time I write down the names and children.
I never had the slightest desire to be with the family, I never felt what I feel here
in the West Indies. All the feelings are so much intenser. So I follow the news and
find the human race not good enough for me to be a proud member of. Here follows a
little comment I wrote on an article about the hoax of birth certificate of the President
of the USA. "Whoever the goon is that the real masters have chosen, he will be protected
until they have no more use for him, your digging and asking for answers is irrelevant.
In reality you Search his birth because you want him dead. Well, they who want him
dead are not alone. As if dead or impeachment would change anything. If clever uncorrupted
hackers can get inside weapon dealers computers, and disrupt them or blow their bombs
up at the point of manufacturing then we can say that we are advancing. The minds
of the monsters are deep dark holes and there is no compassion, none. I advice all
men to do vasectomy. Deny [the leaders of] this unjust world another person to come
into their control. Where the unborn are now, it certainly can not be as bad as on
the planet here. Make no more kids. Prevent the suffering and teach compassion to
the living. The dead and the unborn are fine where they are." I have my 65th birthday
and I hope my 24 year old neighbor friend girl will come and lay with me. There is
nothing so nice a birthday present as a young woman friend to come and lay with me.
I hope you have an old man as lover, young men can not appreciate young women for
real, old wine taste better and the best nurses are young women, they bring a dead
man back to life. And all that is true, natural and they may call it hedonist. I am
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I am not much suicidal any more and found out that My brother has a beautiful daughter
that is in a dance group. I hope to see her dance on my island, there is one called
"Motiance" and another group has been formed. Is time I write down the names and children.
I never had the slightest desire to be with the family, I never felt what I feel here
in the West Indies. All the feelings are so much intenser. So I follow the news and
find the human race not good enough for me to be a proud member of. Here follows a
little comment I wrote on an article about the hoax of birth certificate of the President
of the USA. "Whoever the goon is that the real masters have chosen, he will be protected
until they have no more use for him, your digging and asking for answers is irrelevant.
In reality you Search his birth because you want him dead. Well, they who want him
dead are not alone. As if dead or impeachment would change anything. If clever uncorrupted
hackers can get inside weapon dealers computers, and disrupt them or blow their bombs
up at the point of manufacturing then we can say that we are advancing. The minds
of the monsters are deep dark holes and there is no compassion, none. I advice all
men to do vasectomy. Deny [the leaders of] this unjust world another person to come
into their control. Where the unborn are now, it certainly can not be as bad as on
the planet here. Make no more kids. Prevent the suffering and teach compassion to
the living. The dead and the unborn are fine where they are." I have my 65th birthday
and I hope my 24 year old neighbor friend girl will come and lay with me. There is
nothing so nice a birthday present as a young woman friend to come and lay with me.
I hope you have an old man as lover, young men can not appreciate young women for
real, old wine taste better and the best nurses are young women, they bring a dead
man back to life. And all that is true, natural and they may call it hedonist. I am
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&lt;span style="font-size: 14pt;"&gt;Title 
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&lt;span style="font-size: 14pt;"&gt;Threatening suicide&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
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&lt;span style="font-size: 14pt;"&gt;All taboos broken, or&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
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&lt;span style="font-size: 14pt;"&gt;A wonderful day to die.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
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&lt;span style="font-size: 14pt;"&gt;There are a few topics that are not spoken about. Death
is coming to us all but it is taboo. The act of sexual intercourse, where we all came
from, is also taboo. If the beginning and the end are both taboo, what can we expect
from the in between, the time of living? Death and sex are the two pillars that hold
up our life. From all the books about death, the Tibetan Book of the Dead is for me
the best guide into the after life. It gives direction to the best possible way for
the entity’s spirit or ghost in catholic language to reach Enlightenment on the moment
of death, or in the Here After. A wonderful colorful world awaits one to drag one
back in carnal form. The way to go free and never return is to follow the Pure White
Light. As long as there are wombs and dicks, and new souls can be made, however, it
is better to let them wait on the other side than to let them come here to suffer
a life time. Necromancy is the science of communicating with the dead. I think it
is bad to disturb a spirit as it is no more here. I say: people on this side and spirits
on the other. The unholy ghost spirit that has left the body is supposed to adhere
to the Holy Ghost so that the Wisdom of the Universe shows him his past life. He can
than judge him self and choose to return in human form in order to overcome the bad
he has done. Only the spirits of people who had studied and applied the laws of the
Universe who in a sense were enlightened and in some way holy&amp;nbsp; can stay with
the bright white Light and not return in carnal form. To bring less suffering, we
the people, must make sure the spirits stay there. &lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp;&lt;/span&gt;By
using condoms, vasectomizing and using the anti baby pill, or the spiral or the 6
month shot. Preventing more souls to coming in the flesh will benefit the ecology
of the world more than any other thing. 
&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
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&lt;span style="font-size: 14pt;"&gt;There is a problem for many dying people because local
priests have no guide for the departing soul, and science can not help, science is
studying it.. The right to end life has been a hot topic in the 
&lt;st1:country-region w:st="on"&gt;Netherlands&lt;/st1:country-region&gt;
and 
&lt;st1:place w:st="on"&gt;
&lt;st1:country-region w:st="on"&gt;Switzerland&lt;/st1:country-region&gt;
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long ago. In these two countries there is a way for ordinary people who suffer a personal
condition to die with dignity. It is called euthanasia in the learned world. Several
conditions have to be met and more than one doctor must give their reports to a commission
who then can give permission to the person who wants to end life with dignity. Often
family members are present to say goodbye, a doctor to oversee the process and that
is that. There are many cases that are not approved by the commission. People who
want to die but are prohibited by law must continue to suffer. I am in that group.
I want to die very much. I am not suffering enough they say, a pill can take care
of my suffering. What many do not know is that more USA soldiers die from suicide
than on the battle field. I should have died when I was 50. &lt;/span&gt;&lt;span style="font-size: 14pt;"&gt;Unfortunately
I live.on beyond the years I lived for true. I am now a living dead. 
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&lt;span style="font-size: 14pt;"&gt;When I look back in my life I succeeded wonderfully.
I did everything that other men dream of. I traveled very far and very much, I saw
many different people and made friends the world over, I had lovers and I became a
global citizen. I had the most wonderful cars, I learned to fly small airplanes, I
learned to sail ocean going sailing yachts, and I rode horses. I sailed 15 good years
that made me fall deeply in love with the immense open ocean. I came to the Caribbean
25 years ago and I love it here, I settled in Marigot, 
&lt;st1:place w:st="on"&gt;St. Martin&lt;/st1:place&gt;
in 1989. I learned new trades and became tourist guide, also sales representative,
and then gold smith. In my life I had two sons and several sweet long lasting relations
with lovely women. Now I want to die a little more. I am done with this life. 
&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
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&lt;span style="font-size: 14pt;"&gt;After I was hit in 1999 by the terrible car that broke
my legs I am still limping like a crab. I asked my doctor to help me die but he refused.
Instead he gave me pills. I get around the house in my wheelchair. A special shoe
has been made for me; I call it my robot shoe. That helps a little but I need a walking
stick or I lose my balance. The horrible feeling that god’s perfect creation, my body,
has been violated by a zombie sort of person who hit me with his car makes me cry
tears of frustration every day. I want to die a little much this time. I researched
all possible ways to end my life and I have found the simplest way. Painless, effective
and cheap, involving nothing illegal at all. That makes me feel a lot better, now
that I know how I can leave this valley of tears, when my time comes. God has given
me life, I offer Him now to please take it back. I am done with living. Been there
done that. All my life I was curious about dying, to be without my body. I practiced
astral traveling and indeed went everywhere, but connected with a silver cord to my
sleeping body at home. Free to go into the sun and be gone. I hate the driver who
took my good legs away, for not taking my life also. He was not even punished for
what he did, but I am punished for the rest of my living days. His insurance had to
pay my hospital costs, so the judge was sure he was guilty. Because I have given away
every cent in my life to people poorer than me, I am suddenly without money and that
makes me want to die a little more again. Please do not compare me with others whose
condition is worse, that does not make my condition any better, so now I want to die
for them; a little more again. To kill some body is called murder. Even the threat
of murdering some one can land one in jail. Gandhi in his time was not the peaceful
leader without violence that you may think. He seriously threatened to kill somebody,
fasting himself to death, a murder of the self in this case, if he did not get what
he wanted. I am convinced I can not die when my time has not come. I hope it comes
soon. I want action. Death can not be as bad as living like I do now, and it can not
be so bad at all, because nobody ever came back, except in fairy tales. Today was
a wonderful day to die, it just did not happen, tomorrow maybe. Until then I stay
here with you.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
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&lt;span style="font-size: 14pt;"&gt;Chamba Chada&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;
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&lt;span style="font-size: 16pt; color: black;"&gt;Crazy Charlie came into my life in Amsterdam
one unfortunate day. He was born in Tirol but had left there after having been involved
in making explosives for a separatist movement. I was walking over the square in front
of the Royal Palace towards my legally squatted home, when he approached me for a
guilder; we still had national money then. He was broke and needed a coin to call
his former girlfriend as he just came from a stint in a Belgian prison. He had no
where to go and hoped she would take him in. Before he went to Belgium, he was in
Amsterdam, hence his girlfriend. It had never been a good relation and he was happy
to get to live in our amazing building. He told me he had done time for falsifying
certificates of authenticity for fake antiques. He made new copper pots look old with
acid and burying them in the ground for a while. He then sold them with self made
certificates of origin stamped and signed by the secretary of the BADA, the Belgian
Antique Dealers Association, rubber stamps and all. Charlie knew more tricks than
the book holds. I took him in, first for a few days in my own big front room on a
couch, later he got his own place in the building; there were empty rooms enough. 
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&lt;span style="font-size: 16pt; color: black;"&gt;When Charlie was settled he asked me
to help him with what he called a moral issue; paying of a debt of honor. &lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp;&lt;/span&gt;
&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
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&lt;span style="font-size: 16pt; color: black;"&gt;He explained that when he was in Amsterdam
some years ago, he was often approached by youngsters who asked for a little money.
There were hippies who came to the magic city, curious kids and druggies from all
over the world. Many used to sleep for free in the park or on the stairs of the National
Monument. True enough, these guys who had over stayed their welcome roamed the streets,
often begging me too for a hand out. 
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&lt;span style="font-size: 16pt; color: black;"&gt;In those days the parking of cars in
the city had become a major problem and the first parking meters had appeared on the
streets. Charley had been a certified lock smith, although he was thrown out of the
profession for duplicating keys of bank safes. He now figured a way to help the poor
kids. He had secretly made keys for the newly appeared parking meters and gave them
to all the kids who asked for money. He explained that their piggy banks where all
over town and with the provided key they could serve them selves. For his trained
locksmith eye, the first parking meters where simple enough and he easily made keys
to gave away, just for his own satisfaction. He never showed me how he did it. He
was proud of himself to have had that generous and helpful idea. It did not take long
for the police to find him out. Some careless kid had been taken in who spilled the
beans. He was arrested and led before a magistrate. This entire episode happened long
before I knew him. He told me how the punishment for his giving out keys was difficult
for the prosecutor and the judge to determine. One; the legality of the very parking
meters was still in question. A discussion was going on over who had the right to
tax the streets and two; Charlie had not damaged anything or stolen anything himself,
three; the amount of money that had been taken by the key holding kids could not be
determined. So the judge gave Tiroler Charlie a stern warning. The judge had said:
“Charlie, this time you will get away with a warning. Be informed however that the
next generation parking meters will be much better constructed now that you have pointed
out that they are vulnerable. I bet you will not be able to open the new ones.”&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;Charlie
immediately answered the judge: “Your Honor, thank you for your leniency, I heard
you loud and clear, and I accept your bet. My honor as a lock smith is at stake and
I bet you that I can open them.” 
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&lt;span style="font-size: 16pt; color: black;"&gt;He then asked me help him with his task
to defend his honor. I was amused about his story and found it hard to refuse such
challenge, and I agreed. We went out for an inspection of the newly placed modern
parking meters. They looked impressive indeed. Mounted on a 2 inch steel pipe, embedded
in a block of concrete, buried deep in the ground they where practically immovable.
Investigating them at location with a tent built around was not impossible but impractical,
so it was decided to get one in order to study it in the privacy of his workshop.
To do this we developed an ingenious device, a movable tent, to discretely remove
one. In Holland we have transport tricycles for big loads. The front is a wooden flatbed
of almost a meter and a half square that rests on an axle with wheel on each side.
The driver sits on a saddle on top of the back wheel and his feet turn the drive chain.
His hands move the flatbed in the direction the contraption is going. We had found
a tricycle like that in a carport of our squatted house. Covered by a layer of dust
with flat tires it had stood there many years. We mounted sticks on the four corners
and connected those with horizontal bars. About one meter high it was. We covered
the frame with old carpets and tarpaulin overlapping flaps in front. It was now a
box big enough to hold a man. With a handsaw we made a slit 3 inch wide, in front
of the wooden flatbed, all the way till the axle. That was to get the parking meter
inside the box. Charlie had obtained a huge pipe cutter and his chariot was now ready
for action. We waited till night fall and with Charlie inside I pushed it all the
way across the wide main road. The weather was bad; there was not a dog outside. The
rain came in gusts and the wet autumn leaves were flying through the darkness. With
here and there a street lamp the light was scant and I was feeling excited and alert.
Through an alley, on across another street onto the canal streets where the parking
meters were. After a little more pushing I found an empty parking spot under a tree
at a dark corner. The rain and cold wind made it the perfect night for our adventure.
The trees rustled and swung their low branches and splattered me with wet leaves.
I pointed the tricycle straight at the parking meter. The pipe went through the flaps
and the slit, the parking meter was now right inside the box with Charlie. I walked
away while he did his cutting. In case of a night stroller, or a dog walker coming
too close, I was to whistle a certain melody. At my third pass, when I asked, I heard
the muffled “All Clear” signal from within. Then I pulled the tricycle away from there.
Up the steep bridge to turn left and get home as fast as possible. Looking back I
saw the short steel pipe sticking out of the street where once had been the parking
meter. Nobody would miss it or even know that there had been a parking meter. The
trip back home was cold and apart from the feeling of victory uneventful. Once back
inside the building Charlie carried his loot wrapped in a cloth with him to his dwelling. 
&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
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&lt;span style="font-size: 16pt; color: black;"&gt;
&lt;o:p&gt;&amp;nbsp;&lt;/o:p&gt;
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&lt;span style="font-size: 16pt; color: black;"&gt;I did not see him for a few weeks but
one day Charlie came up with a bunch of keys. “It is time to try out my work, come
along,” said he, “you have to watch for me, part of the deal.” He explained that the
meters had indeed not been easy to crack; each one needed three keys to get at the
money. He showed me three bunches of different size keys. One key to open the top,
the second to free the box which held the coins and the third key to open it. The
box was attached on a strong thin chain. We went out, again on a dark stormy night.
It was autumn and the weather was often bad. Charlie was dressed in his black raincoat
with a multitude of inner pockets that held pliers, cutters, a breaking iron and the
rest of the tools of his trade. On his head a rolled up baklava, on his hands thin
gloves. I put my darkest winter coat and gloves and out we went. The eerie light from
the few street lamps through the moving branches, the rain and the howling wind made
it a perfect horror movie scene. After midnight we spotted the perfect parking meter,
between two parked cars, just there where a street lamp was not working. While Charlie
started trying and inserting one key after the other, I walked around again with that
crazy melody in my head. Nobody disturbed us; it was no weather for any one to be
outside. At one of my passes he came away triumphantly and I heard the sound of silver.
He attacked the next one much more confidently, but still needed a lot of time. When
he had found the three keys that worked as passkeys for one row of meters on one street,
the next street needed other keys again. I saw sometimes a glimpse of his doings,
a flash of the many keys in the windy night under a tree that moves and rustles and
the wind is raving loose leaves in the autumn storm. At a spot that was a bit more
exposed, to save time, he would just open the top, insert the breaking iron for the
money box, get it out and cut the chain with his strong cutting pliers. He would put
the box in one of his deep pockets and move on. How many he opened I don't recall,
but later that night we drank on his success in a few bars. We always paid with coins,
not to raise suspicion we could not stay long in one place. We bought cigarettes from
coin operated machines, and we ate at an automatic food dispenser. A few days later
he asked me to come again but I refused. My argument being that I helped him keep
his bet with the judge, to defend his honor, but I was not going to be a burglar,
no thank you very much. He accused me of cowardice, but who was the stupid one when
a few weeks later he was behind bars, for a good while this time? He had made keys
for other people again and of course they had been caught and of course they had sung.
I did not see Charlie for a few months; however, he did come back. Last time I saw
him he was tapping electricity from a high tension wire. He had taped beer bottles
two feet apart as insulators on a long bamboo pole. A thick copper wire was wrapped
around each bottle neck and he shoved the pole out of his window until the copper
wire touched the electric tramway overhead lines. The other end went into a buzzing
transformer the size of three cubic feet. His room was the first one to have light
that night. The guy who collected the money from the twenty or so people living here,
to pay the monthly electricity bill, had eloped with the money, so what were we to
do? &lt;/span&gt;&lt;span style="font-size: 16pt;"&gt;
&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
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-&lt;/style&gt;
&lt;h1&gt;&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;a name="_Toc35765528"&gt;1944 in this year of the monkey&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/h1&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp;&lt;/span&gt;On 20 December
Alexander Baldal was born. In Nijmegen, Holland, at 11:30 AM, son of Joseph Baldal
and Magdalena Cornelia Hagendoorn. I was the third child after Anne Marie and Joseph
Johan Jacob.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;
&lt;o:p&gt;&amp;nbsp;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;h1&gt;&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;a name="_Toc35765529"&gt;1945 Rooster year,&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/font&gt; 
&lt;/h1&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;My first birthday party in December. I
remember nothing.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;The fifth day of May, the war with Germany
is over. No memory of myself yet.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;
&lt;o:p&gt;&amp;nbsp;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;h1&gt;&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;a name="_Toc35765530"&gt;1946 Dog year&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/h1&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;I am 2 years old, the family has moved
to Oegstgeest, nearby Leiden, in the west of the country. No memory of self at all.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;
&lt;o:p&gt;&amp;nbsp;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;h1&gt;&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;a name="_Toc35765531"&gt;&lt;/a&gt;&lt;a name="_Toc35765532"&gt;&lt;span style=""&gt;1948
Rat year&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/a&gt;&lt;span style=""&gt; &lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/h1&gt;
&lt;h1&gt;&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style=""&gt;&lt;span style="font-size: 12pt; font-family: &amp;quot;Times New Roman&amp;quot;,&amp;quot;serif&amp;quot;; color: black; font-weight: normal;"&gt;In
December I’ll be 4 years old. We went with the 4 children in the two-door dark blue
little Opel Olympia to the beach in Noordwijk or Katwijk to make long walks, eat ice
cream, buy fresh rolls, and have fun. It was often cold and windy, the sea green-gray.
Dead jellyfish lay on the beach. We throw them all over.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/h1&gt;
&lt;h1&gt;&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style=""&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;
&lt;o:p&gt;&amp;nbsp;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/h1&gt;
&lt;h1&gt;&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style=""&gt;1947 Pig year,&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/h1&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;3 years old, kindergarten, the only thing
I remember was that the maid Beppie, or Bep, brings me in the stroller to the play
school on the Warmonderweg.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;
&lt;o:p&gt;&amp;nbsp;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;h1&gt;&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;a name="_Toc35765533"&gt;1949 Ox year&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/h1&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;4 years old, 5 years in December, 
&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;We went by train to Eindhoven to celebrate
grandfather’s birthday (from mother’s side), with the whole family. I remember “het
Silveren Seepaerd” a classical restaurant. Grandfather had had the railway station’s
restaurant. His style was old-world, luxury, silver, uniformed waiters, the works.
His birthday is on the last day of the year, so the party is combined with New Years
party. I went downstairs to get bottles of wine and champagne from the cellar.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;
&lt;o:p&gt;&amp;nbsp;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;h1&gt;&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;a name="_Toc35765534"&gt;1950 Tiger year,&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/h1&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;5 years old, going 6 in December. I do
not remember anything much of those times. I do not give the milk money for the play
school to the woman teachers but buy ice cream for it on the corner from the entrance
to the Leidse Hout, a park with trees and walkways. There was the ERMI ice cream three
wheeler with a old man selling the icicles on wooden sticks. Deep in his tin lined
insulated car with dry ice he kept the wanted delicacies.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;
&lt;o:p&gt;&amp;nbsp;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;
&lt;o:p&gt;&amp;nbsp;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;h1&gt;&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;a name="_Toc35765535"&gt;1951 Cat year&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/h1&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;Primary school in Oegstgeest. This year
or the next I started at the “Lagere School” in Oegstgeest, de Terwee school on the
Terrwee weg&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;Elize Rebecca is born this year, first
called Elsje, later when she grew up and married, Rebecca. No clear memory of these
times at all.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;
&lt;o:p&gt;&amp;nbsp;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;h1&gt;&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;a name="_Toc35765536"&gt;1952 Dragon year,&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/h1&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp;&lt;/span&gt;I am 7 years
old. I became 8 years old on 20 December.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;Lagere School. Do not remember a thing
of these times. I must have been at school learning writing and reading and all that.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;
&lt;o:p&gt;&amp;nbsp;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;h1&gt;&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;a name="_Toc35765537"&gt;1953 Snake year&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/h1&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;9 years old, I think, around this time,
I learned sailing from Egbert Lubbers, who was a boy in my school class and who lived
in the Spaargarenstraat, where our garden was. He had a sailing canoe, type Corjaal,
a narrow two seater, paddles to get through narrow waters, a short mast for a gaff
sail, a mid-sword that could be lowered and raised, a jib, a rudder, everything to
sail about in miniature. We sailed from Warmond to the “Kager Plassen”. I learned
from ‘Eppie” all the basic tricks to sail a boat, how to make some basic knots and
handle ropes, which served me very well later in life. His parents rowed a “wherry”,
a narrow, long sleek boat with a sliding chair for the rower, a seat facing forward
in the back for the person steering with a small rudder operated by thin ropes.&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;It
had very long oars, went fast and was light. One day when Eppie and I went in his
sailing canoe through a narrow water, towards the open lake, there were two pit bulls
barking at us, I tried to hit one to make it go away, but it bit the paddle and never
let go anymore. I pulled the paddle with the pit bull on it under water, but it bit
the paddle right in pieces, and came out of the water with the wood in his jaws. A
real nasty doggy. What a bummer. From the sailing I remembered to sit in front, we
sat one behind the other, the midsword between my legs or no, I sat on the high side,
wherever the wind came from. It had a gaff sail, that means a short mast with a long
stick on the peek of the mainsail. The jib was thus not high, attaches&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;to
the masthead which is only three quarter up the main. Still it could pull in the young
boys hands and I held it often stiff and strong. I learned to sail the right way,
without winches yet, just a cleat and a sheet. What a great time on the lake it was.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;
&lt;o:p&gt;&amp;nbsp;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;h1&gt;&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;a name="_Toc35765538"&gt;1954 Horse year&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/h1&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp;&lt;/span&gt;I am 9, going
10 years old&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;Still at the primary school in Oegstgeest. &lt;/span&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;" lang="NL"&gt;De
Openbare Lagere School.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;" lang="NL"&gt;
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&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;10 years and no real memoirs, maybe Aad
Timmermans was my friend already. I sat high on his shoulders and he carried me to
fight another young lightweight on the shoulders of another power boy. I remember
playing marbles, having a sack full at times, and none but two at other times.&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;Aadje’s
full name was Adriaan of course, he was my adjudant I now realize, I always had a
guy who stood by me in to help, protect, assist and even fight for me if I was attacked
by bullies. 
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&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;12 years in December, what happened those
years???&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
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&lt;h1&gt;&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;a name="_Toc35765539"&gt;1957 Rooster year&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
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&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="font-size: 12pt; font-family: &amp;quot;Times New Roman&amp;quot;,&amp;quot;serif&amp;quot;;"&gt;12
years old. 13 in December. Was it this year that my father got a stroke? It was so
serious that he never really recovered, he went to various hospitals, starting in
Wassenaar, Leerdam, Utrecht and more. He came home a year or more later, dragging
a leg and his right arm and hand were lame. His speech was affected, his mouth dribbled
and he had become another person altogether. I had never known him at all, and didn’t
know him much afterwards. But I loved him better after he came back from his sickness.
I was at school at the Rijnlands lyceum, misbehaving, giving my mother more trouble
than she needed. Unruly to the max, rebellious total because my freedom was at stake,
my expression of loving the world, the father. I was often by mother Timmermans and
her 4 boys, they were my good friends. The third, Aad would defend me at the school
when I had made someone angry or they tried something on me, as I was small and a
little frail. I&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;could never swim like him, but he was
my man, whenever force was needed. This year I went to the lyceum, a high school that
would prepare for the academy later or the university. I was considered intelligent
already then.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
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&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp;&lt;/span&gt;Now 14 years
old I was at the “Rijnlands Lyceum” Rebellious like shit, I remember fights with the
teacher English, she went so desperate that she was ready to jump out of the window.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
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&lt;h1&gt;&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;a name="_Toc35765541"&gt;1959 Pig year&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
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&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;14 years and going 15 I was kicked out
of school. Jan de Kater came with a cigar he had stolen from his father. He shit in
his pants when we smoked it and our first cigarette, we where nasty kids, in wintertime
we walked the thin ice and in summer we shot with air pistols on the cows. I did not
want to follow the religious hour, bible lessons, I questioned every word and statement
of the bible. Had the first interests in sexual matters, sold condoms to other students,
during Bible lessons. Had impertinent questions about the religions.&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;Got
removed from school for bad behavior. No violence, but rebellious and adverse to the
trend. Five boys like me got removed from the Rijnlands Lyceum. We broke into the
school one night and emptied the foam fire extinguishers and did some vandalism.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
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&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;15 years, private lessons at home, then
to the Hague, Scheveningen, de Zonnebloem School. Somewhat numbed into a life without
goal, young, living without vision yet.&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;
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&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;At school in Kijkduin, somewhere close
to Den Haag. From home to school went as follows: Wake up around 7 am, go downstairs
to the kitchen, put the gas under the pan with the porridge, eat it, dress in outside
coat, take the bicycle out of the shed and paddle to the train station in Leiden.
Take the twelve-minute ride to Den Haag, jump on bus 19 all the way to the end, which
takes about 40 minutes, and walk 15 minutes to the school building. Every day 5 days
a week,&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
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&lt;h1&gt;&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;a name="_Toc35765544"&gt;1962 Tiger year&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
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&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp;&lt;/span&gt;I continue
school, examination tests are coming up.&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;One evening mother
asks me to put some letters in the mailbox which is situated opposite our house. We
live in the Regentesselaan 46, by the Emma pleintje. Next to the big, red, cast iron
letterbox is a blue machine that dispenses stamps. You have to insert coins, turn
a handle and collect the stamps from a little window, lick them, glue them on the
envelops and throw these in the slit of the big red box. In order to free hands I
laid the letters on top of the stamp machine. Put the dimes and quarts in the machine,
turned the handle and took the stamps out the little glass door in the bottom of the
machine. When I had the stamps to put on the letters, I felt on top of the machine
to get the letters, and I felt something else also, that happened to be a purse. Without
looking I quickly put it in my pocket, finished my business, and went back home. Upstairs
in my room I opened the purse, and found a lot of money, it was more than 700 guilders.
I had never seen so much money. The next day was the day of the examinations for the
end of the school period. I hardly slept that night and in the early morning I went
to Den Haag as usual, and threw the empty purse in a letterbox near the train station.
The mail service would take care of that, it contained papers, addresses, whatever,
and instead of taking a bus to the examination place as usual, I took a taxi, maybe
for the first time in my life. I felt elated, confident and over and above myself.
I finished the tests much faster than all the other kids and instead of eating my
prepared sandwiches like all the others, I fed the birds in a little park nearby and
went to have lunch in the restaurant close by. There the teachers and inspectors also
went for lunch and every body ate in style. I ate two fried eggs sunny side up with
bacon and ham on bread, wow. Finished the tests and went home. Next day I found out
that I had passed the test with no room for error, I reached just on the limit. One
more mistake would have made me fail.... The summer recess had come, vacation time.
The weather was good, I went sailing with the son of the village druggist in his Z24,
a red painted ‘Vrijbuiter’, a sleek, fast&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;little thing
with a jib and a full battened sail. It was built during the war years and some limits
in the measurements were allowed, so that all the few Vrijbuiters that got built were
all pretty different. Then I found big BM from a friend of my brother Jos. I had all
the money remember. With some of it I rented the BM. An old Mercury outboard came
with it, antique looking, maybe one of the very first outboards ever made.&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;I
called the boat: “De Schuifpeen”, which means the “Sliding Carrot”. With all that
money I was rich beyond comprehension, and who the friends were I don’t recall, but
they were there. I had a crate (24 bottles) of beer on the foredeck and another on
the aft-deck. Moored off at the “Bonte Koe”, which means: “The Spotted Cow”. Soon
I had the nickname: “Het Bonte Kalf”, meaning the spotted calf. Bont means also wild,
as we say in Holland: “Make it not too bont”, means: don’t go it too wild, take it
easy. One day, a sunny morning, I moored the “Schuifpeen” at the dock of the restaurant
disco-bar De Bonte Koe,&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;where I had the waiters serve
me breakfast on board, around 11 am. A man who was sitting on the terrace came up
the pier and asked if he could see the old outboard engine that was behind on the
transom. It was an odd old engine, brand name Mercury, with two handles, one for gas,
acceleration and one for rich or lean. It had a four blade screw. It started by winding
a thin rope around the flywheel on top and then pulling it. One had to experiment,
according to the weather, the temperature, rain or shine, how to set those two to
make it run. It was noisy and smoky, but it ran. I called it my cream whipper, and
mysteriously it worked, while it had been on the attic of my friends home for almost
twenty years until I had discovered it there under an inch of dust. The man identified
himself as the country’s agent general for Mercury motors and wanted to buy it. He
wanted it for the showroom of his company. It would be maybe the oldest Mercury in
the country. After much beer and talk we made a deal. In place of the old relic the
man gave me a brand new one, latest model, more power, less noise and smoke, a modern
miracle. I used it until the end of that season and then gave it back with the boat
to my brother’s friend. I do not remember doing anything special the rest of that
year&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
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&lt;h1&gt;&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;a name="_Toc35765545"&gt;1963 Cat year&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/font&gt; 
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&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp;&lt;/span&gt;My somewhat
recovered father had secured me a job. I start working on the “Rotterdam”, at the
time the fifth biggest cruise ship of the world. It was made to just pass through
both the Panama and the Suez Canals. I made trips with the “Rotterdam”, from Rotterdam
to Le Havre, to Southampton to New York. The ship stayed three days there, in Hoboken.
Then one week at sea again, two days in Rotterdam and back to sea. I started as bellboy.
I was dressed in a funny uniform, green pants with a silver stripe on the outside
of the legs, a short jacket with silver buttons and on my head a pillbox. Than I was
also elevator operator, and guide to bring people to their cabins and the restaurant
and the various bars on the ship. It had 11 floors from the top to the waterline and
7 floors, decks they are called on a ship, under the waterline. My quarters were up
front, port side, high over the waterline. The crew cabin housed 6 of us, most having
the same rank in the same line of work. We were somehow the lowest of the civil crew,
but there were lower ranked crewmembers than we, like the Spanish workman who we paid
a little to clean out our cabin, change sheets and towels and keep it tidy. The crew
bar was located in the crew mess room, and opened from 11 AM. I remember that for
every door I opened the passing passenger would press a quarter in my hand. Four quarters
in a dollar which was 3.60 guilders those days, a lot of money. The crew bar was only
a hole in the wall were we could buy drinks and take it to the table or wherever.
We could drink as much as we wanted as long as we came sober on the job. The price
for a glass of foaming beer was 8 dollar cents! We would sit in the cabin and send
one of us to the bar to fetch one plateau full. The one who went down did not have
to pay, and took two dollars to come back with 24 glasses. It happened that I was
on my way from the mess to the cabin with a plateau full of glasses on my shoulder
together with a boy from another cabin in the same area. We had to negotiate various
doors, staircases and corridors. The ship was moving a lot, outside we had an atlantic
storm. Some beer spilled over me, but I managed to hold my course. The staircase was
made of open iron web, and when the boy 2 decks higher than me crashed and his plateau
with 24 glasses came down, I had to move out of the way fast, or I would have been
showered with beer and small bits and pieces of glass. Later I worked in the restaurant
as a beginning waiter and became a member of the crew show. I was a wild young crazy
fellow and when I had a good drink I could dance on my hunches like I had seen the
Russian Cossacks do. The cold war was very real those days and anything Russian was
always a little strange, suspect or kind of forbidden and frowned upon. So, me being
the only one who could dance on my hunches for real, the show organizers made a Russian
show. I did the real Russian dancing, and the other guys sat on a low bench pretending
to dance, throwing their legs up and down. That activity and the constant work with
heavy loads running up and down stairs on a moving ship resulted later in having bad
knees.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
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&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;The trip around the world on the “Rotterdam”.
It started in New York took only 80 days. After the book of Jules Verne. From New
York to Southampton and le Havre to take on more passengers. We made the boat Cruise
ready. Straight to Gibraltar, the Rock of the British, stolen from Spain when England
was mighty and terrorizing the rest of the world, they called it Ruling The Waves...
Well I was ruling the waves and looked with wonder and awe upon my world. High ranking
crewmembers got passenger cabins in the aft lower part of the ship. We had only half
the capacity of guests on board. Maybe a few less than 800 and we had 800 crewmembers.
One on one. Very luxury, not exactly the Titanic, but still very high class. In Gibraltar
I got permission to go ashore, called shore-leave. I took a tour like a tourist, sightseeing.
I did see a monkey, and some Englishmen. Nice old fashioned shop signs and white and
black checkered caps on police men.&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;On we went to Malaga
and took on some passengers. Then to Menton, or Marseille for more guests. On to Milan,
in Italy. I went ashore and met Italian poor hustlers offering black and white photographs
of naked women. My first contact with pimps. It was cold, the locals where wearing
old fashioned long heavy coats, everything was cold, almost freezing in a place that
is built for heat, for a blazing sun, not for a cold howling freezing wind. In Athens
it was also cold and I didn’t get off the ship. We never stayed more than a day or
so in port and in no time we were back at sea. Now the weather got better. Real sunshine
and arriving in Cairo I hung over the railing to see what happened. Egyptian boys
diving in the water next to the ship when passengers threw coins over board, they
seemed to have an endless supply of quarts in their pockets. I had little time, but
could walk the pier beside the ship and there I tried to resist the dozens of hustlers.
They offered Players, English cigarettes in sealed new tins, which later happened
to be filled with paper and sawdust. Little giraffes and camels, made from genuine
camel leather, only to later, when coming in moist surroundings, to fall apart because
they were made of papier mache.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
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&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;Through the Suez Canal. Although I had
to work, I could look out now and again. Majestically the giant luxury floating palace
which is my home now, slides through the desert. Pyramids are far away, but camels
are close by and walk along the shore of the channel. My first contact with this new
reality. A great lake in the Canal made for a stop. Passengers went to the pyramids,
I stayed and worked the restaurant very much. I had to work breakfast, lunch and dinner
shift. We had 4 ranks in the restaurant hierarchy, I had started at the lowest, called
commie. I had to clear the stations of used things, and bring them away. I worked
from 4 sets of 4 tables and two stations that held all the plates, cutlery and all
else. There I put the food, which I got from the kitchen. A commie was not allowed
to come close to the tables with eating passengers. The “commie de rang”, the next
rank up, would put food from the station on the tables. The “chef” would hand it out,
put it on the plates and the “chef de rang”, the highest of the four, only walked
around with a broad smile, asking if the food was good, and took the compliments,
and tips, and he cut the meat. Complaints went to the cooks, the chef de rang had
never done anything wrong. The “chef” ladled the soup, the “commie de rang” took away
the dirty plates, put them on the station from where I, the commie, brought them away,
down the rolling stairs to the dish washing factory. Many a good piece of exquisite
food was never touched and if the others had not taken it, I could indulge. The older
workers knew how to order food for themselves, I was still a beginner, and working
hard. So hard that I collapsed later, after Hong Kong, about that later. I became
commie sommelier, that is the helper of the chef-sommelier, the wine-steward. Once,
when I was attending the Captains Table, something of interest happened. It was a
kind of privilege for special invitees.&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;Every night different
people ate at the Captain’s table and I was to fill the glasses with wine. That night
the people, all in smoking and gala dress, were ceremonially seated on their appointed
places. The table was laid for twelve guests in top style, three crystal glasses by
each set of plates, three silver forks, knives, and spoons bordering each plate. Starched
napkins in silver napkin rings, all in good order. The first Mate had a pretty lady
next to him, then her husband, then the first engineer with a nice woman and her husband.
Then some other first class passengers and at the head of the table the Captain, like
his officers, in his gala uniform with all his stripes. Next to him sat an obviously
very rich widow. She wore rings with diamonds as big as the Koh-I-Noor on each finger,
shiny golden bracelets on her arms. Around her neck a large golden chain with a sparkling
diamond pendant, and on her earlobes ear hangers that must have cost a fortune each.
Her lips were over-painted blood red, her skin was a sickly pale powdered white. On
her head she had deep, dark red hair and a small tiara to top it all off. The small
talk had started, I had filled the wineglasses, and while standing between the Captain
and the lady I could smell her penetrating perfume, something between camel sweat
and jasmine. I stood at a safe distance to see if any glass needed refilling when
the soup came. A great silver tureen was placed in the middle of the table and the
chef started ladling the soup on the deep plates. The weather was calm and the ship
hardly rolled at all. The spoons went clickety click and the red head asked for pepper.
The first mate handed it to her and she shook it onto her soup plate. Then she suddenly
looked up, hand with pepper dispenser in hand, poised stock-still, and sneezed. Se
sneezed with such violence that her head went backward and then forward with such
power that her red wig tiara and all, flew of, and landed with a splash right in her
plate of soup. Spatters of soup landed on the captain who shoved his chair back and
waved his napkin in the air. The consternation on the table was complete. Not knowing
if I kept my face in check I shot forward, and covered the lady’s dripping front with
my professional towel that I always had over my right arm. She was in shock and did
not move. I stepped back, and the chef took over. He helped the bald, hairless woman
up and away from the table. They disappeared as quickly as possible out of the restaurant.
He came back a few minutes later and announced that the lady would continue her dinner
in her cabin, thank you everybody, please bon appétit. The captain removed a few drops
of soup from his front and also stood up to leave. He held a short speech to explain&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;he
had to change and wished everybody a pleasant dinner.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
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&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;In Aden I was allowed off for a day. So
I walked the medieval place, Arab to the core. I was on a market were many long dressed
dark skinned men where milling about. A commotion in a corner of the huge open space
that held the market caught my attention. I slowly edged close enough to see a podium,
a stage with a chair on it on which uniformed people led a man in shackles. He was
put on the chair and his arm bound to the armrest. A man in white long coat did something
on his arm, I could not see the details, people were standing and pushing to see better
in front of me. A little later the man in the white coat held a severed bleeding hand
in the air. The man was a thief and his right hand was amputated as punishment. I
was shocked and disgusted, I went back on board a little sick over what I had seen. 
&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
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&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;Then the “Rotterdam” sailed on to Bombay.
I had shore leave and was going ashore with two of my colleagues. I had learned from
the old hands that it was a good place to bring whiskey and cigarettes on land here
as they were worth their weight in gold. I closed the arms of my jacket with a few
stitches of strong twine and put a bottle of Johnny Walker and a carton of Marlboro
in each arm. Slung the jacket loosely over my shoulder when I walked stone faced past
passport control and my friends and I climbed down the gangway and into a tiny Morris
Minor taxi. I tried immediately to sell a bottle to the taxi driver. But he had no
money enough and would bring us for a few packs of cigarettes to a place where someone
would buy my stuff. We came to the deep dark center of Bombay. The streets were narrow,
and people milling all over. My friends and I went into a building that was almost
dark inside. A room with couches and pillows, easy chairs and elaborate carved wooden
panels, curtains and staircases. Barred windows from small rooms looked out into this
room and behind every window was the face of a woman. The club owner came forward
and we started to negotiate the price for the two bottles and the cigarettes. Some
money changed hands and a woman took me to one of the little rooms. It was no more
than a big bed and she closed the curtain before the window. Then she made me lay
down and removed my shoes, my shirt and my pants. With only my under pants still on
she started to put oil on my body and stroked me sensually and I relaxed. She rolled
me over on my belly and massaged my back strongly and she removed my briefs. Then
she undressed and in the dim light I could see that she was very beautiful and young.
Her firm breasts stood out pointedly and her body shone like golden. She put me on
my back and started to massage my body. Her naked skin touched me everywhere and she
stroked my penis softly. I was hard as a stick and pointing straight up. She started
touch to my face, while she sat over me and while she massaged my eyebrows she lowered
herself onto my prick. She moved ever so slowly up and down on my stiff member and
I was being lifted into heaven. I touched her breasts, she came forward enough to
kiss them and I buried my face between the lovely soft mounts. Then she went down
on me deep and pushed her bush onto my bush, so deep and so tender. She trembled all
over so arousing, that I could not help but explode deep inside her pussy. She stayed
a while longer on me and stroked my face and my body while she slowly climbed off
me. She laid next to me and I felt like a god. Then she produced a small towel and
a basin of water and started to wipe my face, my breast, my belly, my penis, and the
rest of me clean. I fell asleep and woke up refreshed many hours later. It was just
before daybreak. She helped me to dress and I went down the few steps into the big
room. I saw the owner of the place lying on a couch being massaged by a blind man.
He seemed to sleep. Then I found out that my friends had already left and I went out
into the street. It was still dark and many people were on the pavement, sitting,
and lying down. I walked slowly between the many people still sleeping on the sidewalk.
Covered with a cloth some were waking up. Others slept on. A truck with an open back
slowly overtook me on the road. It went only slightly faster than I and two men walked
alongside it. Every time they came upon a person lying on the pavement, they would
kick it on the feet. If the person moved, they went on to the next one. If the person
did not move they would lift the cloth from the face and stir it. I saw how they lifted
a body up together and threw it on the back of the truck. There were a dozen or so
bodies already… I found a small Morris Minor taxi and went back to the harbor. The
taxi left me to walk the last few hundred meters and there was a tattoo shop on the
pavement. Three men sat around a box with about a hundred batteries in it. They were
all connected together and powered a tool that was made of an old-fashioned house
bell. The ones that ring when you press the button outside. This thing had no bell.
But three needles attached to the vibrating point. I looked at the pictures of the
possible designs. The men made me sit down and wanted me to take a tattoo. I took
a pack of cigarettes out of my pocket and asked if that was OK. And yes, that was
enough payment, I was to choose on. I took a picture of an old three mast schooner.
That took about an hour to get onto my right upper arm. It has been there ever since.
I got my tattoo with a tall ship on my right upper arm. For a pack of Marlboro, on
the quay right in front of the boat.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;Rangoon or Bangkok, with the Canal Boats,
the temples, the girls.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;Then to Singapore, where I learned to eat
with chopsticks at the night market.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;Manila in the Philippines where I went
to the Scandinavian Club, with a young woman. Stories that tourists got mugged and
robbed went around, that fingers were cut of to get rings from tourists, and more
of that kind. I never gave it any attention and went ashore all the same, alone.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;Hong Kong, where was a drinking water shortage
and the boat produced water and pumped it to the shore for the time we were in harbor.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;Osaka, Kobe, Hiroshima, I went to the museum
of the Atomic Bomb, saw pictures of the devastation.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;Hawaii, Tsunami&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;San Francisco Black Hawk Night Club&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;Acapulco, the high jumps in the sea from
the rock, in the fjord.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;Panama, with the animal sex shows, 
&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;Curacao, with Campo Allegro, the whore
village. 
&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;Jamaica, with the double dancing in the
jungle hangar&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;New York where a Dutch coin of one cent
fitted the subway entry slot, it had the same size as the tokens. I had met friends
who let me use a bed in a guest room in their house, 11th street, where I got my very
first blow job from the sweet black girl that did the cleaning twice a week. She did
me while I was on the toilet, going to shit. She took my member in her mouth and sucked
me empty in no time, smiled and told me I was handsome.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;
&lt;o:p&gt;&amp;nbsp;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;
&lt;o:p&gt;&amp;nbsp;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp;&lt;/span&gt;And after that
I escaped to the south of France to get away from the army service. My father comes
to persuade me to go anyway.&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;Did I go this year or next?
Hard to remember.&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;Once I was in, it took me two weeks
to get out of the army again. 
&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;Back to France, I meet an Algerian guy
at the Youth Hostel and go to Algiers with him it was around Christmas&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;
&lt;o:p&gt;&amp;nbsp;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;h1&gt;&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;a name="_Toc35765547"&gt;1965, a Snake year&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/font&gt; 
&lt;/h1&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;In Algiers we disembark after a stormy
trip with most of the passengers seasick and puking, it was a horrible trip in the
hold of the old steamer; our tickets were the cheapest... We were not allowed on deck,
it was a bit scaring. Thinking about what happens in case the ship springs a leak;
the passengers in the hold were prisoners... My newly acquired friend lived a bit
outside the big town Algiers. We went to the house of my friend where we sleep and
do nothing. Really not a thing. I cannot do anything and so I started to learn the
local language. French could be spoken by most, but the people self spoke Arabic,
Algerian, whatever. So I had my little book, and pen, and asked every body what the
word was for this and for that. Having lost my eyeglasses when I was cutting wood
at the youth hostel in La Ciotat, France, I could see near, but not far. That was
no problem writing, but I could not see that the man in the family house did not like
me talk to the females in that house. Coming from a western civilization, culture
I did not yet know the customs in Algeria. My friend who had taken me with him had
suddenly disappeared. When I found out that he was gone, I was told that the military
police had come to fetch him for his obligatory time in the army. Now what? I had
no idea what to do, where to go when the father gestured me to come with him. He pointed
to my little valise, and we went in his small car to town. There he stopped somewhere
in the center and made me step out. And he drove away. That was that. In an unknown
town, without money, without any one I know.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;
&lt;o:p&gt;&amp;nbsp;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp;&lt;/span&gt;I stay a while;
get a new pair of eyeglasses after the one I lost in the wood breaking accident at
the youth hostel in La Ciotat. Boy scouts helped me when I went to look for the embassy
of Holland when my friend has disappeared and I was on my own, in a strange country
without money. The Embassy says: you made it to here, you’ll make it back and gave
me nothing. Sitting on the curb of the street were the embassy was located a young
boy came to me and offered me tea and some sweets. I explained my situation and I
could sleep in the garage of the house. It was an expensive neighborhood and every
house had a big garden with a garage, built for and by the French who had departed
after the independence war was won by Algeria against France. That was not many years
ago and the richer people that I spoke to did not all agree to the present state of
affairs. With sadness in their voices did they recall the good old times....Then,
after having spent some days there and gotten money that the boys collected to buy
a pair of eyeglasses I went to the local youth hostel and had to sneak in after closing
time, as I had no money to pay, I slept on an empty cot, sneaked out through the window
again before daylight and entered a little later as a visitor. There I met a German
young man, Hans, who was sympathetic. He let me taste my first marijuana, kif from
Morocco, light and pleasant to the palate. It made me explore the stars in the night
when we laid on our back on the roof of the youth hostel. Stargazing in the clear
African night is a wonderful experience. We found a job as extras in a movie being
made by the Algerian TV company, about the war against France. I had to be dressed
in a French Military camouflage uniform and shoot with a fake sten-gun on passing
farmer like civilians. Garden hose rain sprayed a jeep that had no engine where I
had to turn the wheel as if driving while the cameras were turning. It was boring,
the waiting in between shoots was long, but the pay was good and I could now stay
at the hostel for real. When the movie job was done I traveled, I mean hitch hiked
with the German young man to Tunisia. The way was long and the money small, and we
slept in local bath houses, “hamams”, very cheap and convenient. In the evening, after
a day of mostly walking, hitching rides on trucks, in open pick-ups, in overfull long
distance taxis,&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;like a Peugeot station car with 10 or
11 people squeezes in the back, seats would be removed to make space, baskets with
live chickens, bundles on the roof, sacks and pots and what not stuffed every where.
We would end up in any kind of place. A village, a small town, a mere conglomeration
of buildings and all we had to do is ask for the “hamam”. The bath house would always
have lots of hot water, towels and mattresses. One would get a place, undress, wrap
in the towel, get a piece of soap and enter the hot room. . Splash water over the
body, sitting on a low stool, soap and wash and rinse. Often a person would be there
to scrub your back and mostly offer a body massage that cost near to nothing. After
being thoroughly cleansed from the day travels, one lay on the mattress, with a cup
of sweet tea and some cookies or sweetmeats and fall asleep under the provided towel.
At daybreak one would get a kick on the feet to wake up, and with or without a morning
tea be put out on the street. That trip overland was very special, the first time
in an Arabic country. I sometimes blew my penny whistle, a small flute with 6 holes
that I can play a lot of melodies on. Hans painted with chalk on the pavement, huge
Maria’s, and other figures, so we could beg with dignity. On this trip, in Oran I
had to eat a roasted goat head, suck out the eyes, crack it open and eat the cooked
brains, a delicacy when hungry. Before reaching the border we had no lift and started
to walk the 20 or so remaining kilometers. Somewhat later, it had become dark deep
night a pick-up truck took us in the back and stopped at the border to Tunisia, on
the road to the town of Hammamet, after exchanging some money and contraband watches
with the border guards, we came to a small village, got a sleeping place and were
put out on the road in the early next morning.&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;On the
way to Tunis along the seacoast, it was beautiful. We ended up in the big town Tunis,
Avenue Bourgiba. Every thing was called Bourgiba, a Hotel, a street, a park, a kind
of cigarette, the money; it was all “Bourgiba”, the name of the president. When we,
German Hans and I where on the street painting and begging a white European passed
by and dropped a big banknote in our tray. Looking up with wonder he smiled and invited
us for lunch and coffee in a classy restaurant. It does not look good for Europeans
to beg, he said and he would take care of us. He was a rich architect, engaged by
a wealthy Tunisian to built some houses and he was bored because there was nobody
to talk to, to exchange intelligence in that&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;so different
a culture. Later we where in his house and he introduced us to some drug that made
one high. It was “Romilar” from la Roche. Originally a cough medicine, but when you
took 20 pills instead of one, you started hallucinating and laughing and having a
very good time. That we did and I remember not much but the fantastic colored rainbows
at the seaside, splashing water and playing in the shallow sea. Some days later, we
lived now all in his apartment; we went to a place called Cartagena, north of Tunis.
There we went to a horse stable where he had his horse and took us to go horseback
riding. I had never sat on a horse. Hans said that he had. Ulli took his own horse,
selected for me a meek, elder lady horse, and for Hans a young eager Arab. And there
we went. Out in the open, my horse was calm, quiet and obedient to my pulls at the
reigns; it was even a bit dull. Hans’s horse was jumpy and did all kind of turns and
pulled hard this way and that. Ulli’s horse and he knew each another well, they went
ahead and came back to see how we were doing. After a while I saw that Hans had problems
as his horse was young and wild and I offered to change, he takes mine and I take
his. And that we did. Wow, what a difference, to have a power pack between your legs.&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;I
liked it, but I could not control it very well, I had no knowledge about horse riding
at all. Still, I had the distinct feeling that I had done this before. Surely it was
a memory from a former life. Trotting went painful, I could not get the rhythm and
when the horse went up, I went down, and the contact was painful. A little later,
Ulli was far ahead, I went galloping, or better said, the horse took off with me.
That was nice, much more comfortable, now it was like the horse was steady and there
was hardly any contact between the saddle and my bottom. We were flying, the wind
through my hair, the clop, clop of the hoofs on the hard packed sandy ground, the
sea on the horizon, palm trees far away, it was a dream. I had done this for sure
in a former life, I could feel it. My left foot came out of the stirrup, I could not
find the stirrup back with my foot, we went so fast, everything was moving. Bad news,
the stirrup on its leather strap hit the horse’s side hard, it went even faster, the
stirrup hit my head, and it hit the side of the horse again and again, the young horse
went in a frenzy of speed, it was incredible. And my head got hit again, until I managed
to catch the flying stirrup and stuffed it between my left leg and the horse. Under
while we were flying at top speed over the plain. Ulli tried to follow me, a joke,
we were too fast. My right foot slipped out of the stirrup as well and it started
to fly up and down. It started to swing up and down like the other one had done. I
tried to catch it and pressed my legs tight around the little horse, but it was too
much. The stirrup hit me and then I fell off. And found myself on the ground looking
after the horse running free, in a cloud of dust, far away.&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;How
long it took for Ulli to get it back I do not remember, but I was getting up and started
walking in the direction they had taken off. Some time later they came out of the
horizon and now the horse had run itself out and was a bit quieter. I was back on
top right away. Never felt so good. After that one time, I never ever, during my whole
life, fell off a horse again. It was a marvelous day, I learned something of great
value and importance: the feeling that I had lived before. That feeling was so strong
that it made the scenery look timeless, as if we had been there hundreds of years,
as if my friends were not friends from the twenties century but from eternity. Alexander
the great had been there at Cartage and I felt that I had been there, that my name
carried something of the inherited past. That evening the pain came. The unfamiliar
exercise took its toll and without the powerful painkiller that Ulli provided I would
have suffered terribly. As it was, the evening past like we were royalty, me basking
in my victory over the horse, in the company of friends in an Arabic country in a
spot that my name giver had conquered centuries before. What a feeling. We discussed
the lack of marijuana, kif, ganja, grass, and it came up that we or one of us would
go to Morocco to get some in order to find some kif, something to smoke other than
the tobacco that was available. The water pipes that were in every coffeehouse should
have something better to burn we thought. I myself had no experience with grass other
than the little that Hans had had with him in Algiers and that was finished long ago.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;And
so it came to pass that I all alone went west, all the way to Morocco. The idea was
that I would go and return with some kif as the marijuana is called there.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;I did do the trip, hitching rides on buses,
private cars, long distance taxis and anything else that went my way. It was an amazing
feat for a young fellow alone with hardly any money, just a little provided by the
Swiss. Finally arriving at the Moroccan border, my money was all finished, or good
as finished. In the little town close to the border I could still find a sort of guest
house, and a room the size of the bed with hardly room to get in. I slept the night
through and woke up early morning from giggling, and women's voices. Looking out I
saw the inner courtyard with small tables and chairs, some with a man or two, except
one where three young women were joking with a young man. When they saw me, they called
me over and I got a small cup of sweet tea and believe it or not, a pipe of kif. They
smoked their morning puff and automatically invited me in. I smoked a few puffs, excused
myself and went back to bed. And slept until 11 am. Then started my Moroccan adventure
which lasted three month. After waking up and getting out in the streets I walked
aimlessly around, not knowing what to do or where to go. Not much later I was met
with the guy who sat with the women in the hotel patio. He took me to a place with
bread and soup. A cauldron at least a meter across was built in a place, a fire was
burning underneath and a man was stirring it with a huge wooden spoon, more looking
like a rowing oar than a spoon. It made a nice thick pea soup and the half loaf of
bread was freshly baked. It was the beginning of three month in Fez. I got an old
jelabah, a dress that one enters from the bottom, puts arms and head first, and that
covers the whole body, with arms and a capuchin, a hood. It covers the wine bottles
I carry in my trouser pockets, which I have to carry into the inner Arab city. Alcoholic
drinks are not permitted and soldiers are watching everybody entering through the
gates in the city wall. 
&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;Here my story needs to be followed up,
a lot more is to tell, a lot happened before I returned to Europe.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;
&lt;o:p&gt;&amp;nbsp;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;h1&gt;&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;a name="_Toc35765548"&gt;1966&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;Horse year&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/h1&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;After I was back in Holland, &lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;maybe in this
year did I find the magic lamp and did I know Francis de Waal, who went with a guy
called Klaas. She lived in the general Vetter Street. She had a sailing boat, called
BM, which I sailed on the Y, the Amsterdam harbor. Her father had a place on the Loosdrechtse
Plassen, and she went years later with Jorjen Mikmak from Haastje Repje...I always
wanted her; she had such small firm breasts and freckles, and raven black hair. I
never got her...&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp;&lt;/span&gt;Amsterdam,
opium, amphetamine van de mysterious Germ Schut, who came into my life one day when
I worked in “Broodje van Kootje”, trying to live with a terrible hangover. He offered
me a little white powder in my coffee. It worked wonders and in no time I was feeling
like new. That whole day I worked, cleaned, did everything efficiently, singing, happy,
without eating anything, feeling great. The hangover like never existed. Later Germ
took me to his house where he showed me the laboratory in his kitchen where he made
the white powder, and he gave me so much of it that I put it in a salt shaker and
had it in the pocket of my white working coat. I put it once in the coffee from my
boss, who then started to show me how to clean the cutting machine, he got so carried
away that after he cleaned the machine he started to clean the walls, the cupboards
and the floors. He asked me if I didn’t want to take off, because he felt so good
that he could carry on alone. 
&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;Germ himself and his friends would know
that I had the powder and they came in asking coffee or a sandwich “special”, which
meant I was to shake a little of what I learned was amphetamine powder on it. It was
not yet illegal and many people used it. I heard that that stuff was made first in
the second world war in Germany where the pilots that had to fly to England to drop
bombs and then fly back used it to stay awake on those too long trips. Hitler lost
the war, in spite of his drug, I did not use it very long, it gave me the shakes,
made me feel colder than it was already and too active, doing things that were done
already. In modern times that cheap nerve wrecking stuff has been replaced with the
more sophisticated cocaine, which does virtually the same, it activates, takes away
hunger and fatigue but gives me the nerves.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp;&lt;/span&gt;I live on the
third floor of a house in Rapenburg, called: “Hospital Little Lexington” , meet my
future to be wife Margona en her sister Carina, I am a junky then. Take lots of opium
and amphetamine and help other junks to shoot the stuff in their veins. When I go
there it is winter in Sweden, I recover, cold turkey style. Living at the house of
Margona’s mother with the “kakelung”, the built in corner stove&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;with
tiles all the way to the ceiling in which we burned wood that gave a wonderful warmth
so that you could be naked inside.&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&lt;/span&gt;
&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
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&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;
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&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;h1&gt;&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;a name="_Toc35765549"&gt;1967 &lt;/a&gt;&lt;span style=""&gt;&lt;span style="text-transform: uppercase;"&gt;&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp;&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/span&gt;&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp;&lt;/span&gt;Goat
year&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/h1&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp;&lt;/span&gt;Then starts
the most amazing trip with the two girls, without money, hitch hiking&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;through
Germany, Austria, Yugoslavia, Bulgaria, Turkey, Iran, and Afghanistan, back through
Iran, Turkey, Yugoslavia, Italy, France and Belgium. Carina met her future husband
Jannie, and Marcus was conceived in July or June on a French mountain slope near a
little river, so romantic, it was perfect. I have to elaborate on this trip a lot,
so much happened, me with two beauties in the Arab world.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;
&lt;o:p&gt;&amp;nbsp;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;h1&gt;&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;a name="_Toc35765550"&gt;1968 Monkey year&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/h1&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;I am 23 years old, getting 24 in December.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;I am in Sweden, I marry Margona Berit Margarita
Eriksson on 2 February in Malmo. April 7 Marcus Pinocchio gets born. When I am in
the room next to where the child gets delivered, I see myself unconsciously making
the classical greeting towards the place he got into our world. Right arm outstretched
45 degrees into the sky, Hail my boy. Welcome.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp;&lt;/span&gt;I found out
that I was a better than good baby sitter. Margona went out dancing and fooling around.
I could feel it when one night I went after her and saw her kissing this boy Joren
and I made a bad row. The relation ended after 5 years, we divorced.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;This year I visit the artist Sture Johannson,
and his friend K.G., who was studying psychology. He had in his house in the woods
cases full of books, gotten from shops to further his studies. I found my truly magic
book there, titled: the “Secret lore of Magic”, by Idries Shah, and he gave it to
me as a present.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;Sture created at that time already a painting
with a computer. Together we made a huge painting on a long paper roll. It hung later
in the Malmo Museum.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;I ordered psilocybin cacti, Lophophora
Williamsee, from a flower shop, to complete the cactus collection of my aunt, I told
the shopkeeper. He got them from Switzerland but could not buy less than 24 in a box.
No problem, I took them all. Once they had arrived, I cleaned them with Sture and
we cut them in slices. The cat that lived in that house came curiously and hit a cutting
with his paw, and became crazy, run all over the place, hung in the curtains, run
over the ceiling, even upside down.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;
&lt;o:p&gt;&amp;nbsp;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;1969&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;Rooster
year, I’m 24 getting 25&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;I am still in Sweden, am in a school to
learn Swedish and small appliance repairs. Visiting the &lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp;&lt;/span&gt;house
of K.G. in the Swedish jungle, bush sometime, I realized that I did not want to learn
any certain profession. I figured so; if I learn to be a carpenter I have to do that
for the rest of my life, if I learn to be a mechanic or electrician, the same, I will
be bored after a while. So I came to the conclusion that it would be better to become
a magician. To change water into wine, to change lead into gold, that would be nice
and never boring. K.G. just had gotten a case of books from a book company, all kinds
of odds and ends, to do with psychology or related subjects. The books left in the
case after he had taken what he needed were free for the taking. In it I found:” The
Secret Lore of Magic.” by Idries Reza Shah, the Sufi master who compiles books of
formulas, fairy tales and mystic information. He gave it to me as a present. That
book I studied and it has thought me a lot. I have it up to today.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;
&lt;o:p&gt;&amp;nbsp;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;
&lt;o:p&gt;&amp;nbsp;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;h1&gt;&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;a name="_Toc35765551"&gt;1970 Dog&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;year.&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/font&gt; 
&lt;/h1&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;I’m 25 going 26&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;I am healthy now, walk in Kungs Parken
in Malmo, with the baby a lot,learn good Swedish in three month at the language laboratory,
learn to repair adding machines, have a most&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;wonderful
black Mercedes 11 years old, wood paneling, narrow radiator front, plastic tulips
with lights on the hat shelf. Meet Sture Johannson, the painter artist author, his
water wheel house in the forest. Odessa, Rod Geiger, Katja of Sweden, the beauty of
the land, small trips to Copenhagen, to get stoned in&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;Cristiania.
Saw a magic Concert with Ian Anderson, Jethro Tull.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;Made a magic trip led by the instructions
of Sven Lyra, whereby I froze to death almost but thawed again in the house of a stranger.
That went as follows:&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;
&lt;o:p&gt;&amp;nbsp;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;h1&gt;&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;a name="_Toc35765552"&gt;1971&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;Pig&lt;/a&gt;&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/h1&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;Take a trip to Amsterdam after reading
somewhere about LSD and want to satisfy my curiosity. Hitch hike and arrive in the
night, raining and wet. Try to find a place to stay, end up in the Binnen Bantammer
street, at the attic of&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;some artist. &lt;/span&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;" lang="NL"&gt;(Ed
van der Elsken, Aad Veldhoen??) &lt;/span&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;The following morning
I go down into a place where I find pills, capsules with&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;the
letters VWSD, the V and the W interwoven like the Volkswagen logo. I knock on every
door, get no reply at all anywhere, start trying every door, 3 floors under the attic
top floor, only one opens, the one floor over the street level. It is like a kitchen
inside, but a kitchen where no cooking takes place. Cupboards but no pans and pots,
a counter, a sink, all spotlessly clean. I open&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;cupboards
in search for something to eat, I’m starving after&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;more
than 48 hours traveling and walking in the night before. Outside the sun shines through
the windows. nobody around. I find those pills, capsules more, I shake some, 5 maybe,
in my hand, in my pocket and I leave. I was looking for LSD, as I had read about,
was this it? I took one pill right away, drank some water from the tap and left, closed
the door behind me, it locked, when I tried it would not open again. Did the spirit
guide me? I descended the stairs, met a lady coming up. I asked her for some money
to buy something to eat and she gave me a gulden. I then went out, took an apple from
a fruit store display and walked into town. I did not feel anything and took another
pill. Started looking for&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;my old dwelling, did not eat,
walked and walked until I got the idea that I had some undefinable powers and could
heal the bad eyesight of the youngest princess of the royal family, and went on my
way to the royal house” Ten Bosch” which I knew was somewhere in Utrecht. By now I
was sky high.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;ended up in the jail because I did not
want to say my name&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;
&lt;o:p&gt;&amp;nbsp;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;h1&gt;&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;a name="_Toc35765553"&gt;1972&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;Rat&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/h1&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;Divorced officially
and returned to Amsterdam with a Volkswagen van or bus, first touring&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;Europe
from pop-concert to festival, to fancy fair, taking people with backpacks who paid
the fuel and food. Berlin, Madrid, Denmark, Paris, Zurich, Milan, Rome, Amsterdam,
until the car was almost finished. I stopped at a place where homeless smokers out
of the whole of Europe slept. The first night that I was trying to sleep on a normal
mattress in that house on the Amstel, later called the Yellow Submarine, a Spanish
guy with the name Manuel woke me up. He urged me to drive to Toledo, his hometown.
At first I refused, but his need was so urgent&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;that I
had to get up and help him. I had no money and he had none. We went to&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;the
American Express office at Rokin and put out a sign looking for hitch hikers to Paris.&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;A
few turned up and with a tank full, and food, we left with 4 passengers in the back,
Miguel and I in front. In Paris we waited at the Am Ex office for people that wanted
to go south. We got a few for Basel, Switserland, so we went. Look at a road map,
it is only a few hundred kilometers. There we found an English couple for Barcelona.
I remember the Englishman was going to drive, I was exhausted. We had stopped for
a break somewhere in the middle of an orchard of endless rows of trees full of nuts,
we collected a big gray garbage bag full.&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;We slept a few
hours on the side of the road, but Miguel kept on pressing me with an unbelievable
urgency.&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;So we where on the road again and the English
fellow on the wheel. I dozing next to him, his girlfriend on the passenger seat by
the right side door. Suddenly the driver wanted to overtake a truck, and started the
maneuver, but halfway another car coming towards us from the opposite direction forced
him back behind the truck. Slowing down he started to slip in behind the lorry again
but went too soon, and touched the left back corner of the truck with the right front
corner of the van. So hard that the right window broke, the doorpost bent and the
door opened. Seat belts did not exist yet and the woman fell out. We stopped and went
immediately to see how she was. It looked like her arm was broken, she hurt a lot
and we had to find medical help. It took some time before we found a hospital in a
small town in the south of France, I forgot the name. After many well wishes, we left
them there, what could I do? Miguel was all upset about the time we had lost and tried
to speed me up to go faster to Toledo, the town where he lived. I had to make a bamboo
frame to hold the plastic I put in place of the broken window on the passenger side.
Thanks God it was such an old model that it still had a separation between the two
front windows. At least we could continue. The urgency was still there and I never
questioned Miguel, I just could feel his need for speed and tried to help. We drove
on that night, through Madrid and on to Toledo. When the sun came up we entered a
big parking place next to a cathedral or some such building. I only remember the very
high walls, surrounding the empty square. Only one person was there, with a broom
or something like a bag in his hand. He&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;and Miguel recognized
each other and exchanged greetings. Then they talked in Spanish which at the time
I did not understand. A little later Miguel explained.&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;We
had arrived a short while after his father had died. He had fallen into a deep ravine,
the day before, right on the moment we had the collision with the truck...&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;I left him there and went back to Amsterdam
alone. Found passengers along the road,&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;drove relaxed
and slept in the van when passengers unrolled their sleeping bags outside. Back to
the house at the Amstel. There I met other people like me who had no place to live
and no money.&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;Social welfare gave me some pittance, enough
to survive, and the Kraakbeweging&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;told about a big house
they had spotted which stood empty and was ready to be opened up. Enough people had
to be ready to enter and occupy, so the Kraak Beweging could claim another building 
&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;
&lt;o:p&gt;&amp;nbsp;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;h1&gt;&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;a name="_Toc35765554"&gt;1973&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;Ox&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/h1&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp;&lt;/span&gt;Magic times
in A’dam, Ali Baba, magic bus shows, dragon performance, concert in the Tropen Museum
with Ravi Shankar.Oude Zijds Voorburg Wall. That was a most magic place. I was at
the time practicing magic and had become town magician. Made so by Pi, the bus owner
for whom I arranged the Dragon act and other show pieces. 
&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;As town magician I was asked to stop the
traffic in the center of town. I did my prayers and asked the Highest to help me.
Unbelievably, some kind of international trouble made the world oil so scarce that
we in Holland got a car free Sunday. That was the best I could deliver and we towed
the Magic Bus with ropes through the town on the Sundays we had found tourists that
wanted to come with us... The next request I got was as difficult as the first. They
asked me to stop the building of the Metro, the local subway, the underground train.
It was to connect the outskirts of Oost, the Bijlmer, with the city. For the building
in the muddy swamp like Amsterdam ground a special way of building was required. The
tunnel through which the trains were to go could not be dug through the grounds, as
in Paris and Moscow and London. It had to be made as a tunnel, caissons where lowered
in the mud the same as through a body of water as they had done to connect Amsterdam
with the north and in Rotterdam, under the waterways. Whole areas of the city had
to disappear, a hole had to be dug, tunnel segments lowered and connected, the hole
filled up and new living quarters built on top. For that system living areas where
people where born, had grown up and lived, had to be demolished. That went not without
heavy emotions. Sometimes Police had to help clear areas where citizens resisted progress.&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;At
places heavy fights had raged between city police and citizens that wanted to stay.
Water canon and bricks against each other, wounded people on both sides. Now they
came to me to ask to stop the building of the underground train... I devised a plan
as follows: I compared, or symbolized the tunnel with a bad dragon who came digging
his way towards the heart of the town. So I made a dragon from cloth and bamboo. Then
I had the tourists that came to take a tour of the town on the Magic Bus dress in
the dragon. I had them walk around the building called: de Waag, now it is the Jewish
Museum on the Nieuwe Markt, the area that was under direct threat of the devastation
of the Metro. The dragon was&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;
&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;
&lt;o:p&gt;&amp;nbsp;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;
&lt;o:p&gt;&amp;nbsp;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;Let me tell you about that place. When
you stood&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;on the street facing the building you saw&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;4
house fronts, each some three or four stories high, topped off with those famous Amsterdam
gable-roofs, some&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;curved like a bell or clock, some like
a whipped cream pie and another straight like a stair. On the left was the “Zwarte
Hand Steeg”, the black hand alley, on the other side the “Sint Nicolaas Steeg”, the
Sint Nicolaus Alley. The&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;four houses were&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;hundreds
of years old and had&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;gable stone plaques with names. The
house that I was to occupy had one that said: ”De Groene Hekels”. A “hekel” being
a piece of wood with nails put through it, and turned upside down, not unlike the
bed of a fakir. To make ropes&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;and other&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;materials
from fires, hemp was used. The stems of the hemp plant where beaten on the hekel and&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;pulled
over it so that the fires parted length wise. The juice from the hemp plants was making
the hekel green, groen in Dutch. From there the name. In the place they must have
made fires for the making of sails and ropes&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;for the boats
that went all over the world in the times of the great&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;discoveries.
The house next to it had the name: “Prince of Orange”. Recently the four buildings
had housed a company&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;whose business was yarn, wool, ribbons,
buttons and all&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;things for sewing. Inconvenient in the
middle of town the company had moved&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;to the outskirts&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;and
the building was standing empty for a long time. Due to the great housing shortage
squatting,(kraken) was in high fashion. Squatting meaning the occupying of empty buildings
by youngsters who could not find a affordable room to rent. Students, laborers, all
kind of people did that and the law said that once a room&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;was
occupied, had a bed, a chair and a table, it was considered a dwelling and one could
not be evicted. Not be evicted unless the&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;owner would
provide an equivalent to the place to be abandoned. So a group of young people had
formed and was ready to occupy the building. It was in the first days of December,
and the best possible day to open a door in the Sint Nicolaas Steeg was on the very
birthday of the Good Holy Man, the night of 5 December. In Holland, Saint Nicolaus’
Birthday is celebrated throughout the country. The tradition comes from long ago and
has become a national event. Two weeks before his birthday on 6 December he arrives
by boat, on his white horse and accompanied by his black helpers. They are called
his Black Peters. He comes from Spain say the songs that small children sing at schools
and before the chimney of their houses every evening. They place their shoes with
in it something for the horse of Sinterklaas to eat; some dry grass or a big carrot.
They do this every night until the great event itself, that takes place on the evening
of 5 December. The songs are very nice and pretty, easy melodies and have high moral
content. In the morning a sweet has replaced the hay and the carrot in the shoe&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;for
the children that Sinterklaas rewards, a whip of twines for those that need punishment.
Then on the night of 5 December, a loud knock on the door makes the children run to
open and two things can happen. Or the Saint himself is there with a bag full of presents,
and he starts handing them out, or the bag of presents is there and a note says that
he is so busy that he could not come in person... If he has come with his Zwarte Piet,
he sits down, gets a glass of something and gives the presents to the children and
members of the family. The presents are always accompanied by a poem. It must be read
aloud and always says something about the person receiving the present. You must know
that the family members make the presents themselves, only the smallest children still
believe that the Saint is real. Bon, so the door of the great building was opened
by the door crackers, who always where masked and did their deed in secret, alone
and anonymous, because that was the illegal part. Once a persons could swear for God
and Fatherland that the door had been found open, and that they had not opened it
by force themselves, no law could get them out. I was one of the first group and I
could reserve a place for me to occupy. The buildings of 4 houses had been interconnected
with corridors, steps up and down as the levels where not at all the same. On the
ground floor though was a reception room, very big and spacy. That later became our
conference room and later tea and coffee bar and resting-place for weary, worn out
travelers. I found at first inspection a place on the first floor, with only one entrance
door, that had a sign, hand painted in old fashioned letters saying: “De Schatkamer”,
meaning:&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;“The Treasure Room”. It was low ceiling with
big heavy beams and 10 meters long one wall and 12 meters the other wall, 4 meters
wide. It had a trapdoor to an attic that was right under the roof tiles. Another room
without a door of 4x4 meters became my sleeping room. As the Oude Zijds Voorburg Wall
had once long ago been a canal, the house had been a warehouse or factory where rope
was made. It had big opening doors that opened at the street side. On the top of the
attic was a hoisting hook to attach a hoist . pulley and rope for things to be brought
in and out. Later when I was installed and we had somehow arranged with the town electricity
company to get power, I would swing open the street doors, remember it was high over
the street itself, I had a flagpole and hoisted the Dutch flag, a huge one and I played
on an amplifier, very loud, at sunrise, the Dutch national anthem, the Whilhelmus...&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;
&lt;o:p&gt;&amp;nbsp;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp;&lt;/span&gt;Crazy Charlie
came into my life one day. I was walking home over the Dam, when he approached me
for a gulden. To call his former girlfriend as he just came from a visit in a Belgian
jail. He had no where to go and hoped his former girlfriend would give him shelter
He had done time for falsifying certificates of authenticity for antiques. He had
made new copper pots old by pouring acid on them and burying them in the ground for
a while. He then sold them with a certificate of origin stamped and signed by the
secretary of the BADA, the Belgian Antique Dealers Association, with rubber stamps
and all. Charlie would later enlighten me with more tricks than the book holds. I
took him in, first for only a few days in my own front room, later&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;he
got his own room in the house, there was still empty space enough. My neighbor was
Indonesian Tommy, my self appointed Ambonese body guard. He was surely to be respected.
His room was empty but for a mattress, a blanket, a pot, a pan and some bricks. Unwanted
persons in his room he would repel, if needed with brick in hand... To cook he arranged
the bricks and made a little fire, right in the huge room. His room was as big as
mine, but entirely empty.&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;He would hang around in my place
and when asked to get out, he told me that he&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;was my guard,
as I was spiritual boss and magician and had some high rank in the hierarchy of freaks
in that house. In my big room was a secret Seal of Solomon, the King of the Old Testament.
It was hidden under a carpet, not to be crossed as a hammock was slung right over
it. Also a piano had been brought through the loading doors with the hoist, brought
by Charlie on the repaired Tricycle...&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;
&lt;o:p&gt;&amp;nbsp;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;Charlie asked me to help him with what
he called a moral issue; paying a debt of honor. 
&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;Before he went to Belgium, he was in Amsterdam,
hence his&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;girlfriend. It had never been a good relation
and he was happy to get to live in&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;my/our amazing squatted
building.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;When he was in Amsterdam that time long
ago, he told me, he was often approached by youngsters who asked for a little money.
Hippies who came to the magic city, poor kids and druggies from all over the world.
They used to sleep for free in the Vondelpark or on the stairs from the monument on
the Dam. True enough, these guys roamed the streets, begging for a hand out that was
a known fact. In those days the parking of cars in the city had become a major problem
and the first parking meters had appeared on the streets. As he had been educated
a professional lock smith, he figured a way to help the poor kids. He would make a
key for the parking meters and give these to the kids who needed money. He explained
that the piggy banks where all over the place and the key holders could serve them
self. For his locksmith eye, the first ones where simple constructions and he easily
made keys and gave them away, just for his own satisfaction. He never told me how
he did it, he also never showed me later. He was proud of himself, to have such generous
and helpful idea. It did not take long for the police to find him out. He was arrested
and led before a magistrate. This entire episode happened long before I knew him.
He told me this in great detail. The punishment for his crime of giving out keys for
the parking meters was difficult for the prosecutor and the judge to determine. One,
the legality of the very parking meters was in question. It was still in discussion
who had the right to how high tax the streets and, two; Charlie had not damaged anything
or stolen anything himself, three, the amount of money that had been stolen by the
key holding kids could not be determined. So the judge gave Tirol Charlie a serious
warning. He held the following speech: 
&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;“This time you will get away with a warning.
Be informed however that the next generation parking meters will be much better constructed
now that you have pointed out that they are vulnerable. I bet you will not be able
to open those. Be informed that a law will be in place to protect them, so do not
be tempted.”&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;Charlie then must have answered the following
said he to me: 
&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;“Your Honor, thank you for offering me
a bet, I heard you loud and clear, and I accept the bet. My honor as a lock smith
is at stake and I bet you that I can open them.” 
&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;He now asked me to stand by him to defend
his honor and help him with his task. Hard to refuse such challenge, and I agreed.
We went out for an inspection of the newly placed modern parking meters. They looked
indeed impressive. Mounted on a 2 inch steel pipe, embedded in a block of concrete,
buried deep in the ground they where practically immovable. Investigating them at
location with a tent built around was not impossible but impractical, so it was decided
to get one. To study it in the privacy of his workshop. To get one we developed an
ingenious device, a movable tent, to work discretely removal. In Holland we have&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;transport
tricycles for big loads, the front is a wooden flatbed of almost a meter and a half
square that rests on an axle with two wheels. The driver sits on a saddle on top of
the back wheel and his feet turn the drive chain. His hands move the flatbed in the
direction the contraption is going. We had found a tricycle like that in a carport
off St. Nicolaus Alley. Covered by a layer of dust with flat tires it had stood there
many a&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;year. We mounted sticks on the four corners and
connected those with horizontal bars. About one meter high was it. Then we covered
the frame with cloth, old carpets and tarpaulin. It was now a box big enough to hold&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;a
man. Charlie had obtained a huge pipe cutter and we made a slit 3 inch wide, in front
of the wooden flatbed, with a handsaw, all the way till the axle, about the middle
of the box. The chariot was now ready for action. It was pushed with Charlie inside,
two tires where still flat, only one held air.&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;All the
way across the wide O.Z.Voorburgwal, into a narrow alley on across another street
through an alley, onto the Singel. Over a steep bridge until&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;we&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;selected
a parking meter at a dark corner. It was a very rainy and cold night.&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;On
approaching the empty parking spot I pointed straight to the metal pipe holding the
the parking meter. Straight on the front and touching, through into the slit, right
into the box that held Charlie.&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;I&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;walked
away while he did his cutting. In case of a night stroller, a dog walker or a late
home goner coming to close,&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;I was to whistle a certain
melody. A few minutes later I heard the muffled “All Clear” signal from within and
pulled the tricycle away from there. Heading up the steep bridge to turn left and
get home as fast as possible. Looking back I saw a short steel pipe sticking out of
the street. Nobody would even miss the parking meter that once had been there. The
trip back home was uneventful and&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;Charlie carried his
loot wrapped in a cloth with him to his dwelling. 
&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;
&lt;o:p&gt;&amp;nbsp;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;I did not see him for a few weeks but one
day&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;Charlie came up with a bunch of keys. “It is time
to try out my work, come along, you have to watch for me, part of the deal.” 
&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;He explained that the meters had indeed
not been easy to crack, they needed three keys to get at the money. One to open the
top, two to free the box which held the coins and three to open and empty it. The
box was attached on a strong thin chain. We went out on a dark stormy night. He dressed
in his black raincoat with a multitude of inner pockets that held pliers, cutters,
breaking iron and the rest. All of the tools of his trade. On his head a rolled up
baklava, on his hands thin gloves. I put my dark winter coat and gloves and out we
went. After midnight we spotted the perfect parking meter, between two parked cars,
just there where a street lamp was not working. While Charlie started to insert one
key after the other, I walked around again with that crazy melody in my head. Nobody
would disturb him. At one of my next passes he came away triumphantly and I heard
the sound of silver. He attacked the next one much more confidently, but needed a
lot of time. Three keys to try passkeys that would fit one row of a street, next street
needed another key again. His bunch held many, I saw sometimes a glimpse of his doings,
a flash of many keys in the windy night under a tree that moves and rustles and the
wind is raving in autumn in Amsterdam, but he send me away. The next one took quiet
a while to open. At a spot that was a bit more exposed he would just open the top,
insert the next key to get the money box,get the money box out and cut the chain with
a special strong chain cutting pliers, put the box in one of his deep pockets and
move on.&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;How many he opened&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;I
don't recall, but Later that night we drank on his success in a a few bars and later
in an all night bar and always paid with coins, we bought cigarettes from coin operated
slot machines, we ate at an automatic food dispenser, all with coins and we still
had heavy&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;pockets when we got home. A few days later he
asked me to come again but then I reclined. My argument being that I helped him keep
his bet with the judge, to defend his honor, as his assisted in honorable matters,&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;but
I was not going to be a burglar, no thank you so much. He accused me of cowardice
and&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;more stupidness, but who was the stupid one when a
few weeks later he was again behind bars for a good while? Of course he had made keys
for others and of course they had been caught and of course they had talked. I did
not see Charlie for a few month, however, again punishment was not severe and he did
come back. He then managed to reinstall electricity in our building.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp;&lt;/span&gt;During&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;Charlie’s
absence the building had become home to some 30 or 40 youngsters, one or two elder
people between them. I was respected as house_magician and my room had a piano, a
hammock, a huge table with a hole that was for a self built counter with a good size
sink and a cooking stove.&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;The place had been a store room
in the days that it was built and had two doors of wood that opened unto the street,
although we were on the third floor. From the attic a beam stuck out on which a hook
to hold a pulley and rope was attached. With that&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;they
pulled up loads from the boats that came through the canal that was there long ago.
The canal was filled up years before and at present iron rails where on that very
wide street on which many fast noisy yellow tram line cars passed every few minutes
on their iron wheels. The room was 6 meters wide and 12 meters long, had thick oak
beams all along and was low in the ceiling. In the morning&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;I
opened the doors over the street at sunrise and stuck out the Dutch&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;national
flag and played the national anthem on an old tape recorder with amplifier that made
it audible for every one in the neighborhood.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;The people living in the building&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;came
together every week in the great hall downstairs. We had decided that only one door
should be opened, and that everybody should be known to the group of starters and
that someone should be at the door at all times. Beautiful ideas but impossible to
realize. No or very little money made everything difficult. Electricity would be sold
to the building by the city company as long as the bill got paid. So the first collection
between the inhabitants went fine, the second also, but the third time the guy who
was collecting split with the money. It was about 600 gulden and more than we could
raise again. We lived some time without electricity. Water was still there, although
that came from some system with garden hoses hooked up to water pipes from other buildings
nearby. Gas lamps, oil lamps, I even had a system with a little engine that made a
bicycle wheel turn that had two dynamos on it that provided 6 volt little bulbs that
lighted&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;my room, very pretty, like Christmas. Charlie
came to the rescue again. It was in those days that he was released from jail for
his parking meter stunt. Many freaks where now living in the building and there was
no togetherness any more in those days.. Not every body knew every body else, other
doors where opened to the Black Hand Alley and the Sint Nicolaus Alley, partitions
had been blocked off, it was a mess and started looking like a junky place. I stayed
away from most of that and the weekly meetings did not take place any more. Some of
the original beginners group still came&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;to my&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;room
when there were problems. And so it happened that their&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;came
a person&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;to call me to come down to the big hall downstairs.
That hall had been transformed in&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;a place where street
roamers, Vondelpark sleepers, junkies and beggars could find a moment of rest. We
served sandwiches and coffee and tea, hot chocolate for cost price and had a fountain
in the middle with an old washing machine pump giving a jet of water that fell back
on itself. It was made of concrete. The furniture was made of&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;wooden
beams that lay next to train rails, indestructible, strong and heavy so that a blind
horse could do no damage. Any way, I had to come down, it was urgent, Hells Angels
had&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;come in and were threatening the crowd. So I put on
my magic cloak, a big black Moroccan cloak that was patched with&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;hundreds
of small pieces of cloth. I&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;was wearing my parrot suit,
as I called it, a trousers and shirt&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;also made of small
patches. A colorful hat from the Andes topped it of. Down I went into the big hall.
At the bar counter stood a&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;person dressed as a Hell’s
Angel. Leather jacked, studded with metal&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;points, boots,
long dirty hair, cowboy gloves, a broad belt with a big metal buckle. He was obvious
in charge, other Hell’s Angels were scattered over the place, the regulars looked
disturbed and afraid. I approached the person and looked at him. He looked me over.
And asked me who I was and what I wanted. So I told him I was in charge and that I
was the house-magician. He laughed at my face and I was a bit at a loss for words.
I bend down my head and&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;looked down towards my toes. And
saw a ring laying on the floor at my feet. Impulsively I stooped and picked it up.
I held the ring up, right in the face of the man in front of me and I said to him:
“As sure as this ring fits your little finger, so sure will you never get our house.
If we cannot keep it, it will burn to the ground and nobody will have it.” His hand
was there and I slipped the little gold ring straight on his right pinkie. He looked
astonished at his hand with the ring on his pinkie, then he looked at me, turned around
and slowly walked out of the place. The other Angels followed him and soon they all
where gone. I lived there for a while and one day&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;I heard
a loud commotion outside my door. Opening, I found Tommy at the top of the stairs
and two young policemen laying in a heap downstairs. The two wanted to come up for
an inspection walk. The place was open, and not any more a private house, they had
orders from their superiors to see if everything was all right inside. They looked
at it as an extension of the street and had the right as was their duty to see if
law and order were respected.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;Tommy had thrown the two young police men
down the stairs, he thought it his plight to keep uniforms away from my floor, or
door. I had opened the door to see what the commotion was all about and I saw the
two young policemen down the stairs, scramble up onto their legs and dust off their
coats. They threatened revenge and closure of the house and arrest and return in full
force. That looked bad. What 
&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;had Tommy in his head when he threw the
two down the stairs. I proposed to go to the police station to apologize. And on the
way to the Warmoesstraat we bought a bunch of roses. Inside the station I asked for
the boss. We left the flowers for the men downstairs and climbed up to the head-chief
of the force. He met us, Tommy never said a word, and when he found out what we came
for he called me Ali Baba, leader of the 40 thieves. I then told him that I didn’t
mind to be called Ali Baba, but I did not want to be mistaken for the leader of the
bandits. Then I asked permission to tell him the true story of Ali Baba and the 40
thief. Warning that it would take a while, he let me tell it. That story is long and
I took a short version of at least half an hour. After that the sympathy was restored,
and he told me to look out for another dwelling. The house had become a gathering
place for junkies and street criminals. It was not anymore the idealistic squatters
paradise as we had started it. Doors where opened at different spots, corridors blocked,
control was impossible, we did not know anymore who was living there and where. Tommy
and I went back and had no trouble from his impulsive behavior that morning. My apology
had worked.&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;
&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;Also this year: the Tiroler terrorist,
Charlie made an electric door protection so that nobody could touch the door without
getting a shock. On Keizersgracht 65 was a party, as never had been in town. Mr. Irving
Fox with fat wife and daughter Plum where living at the squatters palace which formerly
had been a monastery, with small rooms for the monks, a huge eating room and big kitchen,
a chapel and inner yard. All that in the middle of the ancient heart Amsterdam. The
party was in costume. I happened to find an outfit as an old fashioned caleche driver,
horseman, with cylinder hat, gloves, whip, boots and frock coat. Later that day I
put a Sinterklaas outfit and came dressed for the night as the good holy Saint. There
was LSD and grass, hashish and at that time for me new sex movies, girls and boys
in weird outfits, masked and dressed up like you never seen before. Drinks where in
cauldrons placed on huge tables and the chapel was decorated with balloons and garlands.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;The Magic Bus was a chapter on its own.
Let me tell you what that was: 
&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;the boat&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;Cornelia,
fishing on the North Sea, meet the Paris girl named Gwendolyn with her lesbian Australian
friend Annie, With whom&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;I have sex together in the house
of Pi. Gwen later invites me to Paris where I am to deflower her younger sister, Michelle.
My knee locks up from the Russian dancing I did on board the “Rotterdam”, years ago,
and I get operated by the fantastic young Swiss doctor Marti. I recover on the Cornelia.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;
&lt;o:p&gt;&amp;nbsp;&lt;/o:p&gt;
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&lt;h1&gt;&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;a name="_Toc35765555"&gt;1974 Tiger year&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
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&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;Back in Amsterdam, I meet old man Johannes
Gerrit Zwertbroek in May and start to live in the Hartenstraat 19 in August or September.
I got my big heated waterbed. Van Veen died and I lived in the downstairs shop. Met
Tsuyoshi Hayashi, we call him Sammy. &lt;/span&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;" lang="NL"&gt;Cafe
‘t Heertje. &lt;/span&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;Secrets of magic, 
&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
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&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;Here I have to add a lot.&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;
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&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;
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&lt;h1&gt;&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;a name="_Toc35765556"&gt;1975&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;Cat&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/h1&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;A comfortable
year, meet Peter Vega, run the shop, deal hash, go out, show 8mm movies to the kids,
organize in the ‘Old Bakery’, Zorro and Charley Chaplin evenings. Learn to fly small
airplanes at Lelystad airport. Learn to ride horses the right way in Zandvoort. Have
the most wonderful Citroen DS. 
&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;
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&lt;h1&gt;&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;a name="_Toc35765557"&gt;1976&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;Dragon&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/font&gt; 
&lt;/h1&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;Later
that year, Kaatje Stamm comes into my life, first she lived upstairs from grandfather,
later with me. A mouse brought us together. One night I heard Catherine scream loud,
as if she was assaulted or attacked. I could hear her scream clearly although she
was two stairs down, along a corridor and two stairs up.&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;I
went down my stairs, threw myself through a little window, which was a shortcut to
her building, flew up another stairs and entered her room. She stood there with her
hands for her mouth on her bed, trembling. When I looked around the room, and saw
nothing out of the ordinary I asked her what happened, she cried that she had seen
a mouse. I held her hand and brought her down to sit on the bed. She shivered a little
and I sat down next to her, holding her softly, talking sweetly and soothing words
to her. She calmed down and relaxed a little. Her young lean body felt still tense,
but also smooth and strong, and I started stroking her, her back, her spine and the
side of her thigh. My other hand felt her small tight breast carefully, and she did
not seem to mind, I explored a little more, it felt so good and her nipple became
hard. In a moment I moved my hand down her flat stomach to her Venus mount. Her night
gown was of a flimsy material and in the moon light coming through the window I could
see her bush of golden hair shine in the low light. I was getting horny beyond return
and&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;started to feel her all over, and then, oh Lord be
praised, her hands found me and she closed her eyes as she held me with both arms
tenderly close to her. I slipped my hand under her nightly and lifted it up over her
head and let it drop away. My face nuzzled her breasts and I kissed the smooth skin
between them. My lips moved from one stiff nipple to the other and she sighed so deep.
She was now next to me in all her 19 springtime’s young glory and her white skin shone
as she trembled a little and I started to undo the buttons of my pants. She helped
me wriggle out of my pants and shirt and I pushed her body softly backward upon the
pillows. She lay down and I could see in the dim light the rosy color on her cheeks,
her throat and her breast. I bend over her, kissed her softly on the forehead and
whispered softly soothing sweet nothings in her ear, all the while feeling her little
breasts and her stomach way down to the golden bush around her little clitoris that
was moist and started to swell and throb. A little deeper down I could feel her warm
yoni lips getting wetter, her juices started flowing seriously. Her breathing became
shallower and faster now and she was all over my head and my back with her hands.
My finger felt it getting slippery down there. She was now holding me with both arms.
She pressed me closer to her. I led her hand to my swollen member and she shivered
all over when she felt my hard rod. From there it was a small step to get into position
so that my member touched her bush with impatience. She led my trembling rod towards
her juicy love cave and inserted the head of my willing willy slowly into her tight
wet warm hungry hole.&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;We merged, we became one and united
completely. Slowly I started pressing my wonder wand into her warm tight puss. She
opened her legs as wide as they would go, she arched her buttocks up so as to take
me in as deep as possible, my bush was rubbing hers. The feeling took me beyond earthly
emotions, stars started to explode in my head. Our two bodies were one body, our movements
were the holy union of the creating God. We made intense sweet love for a long and
divine time. In the dim light I saw that her eyes were closed, her lips parted and
with her mouth half open she gave a moan out of the depth of her throat.&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;A
little later she tensed and I could feel how my throbbing member got squeezed inside
her, and my love juice squirted out in an explosion of creation. She arched her back
and with a loud scream she climaxed. Then she relaxed completely, and I had the most
peaceful, divine feeling. Filled with holy love I took in that sweetest of all sights
as I slowly disentangled myself from her. I sat on my knees in devotion to behold
the lovely shape of her body. I kissed her eyes, her mouth, her breasts and her stomach
over and over again, as she was on the verge of falling asleep. I covered her with
the sheets and softly told her I loved her. Before I left I said to call me again
as soon as another mouse would scare her. She smiled and fell deep asleep.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;From then on Catherine and I were lovers
and we continued to have sweet sex most every day. We did it in the weirdest places,
at any odd time, but that is another story. 
&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
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&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;I met the polish girl Margaretha&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;Klimszack
almost a year&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;before I met Catherine, on a night&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;I
was walking home from the nightclub&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;“Oxhoofd”. She stood
with another girl looking into a shop window with office furniture. A curious thing
to look at in the middle of the night and so I addressed the two girls. I found out
that they were sisters, one living here and the other, called Margaretha going back
to Poland tomorrow. But wow, was she pretty, and I invited them to come to my place.
I just had hung dozens of paintings on the walls of the shop. A friend had them in
his sous-terrain but it was so humid there after a water pipe had burst, that he had
asked me to have them for the while. My place looked like an art shop, an art gallery
almost, only it was too full, not a bit of the walls was visible. Landscapes, portraits,
buildings, castles, animals, flowers, an abundance of images. The girls looked with
awe and wonder at the paintings and at me. How sorry I was that Margaretha had to
go the next day. We exchanged addresses, I poured a glass of wine, and walked with
them to the taxi stop at the corner. She returned to Poland and we started writing
many letters during something like a year. In that time I arranged a visa for her
so she could come to visit. I had to get her health insurance, copies from her passport
and all kind of papers. When that was done she could come to stay a few weeks. To
invite somebody from what was then a communist country, I had to do a lot of things,
ask permission to the immigration ministry, I had to pay for health insurance for
the duration of her stay, show copies of her papers, passport, birth certificate and
so on to the local police. When finally all that was done I could send her some visa,
she had to go to the embassy in Warsaw, have pass photos made, bring birth certificate
and what not. When finally, after a year of corresponding, she arrived by train. I
went to welcome her with my big French automobile, the luxury Citroen. I fetched her
from Amersfoort, a few stops before Amsterdam, she would have to change train there,
so it was simpler to get her &lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp;&lt;/span&gt;in Amersfoort.&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;When
I saw her she was as beautiful as ever, and my heart skipped a beat. She kissed me,
as if we were old time lovers and I helped her in the car. Because of my relation
with Catherine I was used to have sex regular and my member was half hard most all
of the time, just thinking of it, seeing pretty women and so, when Margaret kissed
me, I felt my member swell at once. She may have felt it already because soon after
we had sex.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;From the station I drove to the Loosdrechtse
Plassen, a couple of inland lakes with pleasure boats. It was a nice summer day and
I stopped at a place where small sailing boats where for rent. Margareta looked all
around and enjoyed the scenery. I rented a boat, and she and me sailed over the smooth
waters of the lake. No noise, no pollution, after the long train ride she relaxed
and basked in the warmth of the sun. I then sailed the little boat straight into the
shore where it was hidden in the high reeds at once. I lowered the sails and tied
the bow to a small tree.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;We started talking about how nice it was
that she had come, how happy I was to see her, we kissed again this time a bit more
intense, her tongue explored my mouth and my hands went over her beautiful breasts.
It was no great problem to get her out of her shirt and soon I had the immense pleasure
to kiss her firm breasts and hard nipples. It went a bit fast and impatient, the getting
out of our clothes and the exploring of the bodies, and before I realized we were
united. Her naked body lay on top of our clothes on the floor of the small boat, with
the sun shining and I so full of lust, it was a wonderful young power play. Her hair
was black as a raven and her eyes dark brown, her eyebrows dark and well defined.
She closed her eyes and held out her arms. I lowered myself onto her body and my stiff
member throbbed to enter her wet love cave, hidden in the black bush of curly hair.
Our bodies touched and an electric power united us as if we were welded together.
My member pushed towards her slippery opening, she helped with her hand to open her
lips so that my dick could enter smoothly. I pushed slowly deeper and deeper. She
moaned of pleasure and want. We moved in unison, we made love as two Gods becoming
One. The sex was intense and liberating, it was a Holy Communion, an old, deep desire
finally fulfilled. Unconsciously I had waited one year for this moment. Now that it
took place the world disappeared, stars exploded, creation took place and we were
love for true. As it came to a climax, the boat was rocking and rolling and little
waves slapped on to the hull. We were in total harmony with nature; a bird came briefly
to sit on the top of the mast when we lay next to each other, wallowing luxuriously
in the afterglow of our lovemaking. A little later we dressed and sailed back to the
place where the car was parked and we continued to Amsterdam.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;Then I was with Catherine, and I explained
to both of them how it had come to happen that they were both my lovers now. They
graciously accepted the situation and I then had two women for a period of six weeks.
They each had their own room and I slept one night with one, next night with the other.
I was not yet so experienced in love matters that I knew how to get them to do it
together with me. Years later I got that wonderful experience also. With two lovely
young black women.&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;Now always with one at the time, we
never made a trio, that idea just did never came up. That situation lasted for the
time that Margareta stayed with us, and then she went back to Poland. I lost contact
with her, but I look back with tender feelings to those days of love. I was dealing
in antiques and hashish, art and second hand goods, undeclared wine and other goods.
I learned to fly small airplanes. I was very successful and had lots of money. It
made me arrogant I learned later. I used to say that I put my black money in the white
clouds and that if any customer did not get high from the stuff I sold, he could come
with me on the next flying lesson. If my hash did not make him high, I would take
him a mile high in the sky.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;It was in those days that a fishing boat
called the “Lammie” was stopped by the custom boats of the coast guard in the North
Sea. The crew sunk the boat when they surrendered to the Coast Guard. Later the captain,
who was rescued, said for the press that he had 20 tons of hashish on board from Morocco.&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;When
the military and custom police raised the boat later from the seabed, the newspapers
reported that only 15 tons of hash was on board. For many months after that Moroccan
hashish was on the market slightly water damaged...&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;Wouter sold it, that he worked together
with the authorities was clearer than water after that. 
&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp;&lt;/span&gt;I got a Citroen
DS the luxe from two boys, heroin addicts who returned from a European trip that depleted
all the inherited money of the one named Ramon, whose mother had left him a big amount,
she had been a famous singer.&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;I sail on the harbor and
the lakes with a BM, as we call the small gaff rigged sailing boats that are so popular
in Holland. Old brother John is enjoying the last year of his life tremendously. I
get set-up by my hash supplier Wouter who lived on the Overtoom.&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;Those
days as always it was not legal to have more than a few grams. 
&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;One day he told me that he was going away
for a week or so on vacation and he wants to give me a few kilos in stock as I always
moved a good amount every week. I refused, arguing that I have no safe stash, no good
hiding place and do not want to keep anything at home. The dealing went normally as
follows. The customer would come to my place, see and try the samples that where there,
decided on the amount, quality and price and would give me the money. I would go to
one of my dealers, I had three reliable ones, Cesar, Peter and Wouter and I could
buy from any of them what I wanted. I would mostly go out with the money on a pushbike.
On the way I stopped at a green grocer to buy some oranges, apples or something like
that. Then I went to the dealer, paid cash for the hashish and left. I put the hashish
in the bag with the fruits and peddle to a prearranged meeting spot somewhere in town.
There I would hand over the merchandise to the customer. It would never enter my house-shop.
Wouter protested, said he wanted to be my supplier and I should take his offer. I
still refused and left. It was a Saturday, and I had to do the shopping for the weekend,
Catherine would cook. I went to the market, strolled by all the stands with delicious
vegetables, ate a salt herring and drank a coffee. I was still a meat eater and went
to a butcher shop. Inside I had completely forgotten what to buy. So I used the phone
that hung on the wall in the shop to call home and ask Catherine what to buy. When
I got her on the line, she told me that 6 policemen had entered the shop and that
they had found a suitcase with some 20 kilo of hashish. That suitcase was brought
there about an hour before by a friend of Wouter who had said it was for me. The policemen
where in the house and also had found some mushroom powder, that was a natural drug,
not yet illegal, but the hashish was still a subject for prosecution. I asked to speak
with the police officer in charge, who was immediately on the phone. I told him that
the stuff was not mine and asked his name. Then I explained that I had to go see my
grandfather in the old people’s home. I said that the day would soon come to an end,
that Sunday was next and why not would I see him in his office the next Monday?&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;After
that call I went to Glenn, a good freaky friend of very high potential. I told him
of what happened and he went to my house to fetch passport and money. Next day I found
myself in Greece. Glenn could not drive, but his German girlfriend Hanna could. So,
after picking up my money and passport, the three of us drove to Brussels Airport,
where I boarded the first available flight, which happened to go to Athens, Greece.
At first I stayed in a shabby hotel in the city of Athens. A few days later I went
to Piraeus. At a small round inner harbor, called Turko Limano, later renamed Micro
Limano; I drank something and looked at the sailing yachts moored there. Most were
33 feet, 10 meter, some were larger and a few smaller. I knew how to sail. I had learned
it from Eppie Lubbers when I was 12, and I had sailed a little on the Ijsselmeer and
to England on real yachts. So I inquired about the price for renting a yacht to sail.
It was a shocking amount that I could never afford. A little defeated I went back
to my drink. Thinking about what to do next, a person came to sit next to me. We started
to talk and he told me he was owner of the yachts I saw, and asked me if I could sail.
He had seen me enter the yacht agency. I assured him I could and he asked me if I
could show him, if I wanted to sail with a couple of Americans with their two kids
for a week to Aegina, Hydra and Poros. I was to be skipper and got paid a good salary.
Of course I accepted straight away and I went with him and a friend of him to show
my sailing skills. We hadn’t gone out of the harbor for a mile when he said OK, he
had seen enough and I had become skipper on his boat. From that moment on I could
sleep on the boat, and prepare for the week with the passengers. Long ago, I had read
some thing about a Chinese practice to burn money for someone who had died. In the
afterlife he might need it. And I’m not sure why, but when I heard that Onassis had
died, I burned money for him, such a rich man for sure needed that. I always had the
feeling that the spirit of Onassis helped me then.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;That year I sailed a lot of small boats
all over the Aegean Sea and visited many Greek Islands. I became acquainted with the
two brothers van Seggelen who had Seahorse Yacht Service and the agency for Swan Yachts
from Finland in Glyfada. I rented a place to live close by there and started to learn
a little Greek. In no time I was free lance yacht skipper. I got to sail with different
boats with different people from all over the world. One day I was asked if I could
go fetch a little boat, which had a broken engine and was left abandoned by the people
who had rented it. It was on an island somewhere in the middle of the Aegean Sea.
It was a nice time and my Dutch girlfriend Catharina came over with a carload of things
out of the house in Amsterdam. It was a dragon year. I took Catharina and our little
Pekinese dog on the ferry to Ios where we found the little sailing boat. It was less
than 8 meters and had a big bed in the front cabin with the mast standing as a third
leg in the middle of it. The cockpit was amidships and a small cabin with a double
bed was aft. I tried the engine but it would not start. We bought water and food and
set of to sail to the next island, direction Glyfada. It was a trip never to forget.
From Ios to Serifos and then to Sifnos. The Meltemi hit us when we were ashore in
the deep small bay of Sifnos.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
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&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;
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&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp;&lt;/span&gt;
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&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;h1&gt;&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;a name="_Toc35765558"&gt;1977 Snake Year.&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/h1&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;Brother John died in Amsterdam on 20 October.
I found my boat on the Boat Show in Genoa Italy. I went there with the Van Seggelen
brothers, who represented Swan sailing yachts on the show. What a lovely old-fashioned
classical shape in modern materials for a third of an equivalent European made boat.
On the show are hundreds of boats and I climbed up to see every one that was in my
price class. When I found the Chung Hwa 36, my heart was skipping a beat. I could
not believe my eyes. It was a perfect big little boat. Sturdy and robust for its smallness,
and looking very strong and safe. I took the address from the factorry in Taiwan and
after the show, back in Glyfada, contacted them. I lived at Artimides Street in Glyfada
with Catherine Stam, the very beautiful young Dutch tall blond girl.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;
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&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;h1&gt;&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;a name="_Toc35765559"&gt;1978&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;Horse&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/h1&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;This year I bought the boat in Taiwan,
I went there to see how it was made. I flew Quantas and made a stop at Bangkok first.
I had never been there yet and I took eagerly in the oriental smells and the hustle
and bustle of the small people. The busride to town was very hot. I booked in a small
hotel in a sidestreet, next to a luxury place that was recommended by the tourist
folders I took from the airport. The next day I took a bus to a seaside resort and
walked ovver the beach. There were a few small sailing cats, Hoby Cats for rent and
I went for a sail on the flat bay. The hobys belonged to two Belgian guys who told
me that business was slow. They explained that the tourist all go to sex the local
women and so much so that after they have no energy or money to rent a boat and do
some sport. I curiously went to see inside a sexclub. One had to pay an entrance fee
and then came into a room with almost no light and a glass wall. The wall was painted
except for a one-inch wide strip to look through. Another room was behind the partition
and a dozen or so women dressed in panties and bra’s sat or laid on couches doing
nothing. They all had a big number on their clothing somewhere. One was to look good
and choose one. I thought to have made a good choise, and told the number to the door
attendant. But when I saw her in the little room a minute later she was not so nice
at all. I did not want to sex her as I can only sex a woman that I find attractive,
she must stir something in me. Anyway, she undid my pants as I was like shy and did
not know what to do or how to act. She made me sit on the edge of the bed and started
to give me kisses and licking my belly. She pushed me backward and I relaxed a bit
against the big pillows. Then she took my limp dick in her mouth and started to suck.
There was not much I had to do and of course my dick got hard. Then she looked up
and smiled at me while she stroked my dick with her hand. She took off her brassiere
and panties. Naked she climbed on the bed and as I was laying on my back with my dick
standing up hard, she sat on her hunches over me and inserted my dick in her pussy.
Up and down she moved slowly and very pleasantly. I held her breasts in&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;my
hand and I got a bit more feelings for what was going on. I made her get of me and
lay down on the bed, went on top of her and started fucking. However as she was not
my type so much I did not cumm. So I pulled out, and made her turn over, and sit on
all fours. In that position I rammed it in and vigorously fucked her untill I came
with an explosion that was more than I had thought possible. A little later I was
walking in the sun outside and went into a local restaurant. Next to me was a Thai
person who started a conversation. He spoke good english and worked on an oilrig in
Saoudi Arabia He had a month off and lived in the north of the country. Came here
to see family. We went to various hotel bars to have a drink. It was like wwe knew
each other for yerars instaed of only minutes. Everywhere we went hotel owners and
dignitaries greeted us as if we were high rank politicians or something like that.
We got invited for free drinks and we saw a nice show of acrobats and dancing girls.
The next day I went to what looked like a barber shop, exept that it&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;
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&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;was that Hong Kong before going to Taipei.
Had to beg for lower shipping price and met an Australian&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;who
sold Barlow winches and yacht supplies.His young housekeeper went to my hotel with
me and we had good sweet sex. Only the second day could I enter that tight hole, with
help of Vaseline&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;and much&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;probing.
She stayed with me all the time I was in Taipei. We went to&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;movies,
“The 69 secrets of Shaolin”,and to a museum. When I asked her why she stayed with
me, she said that she wanted to learn from me how to please her future husband. I
found that very amazing, coming from another&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;culture 
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&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;than I. Since then I have learned a lot
about sex with foreign culture women.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
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&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;The boat was delivered that year by the
Man Ming, a cargo boat from Hong Kong. It took me 6 or 7 visits to the shipping agents
to reduce the price. That went as follows:&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
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&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;In the end of the year I went to Israel.
From Cyprus to Tel Aviv is a course of roughly 120 and there was little or no wind
so mister diesel Volvo was churning the soup. Left Larnaca in the night to arrive
early morning, it was a Saturday. Still dark, 12 nautical miles out the coast we were
met by an Israeli patrol boat. We spoke by VHF radio, they shone strong searchlights
and pointed guns at us. After verifying our credentials, and confirming the course
we were on for Tel Aviv marina they left us to go, and said we would be met by a small
boat before reaching the marina. It was getting daylight, the visibility was bad,
2-3 miles, hazy and gray. The coast looks yellow, like the beach and the stones. Further
up tall buildings, the hotels, Hilton, Holiday Inn and&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;King
David. All look the same from far. I could not see the marina entrance so stayed a
bit from the shallows and continues along the coast. On the chart the new marina was
not yet marked. But Jaffa harbor was. That was just a few miles further down the coast.
By now the sun was out and the visibility was normal. I approached the old rocky entrance
of Jaffa&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;harbor, but coming very close, there was no wind,
we could see right through the water that big boulders blocked the entrance completely.
So I backed out and turned around. Then I saw sailing dinghies close by the beach
a mile or so back. I understood that the marina had to be there, so I headed parallel
to the beach towards the little sailing dinghies. The entrance to the marina is built
from the same color rocks as the rest of the coast, that is why it was almost invisible.
Close enough by I turned into the marina, found an empty slot, berthed and tied up.
Made crew lists, collected passports and told my crew to wait while I went with crew
list and passports ashore to look for the marina office. Passing the moored yachts
I met a few people, all very busy rigging up boats and dinghies. Children and adults.
It was Saturday, Sabbath, like Sunday for the Christians, I had arrived in Jewish
country. Entering the marina office I was met with pandemonium. Several guys in uniform,
khaki and navy blue where talking in Ivriet, talking in&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;microphones,
listening intent to speaker voices and all were too busy to even see me.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
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&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp;&lt;/span&gt;The boat was
good and new, but my money was finished so I had to work. Catherine, Kaatje was with
me then.In January in Haifa visiting Israel over land, boat in yacht marina in Tel
Aviv. There I went to a stamp maker and had a rubber stam made for CC. It is like
a boat steering wheel, with a picture of the boat in it and in the rim the name Chamba
Chada and Holland. Big and very nice. I used it from then on everytime I had to clear
in and out, stamped peoples passports when they got on board and made friends with
all the officials that stamped my papers. That summer I was in Rhodos and many Greek
islands. On Mykonos I had sweet sex with the angelic woman from Amsterdam whom I had
always wanted, dressed in scrap cloths, but always looking like a heavenly angel.
She needed money and asked me to pay something for her ticket home, she had spent
every cent. Therefore she sexed me good and long and I was a young and a healthy sailor,
who did fuck for real, with pleasure and vigor and love for the girl that I had wanted
for years. I felt the godly feeling that night, a deep love for the universe that
provided once again the sweetest experience a man can have, the sharing of the holiness
of creation with a real good sexy woman.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
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&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;Later being desperate for money in Glyfada
I put the boat up for sale. It did not take long before a guy from England, who worked
in Saudi Arabia with a vegetable growing project, paid 10% down and was going to pay
the rest in full, next April. It was December and for my birthday I bought a ticket
for a vacation visit to India. I boarded an airplane from the Australian airline Quantas,
it had started in Paris and had quite a few young French travelers on aboard. Some
of them were doing drugs and when a joint started burning it also came my way, we
were really sky high. &lt;i style=""&gt;In those days smoking cigarettes was still allowed
on planes.&lt;/i&gt; The plane made a stop over in Dubai and left soon after. In Bombay
it was already night when we arrived and I took a taxi to a guest house together with
two French men that I had met on the plane. I had heard about Goa and was eager to
get there, to get there it was more adventurous to go by boat than over land. With
a little help from my friend I found the boat which was going to Goa. Arriving in
Goa I found a most wonderful lodging in a private house. The owners lived in a back
room and let me and another French traveler rent the other part. The toilet was an
outhouse, a little cubicle with a plank&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;with a hole in
it to sit on and to do ones business. The first time I used it I got the scare of
my life. As I was sitting quiet to let the shit exit my end hole, I heard a loud snorting
and grunting&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;near my ass. I was so scared that I stood
up and looked around and in the hole that was big enough to see through, I saw some
ugly head from a hairy monster sniffing loudly. It was a big black boar of a pig.
that came to eat my shit!!! Later I got used to the beast coming eating the shit almost
from my anus, before it fell on the ground, it was unbelievable and right disgusting,
but that was the way it was in Goa. Later I understood that the pigs loved the shit,
not for the possible energy it may have held, but for the possible heroin that it
may contain. Many hippies used horse and that drug goes through the body and much
of it still is in the excrement when it leaves the body. When I saw a pig being tied
down on the back of a bicycle to be brought to the slaughterhouse, I promised myself
never to eat pork again.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
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house was close by the beach. On the beach there were some parties&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;with
grinding and bumping going on. It was Christmas and New Year and the Goa Party was
a big event with world fame. On the beach most tourist girls were topless and I took
some nice photos, especially from Nina, a 17 year old Swedish girl, so very pretty
that I&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;got surely horny from looking at her. Sex was not
so much in fashion with me yet, there was some amphetamine and opium to keep the sexual
urge away.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
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&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp;&lt;/span&gt;Food was being
served in small open restaurants. In the past Portuguese sailors and colonists had
been in Goa and it is different from the rest of India. Hindu is the Indian religion,
but Goa is Christian. After Goa I went with a little private bus, a&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;16
seat Mercedes with only 9 passengers, very luxury to Hampi, Hubli, the stretched out
city of temples. Hundreds of empty temples are scattered over a vast country site,
built by a king, not more than a hundred years ago. It blows the mind to see all those
unused temples, so very elaborately built, the statues, the carvings, the sculptings,
it is totally unbelievable. After the visit to the temple of Hanuman, where monkeys
stripped me of anything edible, we went through Tamil Nadu. 
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&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;I had something with an American woman
in Hikaduwa, Sri Lanka, yes it was there, in an almost similar setting, I’ll tell
you what.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
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&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp;&lt;/span&gt;I traveled
overland with the small group of travelers to Sri Lanka, passed&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;the
coast Tamil Nadu, full of coconut&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;plantations, as far
as the eye could see. Saw men sitting on poles in the sea, fishing. In Colombo I heard
about Hikaduwa, a small place at the coast, a little like Goa. So I lived in a small
guest house over the street with a young Swiss man who like me traveled around. How
and why it happened I cannot say, but at the end of the night I woke up, it was getting
light, and looked at the young man sleeping. He was naked and the sheet had slipped
of his lower body. I was intrigued by his penis which was half haard and I approached
his bed, until I was close enough to touch it. His dick was not big, and felt nice
in my hand. The young fellow slept on and I could not resist take his dick in my mouth.
It was feeling good and it got hard very fast in my mouth. Never before had I done
such a thing and I did not think at all what was going on. It just happened. By now
his penis was firm and hard and I enjoyed having it in my mouth. The young sleeper
woke up. Wow, what a surprise, he was angry, I confused, realizing what was going
on, I apologized, stammering something like sorry, I didn’t meant to do that, sorry,
and I went out. I crossed the street to the huge beach and started walking. The sun
just came up. I walked far and long and it was sunny. On the land side where millions
of coconut trees and on the beach a few white tourists sunbathing far apart. Suddenly
I stood before a naked woman who was lying on a towel. Nobody else around for hundreds
of meters. She had nothing on her naked body but a big hat covering her face. Her
breasts were firm and small, her belly flat. Her legs where shapely and long. They
were slightly apart and I could not help myself but sit down between them. I bowed
down and I kow-towed to her sweet smelling bush. I lowered my face to her hairy triangle
and I kissed her pussy ever so softly. She stirred, and withmy second kiss she woke
up, slowly removed the hat from her face and looked at me with a pretty smile. What
I was thinking of doing? She wanted to know. I asked her to save me from becoming
a homosexual. I told her in detail what had happened that morning in my hotel room
and that I was afraid that if I got no woman to make love to I was going to go mad.
We started talking and went for a swim in the sea, dried and I oiled her body slowly,
it was lovely to be so close with her. She told me she was American and I told her
she was pretty.&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;She was about 25 years old. Rich enough
to have rented a small house in the coconut plantation. We got up from the beach and
as it was lunchtime we went to a small restaurant and had a lunch with fish and salads.
Then we walked another hour itowards her little house, stopping here and there to
drink tea in a teahouse, talk to people she knew, as she obviously was there a bit
of a time already. It was late afternoon when we arrived at her cottage. Sri Lanka
is close to the equator so around 6 PM it got pitch dark outside and the night had
begun. I surveyed the room with the big bed and felt the springiness of the mattress.
The bed creaked when I sat on it and I asked her to give me a hand arranging the place
a little bit different. We pushed the bed aside and took the mattresses of and arranged
them directly on the floor. Then she got some nice cool coconot water drinks, and
lit candles and incense. Then she went to the outside shower, and when she came back
wet, only wrapped in a towel which fell of her in the room, I saw her firm breasts
shining with a film of water and got hot like mad. Quickly I went for a rinse under
the shower behind the house myself and came back in to see her laying naked on our
prepared love nest. After a fast drying I went down on her like a hungry dog goes
to a steak. She made me slow down and asked me to apply body lotion. That done, we
had sex, and more sex. As soon as I had shot my load inside her pussy, I was hard
again and took her anew. She stuck her sweet ass up and I went in from the back, doggy
style, from the front, missionary style, from the side, spoon-spoon style, we fucked
through the night, like I had never fucked before. We slept a little, ate a sandwich
and we sexed again. When it was about 4 AM and she was totally satisfied I was till
hard as wood and willing to continue. Then she told me about her girlfriend who lived
in the next cottage, 50 or so meters down the path. She told me that her friend was
so fat that she had a very hard time finding a boyfriend, and because I still wanted
to fuck more, if I would not go to her and give her a good fuck for her. I went up
and after she pointed in the direction where to find the next place, and I went. It
was still dark when I knocked on the window and woke the girl inside. She was not
very much surprised when she heard I was coming from her friend across the path, and
she let me in immediately. Straight back into her warm bed, I undressed and crept
in beside her. And yes, she was fat, but I was still hot and in no time was my member
hard. I was eagerly looking for the entrance to her wet juicy pussy with my fingers.
Boy, that girl liked to get it. Her soft pussy was dripping as soon as I slipped my
fingers in her slit. I rubbed her clitoris rythmically for a while and she moaned
of pleasure. She held hard on to the head end of the bed and her fat body stretched
and moved like a wild horse. After I felt the spasmodic contractions inside her pussy
I went in with my hard dick and excersized good rough sex. Turned her over and slammed
it in from the back for the last time, I was fuller of energy than I had ever been.
No more sperm to shoot, I just made the moves untill I came for the umpteened time
and withdrew my always hard member. My legs were trembling from the vigor that night
when I left her to walk in the first morning light under the coconut trees in the
plantation. 
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&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;There I met the owner of the place. We
walked together through the place, under the tall trees. A noise came from the top
of the trees and when I looked good I saw a troop of monkeys jumping from tree to
tree. The coconut farmer explained that the monkeys do a lot of damage, they destroy
the young coconuts and the flowers that must grow to become nuts. He told me that
the government was Buddhist and shooting or otherwise killing the monkeys with poison
for instance, was out of the question, and not allowed, and such a thing was just
not done. The damage was bad and the owner of the plantation was pretty desperate.
I then told him of the way to catch a monkey, by tying a transparent bottle somewhere.
The bottle must have an opening big enough for a monkey to stick his hand in. Tied
to a tree, where the monkeys come, you put something in the bottle that the monkey
likes. A fruit or a banana. The monkey will stick his hand in the bottle and grip
the thing inside. Then he will not be able to take his full fist back out of the bottle.
Because of his greed or hunger, he will not let go, and he will be trapped. Then you
will be able to catch him, because he will not let go the fruit in the bottle. By
throwing a net over him and when you tap him on the elbow, he will open his hand and
release the fruit in the bottle. Once you have the monkey you can tie him down, give
him a beating to scare him, and put him on a car to deport him to a place far away.
I stayed in Sri Lanka some weeks, I travelled to the southern tip where I had a meeting
with world famous Arthur Clark, author of 2001 and 2010&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;of
which movies are made. I stayed with him in his little pilgrim’s cubicle. We went
together in the woods to do a magic ceremony and to produce a talisman to secure a
piece of land against confiscation by the government who wanted to built a road there.
I knew how to make a square protective talisman from tin on a Saturday with the engraving
of the numbers of 1 to 9. The land belonged to a rich religious Buddhist merchant.
He had built some very nice small lodges like the one I shared with Arthur where pilgrims
could stay while they came to pay homage and reverence to the temple at the southern
tip of the island. It is a Buddhist temple, built high up a rock. It contains a footprint
of the Buddha it is said. 
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&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;On a Saterday, before the sun came up Arthur
and I went inside the woods to meet the local magic man, the shaman, the spirit master.
Him was told that we needed a square of tin to make the amulet. He had collected tinfoil
that used to be wrapped around corks of French wine bottles used in the better restaurants.
The magic man crumbled some in a ball as big as a golfball. Then he tied strips of
cloth around it and tied it to a stick of young green wood. He soaked the ball, now
the size of a tennis ball in coconut oil. Then he put fire to it and turning it on
the end of the stick he let it burn. The tinfoil was now in the center of the ball
of fire. After some of the strips of cloth fell away burning and the ball got smaller,
the tin had become hot enough to be liquid and suddenly it was running out of the
fire onto a flat polished and oiled stone. The result was a flat piece of tin about
2 or 3 millimeter thick. The amulet must be made in the hour of the sun which is the
first or seventh hour of the day to be powerfull. I cut a square from it with big
shears that were at hand there and then. I then engraved the required configuration
of nine numbers on one side and letters on the other. I did that with a big needle
that I had bought for the purpose in a shop for sewing things on the previous Thursday,
the day for steel. The needle was been in a temple and prayers and blessings had be
said over it.The words engraved are sator, arepo, tenet, opera and rotas. We buried
the protective talisman in the grounds. I then went up the mountain to pay homage
to the temple’s Buddha. After the very long climb on the stairs that are hacked out
of the stone mountain rock one arrives at the temple. The view over the Indian Ocean
is calming and the tranquility of the monks is contagious. There are monks in yellow
robes and I followed the stream of visitors. Many bought for a few penny a coconut
from a monk to give it as a sacrifice to the temple. I did the same and got myself
a nut. It was a normal hard dry coconut. There was a flat rectangular stone of about
one by two feet with a groove or channel around it and a foot high iron fence around.
One was to throw the coconut on that stone and offer it with a prayer to the temple
or to the Buddha, or what it represents. The coconut water runs then off the stone
into the groove and got collected lower down by the monks, as well as the broken pieces
of the nuts that were thrown. They were constantly collecting the pieces. My turn
came and I took the nut in both hands, raised it over my head and said my wish for
the well of all. Then I threw it on the stone. The crowd around me said Oh and Ah,
and exclaimed their approval. Wondering why, I then saw that my nut had split clean
into two exactly equal parts. God has accepted your sacrifice was the word and people
looked at me with awe and great respect. Later when I had gone down the long stairs
again a young man made me sit down and talked to me while he made a pen drawing. When
it was ready he gave it to me, it was a picture of the Hindu God with the elephant
head. For protection he said. I gave him some coins.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
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&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;I flew back to the middle of India, to
a place with an impossible long name. In that town I met a German girl who wanted
to share a&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;hotel room with me. She had little money and
was in need of company and she needed some good sexy lovemaking. She was with me a
long hot night with the ventilator turning full force. She did not know the use of
talcum powder yet. On sweaty bodies it takes away the moist feeling and makes the
skin soft at once. I still like to powder a girl’s body generously with baby powder
during foreplay. She liked it also very much. I massaged her pink young body with
the talcum powder and it smelled like a baby. I powdered her from toe till top, backside
and front side and her lovely breasts slowly and sensually. Her flat belly was hungry
for a good fuck and I was eager like always to give it to her. I put my nose between
her pussy lips and gave it a long wet lick upward to her shivering clit.&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;She
could not wait any longer and pulled my head up to hers and she kissed me on my mouth.
Our tongues intertwined and explored our insides. She tasted like honey and we were
all over each other instantly. Her hand took my hard rod and guided it towards her
dripping wet lovecave. Soon our lovemaking was going sweet and slow. I had mu lust
machine going and could not stop again. She came with a moan and a soft scream as
if it was the first time in her life. She turned away from me to bask in the afterglow
and did not move. I could not resist to enter her from the back once again and lay
still spoon spoon style, without moving. My member inside her I felt the contractions
of her vagina&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;untill my dick relaxed and finally slipped
out. I showered and went for a walk outside to drink tea in a tea house opposite the
hotal. The next day I went to Madras, by train and then to Auroville , the commune
of&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;Aurobindo, where I had to deliver a message to the
mother of the community. Arthur Clarke had given me the commission to go and tell
the mother of the community to remove the sword out of the&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;hall
of meetings.&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;That would be the remedy to make things go
better. I arrived there and eventually delivered the message, but what came of it
I do not know. The place looked like almost given up, or going very slow, as if the
spirit had gone out. No vibrant feelings and the buildings looked neglected. I took
the train across India back to Bombay and flew back to Greece in March.&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;
&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
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&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;
&lt;o:p&gt;&amp;nbsp;&lt;/o:p&gt;
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&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;h1&gt;&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;a name="_Toc35765562"&gt;1980&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;Monkey&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/font&gt; 
&lt;/h1&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp;&lt;/span&gt;Back in Glyfada
in march I am broke again. The deal was that the boat should get sold and the money
paid in April, but&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;the buyer couldn't pay, and I had just
spent all my money in India and Sri Lanka. Any way, I sit in the Kostas bar and&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;drink
from my&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;very last dollar the most expensive cognac. Next
to me sits an older man who drinks the same as me, so we start to talk. I explain
my situation. He&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;asks how much I need, and when I tell
him, for the parking of the boat 1500 dollar, he tells me to come next morning to
the same bar and he will give me the money. As I am astonished to hear such thing
he explains that he is immensely wealthy and he has a deadly stomach cancer, will
not live to the end of the year. That he is happy to give me the money as I know what
to do with it. I tell him that he has free chartering for 15 days if he is for real.
We drink one more, he pays and the next morning against my belief I go to the bar.
At the appointed time, 9 am, a car drives up, a private driver in uniform with cap
and all, steps out, no passenger, looks around, spots me, asks my name and hands me
an envelope, turns around, steps back in the car and drives off.&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;Totally
flabbergasted I find a check for 2000 dollars in the envelope. I go to the bank as
in a dream, and cash it, pay the marina where the boat is parked, get it in the water
and start to think about sailing away.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;To the islands, to have fun,&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;sail
with&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;passengers between Rhodos and the Turkish coast,
Marmaris, meet Hussein, the manager of Marti Hotel. Start a lucrative smuggle time
with cigarettes, alcohol and coffee . There was the “Old Fox”, a&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;Fyfe,
classic yacht&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;owned by the wealthy Lebanese Gaby Jabre.
The boats where moored stern to, several boats deep, as the season was good and the
harbor overfull. People had to step over other boats to get to the quay. Also over
my boat who was nearest land, squeezed in at a good moment when another left. One
night the smell of smoking hashish is very evident . Next morning harbor police enters
the Old Fox, arrest the owner, who is on board with his&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;older
uncle and his young French&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;female lover Later that day
the&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;lady and the uncle return, Gaby is still in custody.
They tell me, as I had become something of a friend, because I did some work on the
Fox, that Gaby was arrested because the police had found a little bit of Hashish on
board. He was later released on bail, but their boat was impounded and put on a chain
and lock right in front of the harbor police office. Uncle and lady and Gaby lived
on board in all luxury as there was an expensive restaurant floating next door&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;with
the name “Kontiki”, that provided food at any time and came to serve it with two waiters,&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;champagne
on ice,&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;silver cutlery and hot plates provided, on deck
under an awning or in the saloon, by cozy light and classical music. I was invited
several times because of my good manners and open mind. The discussion went about&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;how
to get the boat away from there. Uncle had slipped out on another boat, his passport
was still with the authorities. He could not stay so long, business was calling. The
story was that a sailor, a young deckhand had left the hashish in a matchbox on the
boat, it of the harbor police&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;did not belong to Gaby and
his woman at all, they knew nothing of it, the police accusation was ridiculous and
a lawyer from Athens was on the way to plead the case. The&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;Greek
harbor police of course takes the opportunity to confiscate an expensive yacht. Until
the court case date Gaby was to wait, but because of the vast amount of money he paid
for bail, he could&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;wait on his boat.Not to move and be
at justice disposal at all times. The&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;Harbor police were
not total stupid and had taken a part from the engine, a General Motors, 6 cylinder
diesel,with hydraulic gearbox. A part that connected some three oil lines to the gearbox&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;was
taken of the engine by the police mechanic so that the engine could run but the gear
could not be engaged. This was done so the batteries could be charged, pumps and refrigerating
systems could run and hot water be made. The boat was moored stern to, right in front
of the harbor police office, with a gangplank laying out, anchor out forward on a
length of chain, maybe fifty meters of it. Not much chain was left in the chain locker
forward in the peek. Now a plan to get out was discussed. Gaby’s son who had come
over suggested a tugboat, diverging explosions at another spot in the harbor to distract
attention. Hand grenades and explosives available to Lebanese freedom fighters galore,
no problem there. Gaby’s daughter suggested some professional&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;burglar
should break in the harbor office and steal back the engine part. It should be&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;installed
and the Old Fox could&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;sail away under power. To stop or
prevent the police boat from following, a chain would be attached to one side of the
harbor entrance, laid on the bottom and the other end attached to a heavy truck, to
pull the chain up, after the Fox had left . I then suggested to find a&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;replacement
for the missing part at the manufacturer of the engine. Where was it made, model number,
year of make where all&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;registered and by telephone I found
out that a dealer of GM existed in Athens. I was&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;given
money to take a trip to investigate.&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;I took a&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;domestic
flight and a taxi to the dealer and explained that&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;a heavy
battery had fallen&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;on top of the gearbox of an engine
so and so, and broken the part that I could describe.To make the story better a welder
had tried to repair it, but had given up and as it was of cast iron, destroyed&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;beyond
repair. The dealer could order the part no problem, but it would take three weeks
to get it.. While he was on the phone I walked the hall where engines and things were
stored and detected a similar engine as the one in the Old Fox under a thick layer
of dust. I called the dealer, proposed to pay handsomely for the part if he would
be willing to wait for the spare and install it on this, never sold engine, if he
was&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;so good as to unbolt the piece I needed there and
then. So it happened that I came one day later on the Fox with the missing part. I
was welcomed like a hero. A multi course dinner&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;that night,
waited upon by uniformed waiters who made sure my wine glass was never empty.. The
next day Gaby managed to borrow his own original part from the police with the story
to do something on the stuffing box and the propeller.&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;We
installed our new part in stead of the original and tried it out. It worked perfect.Then
Gaby gave back the original to the police, who thought the Old Fox again was incapacitated.,
disabled. The anchor chain got cut by hand, with a hacksaw, by me, under decks, to
slip away, the chain with the anchor was to be left in the water. An old fisherman
was told to fish up what was attached to a thin nylon fishing line that we pointed
out to him, attached to the restaurant barge next door.&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;Then
Gaby doubled the mooring lines, in broad daylight, both ends tied to cleats on the
aft deck. Slip lines they are called in order to move away from a mooring without
help&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;and without leaving a line behind on the jetty.The
day after the Fox would be gone the old fisherman could have and do what he liked
with the chain and anchor. Then there where&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;two-way radios
to communicate between my&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;boat and the Fox, as Gaby did
not want to risk his lover woman in an eventual gun battle if ever it came to that.
She was to be on Chamba Chada during the escape. Now it was only to wait for the day
the harbor policeman who was known to sleep through his night duty to&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;come
on. A few days later it was so far. The policeman fast asleep, on his newspapers under
the table in his office, Gaby slipped his mooring lines, cut the rope that held the
anchor chain in place, started the engine with a roar that made me think the whole
harbor must wake up at 3 in the night and motored away.&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;We
had color codes for&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;communication, red meant all OK, white,
they are coming, blue, the found out and are going to come soon. Gaby&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;had
his double barrel shotgun at the ready with elephant shot in order to shoot a hole
in the waterline of any police boat that should try to stop him. The distance to the
Turkish territorial waters was no more than 20 or so minutes, where&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;the
Fox would be out of Greek&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;danger. All went well, the next
morning I could clear out as usual, without declaring the lady and sail to Turkey.
I got a very handsome pay for my services, that needs not mentioned. The only snag
was that&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;The Old Fox&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;had gone
aground in a small inlet where our meeting took place. My boat was not powerful enough
to pull him free. When I left him in order to seek help I run into another Fox, the
Young Fox&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;with a New Guinea registry, an Australian
captain/owner with a big moustache who was with a&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;German
woman who wore gloves to protect her hands that were&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;damaged
by leprosy.&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;When he heard the story he was all to willing
to help. With ropes and combined engine power The&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;Young
Fox&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;pulled the Old Fox free. I saw him disappearing over
the eastern horizon, towards Lebanon. A year or so later I saw him again in Porto
Cervo, he had a new registry, and the America flag was prominently waving from the
stern then.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;It was maybe there that I met Ernst Cancrinus
who came sailing in a small rented bare boat with his small family. Later more. 
&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp;&lt;/span&gt;After that
I did a charter&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;for another boat, the Blue Trout, with
retired Belgian admiral Koekenbier with a very young&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;lover
woman whom had just married him lately, I suspect only for money. On that trip I had
to work the pumps of the old “Trout” because she was leaking a bit, the&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;stuffing
box let in water and I had no wax-rope to replace the&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;one
that was worn out. Before I took on that 2 week charter job I used to go from Rhodos
to Marmaris and carry a load of&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;contraband to the Marti
Hotel, for my friend the manager Hussein Bey. The first time I came there I was invited
by him, a ‘white’ Russian from Istanbul, to join him on his table for dinner. It was
a lavish affair, with the famous Turkish&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;cuisine at its
best. The service in classical&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;style with uniformed&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;waiters
was impeccable, and the company interesting, there were consuls, ministers and mayors
present, with their wives. After dinner Hussein Bey asked me what I would like for
a digestive. I mentioned Remy Martin, as I had learned from my grandfather mothers
side, who was a high style&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;restaurant man. That was unfortunately
not available, explained he, after the military junta had stopped all foreign imports
in order to keep the foreign money in the country. I then offered to get&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;a
bottle from my boat which was moored right there at the pier and so I did. When that
bottle was empty as well as the Grand Marnier which I had&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;taken
for the ladies, Hussein took me apart. He asked me if I could not bring him on my
next trip some&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;Marlboro, foreign&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;luxury
drinks, photo film rolls and coffee. 
&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;I had been doing some trips to stock up
his bar and it paid well, apart from the danger, the excitement and the adventure.
To sail&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;exactly calculated, to arrive with the sun behind
me , almost invisible from the town where the danger, the custom office, was. To unload
and sail on in a hurry, and later, after clearing in, to return to feast and&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;party.It
is a&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;fabulous built place looking like a fairy tale magic
castle with spires, corridors, twisting stairs,&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;small
narrow windows, hiding the modern airco’s, water pipes and phone lines. When I took
the job to charter Blue Trout&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;for 2 weeks I&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;just
had loaded my boat for a delivery to the Hotel. I explained to the charter guest,
the retired admiral of the Belgian Navy who understood very well what was at stake
and who approved&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;the little action to be taken.
I brought the loot to the ‘Trout” and we took off. On board me and the deckhand, a
girl who knew the&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;whims of the anchor winch and who could
keep ship shape, and the two guests. Well under way I checked the boat from stern
to poop and found some boxes with ammunition for a 12 gauge hunting gun in the chain
locker, a most unlikely spot for them, with the risk of salt moisture. Pretty sure
against detection by unwanted eyes, but I took them to the dinghy and stashed them
in the emergency box with flare gun, smoke canister and&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;water
ration tins. That was in my view the safest spot, easy to dispose of undetected&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;and
not in the way in case&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;a police or custom officer coming
to inspect us. Later I gave it&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;to my friends in Olu Deniz,
the dead sea, an old pirate inlet, invisible from the sea, if you did not know it.
The few guys who lived there went in the woods on the mountains all over the place
and shot wild boar. They would not eat it themselves, but they knew how to slow-roast
it for the visiting dignitaries from other countries, tourists. Any way, back on the
Blue Trout with the boxes of contraband for the hotel we approached the Bay of Marmaris.On
the port bow, the Hotel, west of us, and the town of Marmaris a nautical mile on&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;the
starboard bow.Perfect timing, the sun in the west and low, 7 o’clock pm a summer night
coming. I told the admiral he could&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;hold the wheel and
course sir, if you please, sir, I would do my delivery with the dinghy, the loot was
already in there. The&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;dinghy with its powerful outboard
was because of good weather not on deck but on its painter towing behind. The admiral
took the wheel, asked for the Wilkies hand bearing compass I had on a cord around
my neck, which I gave, and asked how long I would take to come back. Ten minutes,
I replied, sir, I’ll be back in no time, ten minutes for sure. And there I went, jumped
in the rubber hard bottom Zodiac, and pulled the the outboard to life. I undid the
painter and was on my way. I had never driven that outboard, only had started it to
inspect gear and propeller, before leaving but now&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;I found
out how fast that beast was going. In no time it was planing and leaving hardly a
wake&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;I was at the pier of the hotel before I had time
to enjoy the ride fully. The fishermen and taxi boat skippers who tendered between
town and hotel had seen me coming and welcomed me like the old respected pirate friend
that I was. Didn’t I always give them the&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;coffee and cigarettes
they wanted so much? Didn’t I defy the law, like all those respectful men? They&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;took
the boxes, to deliver to Hussein Bey for me and off I was again, the whole contact
taken no more than a minute. The outboard engine had not even stopped and with a roar
I was back skipping on top of the tiny wave lets.&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;Surrounded
by pine trees on the mountains shores of the bay of Marmaris, to catch up with the
‘Trout’. Slow as a turtle she glided on majestically, while this rabbit jumped her
from the back, made fast the painter and walked snugly and not a little self consciously
up to the wheel.&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;The admiral sat happily and and looking
very pleased at the wheel. 
&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;“I am back sir, I can relieve you now,
sir, if you please, thank you very much,” said I. He&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;did
not look at me when he spoke with an authoritive voice loudly at me and said:” What
the Hell do you mean?” So I repeated my self, and said: “Thank you sir, I can take
it now, You are relieved”. And he again; “ What the hell is your game mister, captain,
explain yourself!” So I worried a bit and asked him what was wrong, I did not understand,
would he maybe like to keep the wheel a bit longer, sir??” if you please”&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;He then pointed to his watch on his left
wrist and exclaimed: “TEN MINUTES, you said, ten minutes, and not even 6 have past,
mister, captain, ten minutes you said.” 
&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;I did not know if I had to laugh or stay
serious, so I kept my wits about and said:” So sorry, sir, 4 more minutes, and then
its my call, thank you sir, if you please,” while I walked the deck and looked at
the mooring lines we would need in a little while. After that we had a nice time,
although I hardly ever saw my passenger. He was or with his young woman in his cabin
doing admiralty things with her or he was at the wheel that he now claimed as his
own. My&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;Wilkies hand bearing compass I never got back,
as he would sit with it at his eye, chart on his knees and checking with a protractor
the courses I set out. He enjoyed himself tremendously and left a handsome tip at
the end of the trip. After that I left&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;with Chamba Chada
for the Eastern&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;Mediterranean sea.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;I had Catherine
still on the boat and I shared the fore cabin with her. Horny like a stud, I sexed
her every night for sure, although not very consciously. More like a habit, I cannot
recall how the sex was with her. 
&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;I knew the Austrian Peter Spinn already
before leaving Rhodos, with his red Turkish fishing kaaik with the Mercedes truck
diesel engine. He sailed the Turkish coast with students from his country Austria.
Some days before I decided to go east he gave me a big piece of hashish. It was a
pound plaque of red Lebanese hashish.&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;In Rhodos he gave
it to me. His passengers did not dare carry it with them on their trip east. I saw
him again much later in Sharm el Sheik. I hid the hashish wall hanging depicting Alexander
the Great. It was a copper beaten image of the face of the great Alexander. I took
it of its wooden back plate, and hollowed that out and hung it back on the wall of
the cabin with the hash inside. My name is Alexander after all. In the beginning I
was a bit paranoia about the big piece of hashish so close by, but later I did not
think of it for most of the time, until in Fetiye and later in the military occupied
Sinai, where I met backpackers and hippies who all liked to smoke. Then I took it
out of its hiding place and put it in the dinghy. The little dinghy had the name Sattva,
which means Harmony. The second port after Marmaris after we left Rodos was Fetiye,
in Turkey. There two custom officers came on board for the usual inspection. Oh Lord,
was I nervous. Glenn felt my&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;tension and&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;while
I opened a bottle of whiskey, he started playing his guitar, not beautiful but loud
and hard. I could play a Turkish song on my penny whistle called: Uskedara Kideriken.
It is a nice classical Turkish song and the two military men knew it well. They could
and did started singing it. After several glasses of&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;whiskey
the song had been sung 7 or 8 times, translated into English and Dutch, sung from
back to front and still some whiskey was left in the bottle. The singing went on and
on, Glenn made them sing over and over again, because he was recording it and then
played it back, but every time he wanted it better, until I almost went mad and thought
he would never stop. It finely came to an end when the bottle was empty and the two
officers, both with a pack of Marlboro, now our brothers for life,&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;staggered
on shore and could be heard continuously mumbling the song further. It is about a
rich lady who is been rowed over the Bosporus, by her secretary. What they are going
to do or have been doing I forgot.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;I&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;carried
the hashish&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;all the way through the Suez canal and Red
Sea to the Israeli military occupied Sinai and we and many young hippy travelers smoked
it until the last joint. Glenn&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;and Catherine&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;both
left much later in Sharm-el-Sheik. From Rhodos to Cyprus we sailed&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;with
a few backpackers which I picked up in the strange little island of Kastelorizo, which
is Greek, exactly half way between Rodos and Cyprus, but only one mile from the Turkish
coast. The&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;hatred between Greeks and Turks came to materialization
when we were there, because&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;the next morning,&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;mysteriously,
a Turkish flag had appeared on the little mountain, the highest point of the island,
easily seen from the Turkish coast village. What a consternation. The black clad orthodox
priest and the three military boys stationed there went to take it away and a search
went on for the invaders who must have done the vile thing. The Turks were never found
of course.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;And
of course we stopped at the sunken city of Kekova. The birthplace of Sinterklaas,
Saint Nicolaus, later Santa Claus is close by, the place called Myra. Kekova is a
mystery, under water&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;very clear one can see the foundations
of buildings, houses, a whole city. Long ago the narrow island parallel with the coast
has been a prosperous merchant center, because of its natural protection. The crusaders
had the place for a long time in the middle ages and nearby Phoenician tombs are still
standing. Opened of course, and emptied of all there was inside, but the tombs are
there.&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;Huge shards of old Greek pots and vases can be
found still under water, I myself took some on the way back, but gave them later to
hotel Marti in Marmaris, as it is illegal and not worth the risk to keep them on the
boat. I saw a 2 and a half meter long statue of bronze that the fisherman tried to
find a buyer for. It was hidden under water, they had towed it from where they had
found it and wanted me to take it with my boat out of the country. It was too big
for me, impossible to take. A bigger boat was needed to smuggle that thing away. I
do not doubt that it is now somewhere in the mansion of a millionaire.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp;&lt;/span&gt;When we sailed
out of there , Glenn, Catharina and I with the three hippies a group of dolphins swam
with&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;us&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;out of the protected
bay and jumped in the opposite direction as which we were going. Not once or twice,
but all the time, and I got the clear message : go back, do not continue, go back.
I told the passengers&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;that we were not going, and should
stay another day in the protected bay. I was met with loud protest and they all said
I was mad to take a few fish serious and we should go, they had paid the food and
the fuel, they had no more money to spend, neither had I, in Cyprus they could go
to a bank, we had to continue and so we did.&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;Once out
of sight of land a storm started and lasted the whole trip to Larnaca. Then a very
curious thing happened, a person came out of the fore cabin and presented himself
as the Israeli Avi, Mossad, Israeli secret service. He had sneaked on board in Kekova
with the help of a Turkish fisher boat, in the evening when I was asleep and the others
thought that he was just one of the passengers. I had only taken on three. Avi was
the only one besides me who did not get seasick and he cooked some fine eggplant dish
during the darkest of the night. It was a hell trip, adverse seas, contrary waves,
tossing and churning, gusts and ice cold rain. Storm reefs in the main and a small
jib, engine running, hot in the enclosed saloon where the passengers were busy being
very sick. When they asked if we could not go back I told them that we had already
passed the point of no return, they should have listened to me before. Now I wished
them good puking and a better trip next time. I was not enjoying the uncomfortable
ride, however, but to see the people that did not heed my advice suffering did me
some good. A jumping dolphin at the entrance of Larnaca Marina laughed at me as if
to say: “You made it anyway buddy, good for you. Well done.”&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;The
passengers left as soon as we came in the marina and Avi was gone before I even knew.
Later I sailed to Tel Aviv Marina and from there to Port Said to go through the Suez
canal. In the red sea I had some nice adventures, diving and sex with English girls
and I met Vicky my later boat wife for 8 years.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;The entrance to the Suez Canal was a trip
by itself.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;Glen was there with his guitar and his
chess computer Boris. We sailed down wind along the coast of the Sinai. The coral
reefs are clearly visible because of the color difference. Deep water is deep dark
blue, the shallow reefs are light turquoise. The wind is strong and night sailing
is scary because I do not know where the iron pipes are that the oilrigs have left
behind. They have radar reflectors on top, yes, but I have no radar... Half way down
I met the “Zwarte Zee”, a gigantic tugboat from Holland. I speak in the radio to the
man on the bridge and he invites me. The tug is for anchor and I approach it from
behind, throw a line and make fast. Over the bowsprit of the Chamba Chada I climb
onto the aft deck of the Zwarte Zee. I am on the bridge with my sea chart and the
navigator marks all the abandoned drilling pipes. That helps, GPS is not yet available
to the small sailors, I have to navigate on my eyes, binoculars, and hand bearing
compass alone. I get a round trip on the tug, go through the walk-in-freezer where
the half cows and pigs hang on steel hooks in the cold. When I say I’m low on sugar
they offer me a 50 kilo bag. Later I sail further down, to a small inlet with a few
huts and small buildings and some military personnel. They are Egyptians, the Sinai
Desert has been divided in half and this part has been returned to Egypt after the
Camp David accords. Glenn and I&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;lower the dinghy and go
ashore. Soldiers are waving at us with arms and guns. Catharina&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;stays
on board. We are invited to come to the office of the commander. A hundred meters
from the jetty is a concrete hut. A jeep comes from the hut and the driver makes us
climb in and drives us the hundred meters. We get inside and there is one rickety
kitchen table, a 12 volt car bulb on a wire attached to a car battery and then the
commander. A chessboard was on the table. Next to the door a light switch was missing.
Some hebrew letters were under it. From the ceiling some loose wire. We were seated
and invited for tea. So we told him were we were heading and then Glenn said to go
fetch Boris. And when he returned he and the commander were playning Boris.&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;When
the bulb light started fading, the battery from the jeep came out, the empty one in
the car and the soldiers push started it and they went to the waterside running gas.
I had to sit waiting bored a bit, watching how Boris used three or four moves to beat
the commander. Until Glenn put it so it played on and on, without anyone&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;winning
until no more pieces were left and it was a draw. Then we left back to the jeep, hundred
meters to the jetty, and back on board, dinghy on deck and sleep till first light,
anchor up, down winds along the reefs. A hard wind and a short wave. I stayed well
clear of the reefs and arrived at&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;the Southern tip of
the Sinai where Israeli patrol boats met me. First, contact by radio, and answering
questions. Where from, how many people on board, nationalities, where to and a few
words of conversation. Arrived a little time later in the bay from Sharm el Sheik
at the end of the day. Peter Spinn was there in his red kaik from Turkey. His hash
was still behind the copper beating af Alexander the Great. I went along side him
on arriving. A few days earlier I had found droppings, a rat must be on board. Thanks
to the Cinese boat builders the waterpiping was brass or copper, not plastic. But
some piece of pipe that I had changed in plastic garden hose was eaten through. The
beast was thirsty. The rat was talked about wwhen I met Peter again on his boat. We
ate and drank some wine. When his bottle was empty I went tover to CC and get another.
I had some good Turkish wine staches away in small lockers underthe bed in the forecabin.
A two-liter bottle was stored with the cork down, so as to take less space. I found
the plastic bottle cap eaten through and the bottle empty. The fucking rat was very
thirsty, and possibly very drunk. I found a bottle that was full and I took it. Peter
and I emptied that&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;And I went to bed.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;The next day I made free from Peter’s boat
and went for&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;anchor closer by the jetty, launched the
dinghy. Had the yellow flag under the starboard spreader and the Israeli flag port
spreader and my Holland flag high on top my mizzen mast. Daytime I would unroll my
huge poop-flag on short pole. That hung becalmed an inch from the waterline. 
&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;I took the papers and went ashore at the
jetty and walked up to the bar. Had breakfast and inquired about procedures. A military
man checked the passports 
&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;And said we could all land. Three month
stay permitted, when going for daytrips, inform the Navy by radio, when going over
land to Eilat carry stamped passport. Along the coastline were some tents from travelers
who had reached the end of the world and saw no fun in going anywhere. This was a
godforsaken windy and salty and rocky place. It was winter, also here in the South
tip of the Sinai. The water was clear but not warm. I found it to carry the boat easy.
We went ashore with a lot of pretty things from the boat. We had to sell things to
get money. Catharina later and Glenn took off first after a while, they wanted to
go home. She took Teddy with her wwhen she left. I took people fishing to the reefs
of the famous best diving spot of thee world. The Straights of Tiran. My best friend
those days was a young man from the Seychelles, he had come down with a sailing yacht
that had sailed away without him and he had no where to go. He was to be my deckhand
for some weeks.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;The days went by smoking pot at night and
having a good time. Half he big piece of hash had now been distributed and sold and
smoked, and the other half was waterproof wrapped inside a big sponge laying in the
wet bottom of the dinghy. I used it to dry the dinghy out. There was a waterproof
compartment front and back in the dinghy with a screwlock to put gear in. The sponge
lived in there when not in use or when the dinghy went to the beach. That way it was
out of sight and still close at hand. The sponge being heavier than water if dropped
overboard would not be too conspicuous on the bottom of clear water either. One day
these two girls from the English yacht came over, swimming, and they climbed onto
the swim-ladder OK. I showered them with fresh water from the cockpit shower and we
drank tea. Later&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;when I was in Eilat marina the oldest
of the two came for a daytrip and I had one of the best fucks of my life with her.
Belinda was her name and she wrote a lovely poem for me.&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;Her
younger sister got serviced by my deckhand in the pilot bunk, so lovely…&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;The next day a Sabra girl with shaggy hair
standing out from her head swam to the boat. She climbed on board with a message for
the captain. She told me that she was secretary of the general in the occupied territory
and he was the real boss. The police must ask him for permission to go into action
against anybody, so she had had a document on her desk in her hands that asked for
just tat. The police was going to do a search on my boat, for suspected ganja smoking.
The girl came back the next day and said that the commander had signed the permission
and now I could expect a visit from the enemy any time, she could not find out when.
I learned later that I was observed at night with night glasses and infra red binoculars
and they had seen clearly that a few people were smoking big joints every night. They
were very sure to find the dope on board. When they came it was of course unexpected,
a morning around 9 or 10. I was alone on board. The dinghy was on its painter tied
to&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;the stern. They came four of them, in a zodiac type
dinghy with guns at the ready. They checked every nook and cranny, with flashlights
and mirrors under the floors, in every pot in the kitchen, every drawer, and fount
it not. 
&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;But for 1.3 gram in the hollow of one of
the 7 holes of&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;the candlestick with six arms. That was
tied to the wall and seldom taken down with candles lighted. It was a relic from the
Hartenstraat period. I had to go ashore and went with Sattva. Iwas locked up in the
police quarters. The next day put on transport to Eilat to be accused, prosecuted
and fined. The police had asked the judge to hold me in Eilat for a week so that they
could see if other people would come to the boat, because they were sure that someone
had dope. I was not to go back to the boat and warn my friends. The judge misinterpreted
the request from the police and told me I had to go to the boat and stay there for
a week. When I went to the transport to return to Sharm-el-Shheik, the policeofficer
who had brought me, was pissed off to the limit, wanted to return to the judge and
what not. But the judgement was irrevocable and three days after the search and arrest,
I was back on the beach where I had left the dinghy. Sattva’s two oars were laying
a little distance away, the dinghy itself on the dry, full of sand and water. Children
had obviously played with it. I dragged it to the water, rinsed it and bailed it out.
Then I opened the waterproof compartment to take out the big sponge to dry out the
last bit of water that the bailer could not remove. The big sponge with the piece
of hash in it was still there. I used it well to wipe and efficiently dry the inside,
for anyone to see.&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;I then rowed to CC and cleaned up the
mess the police had left behind and made shipshape.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;The girl that had seduced me some weeks
before with her warning and later with her pussy was Vicky and she was 18 years old.
I was 35 years of age. She seduced me good or let herself be seduced by me and she
hooked me on her pussy full force. I had already studied good sex with Catharina and
I was eager to sex for real. I had just discovered the hunched thrust, whereby the
girl’s ass is raised on a pillow and I sit on my hunches between her wide spread legs.
I insert my hard member sweetly in her licked and dripping wet cunt and slowly sweetly
move it in and out. Without effort and tiring arm wrestling. Learned it from a book
with pictures of positions. Very wonderful to practice. Hands free to feel her over,
her tummy and breasts and also under the ass, and her sides, so sweet to be able to
enjoy her shapes when the feeling from the sliding cock goes on and on. 
&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;One day a few weeks later Avi comes to
the boat in a small soft inflatable dinghy. CC was still anchored in the bay after
I returned from Eilat. Avi had a story to tell. He had left from Rhodos where I last
saw him with a Turkish wooden boat, like the one of Peter Spinn, only bigger. An other
Israeli with him and a German couple as paying passengers. He motored along the same
route I had taken. Maramaris, Fetiye, Kekova, Kastelorizo, to Cyprus, Larnaca. There
they loaded the boat full with tax-free goodies. TV’s, Radio cassette players, washing
mashines, outboard engines, power tools, and foods, cigarettes and booze. The plan
was to sell it later with a huge profit in Eilat. They had passed the Suez canal and
came south hugging the coast much like I had done. Having the same seacharts we stopped
at the same spots. They also ended up in the tiny harbor where I had been ashore and
Glenn had played chess with the Egyptian commanding officer and his computer Boris.
Avi’s engine would not start any more when he wanted to leave from there. He went
ashore, tried to get help, but after much ado, the engine refused to start. The commander
had him delivered to the Israeli military post on the border-line that went through
the middle of the desert. From there the military brought him to Sharm el Sheik. He
had to stay at the police post as he had entered the country in an unusual way and
was not allowed to go anywhere untill brought to Eilat the next day in order to clear
in officialy. He had seen CC in the bay for anchor and without saying a thing about
it, had asked the police permission to go to the telephone to call his folks in Eilat.
Night had fallen suddenly as it does in southern lattitudes. When he got permission
to go out he went straight to the bar were a telephone was. From there he took a quick
run to the beach where he jumped in the first dinghy he saw and peddled to CC. He
greeted me nervously and after telling his story, asked me what to do. He could not
leave his boat for any time at the mercy of the Egyptian military men and his three
people on board did not have much food and water.&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;I asked
if anybody knew he was on board CC. He denied that anybody knew. So I told him to
saty below decks and take it easy. I towed&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;the inflatable
with Sattva to the beach and returned to CC. I hoisted Sattva on deck and went through
a plan of action with Avi. We slept a little and at daybreak I radioed the Navy to
announce CC going for a fishing trip to the Southern tip of the desert. I was not
to go passed the border, I was told. I rogered and started Volvo. Avi stayed out of
sight. I steered CC swiftly past the coast to the south and greeted the patrol boat
who came to say hello. Without hesitation I continued around the cape up north. After
6 hours we arrived midday at the litlle bay where Avi’s boat was anchored.&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;We
made fast, talked little, made the crew on board very happy, attached a towline and
left downwind CC in front towing Avi. From his hamradio he contacted Eilat friends
and he told them to come down with a big enough boat to S-e-S. To meet him there aand
take over the cargo.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;
&lt;o:p&gt;&amp;nbsp;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;h1&gt;&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;a name="_Toc35765563"&gt;1981&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;Rooster&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/h1&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;This year back through the Canal into the
Med. Together with a few backpackers from the beach of Sharm el Sheik to Hurgada in
Egypt, we had to defy the harbor military to get enough food for the good price. A
trip to tell.I captained the 22 meter when the military boat came. The English girl
hurt her arm and we was in a hospital so dirty that weeks later my complaints were
known in Port Said.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;Lost and found the dinghy, it was midnight
blue those days. I went to the pyramids and rode the black stallion and the white
Sheiks horse. Later I vomited in my shoe in the car going back. Saw a movie waiting
for the return trip. About small double&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;wings planes,
together with MIG pilots from the Egyptian Air force.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;
&lt;o:p&gt;&amp;nbsp;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;
&lt;o:p&gt;&amp;nbsp;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;July in Rhodos harbor, that time we went
to Marmaris and Marti Hotel. August in Rhodos. September&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;sister
Marianne and her man Paul are on board. November, Larnaca, waiting for Vicky to fly
to me. Did Turkish coast, 
&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;
&lt;o:p&gt;&amp;nbsp;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;h1&gt;&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;a name="_Toc35765564"&gt;1982&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;Dog&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/font&gt; 
&lt;/h1&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;In March in&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;Cyprus
again. I buy a few Ronson lighters, some small portable radios, cigarettes and watches
taxfree. We go to the Turkish coast. In Adana, in Kekova and every other Turkish place
we stopped I took a few of the items ashore. In restaurants we would eat and drink
to our hearts desire. When th bill was presented I produced a pack of Marlboro and
a Ronson lighter. That would always do the trick. Costing me about 2 dollar, we had
a meal for at least ten.&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;10 march Fetiye, 12 Marmaris,
do Rhodos Marmaris many times, in May in Kekova, Kastelorizo,Olu Deniz, June back
in Marmaris&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;July start to go west, Greek islands, via
Bozburun , Datch, Bodrun,20 July Kos, Levitha, 22 Dhonousa, 23 Delos,25 Mykonos, 26
Tinos,27 Hydra,28 Poros, 30 Aegina, august not known what happened,&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;September
12 Corinth canal, 14 Nafpaktos, 15 Messalonki or was it Thesaloniki, 17 Lefkos,21
Kerkira, 24&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;from Moutos to Italy, 25 Crotone, where we
tied up and went for a walk. Our first steps on Italian soil. The harbor is empty
exceept for two or three boats and us. I find a small open bar that has sandwiches
and I see the first esspresso machine. Order a coffee and get a thimble size cup with
a black siropy liquid. It makes my hair stand straight up and after the first sip
I add three sugar cubes to make it drinkable. From here we go to Scilla the 27&lt;sup&gt;th&lt;/sup&gt;.
A pretty village glued to a steep mountain side, stairs as roads to climb to a small
store to buy bread and cheese, olives and wine. In the Straight of Messalina, between
the mainland and Sicili it is windy but close to land the sea is flat, hardly any
waves. Suddenly Vicky and I see whales close by. I am shocked and more than a bit
scared. They are so huge, about twenty meters, twice the sixze of the boat! One hit
of a tail would sink us at once without a chance of surviving. No defence possible.
The beasts swim very lazily around, and their tail stands straight out of the water
for minutes, waving left and right very slowly. Then it would sink under the waves
and the whale would come up a little later somewhere else,unexpectedly close to us,
spray a fountain as high as the mast trhough his airhole and go down again. Some launched
themselves through the surface of the water and jumped a few meters high in the air.
They came down with a splash so great that it rocked the boat. Somehow they never
became menacing and stayed far away enough from CC to not agravate my fear. From there
to Stromboli, a small island that is just a vulcanic cone sticking without beaches
or flat coastlines straight out of the sea. Then to Acciaroli, Capri, the famous summer
island-resort of the stars. As the proverb goes, “First Capri, then die”. It turned
out that not I but my father died shortly after. After Capri we went to Ischia, and
made a stop at Ventotene.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
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&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;My father died when I was in Ventotene,
on 7 October. I was with a broken shaft-part stuck in Ventotene, a small Italian island.
It is a very nice small harbor hacked out of the rocks by slaves in the time of Julius
Ceasar, or some other emperor. The (have to find ou t who it was) emperor had his
wife imprisoned or exiled here because of her sexual conduct.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
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&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;I had to take a ferry to the mainland to
get the part of the shaft that broke, welded. It was many a month later that I heard
the date of my father’s demise. I always had an affinity with/for him, because after
his heartattack, or stroke, I had a better sort of contact with him, on a spiritual
level that brought his soul closer to my soul than ever before. Anyway, the part that
broke was a piece of cast iron, between the propshaft and the engine, designed to
brake in order to prevent greater damage to the internal parts of te engine in case
the propellor was suddenly stuck. This was exactly what had happened. A rope came
in the prop when going in reverse towards the jetty in Ventotene. Those were hard
times, and troublesome to the max. I understood later that it was a kind of transmitted
spirit message from my fathers’ soul to me… 
&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
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&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;Napoli is a huge international harbor with
cargo ships from the whole world of gigantic size. I motored into and throughout the
huge harbor in broad daylight untill I found a place to tie to the cay. That looked
close to a Customs and Immigration or Harbor Police office building, in order to clear
in. The cay is very high and to come on land I had to climb on a stairs of iron bars
set in a foot-wide groove of the wall. The land is almost on the level of my spreaders.
After a bit of walking past rails set in the concrete floor I find a door that says
“Carabinari, Immigrationi Nautica” or something like that over the door. It looks
empty and I find nobody inside. I speak no Italian, so I called in Eglish: “Hello.”
After a while a person comes from another room and wipes the sleep out of his eyes.
I make him understand that I have just arrived from Greece from where I last cleared
out officially, from the high seas and that I wanted to enter the country officialy.
He tells me I am welcome. I ask if he does not want to see my papers. He shrugs and
asks why, I am already here anyway. I am surprised, for once I try to clear in as
required by law, and here is an official who does not even want to see my boat registry
and pasports. I ask for a rubber stamp in my passport so I can prove I have cleared
in. He is willing to look for the stamp. And finds it after a long search through
a few cupboards and drawers. Triumphantly he produces the stamp but he has no inkpad.
So I find mine and open mine. As usual I take my own stamp and stamp his copies, as
he stamps mine. We are brothers now and laughingly he lets me go. I never has such
easy and frindly entrée in a country yet. 
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&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;Later we sailed to Fumicino, where the
river Tiber that goes through Rome runs into the Mediteranean. That trip started pretty
good, staying close to land, having hardly any waves, except for a deep long swell.
Only at a given moment came a “Cigarette” full speed from over the horizon towards
us. No other vessels were in sight. I got a strange feeling that it might be pirates.
They could enter us, kill us, and throw us over board and sail on with CC. I got a
very strong feeling of fear, which I never had in my life. I took the VHF radio and
called&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;“All ships, all ships, all ships. This is Chamba
Chada Sailing Yacht from Holland, approximately xx miles from Napoli, 3 miles out
of the coast going west. I am approaced by a very fast going speedboat of the type
Cigarette. I am suspicious as to its intentions. This is Chamba Chada on channel 16,
over.” I got an answer from a voice that acknowledged my position and said he would
keep is ears open for news from me. He was 10 miles out of the coast and invisible,
but at the same distance from Napoli and so, only 20 minutes, or less away from me.
After that conversation, the speedboat changed course away from me and disappeared
over the horizon. Probably they were rich people who just wanted to have a look at
my beautiful boat. Still, I was better safe than sorry. I radioed to my invisible
helper and all was well. Hard wind coming from the starboard beam, working jib and
reefed mainsail set and going fast. It was getting late. The wind picked up and I
shortened sail and put Volvo on. Fumicino harbor came in sight, but it was getting
dark now and the wind had become stormy from land. To find the red and green light
buyos I strained my eyes and the hard wind made small wave smash onto the starboard
bow so that spray flew on me all the time. I constantly had to clean my glasses. Salt
spray can not be wiped off so easily, it has to be washed off with fresh water. Licking
the salt and then wiping them with a dry piece of t-shirt and I could try to distinguish
the lights again. Outside at sea the first red buoy was finaly found and kept to starboard.
Then the green one was found as well and I went in between, lowered the sails about
a mile out at sea. Now the land was getting visble but red lights from the back of
cars were mixing with the red buoys and that was very confusing. The buoys had a certain
rhythm, and every so many seconds they would go on and off. Car-brake red lights came
on eratically and confused my head not a little. The wind was howling by now, and
the end of the breakwaters came ever so slowly closer. The engine was churning away
full power and with the headwind it looked like we moved no more than 2 knots against
the storm. The breakwater went very slowly by. At last we were between the seawalls.
People standing under the orange mercury lights applauded our entry. It was a relief
first class, I felt elevated, exhausted and very grateful. I found a place to make
fast next to a covered boatyard. It was good to shower and sleep. The next day I saw
where we were. The river water flowed passsed us with considerable speed. That is
why we went in so terribly slow yesterday, but in the dark we did not see that. Treetrunks
and branches, bloated dead animals, plastic refuse, tennisballs, and all kind of garbage
floated in the brown water that speeded by. A few days later I worked for a Frenchman
who spoke no Italian, on his big steel boat. That lasted through the winter. Chamba
Chada had electricity from the shore, that provided hot water, and so could run an
electric blowheater. My very good French could communicate with the Frenchy and although
I did not know Italian, because of my inventiveness I could communicate much better
with the Italians then he. I just asked for words I needed and spoke with gestures,
hand, feet, and laughter. After a few weeks I found the courage to call and we met
Walter Rossi again. He immidiately came with his Mercedes to see us, he was very upset
that I had not called him the day I arrived. He gave me one of his Mercedes’s to use
for the duration of my stay. He showed the entrance from his yard to the catacombs
under the Terme de Carracalle. He showed me his printery for fine art reproductions.
We had dinner with him and his pretty wife in his house. One day I parked the car
in front of a bakery, and went in to buy bread. When I came back after no more than
a minute, the car door was open and Walters camera that had been between the seats
was gone. I felt greatly embarrassed and ashamed. But whhen I told Walter, he laughed
and told me that it was nothing. Stealing is the national pass time and I was not
to worry. 
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&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;Vicky and I one day drove his luxury Mercedes
to a safari park near Rome, to see the wild animals. There were Giraffes and wildebeest,
and elephants and buffalos. Through huge gates we entered the monkey area. Driving
slowly some monkeys jumped on the car and put their hands through the half open windows.
We closed them and stopped to look at them. It was fun to see them sitting on the
hood, playing with each other. Then some started to pounce the windshield. Not too
sweet and in order to repel them I started the window wipers. With a jet of window
cleaning liquid they made three passes and stopped. The monkey closest put his mouth
directly on the cleaner liquid jet nozzle and drank from it. It was clear that they
wanted more. So I spurted another jet and they enjoyed it. There may have been some
alcohol in it as far as I know. Anyway, the monkeys wanted more. So I kept my hand
on the window wash handle until it was empty. The monkeys wanted more. But there was
no more. They got angry. And angrier. So bad even that they pulled the window wiper
of the car with a lot of force. Next was the Mercedes star. They pulled with all their
might, clearly to show their anger. I drove away from there fast and they jumped of.
For sure to attack the next car. 
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&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;I went to the embassy in Rome to ask for
a passport. I had travelled on an old passport that I renewed my self in Sharm-el-Sheik.&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;
&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
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&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;in May from Italy to Holland, don’t remember
with what transport, after getting a laissez-passer from the embassy.&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;My
last passport was left at the embassy in Jerusalem, 2 years before. When I came to
the embassy&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
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&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;In Holland we lodged at Marianne’s place,
got social help money and married. Met Jurjen Mikmak in Amsterdam, got a nice summer
suit to marry in, Vicky with Ping An, the little Pekinese dog, we were&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;with
Marianne and Paul, in Leiderdorp. The marriage took place in the town hall, nothing
special, but Marianne had mobilized the horse riding club and Vicky and I rode in
a horse pulled open carriage, with driver and whip and all. It was very beautiful.
A few days later we got a Dutch passport for Vicky in The Hague, straight from the
Ministry.&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;We&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;got an old rusty
station car, the headlights were falling out of its rims and with newspaper I had
to stick them in place. The first gear did not work and somewhere in Limburg the battery
gave up. In a gypsy camp annex car cemetery I could get another second hand battery
that held out for the trip to Rome. It is far to Rome, but we made it. Somehow we
had gotten credit from the Post Bank and after we sold the car for 100 dollar we left
Fumicino.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
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&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
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&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;This was the year of Eileen, Porto Cervo,
on the north coast of Sardinia or Corsica, had to check that. Any way it was on that
Fyfe that a 12-year-old seduced me, I will tell you. I was with Chamba Chada for anchor
in the bay of the expensive, luxury yacht harbor and as usual I was looking for work.
I helped a local Italian dive and rescue Mafia to get his Lister deck emergency diesel
pump going, that was a stop and go affair. When I was present it run, when I went
it stopped. I had pinched a portable VHF from an expensive luxury yacht supply store,
so I could carry my communication anywhere. I was soon known as the flying Dutchman,
who repaired anything. Called to a brand new boat belonging to a rich proud new owner,
I was to fix the head. The bloody thing did not flush. Brand new, never used, the
sea-cock was shut. When I opened it, the head flushed as it was designed to, I had
to disassemble a few tubes and pipes to justify the 50 dollars I charged. It was a
Sunday after all. Then came John with his zodiac to ask if I wanted to work on the
Eileen. A German millionaire, owner of a transport company in Europe, rented it for
the whole season. I was introduced to the man and we became friends at once. Vicky
was with me most of the time. We where invited to eat with the man in his house on
the shore looking out over the Mediterranean Sea. His female companion, a young glamour
girl with long legs was there. 
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&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;One day Vicky and I were to report early
at his place. He drove us with his ugly new square box-like Mercedes Jeep, 4x4 that
he demonstrated on a very steep hill. It almost fell over and it was a strange feeling.
We went to a restaurant where we loaded a good amount of food and things on silver
plates and pans and tureens into the car, from there to the house and through the
garden to the dinghy to bring to the Eileen who was anchored close by. The food was
stored in the galley, cases of champagne unpacked and put in ice, one other couples
and two kids came on board, and the captain John and his crew member, a 20 year old
English girl.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
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&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;Vicky and I took several trips with Eileen,
but the last one, with the kids and the extra couple, was the best. We took off as
usual, me on the wheel, called helmsman, Vicky stewardess and deckhand, the English
girl deckhand, anchor winch operator, John the captain owner, the charter with his
lady and the guest couple with the two kids, a girl from 12 and a boy of 15 or so.
The anchor went up with the engine pushing us head in the wind while the main went
up, and the jib. Soon we were sailing along the coast in the quiet waters of the Bonifacius
Straight with numerous small island and green coastline. As I was helmsman I looked
out over my horizon ahead. I saw a little inflatable a few miles ahead, floating seaward.
We were on an approaching course and would pass it within shouting distance. Coming
closer I saw the two men in the dinghy waving their arms up and down, the international
distress signal at sea. So I called the captain and pointed it out to him. Ignore
it he said, we have no time for those fools. That upset me at once. I protested, and
asked permission to go closer to see if we could help. The answer was a no. Captain
John said he was on a charter making money and he could not bother his passengers
with such stupid behavior. I then got angry and raised my voice. The charter came
to listen and I asked permission to use the radio in order to call coast guard to
help those in the dinghy. The two people were waving frantically by now, we were close
by and passing them. The weather was not bad, they had obviously engine problems and
maybe no oars and anchor with a long enough anchor line. Permission to use the radio
refused. Frustrated I was cooking inside. To leave people in trouble at sea was just
not done. John hit another bottle of champagne with his machete, hanging over the
railing and laughingly poured the foaming liquid into his wide-open mouth. He had
been drinking from the moment the anchor went up. As soon as he was out of earshot,
I took my little portable VHF and called the coast guard. Thank God they replied at
once and I explained that, as crewmember I could not render assistance to the dinghy
at that position. A little later, when the dinghy was out of sight already I saw a
coast guard boat going from the harbor in the right direction and I heard on the VHF
that the dinghy was taken care off. That made me feel better, but the feeling on the
Eileen, between me and the captain was spoiled. Any way we sailed on, tacking now
and again, sailing along towards a place where we would anchor for the lunch that
was stowed in the galley. During this trip the 12-year-old Lolita- type girl came
to me and asked me what the compass was. I had to keep my course and looked at the
compass and at the sails and at the captain and at the horizon constantly. The girl
came to stand behind me and she put her arms around me. She held me in a lovely embrace
and it was a wonderful warm feeling. She then started to kiss my neck and I asked
her what she was doing. She told me that she wanted to be nice to me and so she wanted
to kiss me a little. And she took my earlobe between her lips and sucked my ear so
sweet and tender that it gave me goose pimples. So I asked her to stop, and she came
in front of me to sit on my lap. There she sat on my thighs and she held me with one
arm around my waste and put the other hand on my lower belly. That made me hotter
still, and I was getting embarrassed. I called her father over and asked him if he
could please hold his daughter away from me, she was sexually arousing me and I could
not take that. He laughed my complains away and asked if I did not like it. He told
me that the little girl had learned to please his friends that way and I was not to
worry. A little later we were for anchor and the food was brought on deck. Vicky and
the English girl served the guests and I was at the aft deck, which was my station
after I had helped the girls to bring the food from the galley up on deck. While I
was there on the aft deck, the young seductress came to me with a plate of the wonderful
food from the guest table.&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;That was for me said she and
she had selected it especially for me, because she wanted to please me.&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;Her
father smiled at me while I reluctantly accepted and let her put some exquisite scampi
in my mouth. Captain John did not let me close to the passengers while the passengers
liked me a lot and talked to me as an equal and wanted me to be with them. The people
went for a swim and the little girl came to ask if I came with her in the water. I
was not in the mood to swim; I like the water mostly to carry my boat, not to go in.
But she started to complain to her father that she only wanted to swim if I was coming
also and so I had to go in. She stayed with me all the time and we played very nice
like very good old friends in the water. She would hang on to me and not let me go
one moment. I had to follow her back up on the ladder and jump with her from the boat
back in the water. We played like kids. After the swim she brought me a towel to dry
my back and she treated me like she was my woman. Then we took the anchor up and sailed
the afternoon nicely on. The little girl absolutely wanted to sit with me and on request
of her father I allowed her to be with me most of the time. Captain John was drunk
by now and he kept on drinking champagne. Now and again he beheaded a bottle with
his machete and made a mess of himself. Suddenly I saw land ahead, about 4-5 miles,
still a good distance. I called the captain and asked him if he was aware of the land
ahead. He told me to keep my course. On a big sailing like Eileen, with sails set,
one cannot just change course. A few minutes later I called John again and told him
we soon had to tack and go about if we would not go on the rocks. I was to keep my
course and keep my fucking mouth shut. He was pissed of at my obvious good relation
with the passengers and especially with the little girl who was treating me like she
was my geisha, giving me massage on my back with suntan oil and brushing my hair and
sitting on my lap, looking at my face with her long blond hair waving in the summer
wind. John had a grudge on me and I was to do my job as helmsman and shut up. So I
called the charterer and explained that we should run aground very soon if we did
not tack. He assured me that he would deal with the captain and that I was to take
command. Therefore, I gave the order to the two girls to stand by the backstays and
the jib sheets. Ready to tack, and about we go, turning the wheel hard over, the girls
did what had to be done and in no time we sailed on the new tack. John almost got
a heart attack, that I had defied his orders and had to be restrained by the charterer.
I felt pretty stiff in my skin, but we soon arrived at the spot where we dropped anchor
for the night. The guests and the charterer Mr. Brown liked me a lot and they invited
me for dinner in the cabin saloon that would take place later. John forbids me to
join the party as I was only a crewmember and was not to mix with the passengers.
The silly situation went so far as that I was taken by the arm to be dragged into
the saloon by the girl's father and his friend in order to drink a glass with them.
The girls were serving the food and I sat at the table when John the captain went
crazy and chased me screaming out of the saloon. The passengers were embarrassed just
like me and nobody could do anything. 
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&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;This is my boat and I am the captain and
you do as I say screamed the drunk captain. I retreated to the forecastle, where the
crew quarters where and tried to relax, disgusted by that foolish captain. Some time
later everybody went to bed and I also fell asleep in my bunk. The English girl and
Vicky slept in the other two bunks and all was quiet. I was hot like a stud but making
love to my girlfriend was out of the question in that small place with the other girl
present.&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;Some time later, it was almost pitch-black dark
night around me, I woke up from some little hands touching me, and I found the little
hot girl creeping under my blanket into my bed. She put her arms around me and whispered
that she could not sleep without me. That she would stay with me forever. She touched
me so sweet and then put her small exploring hands to my private parts and asked me
to love her. My dick got hard, as wood and I was horny like a stud. I was confused
to the highest degree and explained her that it could not be done, that she was too
young, that it was wrong, that she had to grow up for such a thing and I would bring
her back to her own bed. She protested, said no,no,no, and wanted me to make love
to her there and then. My member stood up like a flagpole and while she held it quiet
firm in her small hand, her head was on my breast and she kissed my nipples and kept
on saying that she wanted me to love her. One hand around my body, the other on my
dick, her mouth in my neck, even biting me a little softly, it was driving me crazy.
Then I got up quietly, the two other girls Vicky and Suzy did not wake up, they had
had a tiring day behind them, and I took the little hot girl up on deck where the
moon was out and the water flat like oil. I whispered soft words to her to keep her
relaxed, because she trembled of lust and want. My dick relaxed a little and I freed
myself from her tense grip. While I brought her back to her cabin I told her all the
time to relax and that it was just not possible, that she was too young and so on
and so forth. That all was ok and she would go to sleep and dream sweet. And she telling
me that it was OK, that her father had told her it was OK, and that she loved me and
wanted to be my wife, and that I should make love to her, she putting her hand on
my prick and between my legs again, and squeezing my balls tenderly. I held her hands
back and prevented her as much as possible to pull me close to her. I brought her
to the small cabin, where her little brother was sleeping in the other bunk. I then
put her to bed but she insisted so urgent that I had to lie next to her, I could not
resist, and afraid she would wake up the whole boat. Therefore, I lay down next to
her, and tried not to move in the hope she would fall asleep. But oh no, she took
my hand to her little hairless pussy and held me there, while again she touched my
swelling prick.&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;In desperation I then started to rub her
little clit softly and moving my finger between her little lips, thinking that I could
make her cumm and then I would be free to go. She started crying silently and sobbing
softly without tears, from pleasure maybe while she clung to me like a barnacle to
a ships hull, I held her in my arms giving her all the feeling of love and protection,
comfort and warmth I could muster.&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;She and I where clung
together, united in total love, merged as one, I could feel that she was I and I was
she. I had stopped touching her pussy already some time before and after a sweet long
while, slowly, finally, I felt her relax and thanks God she fell asleep. A feeling
of bliss, of God Holy Light had taken possession of me, I felt as if I had become
Light myself, my whole body was like an electric light. Some Holy energy was come
over the whole situation and I felt elevated.&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;I could
then ease out of her bed without waking her up and got back to my own bunk and finally,
after jerking off that load that she had created in me and shooting it into a big
wad of bathroom tissue, I too fell asleep. 
&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
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&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;The next morning I was first on deck, I
never need much sleep but now I was still full of energy from that little lover girls’
administrations, and I swam ashore. It was not far, the sun was out, and I climbed
up a pier and walked to some trees, and laid down in the grass to relax. I fell asleep
again after I had decided for myself not to return to the Eileen. Vicky was still
asleep when I left. When I woke up the charterer was standing next to me asking me
to come back with him to the boat. With the promise that he would protect me from
the captain and the girl, I reluctantly returned with him in the dinghy. Indeed, the
girl and the captain both behaved themselves and we sailed straight back to Porto
Cervo, and that was the end of that adventure. In October we are in Mahon, where Napoleon’s
cook invented mahonaise, as goes the story. A wonderful protected harbor, used by
the US navy. I meet Lawrence and get an Aries windvane., meet Jacoba, and help them
to Barcelona.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
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&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;This is the year that we are in Spain,
and in 
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&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp;&lt;/span&gt;and on to the
Baleares. 
&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;Looking for work, I stopped at a harbor
just before Palma de Mallorca. I moored the boat along side a jetty where there where
some boats on the hard. A man was standing on a ladder, working on a boat and I asked
if he knew work. He came down and asked me if that was my boat that I had moored alongside.
I invited him in and he looked impressed. He had a job for me he said. He was the
representative of&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;“Oberschmit Seereisen” and organized
trips for German sailing students. They had to cover a distance of 300 nautical&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;miles
on the open sea in a sailing yacht. That would be part of their study to get the license
“B”. License “A” was for inland and coastal waters, B for the open sea. As captain
I had to sign a declaration at the end of the trip that they indeed had covered the
distance. The boat he gave me to skipper was a Vauquir, 43 feet,&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;with
a Perkins 48 hp, named: “Reliance”. CC went on the hard and Vicky and I started on
our first trip west. We were alone and so stopped frquently, at&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;Valencia,
Malaga and at Ceuta, the Spanish enclave at the northern tip of Morocco. Along the
Marocan coast, to Cas Blanca and over to Lanzarote. Everything functioned well on
board, the trips were not long, and the boat was bigger than CC so it felt comfortable
to us. Then to Las Palmas, to a new yachtharbor called La Palma. There we made shipshape
and waited for the first passengers to arrive. And later to Tenerife. 
&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
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&lt;h1&gt;&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;a name="_Toc35765566"&gt;1986.&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/h1&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;This year Vicky and I go for 5 month to
Holland to make money, and later leave for the Atlantic.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;January in Almeria and Roquetas del Mar,
Almerimar, Adra, Motril. Then to Torre del Mar at the end of the month. It is terribly
cold. Almost freezing. Caleta de Velez is another place we went.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;February&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;Caleta Velez untill 
&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;March 8 we left&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;to&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;Almerimar&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;and
take the boat out of the water 
&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;March 12. Chamba on the hard again. Three
days later we get a ride in a luxury station car, Citroen CX Break. All the way to
Belgium with one night in a hotel in France. The trip was fast and nice. The car very
comfortable. From Zandvliet in Belgium by train to Amsterdam and Vicky and I stay
a few days on the river barge “Haastje Repje” from Jurjen Mikmak and his girlfriend,
Francis de Waal. The 22&lt;sup&gt;nd&lt;/sup&gt; we move to the sweet water cruiser “Majestic”
from Ernst Cancrinus, my dentist friend. &lt;/span&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;" lang="NL"&gt;That
is in Aalsmeer aan de Westeinder Plas.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;April 
&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
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&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;May&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;On the 5&lt;sup&gt;th&lt;/sup&gt; we move to Amsterdam,
Java Straat one month and then to Bali Sraat. Vicky and I get our teeth fixed by Ernst
in Haarlem. We get some free money from the Dutch state and work illegal for a man
who sells lampshades on open markets all over the country. I drive with Vicky with
a car full of lamp shades to open markets in different cities twice a week and we
make money OK. June 
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&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;and 
&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
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&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;July 
&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
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&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;goes by this way. In 
&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
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&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;August 
&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;we work a few days on a steel boat in a
hangar for a Chinese Surinamese man called Charley Wong. 
&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;On the 26&lt;sup&gt;th&lt;/sup&gt; we move away from
Holland and travel back to the boat in Almerimar. We paint her hull with Anti Fouling
and she goes back in the water. 
&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;September 6 we leave Almerimar in Easterly
direction. Along the coast to Almeria and San Jose, Garucha and Mazzaron.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;Then Cartagena to fill up the diesel tank
and water. Leave for the next stop, two boats we met in Chartagena left an hour before
us, and we met them a few hours out, they were returning because of bad weather and
they advised us to do the same. I went on despite their advice to a nice well-protected
bay, Portman Bay. Hard howling wind gusts but nice calm water inside. The swimming
is good, there are no other boats. On 
&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;September 12 we go to Torrevieja and on
a Friday the 13&lt;sup&gt;th&lt;/sup&gt; we leave for Ibiza. Drop anchor next day in Espalmador
Bay. Meet Chameleon with Francois.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;October&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;Novenmber&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
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&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;Dece,mber&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
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&lt;/p&gt;
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&lt;h1&gt;&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;a name="_Toc35765567"&gt;1986 Tiger&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/h1&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;arrive Januari 17 in Tobago.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;A day before we arrive I see big birds
flying in the sky, a sure sign that land is near.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
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&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;
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&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;In Marigot Bay, visit the French side for
some time, Booby, Marie, Pitchou&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;h1&gt;&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;a name="_Toc35765568"&gt;1987 Cat&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/h1&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;Los Rockas swim ashore on a sandy beach,
no people around. Naked with Vicky, is she pregnant already? Here is nobody as far
as the eye can see. White beaches, a calm sea with a lazy breeze. Danforth anchor
is on a long chain in the sand, I push a float with camera, Ping An and a towel. We
walk the empty beach, here is lonely land. With the beautiful boat nearby, and my
beatiful wife I soak up this paradise compaired to world of towns and cities there
millions suffer smog and air pollution, moral decay, and stress. We swim back and
motor to a bay where some palm leave sun shelters are on sticks forlorn on the beach.
A small fishing boat hhugs the beach, a line goes to the&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;trunk
of a dead tree on the high flood line. Behind it two local fishermen sit under a palmshelter.
They push their boat in the water and come alongside. They offer (illegal) lobster
and fish. We pay with chocolate cake that Vicky baked in the oven of Chamba Chada. 
&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;August in Curacao and Bonaire. 
&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;In Curacao it is clear she is pregnant,
we talk about abortion, we see a doctor, he finds it too late to abort, I agree, we
continue with a new mood, a change is in the make, I’m not at all sure I like it.
I do not see it yet, but I maybe see the change in the future somehow, and I protest.
I am impossible to Vicky whom I see as the perpetrator of screwing up my life, my
dream of sailing around the world in the west direction.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp;&lt;/span&gt;Vicky’s belly
grows and I am embarrassed to the max. My mood swings to the lowest end of the scale,
take it out often on Vicky. My hostility to the pregnancy is by her falsely translated
into hostility against the new coming baby. She is Jewish to the core and cannot think
different than her primitive ancestors. The Jewish way of thinking is stuck in stories
of thousands of years ago, it does not make much sense today. Still, as we will see
later, she finds a backward spot in Ecuador that corresponds with her old fashioned
way of thinking.&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;
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&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;h1&gt;&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;a name="_Toc35765569"&gt;1988&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;Dragon,&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/h1&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp;&lt;/span&gt;In Sint Maarten,
lagoon, moored at Island Water world, Amador Victor gets born on 26 February at dusk.
On board Chamba Chada are doctor Theron and the midwife Monique, who appeared mysteriously
right on time before Theron's door when he walked from his office to his car on the
way to us. Vicky’s labor had started and the cramps were terrible, she had to get
up, go to the bath room where she could hold on to the two handlebars on either side,
that seemed to relax her pains a little.The location of the boat was close to the
airport, and normally the airplanes roared&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;loud overhead,
just after take-off. This special day however the gods had made the wind turn and
the planes took off the other way, no noise at all. The day came to an end, the saloon
lights, 12 volt went on and some oil lamps and candles. The lights were soft and dim.
The labor&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;became more intense, the midwife listened with
her little trumpet to the baby through the stomach wall.”Push, push harder”, she kept
urging Vicky, who was doing all she could. She listened again, looked more serious
now. Turning to Jacques Theron, she tells him to cut, the baby needs more room to
exit. Theron will not cut, he is a special kind of doctor, with a certain code that
forbids him to destroy anything, he can only repair anything that is broken, not brake
anything. The midwife takes command, a pair of scissors go swiftly cut, cut and blood
starts flowing. The baby’s head now appears and Monique takes it in her hands, pulls
gently. “Push, Vicky, go on, you’re doing fine Vicky, yes, push on, good girl, go
on”, Bit by bit the baby is coming into the world. It is 6:30 pm. The umbilical cord
is thick, blue white and red. The baby is dark blue, I worry greatly, is that normal?Purple
blue is the little bundle&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;that is now placed on the stomach
of the mother. The baby does not move, not breath, just lays there. Does it live?
I know nothing of all this, I wait in wonder. I look attentively at the baby, I see
the mouth open a little and hear it sucks in a little air. It is like it tries the
air, it tastes the air.It sucks in a lung full. Holds it in and expels it. The baby
takes another breath in, and breathes out, it lives, it is starting to become independent.
A short while later Monique tells me to cut the umbilical cord. She gives me the scissors.
I try but it is too tough, unbelievably hard to cut. Monique takes the scissors&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;out
of my hand and she does it herself, experienced midwifes action.She handles the baby,
the afterbirth, I am dizzy and do not very well witness everything. “Light”, I hear
doctor Theron ask me for light, “Alex, I need good light”, says he while he stands
over Vicky who lays back, her legs wide open, blood all over the place. So I find
the searchlight, a handheld strong beam, like the headlamps of a car. I switch it
on. “Here, shine on my hands”, says Theron as he&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;is busy
with needle and thread. He wipes away some blood and started to stitch up the cut
that Monique made. I shine the light on the operation. It does not take long, maybe
4 stitches, I do not recall how many, but it was soon ready. The cleanup was swift
and the baby, still covered in a pink slime was&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;wrapped
in a cloth in Vicky’s arms. It was breathing now normal. It had never uttered a sound,
no crying, no slapping on the ass, no holding it upside down, nothing like you see
on TV in hospitals where doctors rush, deliver, force the child with violence into
the world and slap it into a traumatic fear that makes it forcefully starts to cry.
No wonder the world is so full of&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;bad people and&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;scared
souls, if life starts already violent, what do you expect from the rest of it. I know
that the birth of a person can be peaceful, lovely and gentle. My son&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;came
into this world for free and without trouble. For free,&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;because
the next day, all buntings at the rigging, all flags in top, I went to the office
of the marina to pay the mooring fee. For the birthday of the baby&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;no
payment was accepted, that day was free of charge. The next day I went to pay doctor
Theron.&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;We had&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;agreed upon
$200.- beforehand. I had it with a feather and a note of thanks from Vicky and me
in an envelope. He took the envelope, took out the money and note, read it and handed
me back the money and said:” It was such a wonderful experience, I cannot take money
for that, please allow me to refuse the money.” Monique later told me that a year
before she worked in the Marigot Hospital as a midwife when she got a nervous breakdown.
She could not work anymore and collapsed completely She was on sick leave and needed
to change her life. She left St. Martin and went to France. She got counseling and
was&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;slowly getting better, but did not know what she was
going to do with her life. Certainly never touch a pregnant woman again, that she
had more or less fixed in her head. After 10 or 11 month she decided to return to
St. Martin, and see&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;her friends again. Not to return to
her former work but to look for something else. When&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;doctor
Theron left his office to come to Chamba Chada it was&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;the
gods that had led Monique to cross his path. Amador was the first baby she helped
being born and she told me that the&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;event had changed
her life completely. The&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;different way the birth took
place&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;gave her back her believe in mankind and from then
on she has been an alternative midwife, doing birthing&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;at
homes, on boats, anywhere, but not in the classical hospital style. She thanked&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;Vicky
and me profoundly for being there and giving her back her confidence.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;We did not stay there long but sailed with
the baby to the south. A few month later Vicky flew to Israel to show the baby to
her parents and had him circumcised. I object to that because I was never circumcised
but played with my lingham when I was young and pulled back the foreskin while exploring
the good feelings it gave. Doing that regularly the foreskin became wide enough to
make the head of my member stick out of it and when erect it sticks out all the way.
So without having the knife mutilate my rod of creation, it is clean, big and has
the same insensitive power of a circumcised one. The head of the penis sticking out
does not make the owner of it cumm so easy as the penis who's head is covered with
foreskin. Is that why the Jewish and Moslem habit of circumcising the penis has come
into being? To please the woman a little longer during the act of sexual union? Or
was the argument the cleanliness, for the residue accumulating under the foreskin
can lead to troubles in case the owner of the tool does not clean it every day.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;
&lt;o:p&gt;&amp;nbsp;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;h1&gt;&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;a name="_Toc35765570"&gt;1989&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;Snake&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/font&gt; 
&lt;/h1&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;Now that the baby became one year and started
to climb the stairs and&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;move about, it was time to go
ashore. My whole dream was destroyed and I had seen that coming a long time, my general
mood was unpleasant, to say the least. I found a house in rue Fichot #9, opposite
Kunta and Sylvia, in a big yard. I found the owner, Cynthia Sharp, who worked in the
Philipsburg Hospital, what is now the old peoples home. 
&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;From Vicky’s sister Smadar I had got a
teaspoon full of diamonds cut from the raw ones we had smuggled out of Venezuela and
those I tried to sell. I went through all the jewelry shops until I ended up in the
workshop of Michel Robbe. Every day I went to his shop, just to pass the time. Vicky
had a job on the market, selling souvenirs, we had still some things from Jurjen Mikmak,
mostly earrings and things from Bali. I had no job, no skills to get one and so I
sat often for hours in Robbe’s workshop and looked at how he did it. Finally he let
me start&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;to do something, engraving maps of St. Maarten,
St. Martin, on gold. Then cutting them with a saw and putting a ring on them. Soon
I was soldering, filing, rolling plates and pulling wire. It took me 6 month to learn
enough to work for the jewelry store Pepita as repairman.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp;&lt;/span&gt;In Robbe’s
workshop, in French Atelier, was a centrifugal casting machine with an oven and wax
injector, vulcanizer and rubber. All instructions were in English which Robbe did
not know. So I ended up installing and using the equipment for lost wax casting. And
when I had left Robbe and started for Pepita, I started buying tools for myself. And
all that was needed for casting. I have continued to work with casting ever after.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;
&lt;o:p&gt;&amp;nbsp;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;h1&gt;&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;a name="_Toc35765571"&gt;1990&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;Horse&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/font&gt; 
&lt;/h1&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp;&lt;/span&gt;I sold the
boat after 12 years for the price I paid for it. The money went on a&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;unknown
bank who promised high interest payment. As we were still married, Vicky also had
access to the account, I found out a little later, when she left with a big amount
and&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;our son with a young Brazilian to unknown horizons.
I met Michel Robbe and became apprentice goldsmith. Came to know the Atlantis ring.
With the ring life started anew, although I didn’t know it consciously yet. The realization
of the new age came about ten to twelve years later. 
&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;
&lt;o:p&gt;&amp;nbsp;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;h1&gt;&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;a name="_Toc35765572"&gt;1991&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;Goat&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/h1&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;When Vicky left I was devastated, shattered,
ruined. I felt so terribly alone&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;that it took me a while
to get back together. I was completely finished for a while, I saw no women or girls
and thought that I would never see one again. I sat working 3 hours in the morning
and 3 hours in the afternoons and I cried most of the time. That was to accept the
new situation more easy. Crying seems to be to wash away the past ideas and past principles.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;Suddenly Mekala came into my life, to do
me, very good, later I met Linda who came to live with me on 1st of January ‘92&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;This year ‘91 the young woman Mekala made
me return to reality again. Who would believe that 18 year old, Mekala would sex me
so sweet that I woke up for real. I’ll never forget how I met her. It was when I came
from seeing a movie, Robin Hood, in the Sandy Ground movie place . I drove my old
Subaru Leon and at the bridge was this girl asking for a ride, so I stopped and let
her get in.&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;We started talking and it came so that I asked
if she wanted to spend some time with me. I had no idea of her age, or even how she
looked. In the night, driving a car it is hard to see the face of a black woman. To
my surprise she said yes. My last woman had been Vicky, who had left me about 18 months
before. I was afraid I could still do it. And I got pretty nervous. I explained that
I had not been with a woman for a long time due to my divorce and if she would not
mind&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;helping me. What would she want me to do to make
the evening a success? Then she told me that it would not be tonight, but tomorrow,
she had a date with a girlfriend and she was late so she asked the ride. I then drove
past my house to show her where I lived and brought her to her&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;destiny.
Buy a bottle of whiskey to have&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;home the next night she
told me. The whole day I was nervous, bought not only a bottle of whiskey, but also
beer, cigarettes, wine, chips, cookies, nuts, snacks, soda’s, and more. The day passed
awfully slow but at last as soon as the night set in, she came.&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;When
she saw how nervous I was she made drinks, led me to the bed and made me lay down.
She started to undress me, and told me to do nothing. The darling helped me out of
my clothes and undressed herself also. What a sweet girl. Mekala was her name, she
stroked me, massaged me and made me feel real good. My lid was growing as it should
and she gave me compliments for its size. By jerking of my whole life, and fucking
my former wife every day once or twice, it had become respectable in size, for a white
man, that is. Now that I mention it, I remember that even my former wife had noticed
on the nude beach at Orient Bay that most other men she saw naked did not have the
same good size as me. Mekala took my hard penis in her mouth, sucked me sweet and
tender for a while and made me come in no time like a fountain, it spurted high in
the air and almost hit the ceiling, I had accumulated a load so big. “So”, she said,
“now we got rid of that we can start to begin.” And indeed a few minutes later I was
hard again and she inserted my Willy inside her dripping wet pussy. I was still not
allowed to move, and she sat over me on her hunches and went up and down for a good
while. Then she turned around and went under me. She put a pillow under her buttocks,
and made me go deep inside of her. I did not have to move in and out, just press deep
inside. Then she made me wriggle my bush against her bush, she helped by wriggling
in tandem, the same rhythm, only so that we touched hard one moment and soft the next.
Whining they call that in the Caribbean. This was so exciting that I started to feel
another orgasm coming soon, and she felt it too. “Yes”, she moaned,” just so, yes,
go on, just so....” My bush rubbed her clit and my member rubbed her G-spot and we
came, together, in unison, and it was the best feeling I had had for years. Laughing
of relief and happiness I laid next to her who now stared with glassy eyes at nothing
while she fell asleep. How very pretty did she look in her satisfied innocence, it
filled me with a sweet loving feeling for her and I kissed her smooth forehead and
her eyes and her breasts. Some ten minutes later she woke up and told me I had done
a good job, I was not old, I could still do it, she would come back soon for another
go at it and if I please could bring her home. That evening I was initiated into the
recreational sexual experiences of the Caribbean. There were many more to come. Especially
with Linda who was going to be my woman.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;It was around this time that I got the
first knowledge of the ATLANTIS Ring.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;I had learned jewelry making from Michel
Robbe and did that at home, I had built a nice workshop behind the house. Still I
did not have enough customers to make it easy and I was looking for a job.&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;I
became tourist guide with the company of “Patchi”.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp;&lt;/span&gt;Some time before
I had met Linda. On my motorbike Honda Rebel 250, I came from the Cul de Sac French
Saint Martin and saw her sticking up her thumb, asking for a ride. I drove on, as
girls normally don’t ask rides on bikes. But in my mirror I saw her still asking,
and I turned around. “Are you not afraid of bikes?” asked I. “ Oh, no”, said she and
climbed on the buddy seat. I had a sissy bar on my 250 Rebel which makes it comfortable
for the passenger. I drove as slow as possible and told her to squeeze her knees together
to get a sure grip. It was a pleasant drive and to make it last I stopped at the Surf
Club South, at the beach in Grand Case. I offered her a drink and she took an orange
juice. Then she showed me that she had burned her leg on the exhaust pipe while getting
of. A bit alarmed I drove quickly home to apply some cream. Linda’s friend is Jennifer,
also a pretty young girl, boy, how they get me to love them. Also meet Claudette,
who joins Linda and me one time sexing with me.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;h1&gt;&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;a name="_Toc35765573"&gt;1992&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/font&gt; 
&lt;/h1&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;Linda comes to live with me in Rue Fichot.
I had to wait until she got away from her boy Tony, I loved her with my head, heart
and soul for years to come. I get a job with Patchi, visiting tourists and welcoming
them at the airport.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;h1&gt;&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;a name="_Toc35765574"&gt;1993&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;Rooster&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/h1&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;Linda&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;lives
with me a year now, it took&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;long time to get her to come&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;live
by me last year. We sexed already seriously. We did our AIDS tests both, in the Marigot
Hospital and continued to use condoms for another three month, I wanted it so. After
our second testing was clear we did it naked, without protection, was that nice...
After some time Linda asked herself why she did not get pregnant.&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;I
then explained that I did my vasectomy in ‘89, in Venezuela, Cumana. When Vicky was
pregnant, I had the feeling that my dream of a world trip with the boat was becoming
impossible. I did not see me going with a young child in a small boat over the oceans.
And I was very pissed off. We talked about abortion, but that was also not really
the solution, it was already a bit late, the doctor in Curacao was not very enthusiastic
about it, neither were we, although the&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;world trip hung
in the balance, it was a difficult time and I became unruly, nasty and unfriendly.
Who needs a baby on a sailing yacht? Certainly not the captain. 
&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;h1&gt;&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;a name="_Toc35765575"&gt;1994 Dog Year.&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/h1&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoBodyText2"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="font-size: 12pt; font-family: &amp;quot;Times New Roman&amp;quot;,&amp;quot;serif&amp;quot;;"&gt;I
work for Crystal Waters selling alcoholic beverages, and wines. I learn to drink and
drive, to sniff cocaine and sell alcoholics and collect money for outstanding bills.
What an amazing life. I have to change my little red car, that was so very practical
with its big back door and down folding backseat to put boxes in, for a bigger unpractical
car with a deep boot that makes loading boxes a back breaking exercise. For a representative
of Seagram a little car will not do, the bosses live in a million dollar house in
Red Pond Estate, near Dawn Beach, they drive BMW and Chrysler, my little Japanese
does not look good enough, no matter how practical it may be. So it happens that I
stop for a hitch hiker at the slope&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;after the Friars Bay
road and some other car bumps hard into my rear. Severely damaged, structural problems
makes that the insurance pays the value and I get a bigger Subaru Leon. The boot full
of samples and deliveries I have to install alarms and better still empty it every
night as thieves empty it for me if I don’t. Linda lives with me for now. And she
comforts me but also is bossy and sometimes impossible because of her secrecy. She
will never say where she has been, what she will do, who her friends are.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;h1&gt;&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;a name="_Toc35765576"&gt;1995&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;Pig Year&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/h1&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;Canadian Mike, Michael Barrach with his
boat Kwan Yin (Goddess of Mercy) are mingling with my life. The boat looks like the
one I used to have, only bigger. Mike is a professional smuggler and his boat is equipped
with secret compartments which were never found by custom officers. The Kwan Yin sails
with compressed marijuana from St. Vincent to places not far from here where he drops
his cargo by transferring it to waiting vessels. He gets paid in Natura, that is in
several kilos of weed. When I met him it was on recommendation of Orlando and Glenn
from Holland I believe. Anyway, I still smoked those days and the grass was good.
Mike sold his grass to different dealers on the island, of which I knew a few, because
I sometimes bought small amounts from them. He was with Nils and they installed a
huge toploader freezer at the place in Simpson Bay to store the grass ffrozen. Just
like frozen vegatables it stayes veru fresh and buyers wondered after many weeks and
even month how Mike always could deliver tha same good quality. The secret of keeping
grass frozen was not known by many. Then Mike heard my dream of making perfume. He
was a bit of a chemical engeneer and he knew how to make perfume he said. I love the
smell of frangipani and on the slopes of the rock near the fort over the hospital
a lot of frangipani were having flowers. It is a little white flower with a bright
yellow heart and a strong sweet fragrance, better even than jasmin. I seduced Vicky
with a botttle of frangipani perfume I had bought in Cairo I Egypt one day long ago. 
&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;So Mike told me we needed a bit of glassware
and a vacuumpump. We took an old refridgeration compressor from his boat to my house
and I installed it in my workshop to vacuum the investment mixture of my molds before
I put them in the oven. It worked wonderwell. Mike knew the Roumanian doctor Abidzjan
from her husband Byron well enough to have her order the needed glass condenser and
retords and other parts needed to make perfume. We would use the old compressor to
suck vacuum. 
&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;
&lt;o:p&gt;&amp;nbsp;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;The mother of all hurricanes: Luis, hits
on September 5, on the same day France detonated a nuclear device in the pacific territories.
Under protest of the rest of the world.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;LUIS was a named tropical storm on the
Atlantic Ocean that had become a hurricane, with wind Force 7 and 8. It was on a track
that would lead straight over Saint Martin/Sint Maarten and it was strengthening.
In the lagoon were hundreds of sailing yachts, maybe as many as 250, have to check
the true numbers. A hectic activity was all over the place. People were nailing slats
of wood over windows, hammering was heard over the whole island. Pick up trucks loaded
with plywood hurried about. Boaties and yachties hurried to secure their boats. Concrete
blocks sold as secure moorings were floated by air bags and towed by small work boats
to the right spots. Anchor chain was sold by the mile, and the sky was dark, but no
wind was there at all. The real true calm before storm, looking back it was menacing
and threatening. Then it was unknown to me how such thing is, so I did not do much
special. My house was also placed ideally. It was on the “Roque Fort” as I called
it, the highest rock next to the bay, on which point is the Fort de Marigot, with
old guns still in good shape, on new wooden carriers, pointing to the blue bay below.
Under the guns was the small fishers beach under construction of a huge walkway, of
concrete like the quay in Barcelona, boulders for mooring lines where planned later.
Below the Fort was the house of the Governor. The General Hospital a little lower
again, and the Roman Catholic Church had taken a big part a little down towards town.&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;The
Fire Brigade on one side and the Electricity Company on the other side of the street
were my house was, next to a hotel that spread out over a lot of small cabins. The
name of the Hotel was : “Le Corsair du Roi” and next to it was&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;the
old peoples home. Opposite the hotel were a few living houses, the old lady with crazy
Nico and Kunta and Sylvia. The Guadaloupe lady rented upstairs room to different people,
later also to the secret police I found out. She had the house right in front of mine.
Hurricane LUIS approached slowly but surely. It northwestern course continued with
an agonizing 4 miles an hour. It is hard to follow the thing on radio and even TV,
as they give wind speed in kilometer per hour, the movement of the eye in (land)miles
per hour.&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;Sailors and air pilots use nautical miles to
measure distances. When the first winds started blowing I had the most beautiful creole
woman with me. Helena, whom I once had penetrated from the back on a party by Victoria,
the American artist, and was presently the girlfriend of Jan Thoelke, wealthy boat
owner. Just a little before the storm Jan had asked me to have her in the shelter
of my home, the boat was too risky he decided. The winds started to bend trees in
the yard and leaves and plastic bags started to fly around. Helena and I in the house
were looking out of the open doors, late afternoon. I went out in now raging rain
streaks, gusts of storm with a plastic garbage bag as raincoat. Three holes for head
and hands in the garbage bag makes good protection for the cold water that tasted
sometimes salty. I saw a royal palm bending so worrisome, I went out and tied it with
ropes to the concrete gate so it would stay straight. 
&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;The eye of the hurricane was announced
every 4 hours on the radio, the force was increasing, winds over 120 km/hr were coming
our way. In the house we had put all things in plastic bags, only one little radio
was out. The doors safely closed now, the fury rages outside and thunder claps explode
close by with a sharp cracking after sound. Lightning as in movie films lights up
a curtain of thick rain, visibility nil. The electricity stopped dead. The light is
out, I fumble with the kerosene lamps. We light also a gaslight, Camping Gaz from
France. Its eerie shine and sharp shadows makes me forget the storm outside for a
moment. Water enters now through the closed sleeping room window. A slate of wood
is partly torn of its nails and the crazy elements want to get in. The big square
mattress goes up with Helena’s help against the window. We take the champagne and
caviar out of the freezer, before they would spoil. We made toast on the gas stove
and spent some time wondering how long it would last. In the room was a big bed on
pellets which we could move to a dry spot and sit, lay and hang there while all the
time I feared the roof would blow of. Said she later that It lasted so long, not me,
I did not have any notion of time in the storm. I was one with the turmoil, I was
greatly impressed, I was very much myself with God. Never a dull moment, fully awake
and never had a fear, not a scare. Impressed I was very much, yes, laughing even with
the enormous power. God’s might shaking out right over the island. It went on and
on, the wind direction slowly turning full circle. The exact duration I must check.&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;The
day brought a gray world. Still cloudy and windy but it was not raining any more.
Debris all over the place, devastation wherever the eye goes. Branches, broken fences,
parts of roofs, garbage bags. First I inspect around my house. The roof was still
good, only one gutter is down, the yard garden full of big branches from the kinep
tree. Half of the big old tree had broken and missed my roof by just one foot. Hallelujah,
we are still alive and well, cleaning up could start right away. The battery radio
had all night long a program going on with call in telephone information but during
the broadcast we heard of all the places that went incommunicado. Those were getting
more and suddenly the transmitter itself was blown to silence. Now, the morning after,
no radio transmitters at all were on air. After cleaning the yard some time soon after,
miraculously the electricity came back and my telephone was working. I had worked
for Crystal Waters and the my former boss came over to use my fax to ask for emergency
generators, mobile computers and what ever the rich need to feel OK. The bosses in
Canada would fly supplies over the same day. My freezer went full blast to provide
frozen drinking water for the many people that came. I had frozen french fries and
a big wok was in the kitchen frying away,&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;providing for
all who came. Outside was humid and very hot. The sun shone pitiless on nature’s handiwork.
Some salt water that the storm had sucked out of the sea had fallen down, also on
my roof and my cistern was a little bit contaminated. The gutter that had blown odd
prevented the water being too bad. Not good for drinking but still clean enough for
laundry. My washing mashine was turning and washing things for people almost 24 hours
for days. I took my Honda Rebel on what was left of the road. Drove around the island
in a sort of stoned feeling as if I was on LSD. The place looked like the pictures
I saw of Hiroshima after Fat Boy had been delivered there in the big war. From all
standing vegetation only bare sticks were left. Most trees broken, uprooted, slung
about. Mudslides of slopes, a house slid down after a retaining wall collapsed. Roofs
blown of and roof covering plates which we call zinc are everywhere. Twisted in shapes
like crumpled paper, strewn about the landscape wherever one would look. The people
walking to and fro the devastated supermarkets. Boxes on their head, they walk quickly
away with as much as they can carry. Rams food world is devastated. The place is huge
and full of food. The roof is gone, and parts of the walls as well. My sweet Honda
Rebel carries me back safely, the harbor of Marigot can not by land be navigated.
Seaweed is thrown on land for up to three streets far. Sand and weed is three blocks
away from the sea. Up in the mountainous areas where the getthos of the poor people
are the misery is total. The destruction is complete. The wooden shacks had no force
whatsoever and all are gone. Few concrete floors and sticks here and there, nothing
but wet clothes, broken wood, out sticking fridges and washing machines, schots en
scheef. Haphazardly thrown about. People sitting dazed about and stare in space. Incomprehensible,
unbelievable. I can only see and go. My bike is my heavenly horse that brings me home
in peace.&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;A trip around the lagoon was impossible, at
Sandy Ground the road had disappeared completely. What I could see in Marina Royal
was devastation, destruction, entangled masts of sunken and half sunken boats as far
as the eye could see. The shores of the lagoon full of wrecks thrown all around the
land. Masts sticking out of the water everywhere. Only a couple of boats still on
their moorings. People are too dazed to do anything useful. A helicopter is in the
air. On the Dutch side foolish decisions are taken. The politicians want to deal with
it and stop incoming help from Holland as they play a power game. Police from Curacao
blocks all roads and now that the looting is over, they start a curfew. The French
side is churning away fine, planeloas of ply and tent material, drinking water and
soldiers arrive and help covering houses and places that lost a roof. The Dutch side
blocks the delivery of plane loads of help goods, closes down the airport, helpers
are refused to enter. In the lagoon it is counted that 95 % of all the boats sunk
or were thrown ashore and damaged. Also the boat of my friend the “Kwan Yin”, is thrown
ashore at the Red Cross compound at the airport road. With my Subaru Leon I went to
see, and it was bad. Found mister the Canadian inside the Red Cross building dispensing
telephony calls, doing guard duty of a kind. He slept there as well. A carpenter was
at the scene remarkably fast and in a few days the hole in the hull was being repaired.
After that we got heavy jacks and started to put her upright. It was a big job, I
could not be there most of the time, I was home, helping people with communications,
ice, laundry, food. Linda was thinking of returning to live with me. LUIS was Gods
answer to our separation, I felt it so. At the same time horrifying and destructive,
it was also the only solution for the governments that could no way cope with all
the getthos and illegals on the island. LUIS helped them a great bit forward. Emergency
container dwellings came on the Dutch side close to the cricket field, it was a small
village all right where the people that had no more home could live. The weather had
become normal, sunny, hot, little breeze. I started to make gold again and Mike came
around sometimes. His experiment to make hash oil resulted in a small quantity extremely
strong oil, and in our arrest by the frenchpolice not long after. He had been followed
using my bike and my car. I was suspected to be the brain of an organization importing
marijuana and making hash oil to export on the international market. That was because
Mike used my place to do his experiments. He had started it by telling me he was going
to help me making perfume. He then used me, as he used doctor Abadzjef, he used Nils
and whomever he met to help him with his schemes. He had brought good grass to his
delivery point in the neighborhood, and got a few score pounds as payment. He sold
a few pounds to smokers local, and stored the rest in big freezers at the house of&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;I
know who in Pelican area. It stayed good and customers were very astonished to get
the same good quality, week after week. In my place it was weighed and bagged. I had
scales for my plaster and gold and bronzes, and Mike used them all very efficiently.
I saw mostly what went on, but it was not mine so I did not touch it.&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;
&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;h1&gt;&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;a name="_Toc35765577"&gt;1995 November 23&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/h1&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp;&lt;/span&gt;I get arrested
and after three days in police custody in Saint Martin flown out and thrown in jail
in Guadaloupe. I would stay there for 10 months.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;Linda takes care of my belongings. She
comes to see me every month for 6 month. I wrote her many letters, nothing was known
about my destiny, I advised her to find herself a man. 
&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;h1&gt;&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;a name="_Toc35765578"&gt;1996 Rat Year&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/font&gt; 
&lt;/h1&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;Which she did, without telling me. My hopes
to be reunited were dashed when she picked me up from the airport after my release
almost 11 month later and she dropped me at Bavaria bar, where the ‘October Fest’
was in full swing. Jimbo came to my rescue and let me stay with him a few weeks until,
with Linda’s help, I found a shack to rent for $150. - That was at Cowboys place.
High up the mountain on the slope behind his house. A bare room with an electric bulb
on a wire, and a mattress on the floor and a fridge, which was carried up by Linda’s
boyfriend Robby, Robert.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;From the first day of the year I spend
jail time, free 21 October ‘96, back to St. Maarten, 5 years restriction French side,
find lodgings in a shack at Cowboy York. Meet the con artists Richard Lissenberg.
Next I do a little better in the place under Cowboy’s place, cost 100 more, I pay
now 250 dollar a month. Richard and Sandy are my friends. One is a drunken goldsmith,
the other a swindler. I 
&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;meet Lafafa, the Haitian goldsmith in Front
street. I work a little time for him, but when he takes my money from clients that
I bring in, I quit and Nils takes my tools back to Cowboy.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;
&lt;o:p&gt;&amp;nbsp;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;h1&gt;&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;a name="_Toc35765579"&gt;1997&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;Ox&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/h1&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;This year I go to Holland, advice of Nils,
and I get all I need, a new clean passport, new teeth and money from the government
and from work with Frans and Ernst. I stay away three month and when I come back I
find my place unpaid by fucking Richard, who dirtied my place, with blood and shit,
God only knows what he did in there. The ass hole collected money people owed me,
he collected jewelry to get fixed and then sold it. He made more enemies that I can
count. I move to the boat of Sandy, we have some storms, in the harbor of Bobby’s
Marina. Then I get the house on Kings of the Sea road. There I install my tools, have
BBQ under the tree with Sandy, and at the end of the year I meet Joy from America,
half Japanese, half American, she stays at Divi hotel. We&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;have
great sex and we write letters for a few month until she comes back to find out that
I am not her sought after husband.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;h1&gt;&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;a name="_Toc35765580"&gt;1998&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;Tiger&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/h1&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;Joy comes in February for 2 weeks.The French
goldsmith Olivier comes and I go to Philipsburg, meet Christian&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;h1&gt;&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;a name="_Toc35765581"&gt;1999&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;Cat&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/h1&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;A lot of sex
this year, whore house visits to sell my gold, successful and horny. Only a bad ending
at second of December the hit by the inattentive car-driver mister Brown. He hit the
Rebel up front, threw me down, bike on leg, crushed badly, broken and shaved. 2&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;month
in the Sint Maarten Medical Center where I met Bart Allers and got to know him a bit&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;
&lt;o:p&gt;&amp;nbsp;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;
&lt;o:p&gt;&amp;nbsp;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;h1&gt;&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;a name="_Toc35765582"&gt;2000&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;Dragon&lt;/a&gt;&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/h1&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;started in the hospital, January, most
of&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;February&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;at Nils
and Alma and Gus, a curious&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;trio.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;In March or April I was home&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;again
and found a nest full of fresh eggs, present from the yard. Then Bart started to built
the extra room and there was always action and activity. Big equipment&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;took
fast care of the&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;building, Gus did some electrics and
a Haitian did&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;some stone work in the yard and the place&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;starts
to get better. A little pond made by St. Lucy&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;Peter with
fishes and waterlilies from the library pond make the place look fabulous already
and it is not half ready...&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;After my notes I must have met Lolita this
year on November 21. Marisol and another woman brought her to me. They introduced
the girl to me and asked me to be her friend.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;h1&gt;&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;a name="_Toc35765583"&gt;2001&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;Snake&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/h1&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp;&lt;/span&gt;Got&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;accused
by Alma, Nils and Guus of stealing a&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;little TV that Bart
had left behind. We never got back together again. I went to a voodoo priest from
Africa, Ghana, who&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;wanted money but did not remove the
accusation. The TV was found back in Guus’ room. I diagnose Alzheimer by Guus.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;Lolita and Marcia, also called Lea play
a sexy role in this year for sure. 
&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;In September I am robbed by two bandits
who where let in by Rutty Stapleton.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;
&lt;o:p&gt;&amp;nbsp;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;h1&gt;&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;a name="_Toc35765584"&gt;2002&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;Horse year&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/h1&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;I
got my first computer, a Macintosh Apple Power Book 1400cs, laptop, from Mitsu Ferrier,
a very generous lady, and friend of Marie-France from Indiana Restaurant and bar,
in Simpson Bay. I have not yet found out what it is that I can do for her, except
make an Atlantis ring which she insisted she paid for anyway...the second of February
I go see Ruby Bute, today Willem Alexander marries Maxima in Holland. I feel often
very good, sing loud gibberish, work&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;a little gold, write
this down, listen to Bob Marley originals had some sweet people passing, Marisol and
man friend, A young Haitian&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;woman 24 who came&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;with
Linel, the car worker from next&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;block. she bought&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;for
her new born boy an arm chain and a little ring. Marisol had repairs. Last night at
Ruby’s place&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;came Ilhan, the Turkish lady. We had nice
talk&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;nothing specific. She must take her vitamins. Brett
came to finish silver lizards I cast and he made the Guavaberry Logo Head in wax that
I cast successfully in silver to serve as a master for copying. February 5, too much
to do, no time to write. 
&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;I met&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;a most
pretty girl-woman, named Blue Satin, she is from St. Lucia. Only once did she come
here and talk a while, she is so busy that&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;she hardly
has time to see me. Linda&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;only bothers me when she needs
me, never does a thing for me, Marcia is a prostitute, will come for sex if I want,
Lolita comes&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;sometimes unexpected to play with me and&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;as
she calls it: to ”Kill me softly.” Lolita is too young to do what she does, and it
scared me when I found out later. She does not know what an orgasm is and I scolded
her for that . Blue Satin interests me these days for real, if only she would be interested
in me... I pray that she will come to be mine one day. Amen. Our last telephone conversation
she mentioned 40 dollar that she would make when she would do a lady’s hair, but if
I would give her the 40 dollar she would come to me. I advised her to get the money
from the lady. Later I thought that maybe she would do more than my hair for 40 dollar,
so I called her to say that I had a pocket full of money, if she was interested...
Wednesday at 5 she would have time, now let’s see if it works out. I do not like to
pay for sex, however, if I can not get it for free, I have to. I really would like
to have her as my friend and live together and eat and talk and joke and sex and show
off, to do whatever it is that makes the days go by. As it looks now, she only comes
for money, and it is not sure what she will do for it.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;Blue Satin came, only one hour late, which
is nothing by Caribbean standards, talked nice, typed a little, got a ring, a solitaire
with a 5 mm CZ, kept the anklet she tried on the first time and we forgot to take
off,&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;and asked for the 40 dollars that we talked about
earlier. I had given my word, so I gave it. The closest I got to her was kissing her
stomach and her right breast a little, before she told me to stop it. That was the
most expensive&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;nipple I ever kissed. 40 anklet+40 cash+40
ring=120 dollar, I could buy 6 times&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;sex for that. I must
be mad, stark raving mad. I can only justify it by saying that it is third world help,
and she won’t have to do any work for a day or so. Still I do not understand what
came over me to give away money like that. If only I had a good friend to stop me
doing things like that, a sex friend and an economic friend, and a social friend all
in one, God do not forsake me, hear my plea....Amen. 7 of February I work on the three
Atlantis rings and feel very tired&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;afterwards, Eddy comes
reads “my life”&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;and makes a little wall to protect the
new pond from dirty water when it rains. 
&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;Lolita comes as usual unexpected when I
am alone in the late afternoon and have me cumm. She asked me to suck her puss, lick
it strong, open it, let her see it. She makes me take the mirror and place it so that
she has plain view into the act. She is enjoying the feeling, she may yet find out
how to reach her orgasm.&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;I bring her home afterwards on
the bike, she makes me drive as slow as possible and holds me so sweet, arms all around
me, it feels so good. Later I go to Soggy dollar bar and see&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;Jacqueline
from the “Rocket” and Brett, after go to Pelican to see Grace who pays for the repairs
and the ring with the blue stone I made her. I could not find my yellow night glasses
later in the car, where did they go???&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;They went on the
floor of the little car, I found them the next morning. Blue Satin called to ask if
I could sign residence permit papers for her, so she can get legal. I would do it
for help. Help me with my life, jewelry making if you like,&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;but
surely the cleaning, the garden, clothing, cooking, and last but not at all least:
sex. Good and willing sexual partnership is essential for getting my assistance in
paper matters. If you want my help, I want yours.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;February 9 I wake up good, start my computer
and work a little, it is 7 o’clock. The coffee machine pruttles away and the smell
of fresh coffee fills the house. I feed the chickens and kick the cat who meows too
loud for my liking. Then I feed the cat and the bell rings. 
&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;In steps Marcia, the young black sex queen
from St.Peter. With only a flimsy dress she feels me over right at the door and makes
my morning member proudly stand up against her soft belly. She is in the sleeping
room&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;without losing a minute, naked&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;and
inviting. What man can resist a young willing woman at 7:30 in the morning? Not me.
So I lay next to her, kiss her big soft breasts, she strokes my hair, squeezes my
nipples, strokes my&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;belly and tells me to put on my ring. 
&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;My dick ring is a marvel first class. I
made it from pure silver in the right size after having experimented with different
rings, curtain rod rings and other big size rings from different sources, like boat
gear, fitness machines, until I found the perfect size. This one fits right over my
penis,&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;slides down to the base and there I pull some skin
of the scrotum up through it. Now it is fixed well and my member swells to extra big
proportions. Hard like wood, the condom rolls down over it tightly and with a little
K-Y-jelly I insert it slowly inside Marcia who moans with pleasure. She likes a big
size and she likes it a bit rough. So I grind and whine a good while when she announces
that she has to pee. I roll away and she goes to the bathroom. When she comes back
she goes on all fours and asks me to take her a bit rough, brutal, from the back,
but not in the brown hole. I slip inside her slowly and deeply and hold her great
brown buttocks, feel her back and squeeze her shoulders, her neck and stroke down
between her shoulder blades, down to her buttocks. She likes my shaft going in and
out deep and shallow, she moans and grunts a little, I feel her yoni holds me&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;good
and tight. She never had a baby and is fond of her tightness. My lingham gets the
massage&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;of heaven in her cave of love.&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;Oh
holy feeling of creation, here it comes, the pleasure is now unstoppable, reaches
the climax, she knows it, moves in unison and yes, we cumm. Or maybe it is only me
who cumms, but it is OK, she turns and laughs, she knows she is good, she has given
me the pleasure that she knows so well to give. Wow, what a dream come true. Sweet
sex in the morning, unexpected, fresh, new, honest, recreational, relaxing. No better
way to start the day. 
&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;Outside the universe responds with early
morning rain that feeds the plants in unity with our creative activity. A fresh copious
shower for the thirsty plants and flowers in the garden. Every creature is&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;happy.
After she&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;has left I sing, do the laundry in the&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;washing
machine, play on my flute a few melodies, defrost the refrigerator and cook breakfast.
Papo came in the middle of all that to pick up the little ring I made for his Valentine
lady friend. If only every day was like that, the world would be a better place for
all the suffering peoples who know not how to live the&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;good
life. 
&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;Later I found that Papo took advantage
of my happy mood and stole a ring while he was in the workshop. The little farth will
never enter here again..&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;I got a call from one of the prettiest
young beautiful females that I have ever seen. The sister from Junior, the young man
who helped me always with my Rebel 250. Their mother works at the tax office and their
father&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;with the social affairs office. Junior is in Holland
and because I am/was planning to go to Holland, she called me to give me Juni’s telephone
number. I have always, from the first moment I saw her, felt a special affection for
her. We had some fun on the phone, when she fooled me in believing that she had a
brother that wanted to buy my bike, I then fooled her believing that I represented
a fashion house looking for a model. It was a long time that I thought of her, but
she is too young for me and I put her out of my mind. Now she called and I get all
those feelings back again. Difficult. Her name eluded me, and she did not say it during
the conversation, I remembered it only later that day, when I drove over the hill.
It is &lt;b style=""&gt;Sahida&lt;/b&gt;. The whole day it slipped my mind .She was the first
one to visit me with her mother when I was in the hospital after being hit by&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;Mister
Brown in December 1999. She gave me a cell phone while I was in the hospital. Her
mother ‘s name is Sandra. However, what a blessed time I live in, one girl comes to
sex me early in the morning, another calls me and talks sweet, and gives me thoughts
of future fun. Wow! ! ! The whole day I wondered about her name. Should I call her
brother in Holland to ask the name of his sister, or shall I wait and see if I remember
it later? Questions like this I like to solve with a coin. I flip a coin, head is
yes, tail is no. It was no this time,&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;so I call not. Often
I ask the flip method to answer for me, questions that can go either way. Later that
night , when I drive over the hill I recall her name: it is Sahida.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;Linda calls to say she has a check and
will pay me one hundred dollars if I can give her the three hundred dollars difference,
which I cannot. She owes me 475. So we wait until Monday. When she calls me to tell
me she needs it to go to a hand surgeon in Anguilla. Asked if she ever will give me
the sweet treatment again she used to give me, she answers that one day she will,
but not right now. Third woman to call today, this one to offer to pay back long ago&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;borrowed
money. Wow.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;My willy is getting hard now any odd time,
talking in the telephone to any of the sweet girls I know, even thinking of any one
them is enough to make him swell up. It is a bit worrisome, at my advanced age to
be still like that. I study spiritualism, the God inside of me. I read the teachings
from the Buddha and although they are not against sex, they warn for immoral behavior.
As long as my love for the women I spend time with is genuine, I feel no objections
to having them around and sharing pleasurable feelings. My love is for all of them,
and I get crazy for the beauty of any young&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;woman that
is dressed sexy, belly button out, low waist, high tank top, they certainly know how
to stir up my blood. It is called lust and to only pursue the company of a woman in
order to satisfy the lust is immoral it is said. However, what about if that woman
also wants to satisfy her hunger for sexy pleasure? If both partners are willing to
be victim of lust, what then is the case?&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;Is it then still
immoral? Or is it the will of God to be together and have the heavenly feeling of
pleasure? To create another human being is to be as close to God as is possible. That
is what happens when two partners have sex. The feelings before, during and after
are to me Holy, to be cherished and cultivated and understood and experienced.&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;
&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;Lolita takes up my stupid mind and I cannot
resist to buy her a belly chain that she asked for, I pay 25 dollar. She asked for
shrimps, also my favorite food, I bought for 18 dollar, uncooked big shrimps, two
pounds, ate from it because she did not came back for three days until when she came
only one portion was left. She loved it. 
&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;Fried it herself and ate it with gusto.
Her belly chain fits just, 30 inch is not a tiny small waist at all for a young girl.
Not to forget she got a baby when 13 years of age. The chain fits, with only one inch
left hanging. Before I realized she was naked on the bed and asking if I wanted her
so or if she should shower first. Her nipples get hard from excitement, she knows&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;what
she wants from me. Who am I to refuse? She takes my head in her hands and brings it
between her legs, presses me where she wants to be sucked. No shower first, let me
smell and taste the real thing. My tongue out and in, stroking and licking in and
out, quick and slow, she moans and looks with a smile of innocent surprise and wonder
down to my face between her legs. I turn my eyes up to see her face between her pointed
breasts that stand out like two mounts Fuji in Japan. Her snow white teeth in her
half open mouth visible between her lovely young titties sucks in the air&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;and
expels her breath slowly, her legs move open wide and she tries to push my head all
the way inside her yoni, her juice-oozing love hole, which is impossible, my nose
gets buried in her bush, my mouth kisses her pink toothless mouth that is hungry and
slaving with sweet tasting juice. I drink her luscious nectar and feel the power of
creation fill my heart. What to do? My member is erect and trembling to enter the
source of life. Moaning she pulls me higher up and covers herself with me. I grope
for the box of condoms, K-Y jelly and cock ring and bite the wrapper off a blue rubber.
Roll it down my shaft and make sure it is down to&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;the
base of the bush. She lays back and waits sighing rapidly. I will try to give her
an orgasm, but I am too far gone to control myself, the sweet nectar that I drank
from her open flower contains so much energy that my gift cannot be held back. Her
slightest touch&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;and the tightness of the&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;entrance
to her love cave make my thoughts of going slow evaporate and as I am just about one
inch in and pushing she puts her hand between her bush and mine and makes me stop.
It helps, the feeling to shoot my load diminishes a little. She lets me enter again.
How well she knows to prolong our pleasure!! Slowly I go in two inch and again her
hand stops me from going deeper. What a girl. I cover her right nipple with my open
mouth and feel the firmness. My tongue circles her nipple while I suck it, she trembles
and squeezes her legs together, three more strokes and I feel me cumming, the power
of creation takes place, she makes me cumm. I feel the holy gift of life has been
accepted, she won this one, I congratulate her, kiss her gratefully, she basks in
her victory, she did not cumm, oh no, she killed me softly again, she made me give
it to her. This darling of darlings, she lives. She lets me kiss her belly a little,
my surrender to the holy of holies. I adore her and slowly we get up and out of the
love nest. Under the shower I soap her lithe body from top to toe and the slippery
soap feeling makes me shiver of pleasure. This is the crown on the work I think when
I dry her patting her backside softly with a towel. I think I’m in deep love with
this young woman...&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;“I’ll be back tomorrow”, she yells as she
walks away a little later with a man who called for her a minute after she made me
cumm, and who waited for her outside. Who is he and what does she do with him? She
is in charge, and not only of me, that much is clear.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;Next day when she comes to have a ring
made smaller&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;and the chain of her mother repaired, she
looks at me again with that measuring look, as if to say:” How many strokes will it
take this time to make him cumm?” However, a lady I know long time, Isabel, enters
the stage, sits down and wants to see my collection of rings, selects one and orders
it for tomorrow. Lolita looks with contempt and disgust at Isabel behind her back
and makes a sneering movement with her head as if to say: “Shit, what is she doing
here?” I diffuse the tension between the girls, I know that Isabel would like to get
a good fuck at the moment, that is why she comes here but I say that I have to be
in 20 minutes in Simpson Bay, so, “Let’s get into the car”. We went in the car all
three of us and I did not get it that night, neither the next as none came. Of course
Isabel did not come to buy the ring I made her, that got sold later to somebody else.
I can’t sleep, eat late and sleep a little, think of a lover to have, Marcia’s phone
does not answer, is disconnected. 
&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;Wake up 14 February at 5 am, start writing
and find in this computer nice writings by Neale Donald Walsh, conversations with
God. End of February I have not seen Lolita more than once coming here.&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;Then
suddenly she is here again. She wants to go to the beach, so on the bike we went to
le Gallion. We played in the water like two young lovers, it is unbelievably nice.
Splashing water in the shallows, diving&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;between her legs
under water, just like we were both the same age. And there is 40 years between us...Wow,
what a dream come true. Afterwards at home we showered, ate shrimps and made love
before I brought her home.&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;I love her so much that I cannot
stop thinking of her every few minutes. It is time I go away from this island, things
are getting out of hand, the working without having a registered business, the sexing
all the girls, I’ve had it all, it’s time to go to do some different living in Holland,
start over. I thank God that I have had so much love, so much sex, even if it was
from&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;young prostitutes, it was very nice, and to pay for
something nice is not wrong. I am certainly a happy man here in the sun, later when
I am in Holland I will see if I shall miss it or not. 27 February, Seaon calls me.
She was my cleaning girl, who did my house every week, sexed me nicely, took her orgasm
when I laid down. She would sit on top and ride me till she came. She left beginning
of December to spent the holidays in her country Guyana. Tomorrow she’ll be here.
Wow.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;To get out of the country I have to un-register,
and at the tax office I was stuck, for hours I waited, and now I have to pay tax over
the money I got for my accident. This is a major problem, as I have no money. Linda
owes me 600 dollar, the immigration office has 600 dollar of mine and my clients owe
me about 500. How to get it all is the question.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;Freddy who works with Cesar Saravia will
take over my place while I am away. He will pay the rent and take care of the tools
and workshop. If ever I come back, the place will still be there. All that is very
positive.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;Seaon came in&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;at
11 am 27 February 2002, and we talked nice, about she coming with me to Holland. We
send an e-mail to Bart to ask what to do for her to come with me. 
&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;Not half an hour later Lolita came. At
the first moment I wondered what to do, as I wanted very much to have sex with Seaon,
but I knew that Lolita also does sex any time. Quick thinking made me say to Lolita
that I had a friend come over who wanted to meet her. And God thanks, they liked each
other at first sight. How exactly it happened I do not remember, but in no time they
were in my bedroom fondling each other. And pretty quick I was with them on the big
bed. We were making love, not so much sex in the beginning, but caressing and fondling
and slowly removing one piece of clothing at the time. I had put&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;retarding
cream on my dick earlier, when Seaon called&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;to say she
was coming in half an hour. That cream is called RETARDIN, and makes the lingham insensitive
and hard as well. It makes that one does not ejaculate quickly. The two girls laughed
and giggled to each other and Lolita asked me to fuck Seaon, she wanted to see it
from the side. So I put a condom and my cock ring on and after licking Seaon's poke
a little while, to get harder still, I entered her slowly and deeply. Lolita went&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;with
her head close by to see good how my dick went in and out and I asked her to hold
my balls and squeeze them, which she did. Oh&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;feeling of
the Gods, what a fun. So I was banging Seaon while Lolita laid next to her kissing
and fondling her breasts and licking and feeling us two having sex the wild way. The
crazy cream made that I did not cumm, but kept on banging, and&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;a
little while later Lolita&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;asked me to stop and please
fuck her also like I did Seaon. I slowly slipped out of the wet poke of Seaon and
Lolita then put another condom over the one I had on already. She did not want me
to bang her with the same one. She is very health conscious, thanks God. Then Lolita
laid down with a pillow under her little ass and her legs wide open. I licked her
poke a moment and sucked her little clit hard to make her eager for me to enter, to
make her wet and slippery. Slowly I pushed my member into her tight pussy. She held
onto Seaon while I pushed and poked her and held her lithe body. Never did I screw
her so deep and so long and so sweet. While I went in and out and stroked and squeezed
her little young firm breasts and kissed Seaon, we did a real trio in the classical
way. This had not happened to me in my whole life since the two girls in Amsterdam,
in 1973, 29 years ago. And still that did not come close to what happened this time.
After a good long session, sweaty and satisfied we went to le Gallion Beach and played
in the lukewarm seawater, after&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;we went to my place to
shower and I brought them both home. Lolita had told Seaon about her man friend Duncan
who paid 200 dollar for a good fuck with her and who liked to have two girls. They
decided to go for him together. Lolita called him and he set the time for the meeting
tonight at 8 o’clock. They should come to my place at 7 or 7:30 and take it from there.
Seaon came first that night and Lolita a little later. Both were dressed up like going
to an important party. She called her friend, but he did not answer his phone. After
a while he still did not answer and how it happened I do not recall, but suddenly
the two girls where on the bed, still dressed, but kissing and fondling each other.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;Then the tops went of and they asked me
to join. Lolita wanted to see how I banged Seaon and so with condom no.1 I slipped
inside her. In and out and suck and lick and wriggle and bang, it was a lovely movement,
and a little later Lolita wanted me inside her with condom two rolled over condom
one. It was the afternoon session all over again, only better. Then she wanted to
fuck me with the wooden dildo that hangs in my bathroom serving as a toilet paper
dispenser. I refused, but in the crazy heat, Lolita took the wicked thing from the
bathroom, put a condom on it and while she put me on all fours, sucking Seaon's puss,
she slowly pushed the thing, covered with K-Y jelly, up my ass hole. Then Seaon went
under me and inserted my hard member inside her pussy. She held me tight in her arms
while Lolita slowly twisted the dildo inside my back hole. In no time I came like
a rocket, I exploded, double much through the massage of my prostrate gland of course.
With my cock ring my member stayed hard all the time, even after cumming. The dildo
removed, they made me lay down, face up. My lingham stood up like the Eifel tower,
awaiting to be embedded inside a soft woman's inside again. Seaon then&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;sat
over me and lowered herself on my hard throbbing member and started to go up and down.
Lolita sat facing Seaon with her poke right over my mouth. The girls were kissing
and loving each other while I was getting fucked by Seaon and ate Lolita’s pussy.
That was the best moment of my life. After that position wore off, and Lolita was
dripping wet, Seaon had climaxed with a shivering scream, and she lay with only the
white of her eyes visible in a coma of bliss. Now Lolita had me enter her from the
back, spoon spoon style, while she laid next to Seaon kissing and holding her. I stroked
her dark brown back while I slipped inside her puss and held her small breasts while
I did slow strokes in and out. Enjoying four breasts with my hands from the two girls
that faced each other, I finally felt once again that blissful feeling of extasy coming
when Lolita moved rhythmically with me to explode together. My last little love juice
still spurted in the condom with a force that made Lolita feel it and she smiled at
me turning around while I kissed her and slowly withdrew my member, dripping wet and
still half erect. She touched it and said that he had done his job very well. 
&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;“Some time I will come back for more of
that”, she said, while she dozed of to dreamland. We slept for half an hour . What
a remarkable day. It made me feel mighty good. It lasted till 9:30 pm when we were
finally too tired to continue. Warm showers and drying and more kisses and good feelings
and feeling hungry. We went out to find food and I brought the two loving girls to
Seaon's home where Lolita stayed to sleep with her new found lover. What a remarkable
good day. Wow.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;Linda keeps telling me that she will sex
me before I go to Holland, so I tell her I’ll go tomorrow...She does not take the
bait, yet. Also, I see her with different eyes now, and tell her openly that I have
had two girlfriends at the same moment, Seaon and Lolita. Linda has lost her sex appeal
and much of her beauty. Her ass still looks nice, but now that the zest is gone out
of her, I am not so hot for her like before. Strange how my feelings are growing.
Lolita and Seaon happened to be both hot for me one day last week of February when
we happened to sex the three of us in the daytime, went to the beach and had sex again
in the evening. Very amazing and never done before, spontaneously, happy, horny, unplanned,
free, with fun and food, extremely good. Now Seaon and Lolita kind of compete with
each other of who sex me best. I like it, but I think I feel for the first time how
a woman feels about having sex for money. I am less horny, less urgent, more calculated,
better observing the girl that is doing it with me, trying to see her every expression
and trying very much to please her. It is better than ever, but not any more instinctive,
animalistic, it is becoming sexual proficiency. It has gone into a higher realm. Today
15th of march I transferred the mill to the work room, and painted the new bench ready,
soon will everything be there. To make place for my PC and printer writing desk. All
is good, went shopping&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;with Lolita and she cooked, and
I worked. She says she’ll come tonight to sex me, but I do not know if that is true.
Sent my letter “Truth Trips” to the papers. Got it printed in the “Today” of Saturday
16 march. Next day I was hot again, at 7 am, took a picture of my member that was
hard and eager. I did my morning chores and around ten came Seaon. She started cleaning
the kitchen, and when Seaon undressed a few hours later I got hard again. She invited
me with wide open legs and I could not but give in to her demand. I slowly entered
her and pumped deep and shallow for a good while until I proposed to go under and
she on top. As the long mirror was next to us, I took the camera and shot a picture
through it of her on top of me. Then she shuddered and came. I then had her sit doggie
style on all fours while I entered her from the back, and took another picture, of
me half way in and another one of me all the way in, I like to see those pics, wow,
shots of the shooting gallery. And my shot emptied me from my toes out all the way.
The rest of the day I was out of it, could hardly do a thing, because I did not drink
her juice, I had not much energy. It was very good, very deep and slow and sweet.
Thank you girl, you are so very good. The month of April has started and I've had
so much good sex from my girlfriends, wonderful and sweet and fine. Lolita is the
best, comes unexpected and stays away unexpected. She is always a surprise and I hope
she is OK, I almost wanted to be her only friend, which is impossible by far. One
day she came and sexed me twice, before and after lunch, it was really wonderful.
I love that girl, but she is uncontrollable.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;Not that I want to control her, but I would
like her and me to be more in harmony.&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;On April 10&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;Marcia
was here and Lolita came just then, and yes, for the 3th time this year I had sex
with two girls... Lolita had put some retarding cream on my lingham when she understood
that Marcia was joining us in bed, because she wanted me to last long and so when
we sexed I did not cumm and it went on and on and on. Both girls sat weary eyed down
after the showers and the clean up, it was so good that I needed to recover for&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;about
three days. 
&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;Linda seems to smell something and is coming
around more often now. She say that she’ll come&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;the 18th
of April to sex me and stay with me the whole night after work, I’m very curious to
see if that is true. And indeed it was true, but after 19 April I found out that it
is not out of love for me but out of fear for her attacker, who has been seen on island
again. She told me that she does not want to go home in the dark, so she comes here,
and leaves at first light.....&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;Andy is a young goldsmith from Guyana who
sits in my workshop every day and helps me with a lot of things. I can get around
while he is working and he’ll bring his bed in here too, to sleep here when I’m gone.
He has no papers for here and an enemy of his mother wants to set immigration after
him. Freddy comes here at night and sits working until about nine. He says he’ll live
in the house for the time I’m gone. Very good.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;Soon comes the day I go&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;to
Holland, I bought the ticket April 15.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;
&lt;o:p&gt;&amp;nbsp;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;29 April&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;Took the plane from Air Corse to Paris,
from the airport to Gare du Nord brought there by nice people I met in the plane and
took a luxury train from Paris to Luik, Belgium, Liege. There Bart came to fetch me. 
&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;
&lt;o:p&gt;&amp;nbsp;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;30 April in Holland. 
&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;
&lt;o:p&gt;&amp;nbsp;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;First of may , the greenest place I’ve
seen for long.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;1 may, visit to CWI, Center for Work and
Income. A most amazing, modern building where one gets help finding work and/or income.
Computerized work adds, for the area or the country, even for the whole rest of Europe.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;Every day Bart and I work on the request
for money for my plan for a school in SXM. Now he contacted his brother Fred who is/was
speech writer for the minister president and boss of the biggest Union in the country.
He knows who can put the plan for us on paper so that we surely will get a good&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;reply.
Today is 2 may and I have to open a bank account so that&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;the
cut can start paying me. It is unbelievable but true.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;May 2 is come and gone, bank account is
opened, visits made to friend and family of Bart, I sit and e-mail with his super
fast provider, everything is instantly answered. I am very homesick for Sint Maarten
and the sweet lovers I left behind. I wish I could go back as soon as possible. But
I need a&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;few more weeks. I wish I was back already. 
&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;May 3 is gone with a trip to Eindhoven,
where Bart went to see the company he&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;will work for. again
visits to people, and eating good, and much, and often. 
&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;I think by mistake&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;one
day wrong and wake up Saturday 4 may&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;early morning thinking
it is Sunday. The sky is gray,&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;a drizzle wets the land.
I accompany&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;Bart to Roermond, we pass by his family members,
do little, and I play at home internet, make a fire and watch the rich TV. All is
good, I wait for Monday to get in touch with the foundation&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;that
may help me getting the money for my school-plan.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;Sunday one week after my departure from
SXM&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;the sky is gray again. This Sunday I play
internet on a love dating net called : “Liefde”. I type all kind of silly letters
like what I sent to Queenie, and get all kind of disgusted reactions. Fun and good
to find out the moral standards from these peoples, mostly very young people that
play the internet. When they see that I am over 50 they are immediately scared and
call me a dirty old man or a paedophile when I look or a young partner. Here the difference&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;in
age is no more than a few years,and they look strange at more than 10 years between
partners, my own parents had that, and I found it&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;then
special.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;Outside it rains a little, and the sky
is&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;gray and no sunlight comes through. I know that the
sun will only come once I get a good fuck. How long will that take?&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;Sunday night I went with Bart who came
with a nice lady&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;to a place called Waldelust, a dance
hall in the forest next to the German border. They also called it the mummy hall,
as most people there were older, my age for sure. I did see from the three hundred
people maybe two attractive women. The rest is repulsive and I know that I will not
stay here a day longer than needed. These white ugly people do not appeal to me in
the least and I do not feel good with them. I won’t ever find one that will make me
feel horny and sexy, it is depressing to me.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;Monday may 6, Bart slept out, is still
not home. The sky is gray, no rain, no sun. I have seen maybe three hours sunshine
last week. Later the sun tries to shine through the cloudy sky, but after a little
while gives up and is gone for the day. Bart comes home, breakfasts and we call PUM,
who&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;will send me a form to fill. That depresses me a little.
Time enough says Bart, and calls his brother for more&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;information.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;The murder of Pim Fortuyn took place today,
6pm local time, consternation in the land.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;Most unbelievable, may 7, I wake up 6:30,
look out and see blue skies and sunshine. And the sun stays the whole day, First day
of eight cloudy and rainy ones. we bring the polish workman to Sittard. He broke his
leg yesterday after falling from a stairs, 5 feet high!! His&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;leg
is&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;in plaster and it hurts. After I walk in Roermond to
try to get a connecting cable for this computer to a printer, no possible yet, maybe
Barts brother Fred knows , we are going to see him Thursday. Then we worked on the
big blue camper. took the door of and cut away the rusty parts. Installed the cupboard
doors and a wooden partition.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;Today may 8, sunny at waking up, will it
be the second sunny day of my Dutch time? And no, as the day progressed, the grayness
thickened and the sun gradually lost the supremacy. Some of the coldness went away,
it went up to 20 C, but no sun. Worked a bit on the camper, called the cut, who had
expected me Monday, not Wednesday, because a mistake by the lady who interviewed me
first. woensdag 6 she told me to come. The 6 was Monday, Wednesday was 8. I never
realized until one hour before the meeting, and called to make sure. At 5 o’clock
we took off to drive to Utrecht, where we visited Fred, Barts brother. I drove the
Ford diesel to there and&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;Bart drove the way back. Utrecht
is very pretty. Old like Amsterdam. We had a nice talk in Freds office with Jos, the
friend and co worker, in the great house on a small ancient canal in Utrechts old
center. Then we went to restaurant Ma's, where the waitress was the most pretty young
woman I have seen in Holland since I arrived. I told the people at dinner my old jokes
and had great good laughter from all.&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;The waitress was
24 years old and just the type to restore my shaken trust and believe in Dutch women.
God was she pretty, and what ugly are most of the others.... 
&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;May 9 Thursday was Ascension Day and I
was fucking sick. Had caught a cold or it was the wine from the day before, anyway
we returned at 3 am the morning and went to bed. After waking up I was sick&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;and
only later at night I felt a little better. Didn’t do a thing, slept, ate a little
and o, yeah, I send a letter to St.Maarten, to Sarah WW, for information that Fred
needs to make the request for money. Oh, the day started with a little foggy sun,
cleared up, was lightly gray but dry and clear mostly.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;May 10, I wake up at 7:30, the sky is gray,
as usual. I feel good and go down to clean up. Bart comes 9:30 and we drink coffee
and I do my e-mails. New joke for clever women. I tell the joke to the female post
delivery person and ask her the question of the week. Said I, to her: “Are you sexually
abused as a child by a catholic priest? Now is the time to speak up. Don’t be afraid,
you can say it now, the time of silence and fear is over.” 
&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;may 12, Saturday, no rain, no sun.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;may 13, same weather, no rain, but gray
sky, no sun at all, went to talk with two workers of the social service. they let
me come back with more papers next day.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp;&lt;/span&gt;may 14, go
to social service at the work office, get to wait again.weather clear but cold, it
hurts my legs, afternoon I sleep and Rebecca calls, everything OK, in the evening
I internet, chat with&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;Jan Willem and send e-mails. 
&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;may 16 Thursday, good weather,this day
a new political structure has been created by the Dutch voters who yesterday went
to vote for the 2nd chamber members. I do not know the meaning of them abbreviations
they use, but the murdered Pim Fortuyn party is very much bigger than before. What
exactly is rechts and links, right and left,I am not sure. I hear that right has grown
bigger than before. Any way, this day the sun was out and I was on the computer the
whole evening with grace, a woman of 31 left by her husband and suffering. I chat
with her long time and make her feel good again.&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;It is
1:15 when I close this day and fog to bed&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;may 17 is here.I get a little red Volvo
from Ruud so I can go around.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;18&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;19&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;20, I drive to Schoonhoven to the silver
day and speak to a man from Zadkine, Laurens van Rens , and a lady from the quality
control, Waarborg Nederland. De keurkamer. Then I drive on to Spijkenisse where Grace
lives with her family and I have a good evening. Romana, her sister made an impression
on me, a free and outgoing nice woman who took Grace and me to Rotterdam for a nice
talk and a cup of soup. 
&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;21 I drive from Spijkenisse to Gouda to
the Waarborg and buy test waters and test needles, 84 Euros. Then on to Utrecht, sunny
weather, wonderful trip. No women, no sex,&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;and that is
a stupid aspect from Holland, it is no country for me.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;22 I wake up, write this down and start
the day&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;at 7 o’clock. Will work a little on the camper,&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;want
to stock the galley. On 26 Sunday I make window covers and feel that it is ready.
Then I try the oil-dipstick and find mayonnaise. Oh shit, there goes my trip, think
I. Oh no, say Bart, we’ll fix that in no time. I am curious. Tomorrow to Roermond
and Roerdalen, see about&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;my registry and money. My sweetest
woman friend Linda called me on the phone from Saint Maarten, 8:30 pm local time.
Wow, what I love that woman. Jan Willem also called, sounding extremely dull and unhappy.
That's how he is. Today I wrote a letter to Lisa, Amador grandmother. Asking her to
tell Vicky to reestablish contact between Amador and me. Post it tomorrow.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;27,registry is done, car oil changed, mayonnaise
taken out, diesel in, rinse and refill&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;with new oil, And&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;radiator&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;plug-juice.
All is ok after a test trip, no more water in the oil.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;28, I drive to Valkenburg, see the old
coal mine cafe, de feestgrot, change fuel filter of camper, all is ok now.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;29, must go see if money comes...and yes,
me was told at the office, to come back on Friday for the first 300 Euro&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;30,
Thursday 8am, outside is cold, 15 c, but dry. I have not had sex since I left St.
Maarten. It is extremely boring here, and I will not stay here too long. I play with
myself every day, it is ridiculous, no girls, no lovers, no work, shit. I e-chat with
Jan Willem, I feel fucked up here in the cold country, as soon as I have money. I
go back. This afternoon, I was sick and slept a few hours with 2 Tylenol. I am now
78 kilo and took some weight loss pills, maybe that is making me feel bad.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;31 may Friday I woke up at 4 am and watched
TV until 5 and went to bed again. Woke up at 7:30 and started the day.Downstairs made
coffee, opened the net, no news from Linda, boy do I need&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;her
love every day. Went with the big camper to Herkenbosch where I got 300 Euros, went
to Roermond ABN-AMRO and the post office, sent $50.- to Amador and $50.- to Seaon,&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;am
I crazy or what?? Then put 240 Euro on my new bank account and activated my ATM card,
ate new herring bought a shower hose for the car and went home. Bart slept till 5pm,
we ate, talked, looked TV, went to bed at midnight. 
&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;May 14, 
&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;Holland, Monday, I put on an old blue jeans
to work on the roof of the camper, and I say to myself&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;when
may I die, to get rid of all this nonsense, living, trouble, foot pain, work, material
hassle?&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;I wish I was dead so often, it is unreal.
That is why I can be a rebel, I am not afraid to die, I am more afraid to live than
to die. My legs hurt. More than I can take. I cry hot tears of desperation, I see
no way out. My ankles hurt. I talk about suicide.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;Later I took pain pills and feel better,
work on the camper with Bart, and feel no more pain. I had to call Linda and she also
felt bad, cold, coughing and all that.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;May 30, 
&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;one month here in the cold country. It
is beautiful yes, but very boring. No women, no sex, no work, only food, and farmers.
TV and inter netting. I drive the old camper for a test to Valkenburg, OK. There I
see a cave bar and relax, and drive back. The old car had so much dirt in the tank
that it blocked the filter somewhere in the countryside, hesitated and coughing got
to a car repair place that sent me to the next where I found a new filter. That did
it and I could continue.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;may 31, was it Friday? On that day I got
300 Euro from the social service in Herkenbosch, cash in my hand. I put clothes in
the camper, knife and fork and spoon, Cups yes, but I forgot plates...and I start 
&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;June first on my trip. First to Rijswijk,
where I see Jan Willem who is visiting Holland and stays at his brothers place. On
the way I called Junior, who misunderstands the meeting point in Delft and whom I
miss. At Jan Willem's place we talk, his brother has a nice wife and two little kids.
Dinner with asparagus and wine and drinks and more and smoke, I sleep and wake 
&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;Sunday 2 June with a slight hangover. Drive&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;to
Oegstgeest to see my mother. That was a disaster. On the way the engine started to
sputter and cough. When i finely arrived, having to start a few times because the
engine cut off, I parked close by the house and walked towards her. She sat with another
elder woman on her balcony drinking tea. A smile of recognition came on her face when
I walked towards her, but then a few seconds later, her face hardened and she fell
back in her old stupid behavior. I had to make an appointment, said she, I had made
a deal with the two sisters. I had to stick to the deal and I was not welcome like
that... So I told her that I came from very far and could not always make appointments,
that I was there now. And I waited for her to say something, and when she said nothing,
I turned around and left, climbed back in the car, and drove of without any new sputtering
etc... That was most possible the last time I saw her. She does not deserve to see
me again, the father of her only grandsons, her own son...&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp;&lt;/span&gt;I felt pretty
bad for a while driving through the empty flower fields towards Haarlem and I stopped
somewhere to call Ernst. He was in Athens of all places, told me to call back in two
weeks. That I will do. I was surprised that his phone worked all the way to Greece,
today there is no limit to technics. I drive to A’dam to see Frans Willemse. That
was nice, could park right in front of his door. He was not home but Saskia and Renee
let me in and told me where he was. I went there in a paradise setting in the woods
of Voorthuizen. ate nice with Saskia, Rene and Frans, played biljart, slept in camper.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;3 June muon.&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;Close
to a golf course and Frans was painting a house in the woods. I stayed almost a&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;week,
helping, riding a bike, reading newspaper, looking TV, world cup football in Korea
and Japan, playing snooker/biljart at night in the biljart/snooker room under the
house. Two times I went with Frans to the village. He steals food every time in the
supermarket. It is a habit, he does not need it, he’s rich enough. He calls his girl
in Buthan, and goes to India every year for at least 6 month. Gets money from the
government and works 6 month in Holland painting houses.&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;
&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;4 Tuesday hang around&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;5 wed trip on bicycle&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;6 Thursday read&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;papers,
help Frans a little&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;7 Friday last night in Voorthuizen, library
internet&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;8 sat go to Buinen, Marian not home, pass
by Tynaarlo, nobody home,up to&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;Midwolda see Han&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;9 Sunday see Hayo and Henkie 
&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;10 Monday at Han place&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;11 Tuesday last night at Hans&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;12 Wednesday arrive at Tynaarlo&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;13 Thursday breakfast with rain at Rebecca
and Herman. I return to Melick, the whole day on the road, had to change fuel filter
30 km before Venlo, other wise ok. 
&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;14 Friday June&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;15 sat. June, I am at Barts place, we went
to Germany to a very big shop where he bought food for over 100 Euro.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;16 Sunday family for fathers day, Linda
called me to wish me well. i love she much&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;17 heat wave.. muon, nothing doing, inter
netting&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;18 Tuesday&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;heat
wave, fix push bike, go see money office, get positive answer, money will be paid
next week. I e-mail round the world and asked the hospital in SXM for my unpaid bill...&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;June ends quietly and in July I made a
special chapter, see: July in Holland. and paste it in. Also august is a special edition.
later more.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;July in Holland. The 9th day of this month
I arrive at Aerdenhout at Ernst house in a lane of trees and huge houses, from a time
that Holland was a rich place with big families and old money. Ernst welcomes me and
we go to his shed where he has two boats, one wood and one plastic. I work three hours
and clean a wooden rudder. Then return to Aerdenhout, drive to Zandvoort, look at
the dirty North Sea and read the signs that campers are not allowed to stay during
night hours. So I drive back to Aerdenhout and sleep there. Next day to Haarlem.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;At the tenth day of July I find myself
in the camper, on the parking of the dentist-building in the middle of the ancient
city of Haarlem. Amazing to have a parking spot in the middle of the town. Within
half a mile, less than a kilometer, there are shops, post office, coffee shop with
internet access, telephone booth and pubs and bars, ice cream parlors and shops. I
have work to do to make 9 Euro per hour. I scrape, grind and wash a painted garage,
glue tiles back in place, fill up cracks and in general maintain the building where
the dentists work..&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;Is it me that makes the good weather wherever
I go or am I in such great good harmony that I fall in the right weather wherever
I go?? Strangely, the weather is better than expected by the radio, whenever I go
somewhere. Amen, thank you Lord...&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;Last night, I had taken a good painkiller,
I took a walk. I met a guy from Ethiopia, named Gabriel. We went to the Irish pub
where I paid a beer, for 2,10 Euro a piece, then saw through the window internet advertised
opposite upstairs, it was a coffee shop. 5 Euro an hour, not cheap, but nice to have
access. I called Linda and&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;to hear her voice always makes
me very happy, I was late back in bed, couldn’t sleep until about one am.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;I work 2 and a half hour&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;in
the morning and 3 in the afternoon. If my legs were better I could work longer, and
today is dry but cold and that hurts my legs worse than when it is hot...Ernst gives
me money for 5 hours although I tell him I worked only 4. He tells me he is gone cook
for me tomorrow... Dinner tomorrow guaranteed. Now I take another codeine pill and
shower and make soup hot and dress up listen to the radio and read a magazine. At
6 pm I feel ok and in an hour or so I go out to the coffee shop to internet a little.
I call Bart and hear that all is OK. He makes sunshine a lot of times, even here in
the west the sun shines through. I drink a beer on a terrace in the last rays of the
sun.I internet at the coffee shop Willy Wortel and walk a good distance.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;July 11, the sky is gray as usual, lets
hope it doesn’t rain. Last night I walked more than is good for my legs, they hurt
and I take a good painkiller, just to forget it. Sometimes I cry from desperation,
only a little moment,&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;In bed I am horny like I was 20 years younger,
my dick is hard and it feels so good to jerk it, stroke it, put my dick ring and some
cream on it to slide it through my hand. I mostly stop before I ejaculate and my dick
then slowly returns to its pissing mode.Which is needed to cast my water in the toilet
of the building, I make coffee and write this down in the camper. All is good.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;12 July, 23:48, 
&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;Back in the camper, undress my underbody,
put slippers and start to spurt my mouth full of whipped cream from a pressure can.
I loved to put it on a girl’s under-beard and then lick it carefully. My guide Gabriel
took me walking through town, very nice visiting Haarlem. Beautiful drink and meeting
pubs, bars, cafe is common a name for a watering hole. Pretty people and good guidance,
by the man from Ethiopia. He tells shady stories about his past but knows very best
places to go. Visited at least 4 bars, in the Purple Pool met Patricia and Dominique,
wow, low slung jeans, 21 old, and big breasts. Sweet talking, I enjoyed that girl
double much. &amp;lt;Resist me&amp;gt; she translated the text &amp;lt;weersta mij&amp;gt; and I wrote
my address for them. Another place had been a fish shop once, De Uiver. On the radio
I hear that 6 kids got burned to death, and the killer of Pim Fortuyn still didn’t
talk.The rain is light. Small winds, temp. 20c high, 14c low. Whenever the sun breaks
through it is nice warm, otherwise it can be cold. Old music programs, a lady singer:
“Close your eyes, give me your hand, do you feel my heart beating? Do you understand,”
she sing her heart out... Love is just like the flu, you have to get it sometimes.
Another voice sings “Sandy 2x, I am used to misery, when we're apart, love is ....I
wonder why you left me, Sandy....”, and so on, a lamentation for a lost love. Most
men beg the women, say they are helpless and he keeps wondering why she left him.....I
can only think of pussy, I remember the sweet girls I run away from. Their straightforward
sex and easy going I prefer greatly over the long slow preparation in Holland. In
the bar : Het Melkwoud, I sat next to a person who was face a bit Mick Jagger, speaking
Inner town Amsterdams. I enjoy the sweet girl behind him and she is 
&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;not Dutch...A tattoo on her upper arm,
raven black hair in waves running down her firm small breasts standing proudly out
in her black tank top. On the radio, traffic jams are announced hourly or more.The
lady sings to make the night longer, didn’t we almost have it all. When love was giving.
To make life worth living. The night we had until the morning. We almost had it all...
The singer basks in the afterglow, to let it last forever, get the feeling again,
oh yes, she good. The time is 
&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;0:18, July 13, 2002. I’ll sleep a little
but I want to eat bread and soup and peanut butter.See you later.Yesterdays e-mail
of Lillie, shaman, was nice, I had him see Hoffman-info, and he say it is anti-Semite.
But I do not see it so. Hoffman exposes parts of the Talmud that are just that, and
the Rabbis interpret it and keep the traditional Bull Shit alive They have lost the
way to hide the things they used to. And all stories based upon these sick ideas from
ancient predating macho&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;spacemen from old, indoctrinating
kids with traditions that have only resulted in hardship and suffering. The burning
bush from Eve was what Moses saw. I would like so much a sweet girl to huddle and
cuddle, I’m half sick of want, the rain drizzles my want out in small drops. Was I
rich I would call callgirls galore and had a sweet sexy thing with her. She should
be a bit pure and clean, to lick her oyster and her magenta lips. To kiss the shivering
clit and suck it softly and lick towards her anus and put my finger there softly softly.
Then lick back through the moist outer lips deep from where the nectar invites the
smooth entrance for my tongue. Her wish to flood her cave of live. And absorb her
sweet juices with my nose tip resting on her clit.Shaking my head a little, Another
song on the radio, he wants to be with she, next song she is blue waltzing a lost
dream. I eat smoked eel and bread and hear my favorite Canada girl in French this
song,&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;Celine Dion, love you.Que tu m’aime encore. Then
a song &amp;lt;I’ll make it up with you&amp;gt; he had sorrow for what he did. The &amp;lt; a
very nice house, with 2 cats in the yard&amp;gt; A song for give his partner a compliment,
thank s because of you everything is easy..Bread on the table, money in the pocket,
I am so rich in the old camper, typing this on the old laptop.Sting sings a mind blower
for the politicians. It does not make an impact in the violent behavior.. Do me once
again sings a girl who must have had it sweet and well administered, One more time
she want it. And keeps repeating is when the low voice say he cant see her no more
for the obligations, and now its our last day together. Don’t look back, Lets kiss
and say goodbye. Oh boy, I ate and make a weak coffee before I lay down. I gone miss
you sings the next one, Its gone hurt me, I can’’t lie, you find another guy, lets
kiss and say goodbye, please don’t you cry, understand me and so on and so forth.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp;&lt;/span&gt;13 July 2002
I wake up late, 9:30, before I am up and about it is ten, and after coffee I start
to work at 11. But that is fine, I am going to make 4 or 5 hours, see you later.....&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;At about three, my legs hurt so bad that
I stay in bed.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;I’m sorry I didn’t take the bicycle with
me, now I can’t go anywhere, but lay in bed and maybe take pain pills so I can go
out later... Wow, that pain is shit. Kut we say in Holland. Kut.But kut is cunt in
English, the best thing I know...&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;I went to see Spider man movie, for 9 Euro
on the balcony. It was OK, then walked around a little, internetted, drank a coffee
and went to the camper to make soup. I’ll go drive out tomorrow, so I ‘I'll sleep
early. Amen. 
&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;!4 July 2002, I wake around 9 and I make
coffee in the house, toilet myself and disconnect the camper, clean up&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;and
move out of the parking behind van Eedenstraat 4. Direction Amsterdam. I call Peter
and tell him I’ll be there in a while.&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;So I drive the
half hour highway and arrive in my old city. It is very nice to see the places I visited
so often. And I drive around a bit before I find a phone to tell Peter that I have
arrived. So we meet and I follow him up where Nicolette and Sabrine, 2 year old child
say hello. They move out to see family and I talk a while with Peter.&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;I
see photos from his work, see the operation of his woman, she is an English teacher
and supplies teachers for pupils that are all over the place. They are going in 2
weeks for 6 weeks to Australia from where she is. Around 5:30 I drive away again,
to Zandvoort and I park on the boulevard, overlooking the North sea. I make mashed
potato with meat still left from Bart and listen to jazz from the North Sea Festival,
Gilberto Gill talks about Bob Marley’s music he loves a lot. Outside is cold and windy,
inside the camper it is cozy and the mashed potato is hot and good. I relax, I am
happy, only a girlfriend is missing.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;I checked e-mail at Peters and Rob Lilly
told me the best truth about me wanting to go out of this life, he said: “Our time
is not our own.” That now is maybe the best I heard so far as response on me telling
others about my death-wish and suicide ideas. 
&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;I laptop this while I stand on the parking
looking out over the gray&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;North Sea, dirty gray with white
foamy rollers, also the sky is gray, almost no horizon, all is gray. Here and there
a watery sunbeam gets through the cloudy sky and lights a beam of golden light on
the sea, far away, out of reach.. The radio gives good music from the festival in
the Hague, and I think of returning to Haarlem, maybe go to the Purple Pool bar, to
talk to the girl Dominique or Patricia, if they are t here.. I’ll tell you later.
Then I see the windows cloud over with condensation and remark that I put water on
the cooker to make coffee, I forgot.&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;After the coffee
I go. And I drive this beautiful big car with its ancient simple technology over Holland's
roads which are so smooth and well hung with name shields and direction signs. All
is clearly marked. I stop in front of Ernst house and he gives me a coffee and we
talk. His sister-in-law and his brother come to bring a new machine to make espresso
and capuchino. We talk, I tell the tale of the Old Fox in Rhodos harbor...And my trip
on the Blue Trout.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;After that I drive back to Haarlem and
park at Lakenkoperslaan, behind van Eedenstraat 4, connect the electric line and use
my laptop... 
&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;15 July, the radio tells about the failed
attempt on the life of Chirac. On the French national day a person took a shot at
the president but missed. What a pity.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;Men are still not emancipated, and get
stress when&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;women work and they get to rule the house.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;After a shower in the house I go to internet
in the Willy Wortel Bar&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;where I met Gabriel. We went to
play pool and two most beautiful dark girls came in to keep my desire alive. They
from Curacao. We walk back and talk&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;philosophy, he has
some bigger problems than I. From Ethiopia, political refugee, changing his name,
living in a small room. 
&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;23:13 hours, I called Linda, Andy&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;and
spoke to Alfredo and Freddy. Spoke to Bart as well.&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;On
the radio stupid things, Shaman is sending letters and I write my book. Now I will
write my Money Laundry down.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;16 July 2002&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;It is 8:42, with coffee and a banana, dressed
I write this down. I played with my hard, stiff penis early, like I do every morning
or and evening, but I did not ejaculate. How I wish to get some sweet sexy girl to
make love with. Last fuck I had was with Linda, in the night before I boarded the
plane to Paris.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp;&lt;/span&gt;A hot news
item on the radio are the low Wall Street and AEX courses of the stock markets.&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;The
Euro is the same as the Dollar. On a fancy fair in Noord Holland one show is about
rabbits who must perform a fuck before they are rewarded with food.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;I am invited for dinner at Ernst place,
Ank, his woman cooked, very high style, sophisticated, a pie first, then meat, young
peas and potato wigs, pineapple and ice cream after and coffee. Beer to start and
wine to drink during. Oh, yes. 
&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;Ank was not very loving to Ernst I found,
she uses him to have all she wants, he is what we call a goedzak.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;In Holland everybody has everything and
still they want more, corruption and malcontentment reigns. The more people have,
the farther they move away from each other. And they lack the education that could
lead to contentment.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;Every time I speak to people I talk about
the&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;observation of their thoughts and the knowledge of
self, the way I learned from Osho and the way to start&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;doing
it. They hardly ever know what I&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;talk about.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;In Holland a boy of 12 years old may be
skipper on a boat. If the boat has an engine of certain horsepower&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;he
must be 16 and by bigger engines and higher speeds a water driving license is needed.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;I am at 16:00 hrs ready for the day, I
worked 4,5 hours and I feel tired. I’m going to call Bart about dentistry, Dominique&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;to
ask if she will sex me, and check the e-mail. Now I am heating soup and ate a banana. 
&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;I am fed up waiting for sex and not getting
what I like so much. After tomorrow I want to return to Melick and get my teethe done
there. The painting is ready, a dentist must be in Roermond also, I want to go. Every
night I walk and my legs hurt too bad. I need cool, calm and collected. My&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;500
Euro went to Bart, I have 35 left on my account. it is 17 July,20:35 hrs, in the camper
I want to die. Amen.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;Tonight is expected to be very cold, 14
C, and this is Dutch&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;summer...Yack! My legs hurt so bad
every night that I can’t go out more than one kilometer. Up and down to the end of
Tempelier Straat, and that’s it.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;18 July 2002 half nine, pigs may be exported
again, 5 dead in Israel, 40 wounded. And the Jews still don’t understand that holding
onto the past will only bring more misery.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;Every where people hold on to ideas that
did not work in the past and did not bring the result that they wanted in reality.
The ideas about sexuality are stupid and contrary to what it should be . While people
should enjoy their body and understand that it is the most wonderful, joyful and happy
thing to do, they label it dirty, sinful and hide it for youngsters. At the same time
they show killings, destruction and crime as if that is normal and OK. 
&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;I start at 9 o’clock to paint the last
window sills and will call Bart before 12 to find out if there is a dentist for me
in Roermond.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;No dentist for me in his area, so I sit
on the chair at 14:00 and open my mouth. Two beautiful girls fix my teeth and tell
me to come back next week Thursday to fit the crown. I mailed the bills and all to
Bart who knows what to do with them.&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;I sent 50 dollar
to Amador in Ecuador, he did his year OK and has a school trip coming soon. Therefore
he need some cash. It is 6 pm and my knees hurt like hell, I gone lay down for a while,
listen radio and read. Later more.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;weather forecast: clear sky at night, temperature
down to 10 C..... Friday clouds and clear, Saturday and Sunday rainy .....Yack. I
am bored to death, the pain in my legs make I can’t go anywhere, so I sit in the camper
and try to write, listen radio, sleep and read. Not easy without companion and TV.
I must be happy to look forward to 11 august when my return trip takes off.The whole
time I write my life story, until I get tired and stop to lie down. 
&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;The blackbird is singing, talking, rapping
away close by. All over Holland I hear this beautiful&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;sound.
Merel is de name , I think English Blackbird. It won’t sing when caged, so it can
only be in freedom. I love it. I stop the radio to hear and concentrate better. It
is 9 pm.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;at ten I eat and listen Radio Noord Holland.
A Curacao girl died from drinking from a fruit juice with cocaine...How the drink
had come in that family house was unclear.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;19 July, eight o’clock news on the radio,
and weather, cold, no sunshine, no real summer. Most people have vacation and are
gone south to France, Spain and Italy. The dead body of Pim Fortuyn in his coffin,
will be taken out of the grave to be transported to Italy for his final burial. He
was a homo and said that Holland was full, so goes the joke.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;Bank passes are often stolen and&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;easy
to falsify, it is now head line news. 
&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;Today I was I was in Hillegom and a sloop
went into the water, but the engine had not enough power and the trip on the water
never took place.I drove the camper to Amsterdam and back, drove a few hours to fill
time. Was back at the parking at Eedenstraat at 10 pm.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;20 July starts at 6:30, when a knock on
the camper wakes me up. At second knock I get up and outside is longhair hash smoking&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;Chris
who needs help for a flat tire on his work car. He needs a crick. Then finds that
the spare from his friends car does not fit. We ready the camper and load the tire
to get it fixed. We drive to a gas station for a pressure can with air, then to another
and to a place where he gets a new one on the rim...It takes to 8:45 before I am back
at the starting point and ready to leave for Hillegom where I shall see Ernst.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;On the way there I want to buy food for
the weekend, because I think staying there. I drive around and around through the
most beautiful surroundings, gardens galore, huge houses with gardens so full of color,
it is amazing. Finally I ask the way to the shops and the second old lady&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;who
pushes a little walk-help, so she has a support and won’t fall. tells me she will
direct me if I can take her little roller in the back. She mounts the passenger seat,
her legs are good, it is her heart, she had three times a stroke, we arrive at the
Albert Heyn of Hillegom. A fantastic shop with an abundance of delicacies&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;where
it is hard to find ordinary sardines in cans. Finally I drive to&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;the
place where the boats are. That is the end of the Oosteindervaartweg. 
&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp;&lt;/span&gt;I park next
to the Ringvaart, where small and seagoing&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;yachts and
rowing race boats go. Sloops and cruisers, some very luxury pass constantly, The sun
gets through and the day starts to become quiet pleasant. Ernst arrives with his old
English Range Rover pulling a trailer with a red Dragon, the Paprika. We start work
on it, remove cracks and I sand her underwater hull, do a little varnishing, the sun
shines, a full dozen, beautiful young half wild horses on the meadows just over the
narrow Oosteindervaart look with curiosity at our activity. At 14:30 we quit and I
stay alone at a corner parking and I sleep a few hours. When I wake it rains. A few
lightning and rumbling skies make me feel good in the camper on the road, heating
full, door ajar, window wipers regulated to the friendly summer rain.&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;When
I was reading the newspaper I started thinking of going. The earth vibes feel no good
at this spot, and I long for the pleasant place in Haarlem. So around 7, it is still
light, remember, I drive back, tank 20 Euro and return to the dentist parking. It
is 15 minutes before 8 pm, but the dentists is busy, two people with heavy tooth pain
are in the waiting room. One of them holds his face with both hands and walks around.
another one is on the chair under the care of one of the dentists that rent this place.
Wow!!!&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;I write this useless story and someone
reads this, someone who must know that nothing is important. Nothing is needed, nothing
is wanted. I am completely at peace, this parking has the vibes...A sort of pine tree
stands over me, a vine climbs over the fence next to me, a car from a patient is next
to me and the car of an assistant.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;I eat Knorr macaroni with smoked sausage.
Sleep a while and go to check my e-mail, at the ganja shop, only one from Amador.
Walking back I call Linda and she always makes me feel so good, I told her I want
her for my wife. She does not know about that. I tell her I have no other I want as
wife, so she better comply. We’ll see when I return. Andy has some work, All is good,
Linda is the best. I love her.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;21 July 2002&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;Wake up at 8. make coffee and start to
put water in the water tank. 4 buckets is enough to rinse kitchen things and shave.
Soon I’ll be gone. 4 more days to wait for my tooth, then back to Roermond. What to
do today I don’t know.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;First take a shower in the house and shit
on the toilet, then we’ll see. In the camper is a small warm air electric heater.
In Holland we have summer and it is still cold for me. In the shower the warm water
stopped slowly before I was rinsed well, so I had to rinse colder and colder, jakkes
bah. The sun shines at this Sunday 9:45 am. Wait till my hair is dry, I write. Church
bells sound their all drowning noise over the city. The overpowering sound is totally
overlaying everything else. Still they call this country not religious. I sit typing
with one hand while I hold my warm half swollen dick in the other. My prick is such
a lovely part of my body, that I play with it every day, in bed and sometimes out
of bed. My love muscle is out of pussy since I am in Holland, and I am&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;very
upset about it. How hard it is to find a girl that will sex for relaxation and recreation.
Here&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;one has to start a relation to get a girlfriend,
it can take a long time to get a good fuck. I pray for good sex at least once before
I go back to my horny home in SXM. It is one of the most disappointing things about
Holland, next to the weather. Maybe these two shit facts go hand in hand.&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;I
have such good dick-rings, that I can make my dick hard like wood any time of day
or night. Any girl that wants satisfaction can get my free service for satisfaction
guaranteed. Only they don’t know. So sorry for them.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;Around 1300 hrs I walk the street, talk
to the neighbour and get a lift into town. I circle the huge church in the heart of
Haarlem, next to Laurentsz Coster, who invented the book printing press with movable
metal letters. I see an exposition and talk to the female gate keeper of same. About
breasts. I tell people I write my book. Walk slowly in the rain, enter a coffee shop
and talk with two people at the bar. Walk on in the drizzly rain, it is cold and my
knees start to hurt. All I know is to look for the shelter of the camper again, My
small umbrella does not keep my legs dry. I eat a portion of French fries, and help
German tourists to find directions, they have a boat in the canal. But I continue
towards the camper, arrive there, see that it will start as and if I want, start the
warm air blower, radio and my typewriting battery driven laptop. The huge cathedral
is not open at Sunday so I did not see it inside (yet). I continue to write my autobiography.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;My legs/knees hurt so very much, I cannot
go out anymore, eat soup and bread, and try to relax.&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;Around
5 pm I get on to the typewriter again. cannot sit long and go out again, the pain
is unbearable, I sit in the watery cold sun for a while on a bridge. See most desirable
women pass by. I cannot get even one to sit with me and start a talk. Let alone to
get one for sex. Holy Saint Maarten, let me in again. I called Linda to check my bike
which is by Lucas. Back in the camper by 7 pm,&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;back on
the keyboard. The radio sings Dutch songs, not so good.. 
&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;My legs hurt so much that I have to see
if it is less in SXM, if it is a small or big difference. Today I am most of the time
in the camper, and I feel fucked up. Outside is uncomfortably cold, and rain fell
or will fall, the radio is not what I want, the writing is not what I want, I think
of SXM, to lay with a girl and sex, and make gold castings, to feel the heat from
the tropics, oh boy, the lovers from there, that is what I miss most. It happened
two or three times a week!!! Do me a favor, where does that happen?? Only there. I
love my girls. Linda, Lolita, Marcia, and Seaon. Outside it rains.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;22 July 2002&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;Sleep and wake, sleep again, sweat and
wake, and sleep some more. 7:30 up and coffee, boiled egg and camembert. Now in the
house toilet and disconnect the electric wire and&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;then
clean up the camper and get onto the road. To Hillegom and work a little with the
boats from Ernst, Good morning. 19 degrees maximum, clouds and rain and sun. Low 14
degrees. 
&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;9:13 pm, I am in front of Ernst’s house.
The whole day we were in Hillegom, working nicely on the red dragon the Paprika. Around
6 we stopped and I went to the parking in Haarlem and discovered there that I had
lost the key to the house. I called Ernst with that bad news, I also stepped in a
dog turd, stinking one, and just before arriving a glass jar of peanut butter fell
out of a cupboard and smashed in pieces, smearing the brown smear on the floor. Bad
news never comes alone we say in Holland. Ernst invited me in for a coffee, hooked
up my electric line and after the coffee I went in the camper. Heated water and took
a wash, made dinner from a 5 minute pack of bami and tomatoes, and write my diary.
The small warm air blower is churning away 500 watts of warmth, I have blinded all
the windows and sit naked at my laptop. The mie, bami is still too hot to eat. 
&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;Holland has a new government. The leader
of the new party that wants a change was killed 6 July , and his party therefore got
more votes that it should have had, by dying he did more for his country that he could
have done&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;alive. Pim Fortuyn is his name and the party
has the same name&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;
&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;Naked I get horny, it is nice hot in here,
I feel my love muscle is cold, my nipples also, cold and hard. The radio sings what
a nice day for the dead. 
&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;Before the new government was installed
one of the parties had two choices for the Antilles; or become a province of Holland
or get out and away from Holland and go about alone. Neither is possible as I see
it. The forced way of living in Holland does not fit the tropical lifestyle at all.
In Holland we must look at the recent history to understand a bit of the present work
psychoses. The psychotic need to produce and consume more than more, is a left over
from the big wars that ravished last century. The second world war saw armies of people
working their ass off to produce weapons, and all that has to do with war and what
came after. As soon as the fighting was over, the cleaning started. The rebuilding
and the development of more and more. Houses, roads, cars, weapons to sell to the
African nations, airplanes for tourists, fridges and washing machines, radios and
videos and TV’s. The economy was and is only good if it grows. A certain forcefulness
is built in in all the peoples and the whole rhythm of living is hectic, fast and
foolishly unspiritual. Churches are empty, made into houses, clubs and dancings. Monasteries
and other church properties are standing empty, while cars race past ever faster.
Dutch people complain about cars piling up to vacation destinies, and the radio gives
routes alternatives that will nibble of ten minutes. The madness is complete and they
themselves do not know how rich and crazy they are.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;This kind of mentality can never take over
Sint Maarten. The quiet locals of African descent go about their business with a calm
that the Dutch don’t know.&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;They don’t know the cold weather
that forces Dutch people inside their houses for 8 or more month a year. They don’t
know the mentality that makes one go to work from 8 to 5 every day for a lifetime.
And the Dutch don’t know the trees that gives fruit year long and windows that never
have to close. Heat that slows one down to the basics of life. They know nothing of
the inborn happiness and the apathy and the ability to accept. Never can they take
back the concessions they gave the islands 50 years and more ago.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;These things I contemplate. I am going
to write this down for the SXM papers.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;see document: new government, old society.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;23 July I go with Ernst to Hillegom, we
paint ready the red dragon, and tow it by trailer to Veenhuizen, a village in Noord
Holland, where he has a shed, a barn, a shelter with in it, 3 dragons, one blue and
two brown, one old Swedish motorboat and a 1948 Triumph... We had to take out two
boats, one blue and one brown,&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;change one wooden&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;one
for the red one and put the blue one back. As soon as we had the trailer ready and
started to go the rain&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;came. And it came hard, and with
gusts and the visibility was less than one kilometer. Because last night I slept so
late, I now sleep a little, and see what happens later. in camper at 7 pm. I wake
at 8:45 pm, the rain has stopped. I wonder if to go drive around and check Haarlem,
the key was found back in the wooden dragon in Hillegom, oh what relief. I ate an
apple and think to flip a coin to see if to go or to stay. To go would mean to internet
and phone Bart and Linda. To stay means to sit write, to cook and smoke. The coin
flip tells me go to Haarlem... 9:15 I go.s&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;11 pm I’m back. spoke to Bart, Linda phone
went dead, I'll call she tomorrow&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;eat smoked eel +bread, drink cold beer....
very good&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;Israel is making heavy shit, 250.000 Palestinians
buried a sheik whom was killed by Israeli air attacks. 
&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;24 July 2002 Wake u with a hard member
wanting to sex. I jerk off until my yogurt spurts out into a wad of paper and start
my day with a prayer for me to get as soon as possible, before I leave Holland, a
sweet sex woman girl partner. Amen.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;But I spend the day with Ernst and his
boats, it is very pleasant and not at all stressing. I laugh at various moments about
the total good feeling I have. I got dinner at Ernst place and I feel very much at
ease with the whole situation. The camper is hooked up to 220 volt from the garden
outlet, I listen radio and type my diary, it is 19:55 and after a small sleep I will
go to Haarlem to see internet at the marijuana cafe.&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;There
I drink a cup of tea and&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;read the letter from my new friend
Shaman from the USA. After I return to Aerdenhout, hook up to 220 V, write a few words
on my Life story and go sleep.&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;
&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;
&lt;o:p&gt;&amp;nbsp;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;26 July 2002 at 2:15 am in am in bed in
my room in Melick.Bart has a porno line on satellite TV, 24 hours a day sex. I came
twice already, Kleenex on the table. Just by seeing couples making love, licking and
enjoying sex I become so horny, I would love to sex myself. I don’t have had any Dutch
pussy since&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;Kaatje, some 20 years ago. 
&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;
&lt;o:p&gt;&amp;nbsp;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;27 
&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;Two Polish young women come to iron Barts
shirts and do some cleaning. They drink coffee and the one who has a heavy cold, says
yes when I ask if she wants to spend some time with me. But not now, she has a headache...Any
way, it was already nice to have young women around, and Bart was with them all the
time, talking and joking, he speaks a few words Polish.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;28 
&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp;&lt;/span&gt;empty
the camper, take my clothes trough the washing machine and do a little cleaning, restore
the pond pumps,and clean the dishes, piled up as usual in the sinks.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;
&lt;o:p&gt;&amp;nbsp;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;29 
&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;We prepare the camper for Bart. Put food,
water, clothes, towels, the whole works. The camper leaves in the early afternoon
with Bart looking&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;young , happy, a summer shirt and sunglasses,
looking&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;good. I look xxx TV, jerk off and clean up. Put
tools in order and take it easy. 
&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;30&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;I get Hans van de Brink visiting who will
return Thursday to teach me sculpting. Clean the side room with the sawdust all over
the place, fill two bags with garbage and&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;gather empty
bottles. In the afternoon I go to Roermond to look for shoes that Linda wants. They
cost 90 Euro. I call her first to describe them and ask her confirmation. She wants
them size 38. I eat soup that I make from green beans, tomatoes and sausage. Look
TV and feel generally good, check a lot of internet, especially otoons, with a lot
of OSHO.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;31 July 2002&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;9 am, make coffee, but first go to get
coffee whitener before I drink it,then deliver the letter to the social service. Then
will go to buy the shoes for Linda, now look news on TV. I was in Roermond and found
another shop for shoes, they had 4 different models. I wait till Bart comes back with
his camera to take pics, sent them to Carol, Linda’s friend to let her decide which
ones to buy. Someone called on the phone for Bart and I called him on his cell phone.
He may come back tomorrow. Now I look TV, check platform shoes on internet, and do
nothing. I sent the letter about Ruth Stapleton to the openbaar ministerie and hope
they do something about her. What she did to me pissed me off, even until today.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;Then i make sandwich and look TV and internet,
see a lot of Osho and then comes Janine, with her daughter and another girl, who look
for the neighbour from whom they want to rent an apartment, but he is not home. I
give them tea and talk a bit. When they are gone I see a movie from the 10 force of
Navaronne, and suddenly Bart walks in. Sally all fucked up, some bad feeling, she
don’t answer him, they had some argument and neither gives in. He will check to send
her home earlier, he say, when&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;she sits on the table,
and he in the front room. When he calls her she don't answer and the atmosphere is
thick. I advice her to go sleep in the small room and sleep it off. She does not do
anything and just sits there saying nothing. I try to help, Bart walks out of the
room, I go upstairs to my room, there is nothing I can do. I feel pretty much embarrassed
because I can’t help. We’ll see what happens tomorrow, now it’s 12:21 and I call it
a day.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;
&lt;o:p&gt;&amp;nbsp;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;
&lt;o:p&gt;&amp;nbsp;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;
&lt;o:p&gt;&amp;nbsp;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;August 2002 in Holland&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;Melick 23:17,&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;august
1&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;This morning came down to make coffee,
Bart was fine, we went to Roermond to see Linda's shoes, photos and worm pills, Yes
I saw worms in my shit this morning. It seems to come from fresh food, uncooked fish
and such things. The camper does not start, I suggested ether, start spray, but&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;Bart
will not use that. 
&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;Then came Hans van de Brink, who took me
to Swalmen village to do some training in his little boxing sport club. I did half
hour on the bike and did the 5 exercises of the Fountain of Youth. Then to a shop
of everything for art. We bought wax to sculpt and then went to his workshop where
I learned to set up the making for a statue of about 25 cm high. Iron wire and wax.
Of course I set up an African nude girl body. Wow, I am like God, shaping her most
sexy forms, and hips and buttocks and titties. I get horny&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;just
making her. Home at 20:10 and the atmosphere with Sally was cool, if not cold. I internetted
with Rob Lilly, whom I send my Money Cleaner Idea before. He likes it a lot and will
help me to try get it made. After cooking and doing the dishes, I made tea for Bart
and Sally who did not want to say anything, or drink it, and went to my room to write
this. Good night.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;2 august 2002.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;At breakfast&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;time
all is fine, I don’t remember exactly what passed till 2 or 3 pm when I went with
Hans to&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;his shed to sculpt a little on the pretty statue.
Home around 8pm I look at e-mail and TV, eat and Bart goes to see Janine, one of his
girl friends, Sally is here. I am in my room at 11:43. Good night&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;3 august.2002&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;7:44, radio Limburg plays nice music, I
suffer from a sleeping arm, a moving tooth, bad eyesight and a rainy sky outside.
After a piss I start my writing and go back to bed.11:22&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;I
wake again, go down,take second breakfast and start the day.&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;I
do some sculpting and start the second wax statue. The night is the&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;high
point of the day, I am at the neighbour for a birthday. Meet a lot of locals, they
treat me as a member of the family.&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;It is great,
I am feeling very OK, &lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp;&lt;/span&gt;and having fun, later more. now
I go to sleep. Amen. 11:33. 
&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;
&lt;o:p&gt;&amp;nbsp;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;4, Sunday,&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp;&lt;/span&gt;wake as usual
at 7:30, jerk off my hard dick, thinking of Linda and Lolita and Seaon and Marcia.
Who will I see next week again? What will SXM have for me? What shall I be able to
give the island(ers)? A little island in the ocean, peaceful and tropical, I like
it better than over regulated busy and wealthy complaining Holland. A new day, A smile
in my head, a good feeling in my prick, and hope to get my sweet dark darlings to
make love with soon again. Will Linda be my wife or will Seaon come back to live with
me?? Or will I stay free and enjoy all of them one by one and two by two? Time will
tell. The whole day I am finishing the second statue, and do little. Internet a lot,
chat with Grace, crazy like an onion, and watch TV with Sally at night. Go to sleep
at 12:10. Amen 
&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp;&lt;/span&gt;I want to see
the doctor for my constant blocked nose, maybe he has a special anti biotic, like
he had for my stomach . Yes tomorrow I go buy shoes for Linda also. She called this
afternoon, the darling, I love her the best. Never had a better woman. Never. By God
that’s true. If she wants it, I stay with her, see you later.I drink a beer with Ronald
Rashkar, the guy that rents the place from Bart over the shed. I was with Sally and
Bart in a shop and at Margot, his sister who is paralyzed in a wheelchair, married
with Theo Hermans. It was a quiet day, ok weather, no rain no cold. Bart took the
head of the old camper engine, it hardly brought him home when he took it to Paris.
Once he arrived it did not want to start anymore. It was/is a ghost car.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;5&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;Monday 
&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;outside I see rain and feel like not getting
up, so I sleep till half the morning is gone, do nothing the hole day&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;6 august, Tuesday&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;7:33 wake and turn my other cheek, sleep
another hour. I say that a smile is in my head. The radio tells about bad economy
in the USA, ai,ai, what will SXM bring me now? The temperature here in Limburg is
14-15 Celsius, half from what I used to live in. Today I get Linda’s shoes and see
a doctor. I also went with Bart to Swalmen and bought a pound of silicon rubber to
make a mound of my statues. I packed most in two small suitcases,one that I had and
one of Bart. I was on a bike to town and Theo from Margot had birthday, it was a good
day again, but cold and rainy. The doctor thinks my chronic nose block is an allergy.
I will check that with Hermanides in SXM. To bed at midnight. Soon fly. 
&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;7&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;Wednesday 
&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;starts with a nice clean shower, outside
is fog, the other side of the street is invisible, so thick. I have seen now all types
of weather, there was a storm with hail stones, close by here, on TV I saw children
playing in the ice that fell from the sky.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;Last night I packed almost everything,
couldn’t find my gray pants at first.Today I called to Thalys and reserved a train
ticket from Luik to Paris and called to confirm my flight with Nouvelles Frontieres.
Do a lot of laundry and help Sally with many bags of clothes that this house is full
with.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;8&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;Thursday,&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;I start this day 1 minute after midnight.Saw
a good Swedish movie about refugees last night. 22 Celsius during the day, Dutch summer.Fog
in the morning, clouds in the day. We went to Venlo train station to pick up my train
ticket from Luik to Paris. Every time I see a young female, I enjoy the sight, some
are so sexy and it always stirs something in my heart.&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;It
is the only thing that makes me feel to live on. The beauty of the nature also, but
the young females are the best.The weather is OK, dry, 23-24 c, but still no real
sun. At 5pm I take a nap. I see star trek with Spock on the Enterprise. I hear radio
news about Herben who stops being fraction leader. I understand that even in the Dutch
politics there is bickering like children who play games of power and greed. Who can
divide the pie without anyone getting angry? 
&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;That is the game.I called Linda and she
still loves me, she said and she is not pregnant. She cleans the house and it is being
made ready for me to return.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;9&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;Friday,&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;This is my last full day in Holland. Woke
at 3am, and again at 6am, and sat before the computer to write to Rob Shaman at 7am.
It is nice to write my ideas to another seeker. It is also nice that I have developed
the idea that Jerusalem should be destroyed in order to solve the foolish fucking
violence in the middle east. If Saddam Hussein throws an atomic bomb on the place
he’ll do a service to the whole world. At 8:30 I start writing this, and write a bit
on my life story.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;10, Saturday, 
&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;0:11 I had a nice day, Bart gave me 500
and I got 100 so I am all set to go home. I slept to 7am, the last night for a long
time in Holland. Showered, and packed my two cases. Couldn't find my Atlantis ring
and had to go through almost everything before it was there, just in front of me,
where I had looked already ten times. Last night I jerked off, around 4am, having
a hard member and seeing Lolita and Linda and Seaon in my head. Now I’ll pack my laptop,
do my nails and go down to e-mail. bye ‘till in SXM. I take a train from Luik to Paris,
after Bart drives me there from home.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;11&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;Sunday,&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;At one am I take my laptop out of my bag
at Orly airport. I sit on an orange bank with a lady asleep on my left side. A French
policeman just checked me out and after looking at my ticket passed on to the next
person. In 7 hours my check-in counter will open so I can get rid of my luggage. The
trip from Melick to Luik went ok, with Bart and Sally and Ruuds son. Then one hour
wait for the Thalys train to Gare du Nord direct, a Nigerian military student sat
next to me. In the Gare du Nord he carried one of my bags to the entrance to the lines
40 and up,it was a hassle to find the right subway line to Orly. Finally I found it
to be&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;line 42, after first having gone wrong, to 43, staircase
up and down, with heavy rucksack and two trolley suitcases. When I got into&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;subway
42, it stopped some few stations before Anthony where I was to take the bus to Orly.
Having to wait some 20 minutes for the next train I arrived 17 minutes too late at
the gate for the connection to Orly. I came out on the street and walked to the taxi
stand, passing a little bar. No taxi, no telephone, what to do? I waited, a person
passed and said he would walk to the next stand&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;and send
me a taxi. He never came. I went to the little shoarma place and two boys where there
eating. I asked a coffee and if I could telephone a taxi. No phone ... The boys offered
to call If I knew the number. I walked back to the stand, took down the number written
there, came back, wrong number, found a book, called the right number, no taxis at
Saturday night. After two more tries the boys took me in their car to the airport,
they where Marocan. Half the people were blacks the other half colored in the subways,
no withes, In the airport it is not cold and it is light, it is ok to wait here. The
trip was a bit difficult, but as usual I got help everywhere. In the airport I slept
on a bank, comfortable enough, not cold and police close by, who came to check my
ticket. Then time came to check in and three controls before I was boarded, and two
hours delay because Orly checks the luggage very slow. 
&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp;&lt;/span&gt;I take a plane
from Paris to SXM I could be happy that there was no other strike for something. Looking
at my watch we are 7 hours and ten minutes&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;from the moment
the plane started moving. 50 minutes to go. Elize is next to me and Ludovice is 8
and a half and makes a lot of fun, she travels alone and brushes the hair of a white
girl, I ask her to plait me one, but she say I’m a boy, and she will cut my hair.
Wow, what a darling. Elize&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;who was sitting next to me
is epileptics, and I gave her reassurance that nothing would happen, and I kept her
busy when she was scared at take-off and landing.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;12 I wake at night 3 o’clock and again
at 5 and at 7 I finally go to shower, make coffee and see one little rooster and two
gray chickens. I go see Jan Willem and Brinette is also there. The feeling between
them is gone. I bring my 500 Euro to the bank after sending my story titled: “Thuisreis”
to Bart. The rent is paid at least and I pay 100 dollar to Rio Grande for investment
powder, that the boys finished. Andy has not been back. I drive to Linda house but
she’s not home at 13:00. Back home I try to sleep and she comes with Carol. Then&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;Carol
tells that Linda many times said if only Alex was here. Then Linda say that I am her
handy man, that’s all. She said that she had a lover when I asked but when she saw
the pictures of Lolita at my Garuda she wanted to take them down. What is the truth?
Linda shall never say what she does. After She comes give me money to buy air tickets
for her mother and sister, I do that and bring her the receipt at her work. I also
found her slimming program that Bart and me wrote. Then I went on to see Lucas and
give him 70 dollar. Talked a while until darkness fell. I drove to Sariela address
and she was home. Wow, how she fell on my neck to kiss me welcome. She came with me
and took her 1 year old brother Kelly along. We stopped at Rams and bought food. Home
she cooked and we talked and she will say she will come tomorrow to sex me. That I
would like for sure. After dinner she washed the dishes and I dropped her home. Then
I went home to sleep. 
&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;13 Tuesday&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;Woke up at 2 am, hard dick, I jerked but
could not come. Woke again at 5, jerked, no cumm. Slept again to 6:30 and went up
to close the fence where three piglets entered the yard. Made coffee, fixed 2 silver
bracelets of Lucas girlfriend, cleaned the test kit and made it good, ready to test
any gold item good, and wait for things to come my way. Good morning Tiger, I love
you.&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;
&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;14 august 
&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;today I must take a anti worm pill, to
kill any worm egg that left over from two weeks ago...&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;15 I went to Hollywood Casino, saw Yvette
and Luvia’s son, both said they would come, none came. I wrote letters to the newspapers
and saw Linda’s mother who came today for a few days shopping. My airco works, and
I have food, Grace has 45 dollar for Andy which I shall collect, he took 50 dollar
that she owed me. Saw my little tiger, who ate here, I had no time to sex her, but
she’ll be back Then I will let her make me come, by sitting on top of me, instead
of she lays down under, and I on top. Let her work next time, I wish she came right
now, she is good. God hears my prayer ,she came, not for me but for my food. She cooks
her dinner and takes it to where she lives to babysit for the landlady, she is not
allowed to be out at night, she’ll be back, she likes to be with me.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;16 august ,&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;I start the day on my knees with a plea
for money. It is 6 am. Coffee and fried potato with an egg. The rooster crows loud
and he has only one chicken. I play with my hard dick which would like to sex that
sweet tight pussy. Soon I hope it will take place. Alexander the Prince is on Sint
Maarten today. I went to the bank, got a ATM card, saw Henkie, no money, saw&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;Cesar,
plated mamas chain, did not see Lolita, but came Joel, de Haitian goldsmith. Linda,
momma, April, Lucas, Trish, what a party. Still 350 to pay for the bike. In Europe
floods are higher than in 150 years. Catastrophe in Germany, Thechoslovakia etc...
Thank you USA for polluting the world atmosphere.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;17 Saturday&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;I wake up and go straight on my knees and
command the universe money. Then I check my stones and decide to make earrings that
will sell. Then comes J.W. and takes me to the cyber cafe to take care while he does
other things. I scan over 50 letters in order to publish a book with them later. The
day passes nicely.&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;The night I correct the scanned documents,
until after midnight. 
&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;18 Sunday&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;I start early to correct more writings,
Lolita comes to sex me, I make her completely white and have a nice sweet slow fuck,
but cannot get her to sit on top. I finish 31 letters that now are ready. at 2 pm
Joel passes by with two friends but does not stay, leaves a bottle of wine.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;19 Monday at the internet cafe, scan letters,
see Linda, who gives me tickets for dinner at the buffet at Port the Plaisance with
her mother Rosalind and April, who is so well behaved, its unreal. Linda is a pain
in my soul though, she does not want to be nice to me at all. She nags and commands
like shit. I hope another man will get that shit in stead of me. After dinner drive
with Rosalind and April&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;to Lee’s, get two nameplate jobs,
Anna and Suzanne.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;20 Lolita comes to tell me she has her
period. I bring the car back to Linda and just miss Ricky who was coming to see me,
internet cafe, Back home, fix jewelry for little bar lady next to Henky, get $ 30.-
go with JW to Front street shops to deliver lamps, see Steve from Guavaberry. Home
at 6 pm.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;25 August&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;Lolita came again to kill me a little.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;29 Linda promised to come spend the night
with me before leaving for New York, I had shrimps ready and she never came. 
&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;
&lt;o:p&gt;&amp;nbsp;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;
&lt;o:p&gt;&amp;nbsp;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;
&lt;o:p&gt;&amp;nbsp;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;18 September&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;Lolita came last night with Anna. The two
slept in the room on the carpet. The next day after breakfast they went out, I had&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;a
fight with them and in the afternoon they returned in the pouring rain. Anna came
in and a car was outside with turning engine and moving window wipers. It rained cats
and dogs. Lolita was still talking to the driver. I was curious and went out, opened
the door and saw Angel Priest&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;talking with her on the
back seat.&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;She came in and the girls gave me a nice experience
together. I had to lay down, Anna on top, fucking me nicely, Lolita with her pussy
over my face, then Anna doggie style I took her from the back, and then with a new
condom I has to cumm on Lolita...What a fun. It was Angel Priest, the owner of a brothel,&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;who
gave them a lift to my place in the pouring rain, and he was smiling at the fact that
I had two girls at home in that weather. 
&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;He invited me to come again to work my
gold for his girls. It is now 20 September 2002, 
&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;yesterday Linda returned from her vacation
in New York. She told me a bit ashamed that she spent 5000 dollars, Half for a computer.,
de rest for clothes and fun. 
&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;The last three weeks Lolita has come more
and more often. She comes to cook and asks me after eating to lick and suck her little
clitoris. She found out what pleasure that gives and she wants that now all the time.
After she has cumm, she lets me in her puss to go in and out up and down for me to
enjoy the feeling until I cumm. With her little breasts and tiny ass and her sexy&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;manners,
she turns me on every time. Lately she has come twice in the middle of the night to
sleep with me. I am not allowed to touch her when she is tired. She is at all times
in total control. She never gives herself, she does not surrender or such thing. Always
in control, never let go of herself. Only when I lick her she enjoys it and for that
she comes now every two days.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;Today Linda will come around two pm, and
we’ll see if Lolita is there too.&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;I have no money, no
gold and nothing to do. Sariela sleeps in my bed, she came last night at 2:30 and
I was not allowed to touch her at all. Every time I wanted to cuddle and hold her
she woke up with a sneer and pushed me away. What a tiger. Until she slept so deep
that I could hold her like she was my baby, with my arms around her and her head on
my breast, just like I would protect her from all evil. She is so young and small.
But when she is awake, she is wild and doesn’t need protection at all.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;Linda didn't come, Lolita woke up around
noon, with a bad humor, grim and tight. She left sneering at me that if I had no money
for sex, I wouldn’t get it. And that she could get food anywhere, she didn’t need
me for that. So I wished her bon appetit and happy times, wherever she would go. An
hour later she returned to say that Tuti had fresh fish for sale. So I doled out ten
dollars for a kilo and she came and went into action. Outside, scaling and gutting
the fish, cooking the macaroni and making the salad and frying fish, while I made
a few silver items. During the cooking she came several times to ask me to kiss her
pussy, she then comes to me, lift her t-shirt and pulls her panty to the side in order
that I plant a kiss on her clit.&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;She say that is to warm
it up for after dinner. Then we ate and undressed and laid on the bed. On purpose
I stayed out of the bedroom and soon she called out. I asked what is it, and she called
again, more urgently for me to come, and with a sweet seducing voice she said that
she had a warm wet pussy for me waiting. She taught me before exactly how to make
her little clit come forward by pulling the skin sideways with my fingers and then
licking the little pink spot. She cringes and she starts to touch her little breasts
and shakes and whenever I do it not exactly right, she immediately complains and tells
me to do it good. I have to stretch her hairy skin sideways to expose the bare spot
where the little pink clit is and every time when I forget that she says: Open it! 
&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;Sometimes it takes a long time licking
but finally she arches her back and moans loud and presses a pillow against her face,
rolls over with a laugh and pulls up her legs, knees touching her breasts. She then
ask me to insert my stalk in her oozing puss from the back while she enjoys the feeling
from her exploded puss. 
&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;After the shower she left with another
ten dollar to buy vegetables for the fish soup she would make with the three small
fish in the fridge. She didn’t return. At 5 pm I walked down to the Spanish bar to
call Linda. She came about 6 pm ate , showered, laid on the bed, inspected my skin
and let me cuddle her fine strong body. She is still my most ideal body, wow. No sex,
she didn’t give me that since the night before I went to Holland. But she let me have
the car and&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;after putting her home drove to Grand Case
to talk to the girl Muna, for whom I forgot to do a thing but had charged her for
it. Then to Simpson Bay to get no money from the two clients, and back home. 
&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;21 Saturday&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;Wake at sunrise, 6 am, coffee and at 7:30
drive to Grand Case to pick the chain to fix, so I can return it when I return the
car at 11. Good morning.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;That done, Linda wasn’t ready, so I could
bring it later. When I did that the man from the big white car was there and he should
bring her to work so I could keep the car again till Sunday. Sariela came when Bernard
had come to clean his silver. I let her cook, but it was bad what she cooked. It was
almost 6 pm and she wanted to buy clothes so I gave her 22 dollars and she would come
back at 7 she said, but she never came. I feel so very bad that Linda doesn’t give
me her love anymore and Lolita lies about coming, that I went to the whore house from
Angel Priest and met Isabel, who said she would come Tuesday to fix gold things. Then
I went to Defiance and met a nice 22 year old prostitute from Colombia, Angie. I think
of&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;getting her home one of these days and fucking her
sweet body deep and long and nice. Lolita doesn’t know how to sex, she is too young
and too small anyway, Linda doesn’t give it anymore and so, what else is there to
do but jerk off or sex a young whore?&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;22 Sunday 
&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;start with a prayer for gold and sex, hallelujah
for the god that brings money and love. Amen&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;23 Monday, 
&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;much rain today. Marcia Webster comes along
and sees and looks how I make jewelry, she says she wants to learn the trade. I try
to get in her panties, but she refuses still. I think that one of these days she may
let me in though. I am on the bike in the rain to the bank, find the 100 dollar back
that was never received by&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;Rio Grande, find 300 Euro that
Bart sent and I go home to put stones in the silver Jesus from Bernard. Do shopping
at Food Fair where they take Euros for dollars one to one.That saves a trip to the
Casino. Hubert brings a chain that he wants to sell, but it is less than 14 Karat,
so I borrow him $ 20.- and will try to sell the chain for him, it is 28.5 gram of
12 or 10 K. Around 9 pm Sariela comes and makes some food. Then she is undressed on
the bed and asks me to shave her pussy. I do that very nice and slow, then she lets
me sex her first to lick her clit, which I call her shrimp. She loves that and takes
her time to get her orgasm, then I get her permission to go into her, first from the
back and I turn her to the front when I feel my orgasm coming, and we go to sleep.
When she sleeps I powder her body and softly enjoy her sweet skin, stroking and holding
her breasts, buttocks and legs. She sleeps and I slip once again into her and feel
her around me once more, what a lovely feeling, thanks the universe for this again.
I withdraw and we lay together through the night, she sleeping, I enjoying her company
and hardly closing an eye. Outside it rains cats and dogs most of the time, a hurricane
close by passes south from here, named Lily or Kyle.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp;&lt;/span&gt;24 Tuesday&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;At 6:30 I feed Lolita good food and she
makes me very happy and worried as she is so uneducated, what can I do to help her,??&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;Saturday night I was in the whore house
of Fifi, Lolita had said she got a job there, and I went in to see if that was true.
Of course she wasn’t there. But Tuti was and kept giving me beers. And a pretty young
woman called Dicky tried to seduce me. I told her I would get her next day.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;Sunday 29 September, 3 am, 
&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;the chain of Hubert got sold with the silver
guilder in the turning frame. The girl who bought it is also called Beatrix. Now my
rent money is secure. I had a nice crowd by me this afternoon, when they had all gone
it was 5 pm, I went to see Dicky at Fifi’s, she couldn’t come., too late. She looked
less pretty in the daylight than the night before, wow, she has titties as small as
my own, what I would like to get around that one a while. If only I could keep Lolita
from other men...I’m going' try to get her to stay away from other men, for the safety
of us both.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;23 October&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;one month later I have succeeded in getting
little Lolita to be my sole and only sex friend. Of course I cannot know what she
does outside, and I think she seduces other men, but I better don’t think about it.
She comes almost every day, cooks good food, makes a bit of a mess, let me lick her
little clit after she has eaten, until she comes with a laugh and a pillow on her
face and then lets me enter her tight vagina, with a condom and K-Y jelly on. I then
may slowly fuck her sweet, while I hold&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;her little breast
and caress her face, until I cumm and we both feel very good after all that. I only
have to pay her&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;$ 150.- per month and she will not sex
other man [says she]. That money is for the rent of her shack, and I know where it
is. She has sold a few items and made me a few dollars so that it is not too much
of an effort to keep her. I like her young power and she is a good cook after all.&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;
&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;22 October she had her period starting.
Last month it started 14 September, 5 weeks before. I have to keep track, to know
when will be next time. Today I was 4 hours in Cesars workshop, polishing and helping
out a little. Maybe that is going to be regular and will he pay me something. 12 to
4 pm is good for me. I may learn how to set stones by him. Today is the second day
of Lolita’s period, and I haven’t seen her. I made a deal with her to get sex every
second day. Suddenly she doesn’t like sex like before. But I told her that she came
into my life by seducing me and luring me into her pussy, now if she want to stay
she has to give me enough of it to keep me happy. Her lovely brown skin turns me on
like crazy and she makes me horny every time she undresses. Wow.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;3 November 2002,&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;I am bored, feel no way to go somewhere,
need to upgrade the bike, and am lovesick for Sariela. She has been with me several
times and I have been mighty happy much of the time. The waiting in between her visits
is very hard. I do go to the club of Angel Priest to sell gold to the girls again,
I did not go there for 7 month or more.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;15&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;November,&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;I was with Sariela at&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;the
Woman's Desk, because I thought that they would help her to see a doctor. She has
been complaining about pain in her little breasts since I know her. They would not
do anything because she has no Dutch papers... Then I gave her my last money to see
a French doctor, his name is Thibault. When I picked her up after an hour, she said
she had to go to the Hospital in Marigot next Monday to have the lumps removed. I
am so afraid for her, she may have breast cancer, but maybe it is nothing so bad.
I teach her to chase the sickness away by telling herself that she don’t want it.
I got that from Therond....&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;18 November.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;Tomorrow Bart is coming. Today I wait for
things to happen, I did not go to see Lolita last night, she told me to get her at
1 in the morning, but my spirit guide told me not to go.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;My spirit guide can be consulted in two
different ways. By throwing coins for the I Ching and reading the information there,
or by proposing a yes-no question and flipping a coin. Both ways work very well. So
far the times it was wrong are so few, that&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;I trust my
guide.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;Today I have not much to do, hardly any
gold to work with and only 20 dollar to my name. I count on Bart&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;to
bring me some money.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;23 November&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;Bart is here a few days and yesterday he
sexed a woman called Rosy. We got Linda's car and fix it.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;28&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;November&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;yesterday was&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;Lolita
here, cooked and gave me a little sex. Money making is the subject. If only I could&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;get
a loan of thousands of dollars, from banks that want only to give one on one. You
need money to get money. Bart&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;has good ideas en Jan Willem
also. they know hoe to geld make money.&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;JW makes geld
tellers for one armed bandits and knows about interest 
&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;Later that night I went to have a beer
at the little bar and after it closed 12:30, I was feeling for my girlfriend so I
went there and saw her. She screamed abusively that I was drunk and I left disgusted.
Went home and took the dog that she had given me as a puppy, in the car and brought
it to her place, tied it there and when I was driving away, Lolita called out that
she wanted to talk to me. I told her to go fuck herself and drove home. I will refuse
her three times, if ever she comes back. If she insists more than three times, I will
give her another chance, to behave herself normally. I must not think that she can
be a girlfriend, because I know now that she is a young professional prostitute...
Mitchell who heard me tell that she refused me, said that she should be happy, grateful
and lucky to have a friend like me who offers a good reward for a night of her company.
It is her own stupidity that makes me so angry.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;2 December&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;shit, Lolita came again and she stayed
with me pretty long, Bart and JW where here too and she made me make two silver rings
and she took three gold rings from me. She went to the bedroom and was naked before
the other guys had left the yard. She asked me to shave her armpits, which I did.
Then she wanted me to lick her clit and while I was doing that she asked me to put
a finger in her vagina. Only one she said when I put two. I had to move my finger
fast in and out and when she didn’t feel enough she asked me to put the wooden dildo
inside her. I did a condom on the wooden dick and with a little K-Y jelly it slid
right in. But after a little while she found that too hard and I had to replace it
with the finger again. Then she came, boy, she laid back, half off the bed, shaking
and shivering, and she told me to enter her now. I sweetly made my love with her and
I came softly and controlled.&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;I showered, but she wanted
the smell and the feeling to stay with her and she put her clothes on just like that.
She promised me to let me pick her at 9pm. Because we had a deal, that if I gave her
enough to pay her rent, she would spend some nights with me...I was in a deep loving
mood and expected to lay with her next to me that night to continue the sweet feeling
of tenderness and caring for her. I was so happy, that what later happened was a classical
example of too much happiness is dangerous...Then later she called to say she had
something to do so she would not be there for me at 9pm. That made me furious and
I threaten with police immigration, accusing her of theft and what not. When a few
telephone calls were made, I was still trembling of anger and around nine I went on
the bike to her place. She came and wanted to kill me. Fighting with words and slapping
me in the face, she was the real classical put. She takes advantage of me in a very
nasty way and I am stupid to give her a chance. But every time she puts her naked
cunt before me, how can I refuse? She is so professional with her innocent behavior
and her promises. And I am so stupid to believe her every time...Now I think that
I know that she is the youngest professional prostitute on the island&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;and
nothing else.&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;
&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;3 December, 
&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;I hear that Linda has a good boyfriend
and that explains her distant behavior since I came back from Holland. I make wax
rings for the 8 Atlantis rings that Bart wants for his family. Went to Lee’s to collect
from Michel who works in the kitchen. Feel very upset for the fight I had with Lolita
yesterday. Feel upset because I cannot have her as I would like to have her. And I
feel such love for her, but it is like pearls for the swine, she doesn’t appreciate
me at all. She is a very real, very young, and very professional prostitute. 
&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;4 December 
&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;I cast 8 Atlantis rings for Bart’s family,
work at it most of the day. I miss Lolita a lot, but I have to forget her and let
her out of my head. The I Ching tells me, My&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;mind tells
me and I have to get her out of my system. You’ll see that she comes back when I just
have forgotten about her....&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;5 December Thursday&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;Bart put the new chain and pinions on the
Nighthawk and it drives like new. I feel very alone, and think constantly of my little
young prostitute. I must forget her and find another girlfriend. She called on a cell
phone and said she thought of me. Said she would come but not now. I pray oh Universe
to send me a new woman friend that will help me with work, food and sex. Let Seaon
come back... I am very alone. And I don’t like it much. Now it is late afternoon,
I am alone and shall work a bit to finish the rings for Bart. Three to go. Also a
small ring for Santa to make. Seven o'clock go to Sergio to get some gold.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;6 December&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;The birthday of Sint Nikolaas. Bart is
a real executer, he is always doing some construction. Now he puts small tiles on
my kitchen formica top. It makes a mess. All tools end up everywhere and the disorder
irritates me a bit, I seem to like quiet and order, at least the order I know. It
must be old age...In the night Bart comes with a woman he will sex. I take the car
and go to Lee. Meet Donna with her mother. ````she is a travel agent from New York.
She wants an Atlantis ring. Asks to meet in Bay Rouge tomorrow.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;7 December, Saturday, I long for Sariela
but she does not come Around 1 o’clock I go with Bart to Bay Rouge. Meet Donna and
swim. She will call me, so I go home and wait. Am longing for Sariela. But nobody
comes.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp;&lt;/span&gt;December 9,
Monday&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;today we went to the harbor project where
I got from Barts friend some things for the apple laptop, programs for repairs and
photo printing and virus check. Also a printer that I must hook up rather sooner than
later. Bart went to the airport to check his luggage in. He got a bit of a sunstroke
yesterday and doesn’t feel so good. Would it be that he goes back to Holland where
it is freezing cold right now? Minus 4 C daytime, minus 8-9 nighttime...Yacky!!!&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;The woman at the bar of Angel called yesterday
to want a nugget ring. I did make one to bring it to her, this morning and she had
bought another ring in town for 140 dollar, while mine which cost 80 she found too
expensive. Women are crazy... 
&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;December 13, it’s a Friday&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;a new website is now made by Jan Willem,
www.atlantisring.com&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;I pray that many people will find it and
order one. Yesterday Seaon appeared before me, from Guyana. Her man Tony paid her
ticket, so he has her services when he wants. She’ll come only to me for extra sex
and money. Than came Linda last night with&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;her sister
Wendy who wants me to make ear hoops. And Linda say she will give me sex, the whole
night of 19 to 20 December as birthday present. Hallelujah!!!! It is Friday night
and I stay home alone. It is night, the TV shows stupid horror stuff, I can’t look
at. Write this and read a&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;little of my own sex stories.
which make me horny and hard, I play with my dick, jerk off and cum, right in front
of the computer. 
&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;December 14, Saturday&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;I wake as usual at 6 am . Feed the chickens
and the cats and the fishes. Go into the yard and prune the bush with dead branches,
enjoy the fishes and the smell of the basil bush, the magenta color of the bouganvillier
and the white cat jumping and playing as if she was a doggie. Put dirty shirts in
the washing machine and drink coffee. 
&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;December 15&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;December 16&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;In the afternoon came Lolita, to make up
for the deal she broke she said. She cooked pork chops, and asked me to give her a
massage. I like that young body so much. I put body lotion all over her legs and rubbed
and stroked and massaged her soft and as sensuous as I can. She takes of her top and
her pants and in no time she is naked as she used to be with me. But when I enter
her a little later she says: “Sex is the only thing you always want from me.” and
I answer: “It is the only thing you have to give to me.”&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;Jan Willem does a lot on the website, changes
the front page after my new story. I want to include the 5 pointed star story as that
was my first protective amulet. Here it comes:&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;Because my name is Alexander, which means
protector, I have always been looking for [protective] things to help people with.
I found protective amulets, charms, talismans. And I found out about the star of Solomon,
King of the Jews, praised be His name. His star has five points, while the star of
his father David is made of two triangles, and has six points. The star of David is
the symbol for the Jewish peoples religion. It gives no protection, on the contrary,
look what happened to Jews in all of history, and presently in Israel, nothing but
trouble. But the five pointed star gives&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;protection. In
the occult science, the sorcerer stands in a five pointed star within a circle to
protect him against evil from the spirits he is working with. In the book: “The secret
lore of magic”, by Idries Shah, I found much explanation about the five pointed star,
called the pentacle. Which was the most protective talisman, amulet or charm for most
of my life. It is easy to draw or paint or even to imagine in your mind/thoughts when
in a danger situation, and even when just thought about it helps. When you look around,
you will see the five pointed star everywhere. The latest item that carries the star
of Solomon is the European currency, look on the Euro bank notes.The star is put on
the national flag of very many countries. Europe has one golden star in the blue flag
for every member country and the USA has always had one for every state. Most Arabic
countries have it together with a half moon, the Netherlands Antilles have one for
every island, and so does Venezuela, check for yourself. Police officers or sheriffs
in the USA have it as&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;badges on their breast or hat. It
is on the Texaco oil company logo, it is the Texas state logo, and most famous Heineken
beer has it on every label and bottle cap. French cognac and the tourist world classifies
hotel quality with stars.&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;Every military vehicle, airplane
and boat carries stars, be they American, Russian, or Chinese and many others, like
Yugoslavians, Turkish, etcetera. Military officers have stars on their shoulders,
the higher the rank, the more protection wanted, the more stars, generals have as
many as four or five stars.... I had a pendant on a chain with a pentacle for many
years, and by the way, the government building of the USA is based on the five pointed
star, the Pentagon. 
&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;However, when my young years where over,
I found a much better protection. Much older and more effective, more beautiful and
based upon the pyramid shape. This much better protection comes from the oldest known
intelligence, from the lost continent of Atlantis, and was found in an ancient Egyptian
grave.&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;
&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;So, that was the five pointed start story. 
&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;December 18 2002&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;I was with Jan Willem in his Internet cafe
to change and adjust the first page from the atlantisring.com website. Chatted with
Linda and Bart who will send a new ATM card and a floppy drive for this laptop. Went
home to make two nameplates for Linda. Decided to make myself a 23K Atlantis ring,
just because the color is nicer, and I want only the best for me. Then called JW to
say to make&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;size 12 in 18K for a Mexican he chatted with.
In the evening JW came and we went to count coins from his machines at Domino in Simpson
Bay. Then I was home showered, and jerked off. I prepared the casting to take place
later at night and went to bed. Then, after the casting around ten, rings the bell,
and in comes Seaon. She decided to have me as first one to lick and fuck her poke
after all the months that she had nothing. So I did it, good, slow, and moist. It
took a long time for me to cumm, I had just emptied myself an hour before. But when
she went on all fours, and I see that pretty backside, I came&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;of
course. Her skinny body cringed and moved and she came twice. Drained and satisfied
she heard me blabbering a bit and slept. I could not sleep for quit a while, but it
came after all and next day I woke early to finish the castings.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;December 19 
&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp;&lt;/span&gt;Early morning.
The last day of my 57th year, I write, Seaon sleeps in my bed and I drink coffee after
having fed the cats and the chickens. I see JW think the whole day to go to Lee’s,
but that is on Fridays, I am two hours in the cafe, in Marks place with JW and home
at ten to wait for Linda who does not come. She told me twice that she would come,
she’s just no good. 
&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;December 20, my birthday&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;First person comes the Haitian gardener.
I let him do a few little things in the yard, especially the cherry bush in the corner
is now trimmed and clean. The second to come is JW with cake for breakfast with coffee.
Linda calls to congratulate. I work on the cast rings from yesterday. Then calls Sariela
who wants me to bring her to the doctor in Marigot. I let her come here so I have
time to dress and close up. When she comes she promises me to spend the night with
me if I pay her doctor, $30.-, which I do. I enjoy the ride with her behind me on
the bike, she holding me and on the straight stretch she put her arm wide out as if
she flies. I love the young spontaneous woman, I just love it/her, she/it. Buy plastic
bags at Sosamag, talk to the owner nice. To dress against the rain that falls like
cats and dogs when I have dropped Sariela at the Marigot hospital. Home I continue
on the rings.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;that afternoon I am at JW cafe, and drive
a bit, fill the tank at French Quarter and pass by Sariela’s to see what's up. There
she was, two papers in hand, from the doctor. She needs an operation to remove a lump
from her breast. Two days in hospital at 612 dollar per day. I leave her there and
feel very shit. Who and how is that money going to come? I decide to buy lottery tickets
for her. That is the only thing I can do. I buy 5 dollar tickets, call Linda to buy
10 and later let Danielo buy 24 dollar&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;worth. If the “Lord”
has mercy I’ll win what she needs. If not, it is not my responsibility. Around 8 PM
she comes and wants to go to Grand Case to buy noodles in a certain little restaurant.
We go on the bike, but the place is closed. Then to Dragon City in Back Street and
buy Chow Mein, eat it home. She is not feeling very well but when I offer money she
let me suck her sweet pussy and she cumms fast and with a&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;little
scream. I have to cum quick she says, when I slowly churn inside her wet pussy. I
take my time, she feels so nice, that little darling. Caught a cold,&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;that
gives her a slight headache and muscle pain. Outside the wind is howling. Wake up&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;at
three again, eat something and sleep till 6. 
&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;21 December&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;She promised sex in the early morning.
I go see if that is true, after I write this down. And yes, when I laid down next
to her and she woke up she remembered to give herself once again to my always eager
love muscle. What a girl. After we showered, with nice warm water and then I brought
her home on the bike.&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;
&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;Christmas is come and gone, me sick from
a flu, making a bracelet for Brinette with Jan Willem and a chain for the wife of
mr. Ernest Smith. Ate 26 December at JW place, very too much. 
&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;29 Sariela came and cooked, had me suck
her clit and gave me to cumm in her sweet pussy. Said she would stay over night but
she had to go to her grandmother. 
&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;30 she called at noon to pick her up. We
went shopping for shrimps and after she cooked and we ate she slept the whole afternoon.
Afterwards I brought her home. She asked me to pick her at 11 pm.&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;So
I did. I misplaced a ring from a Spanish man who lives down the road, I feel very
embarrassed. Last time I know I had it was in the Chinese bar sitting next to Fox.
I burn candles for Andromalius to make me find it back. Otherwise I have to make a
new ring for the man. What a ridiculous thing to happen to me. I feel very crazy looking
for it all over the place. I cannot see it anywhere. Why? When the candles are&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;burned
out I will go to the Chinese bar to see if it is there, but I doubt that. Sariela
stayed the night so I had&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;the last sex for the year with
her. Boy I like that young whore.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;31, I was home most of the day and went
to Fisherman wharf and to Chesterfields to see the fireworks. 
&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;2003&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;January 1 
&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;it rains, 
&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;January 4&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;the ring from Eladio came back ok, it was
hanging on a nail over my workbench. Thank you Andromalius. It was in a place where
I had looked but not seen it. I bought new candles for Andromalius and put them in
the Candle holders. 
&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;I made an Atlantis ring in white and yellow
gold. Came Linda, who cleaned the kitchen a little, then Danielo, who fired my flare
gun with a rubber bullet loud bang, by accident, he didn't know it was for real!!!&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;Linda
left to prepare for work at 8.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp;&lt;/span&gt;Then came Jan
Willem when I was leaving with Danielo, and I stayed home, to check pyramid info he
brought. Then it was raining outside, rings the bell and stands before me Seaon, like
a dripping wet drowned pussycat, all dressed in black. She asks if she can stay by
me for three month, she want to go home in April. She sleeps next to me but no touching
at all, she is having her period. Cuddling is out of the question also, but why?&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;Sunday 5 January&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;Wake up fine, chicken in tree has two babies
alive, four dead, drowned in the big rain from yesterday maybe.&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;One
chick is ok, the other maybe not. 
&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;Seaon wakes and is a bit far away with
her mind, doesn’t say much (yet?). Wilson comes to melt powder, and Sariela comes
to say hello, she cooks, eats and is too tired to give me a little bit of herself.
I have to bring her home with a bag full of the food she made. Tells me to fetch her
tomorrow ten am, 
&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;January 6 Monday, fix the exhaust of the
bike, Seaon goes to work, I finish the white/yellow 14K gold ring to send, another
white gold one and am home. Sariela was not home at ten. Seaon came in the afternoon,
saw Sari in town who said she would come at 9 PM. But when 9 has come and gone, she
is still invisible. Seaon is on the bed, she has an infection in her mouth, and throat
and I give her raw onion. I am sad that Sariela is not been here at all. I love her
a bit too much. Her body turns me on so much that I always hope she comes. But she
only comes when I have money to give her, and today I didn’t have any. She smells
it.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;Soon the year of the horse is over and
the year of the goat will start. I smell money coming because Jan Willem does not
stop making the website better. He does everything to get more links to our site and
talks to people to find more ways to promote it. He is good and we get ±30 hits a
day, that is maybe one order a month. I need about ten orders a month to make money.
May be $ 40.- profit per hit.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;14 January&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;Seaon lives with me now a few days.&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;She
is good and says nothing when my other friends come over for sex. Seaon and Sariela
together took care of me Friday, and Marcia took care of me Saturday. Sunday was a
rest day, Monday also. Today Sariela cooks and says that her period has started yesterday.
She’s out for a week she thinks, but on&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;16 and 18 January
I fetch her to cook and to just have her around. I like her presence.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;20 January&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;She is now in the holding pen of the immigration
because she was picked up Saturday night in Dutch Quarter and she has no papers to
prove who she is. I went there with Marcia, Gave some towels and soap, saw her, but
she was so angry, she didn’t want to talk at all.&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;A caged
tiger whelp, can you imagine? I love her so much, but there is nothing I can do. Later
I’ll go see her mother again, she must be able to prove that Sariela is her daughter
no?&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="color: black;"&gt;22 january&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoBodyText"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="font-size: 12pt; font-family: &amp;quot;Times New Roman&amp;quot;,&amp;quot;serif&amp;quot;;"&gt;
&lt;o:p&gt;&amp;nbsp;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoBodyText"&gt;
&lt;font face="Tahoma" size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="font-size: 12pt; font-family: &amp;quot;Times New Roman&amp;quot;,&amp;quot;serif&amp;quot;;"&gt;After
my article: Medicine for a sick dog, Bulldog has started to behave himself a bit.
My purpose in life is to help, heal and protect, improve and create. He understands
now what it means to be public property. Many [gay] artists cannot carry out the message
they want to (of Who they Really are). They become rude and nasty to the world, in
defiance of themselves, because they cannot change.&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;
&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoBodyText"&gt;
&lt;font face="Tahoma" size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="font-size: 12pt; font-family: &amp;quot;Times New Roman&amp;quot;,&amp;quot;serif&amp;quot;;"&gt;If
anybody likes to talk bad about me, I encourage him. I will diagnose and heal his
ailment. Because my intentions are [Universally] good. “Who is not with me is against
me”. (Bush)&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoBodyText"&gt;
&lt;font face="Tahoma" size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="font-size: 12pt; font-family: &amp;quot;Times New Roman&amp;quot;,&amp;quot;serif&amp;quot;;"&gt;Bulldog
attacks people because they do not use their own name. But he has done the very same
from day one! He has not used his own name ever. I did use my own name several times,
in articles related to my physical body. But who cares anyway? It is not the voice,
but the message, not the paper it is written on, not the person it comes from, it
is the message. 
&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoBodyText"&gt;
&lt;font face="Tahoma" size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="font-size: 12pt; font-family: &amp;quot;Times New Roman&amp;quot;,&amp;quot;serif&amp;quot;;"&gt;Then
he balks all the time that Chamba is negative. To be rude is positive, yes? To scream
and disrespect others is positive, OK? 
&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoBodyText"&gt;
&lt;font face="Tahoma" size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="font-size: 12pt; font-family: &amp;quot;Times New Roman&amp;quot;,&amp;quot;serif&amp;quot;;"&gt;In
the letter “Offensive” I explained negativity.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoBodyText"&gt;
&lt;font face="Tahoma" size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="font-size: 12pt; font-family: &amp;quot;Times New Roman&amp;quot;,&amp;quot;serif&amp;quot;;"&gt;Many
more people who know Bulldog tell me that he is [secretly] gay and that he is married
and has kids has nothing to do with that. It is why he acts so overdone manly and
so overly loud, who would suspect such loud, rude person of being deep down an antiman?&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;In
Amsterdam gay is fine, in Jamaica and here it must better be hidden.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoBodyText"&gt;
&lt;font face="Tahoma" size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="font-size: 12pt; font-family: &amp;quot;Times New Roman&amp;quot;,&amp;quot;serif&amp;quot;;"&gt;Bulldog
likes to drag up that I went to jail for a while.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoBodyText"&gt;
&lt;font face="Tahoma" size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="font-size: 12pt; font-family: &amp;quot;Times New Roman&amp;quot;,&amp;quot;serif&amp;quot;;"&gt;I
am proud that I went there. My soul would not be full if I had not experienced that
part of life. All honest men end up in jail some time or other, because our world
is based upon laws that are against the Universal Truth.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoBodyText"&gt;
&lt;font face="Tahoma" size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="font-size: 12pt; font-family: &amp;quot;Times New Roman&amp;quot;,&amp;quot;serif&amp;quot;;"&gt;Accused
of selling Marijuana [an economic, not criminal offense], I was acquitted at the trial.
I never sold marijuana, not a gram. I am proud to say that I helped in a workshop
to make pure and clean hashoil, the concentrated, unsurpassed high quality pure honey
oil, a zillion times more potent than the regular spliff, easy to transport, free
from alkaloids that are irritating throat and lungs. Without the smell of a [burning]
haystack. I am super sensitive and cannot smoke, it makes me throw up and cough terrible.
Pure cannabinol is [for me] the best way to enjoy marijuana. To make tea from the
leaves of the plant is second best. Hash brownies are OK. The French paranoia concerning
marijuana is ridiculous and the American way of treating cannabis users is straight&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;out
criminal. In the Low Lands of Europe it has been legalized for over 25 years now and
I did not brake any law by Universal standards, I was victim of a wrong law. 
&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoBodyText"&gt;
&lt;font face="Tahoma" size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="font-size: 12pt; font-family: &amp;quot;Times New Roman&amp;quot;,&amp;quot;serif&amp;quot;;"&gt;What
I experienced in jail is something he cannot even start to imagine. No book, or movie
was made about it [yet] and he, being as nice and exemplary a citizen as they come,
never went to jail.&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;So bulldog, keep dragging that up,
and tell the listeners that you don’t have&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;courage. Disrespect,
conceit and disdain you have, otherwise you couldn’t give it. Now approaching 60 years
of age I do not use anything but food and sex, no more cadavers, dead animals, no
concentrated alkaloids from the cocatree, chemicals like LSD, or Ecstasy. I still
use a derivative of the poppy in tablet form, called codeine, when the body likes
a little painless, dreaming&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;and floating feeling. Coffee
I use instead of amphetamine, but that’s about it. I would use nitrous oxide anytime,
if I could get it. 
&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoBodyText"&gt;
&lt;font face="Tahoma" size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="font-size: 12pt; font-family: &amp;quot;Times New Roman&amp;quot;,&amp;quot;serif&amp;quot;;"&gt;I
regularly sex with one and sometimes more than one female at the time. I enjoy the
unity with a female to the max and practice Tantra. With these practices I have found
the true meaning of live and the strongest and deepest experience of The Heavenly
Divine. 
&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoBodyText"&gt;
&lt;font face="Tahoma" size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="font-size: 12pt; font-family: &amp;quot;Times New Roman&amp;quot;,&amp;quot;serif&amp;quot;;"&gt;26
January, Sunday, 2003&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoBodyText"&gt;
&lt;font face="Tahoma" size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="font-size: 12pt; font-family: &amp;quot;Times New Roman&amp;quot;,&amp;quot;serif&amp;quot;;"&gt;Yesterday
I said goodbye to Sariela at the airport. I gave her an Atlantis ring in 18K with
her name inside, a chain and a little thing. $30.- cash and a kiss. Today I got Marcia
to visit at 7:30 early and Seaon in the house. Marcia only needed a couple of dollars
for gas for the car she was driving, Seaon behaves as if we are strangers, as in fact
we are. The washing machine is churning the laundry. 
&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoBodyText"&gt;
&lt;font face="Tahoma" size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="font-size: 12pt; font-family: &amp;quot;Times New Roman&amp;quot;,&amp;quot;serif&amp;quot;;"&gt;I
came up with the idea of solar furnace when JW came up with the idea of recycling
aluminum soda cans. Ordered 50 2x2inch mirrors to make a prototype oven to see how
that works. Talked about a solar powered BBQ already. I think that may be a good project
for here.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoBodyText"&gt;
&lt;font face="Tahoma" size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="font-size: 12pt; font-family: &amp;quot;Times New Roman&amp;quot;,&amp;quot;serif&amp;quot;;"&gt;Then
there is these days the rhetoric about Iraq and the war that USA wants to wage to
disarm Saddam Hussein. Double standards from the USA.&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;Never
a mention that Israel is the aggressor in the area. Land stolen from the people that
lived there, nuclear weapons in Israel, all kind of nonsense to any world citizen. 
&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoBodyText"&gt;
&lt;font face="Tahoma" size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="font-size: 12pt; font-family: &amp;quot;Times New Roman&amp;quot;,&amp;quot;serif&amp;quot;;"&gt;27
January monday&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
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&lt;font face="Tahoma" size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="font-size: 12pt; font-family: &amp;quot;Times New Roman&amp;quot;,&amp;quot;serif&amp;quot;;"&gt;the
washing machine water pump gave up. 
&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoBodyText"&gt;
&lt;font face="Tahoma" size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="font-size: 12pt; font-family: &amp;quot;Times New Roman&amp;quot;,&amp;quot;serif&amp;quot;;"&gt;28
January Tuesday&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
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&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoBodyText"&gt;
&lt;font face="Tahoma" size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="font-size: 12pt; font-family: &amp;quot;Times New Roman&amp;quot;,&amp;quot;serif&amp;quot;;"&gt;Seaon
doesn’t come home anymore. The police took her off the street this afternoon. Her
nephew and brother came to get her things. Not good, but not so bad as her man Tony
will give the ticket.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoBodyText"&gt;
&lt;font face="Tahoma" size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="font-size: 12pt; font-family: &amp;quot;Times New Roman&amp;quot;,&amp;quot;serif&amp;quot;;"&gt;29 
&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoBodyText"&gt;
&lt;font face="Tahoma" size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="font-size: 12pt; font-family: &amp;quot;Times New Roman&amp;quot;,&amp;quot;serif&amp;quot;;"&gt;search
washing machine pump. $55.- at Kwik Bargain.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoBodyText"&gt;
&lt;font face="Tahoma" size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="font-size: 12pt; font-family: &amp;quot;Times New Roman&amp;quot;,&amp;quot;serif&amp;quot;;"&gt;30&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoBodyText"&gt;
&lt;font face="Tahoma" size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="font-size: 12pt; font-family: &amp;quot;Times New Roman&amp;quot;,&amp;quot;serif&amp;quot;;"&gt;I
repair the washer&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoBodyText"&gt;
&lt;font face="Tahoma" size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="font-size: 12pt; font-family: &amp;quot;Times New Roman&amp;quot;,&amp;quot;serif&amp;quot;;"&gt;31
make a fat chain for Dorothy, a lady brought here by Evelyn. I owe Caesar 114 dollar
for gold. And some for Rio Grande order.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoBodyText"&gt;
&lt;font face="Tahoma" size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="font-size: 12pt; font-family: &amp;quot;Times New Roman&amp;quot;,&amp;quot;serif&amp;quot;;"&gt;Beatrix
birthday party at Holland House. 
&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoBodyText"&gt;
&lt;font face="Tahoma" size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="font-size: 12pt; font-family: &amp;quot;Times New Roman&amp;quot;,&amp;quot;serif&amp;quot;;"&gt;1
February the start of the year of the goat. 
&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoBodyText"&gt;
&lt;font face="Tahoma" size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="font-size: 12pt; font-family: &amp;quot;Times New Roman&amp;quot;,&amp;quot;serif&amp;quot;;"&gt;Sariela’s
number is 001809-245-7793. Not 908 as was given me. 
&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoBodyText"&gt;
&lt;font face="Tahoma" size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="font-size: 12pt; font-family: &amp;quot;Times New Roman&amp;quot;,&amp;quot;serif&amp;quot;;"&gt;2
jan&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoBodyText"&gt;
&lt;font face="Tahoma" size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="font-size: 12pt; font-family: &amp;quot;Times New Roman&amp;quot;,&amp;quot;serif&amp;quot;;"&gt;Danielo
came at night&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoBodyText"&gt;
&lt;font face="Tahoma" size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="font-size: 12pt; font-family: &amp;quot;Times New Roman&amp;quot;,&amp;quot;serif&amp;quot;;"&gt;5
February 
&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoBodyText"&gt;
&lt;font face="Tahoma" size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="font-size: 12pt; font-family: &amp;quot;Times New Roman&amp;quot;,&amp;quot;serif&amp;quot;;"&gt;Yesterday
I spoke to Sariela in the phone, she asks for money for passport and says that she
has no food to eat. 
&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoBodyText"&gt;
&lt;font face="Tahoma" size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="font-size: 12pt; font-family: &amp;quot;Times New Roman&amp;quot;,&amp;quot;serif&amp;quot;;"&gt;I
feel very bad that I don’t have the money to send her.&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;Paid
for oxygen and make myself vegetable soup mix with everything in it. Enough for a
few days. Was in Marigot at le Cigalon and by Cynthia.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoBodyText"&gt;
&lt;font face="Tahoma" size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="font-size: 12pt; font-family: &amp;quot;Times New Roman&amp;quot;,&amp;quot;serif&amp;quot;;"&gt;Feel
bad, but JW says that she sure has food to eat, and I should not worry for her. Would
she worry for me in the same situation?&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoBodyText"&gt;
&lt;font face="Tahoma" size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="font-size: 12pt; font-family: &amp;quot;Times New Roman&amp;quot;,&amp;quot;serif&amp;quot;;"&gt;14&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoBodyText"&gt;
&lt;font face="Tahoma" size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="font-size: 12pt; font-family: &amp;quot;Times New Roman&amp;quot;,&amp;quot;serif&amp;quot;;"&gt;Went
around the island. Bought Conversations with God 3. Found Jimbo’s place.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoBodyText"&gt;
&lt;font face="Tahoma" size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="font-size: 12pt; font-family: &amp;quot;Times New Roman&amp;quot;,&amp;quot;serif&amp;quot;;"&gt;15
February, 03&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoBodyText"&gt;
&lt;font face="Tahoma" size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="font-size: 12pt; font-family: &amp;quot;Times New Roman&amp;quot;,&amp;quot;serif&amp;quot;;"&gt;Yesterday
I spoke to Sariela, she wants me to work harder so that I can send her money. I think
about her all the time. Whenever I ask the coin-flip method if I shall have another
woman, it says no. All the time when I ask if Sariela will come back it says yes…
Got almost a whole page in the Herald on Valentine and Love. Start to write my suicide
goodbye letter, the pro’s and contra’s.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoBodyText"&gt;
&lt;font face="Tahoma" size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="font-size: 12pt; font-family: &amp;quot;Times New Roman&amp;quot;,&amp;quot;serif&amp;quot;;"&gt;18
tuesday&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoBodyText"&gt;
&lt;font face="Tahoma" size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="font-size: 12pt; font-family: &amp;quot;Times New Roman&amp;quot;,&amp;quot;serif&amp;quot;;"&gt;Danielo
comas see me sometime, talks fast but soaks up all I say on philosophy and god.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoBodyText"&gt;
&lt;font face="Tahoma" size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="font-size: 12pt; font-family: &amp;quot;Times New Roman&amp;quot;,&amp;quot;serif&amp;quot;;"&gt;19
Wednesday&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoBodyText"&gt;
&lt;font face="Tahoma" size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="font-size: 12pt; font-family: &amp;quot;Times New Roman&amp;quot;,&amp;quot;serif&amp;quot;;"&gt;Things
are OK, Marcia came to get a fuck, almost was naked before reaching the bedroom.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoBodyText"&gt;
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thursday&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoBodyText"&gt;
&lt;font face="Tahoma" size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="font-size: 12pt; font-family: &amp;quot;Times New Roman&amp;quot;,&amp;quot;serif&amp;quot;;"&gt;Marcia
came at 3:30 nighttime and had me fuck her hard from the back, doggy style. I brought
her home on the bike later.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoBodyText"&gt;
&lt;font face="Tahoma" size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="font-size: 12pt; font-family: &amp;quot;Times New Roman&amp;quot;,&amp;quot;serif&amp;quot;;"&gt;21
Febr.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoBodyText"&gt;
&lt;font face="Tahoma" size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="font-size: 12pt; font-family: &amp;quot;Times New Roman&amp;quot;,&amp;quot;serif&amp;quot;;"&gt;Spoke
to Sariela again, she asks for money, but I don’t have any yet. At least I got her
adress and I’ll try to send her a little soon.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoBodyText"&gt;
&lt;font face="Tahoma" size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="font-size: 12pt; font-family: &amp;quot;Times New Roman&amp;quot;,&amp;quot;serif&amp;quot;;"&gt;Other
news is the 1&lt;sup&gt;st &lt;/sup&gt;book e-mail, asking me for manuscript. I sit every day
to correct old letters and hope to get something in print. 
&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoBodyText"&gt;
&lt;font face="Tahoma" size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="font-size: 12pt; font-family: &amp;quot;Times New Roman&amp;quot;,&amp;quot;serif&amp;quot;;"&gt;Jan
Willem got the PayPal system going, and one ring is ordered to be made and shipped
3 march.&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;I have decided to send a little money to Sariela,
I look at her pictures and I remember how much pleasure she gave me.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoBodyText"&gt;
&lt;font face="Tahoma" size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="font-size: 12pt; font-family: &amp;quot;Times New Roman&amp;quot;,&amp;quot;serif&amp;quot;;"&gt;25&lt;sup&gt;th&lt;/sup&gt;
&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoBodyText"&gt;
&lt;font face="Tahoma" size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="font-size: 12pt; font-family: &amp;quot;Times New Roman&amp;quot;,&amp;quot;serif&amp;quot;;"&gt;&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp;&lt;/span&gt;I
sent 50 dollar to Sariela, she got it and said thank you. I doubt very much if she
will return here. Then I went to Angel Club and met a nice young girl Belkis. The
next day she had sex with me so nice, so sweet, so relaxed. I ate her pussy first
and she got dripping wet, she shivered and contrascted, she moaned and growled. Then
I put a banana flavored condom and my dick ring and entered her half deep. She moved
so sweet with me, and I went out to put a pillow under her ass. Then I licked her
shrimp a little more and entered her again. Deeper and deeper until my bush brushed
her bush. We whined and whined and she enjoyed it for sure. Then of course I waited
a bit before I came, but it felt so nice, She did not move and so I put my tongue
on her clit again and sucked that little pussy long and good. Until she also came,
with a suppressed scream and a deep moan. Wow did we enjoy that fuck. I gave her a
small snake ring and a little plate “Sabora”, that means tasting good. She gave me
ten-dollar and paid my beer. Four gram cost me 16 dollar, minus ten, so for 6 dollar
I had a good sweet fuck. That is the way I like it…&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoBodyText"&gt;
&lt;font face="Tahoma" size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="font-size: 12pt; font-family: &amp;quot;Times New Roman&amp;quot;,&amp;quot;serif&amp;quot;;"&gt;March
1, Saturday&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoBodyText"&gt;
&lt;font face="Tahoma" size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="font-size: 12pt; font-family: &amp;quot;Times New Roman&amp;quot;,&amp;quot;serif&amp;quot;;"&gt;I
think about Sariela all the time. I must be mad. Of course it is because Marcia was
here on Thursday and spoke with me about her. She said that her man-friend Duncan,
the most famous lawyer from the island, could help Sariela come back easily. 
&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoBodyText"&gt;
&lt;font face="Tahoma" size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="font-size: 12pt; font-family: &amp;quot;Times New Roman&amp;quot;,&amp;quot;serif&amp;quot;;"&gt;It
is 7 AM and my little rooster is putting up a fight with one of the pearl-hens outside
my window. How I wonder at their courage, they fight bravely on and on. Dancing around
each other, picking at their heads, jumping high. The pearl-hen is three times bigger
and my rooster chooses safety before death. The pearl-hens make a tremendous noise,
a strange loud cackling, fast, loud and two-toned.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoBodyText"&gt;
&lt;font face="Tahoma" size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="font-size: 12pt; font-family: &amp;quot;Times New Roman&amp;quot;,&amp;quot;serif&amp;quot;;"&gt;I
tried to call Sariela last night, she was not there, her mother said she would be
in today around three PM. I’ll try to send her $ 50. - again. Now I correct old letters
for my book of “Letters from Sint Maarten”&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoBodyText"&gt;
&lt;font face="Tahoma" size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="font-size: 12pt; font-family: &amp;quot;Times New Roman&amp;quot;,&amp;quot;serif&amp;quot;;"&gt;March
4 Tuesday&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoBodyText"&gt;
&lt;font face="Tahoma" size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="font-size: 12pt; font-family: &amp;quot;Times New Roman&amp;quot;,&amp;quot;serif&amp;quot;;"&gt;Freddy
was here, and I got confimation from Rio Grande that the silver is on the way.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoBodyText"&gt;
&lt;font face="Tahoma" size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="font-size: 12pt; font-family: &amp;quot;Times New Roman&amp;quot;,&amp;quot;serif&amp;quot;;"&gt;Make
all kind of waxes, three trees to cast all my stuff and the rest. As soon as 2-300
dollar come in I’ll buy stones. Red stones in silver is pretty.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoBodyText"&gt;
&lt;font face="Tahoma" size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="font-size: 12pt; font-family: &amp;quot;Times New Roman&amp;quot;,&amp;quot;serif&amp;quot;;"&gt;Could
not get Sariela out of my head yet. Got an e-mail from John, a pic of a sweet young
girl looking up from his crotch with his limpish dick under her tongue. Oh the darling.
What all thyey do for a couple of dollars…&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoBodyText"&gt;
&lt;font face="Tahoma" size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="font-size: 12pt; font-family: &amp;quot;Times New Roman&amp;quot;,&amp;quot;serif&amp;quot;;"&gt;Every
woman become smore pretty for every day tat I have none. Maybe I should put the letters
in this my life book.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoBodyText"&gt;
&lt;font face="Tahoma" size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="font-size: 12pt; font-family: &amp;quot;Times New Roman&amp;quot;,&amp;quot;serif&amp;quot;;"&gt;Whaat
can be the title? Storm in a glas water?&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoBodyText"&gt;
&lt;font face="Tahoma" size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="font-size: 12pt; font-family: &amp;quot;Times New Roman&amp;quot;,&amp;quot;serif&amp;quot;;"&gt;Shy,
but bold enough to be here.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoBodyText"&gt;
&lt;font face="Tahoma" size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="font-size: 12pt; font-family: &amp;quot;Times New Roman&amp;quot;,&amp;quot;serif&amp;quot;;"&gt;Rich
without money. The winged helmet. Love on the move.&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;
&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoBodyText"&gt;
&lt;font face="Tahoma" size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="font-size: 12pt; font-family: &amp;quot;Times New Roman&amp;quot;,&amp;quot;serif&amp;quot;;"&gt;The
little woman in Santo Domingo keeps flying through my head. If only she comes back,
it will&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;be nice. Making waxtrees. Listening to radio.
I need a little ganja, it helps me to work better&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoBodyText"&gt;
&lt;font face="Tahoma" size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="font-size: 12pt; font-family: &amp;quot;Times New Roman&amp;quot;,&amp;quot;serif&amp;quot;;"&gt;Ten
twenty, I go wash and lay down, to start at 6-7 tomorrow. Amen.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoBodyText"&gt;
&lt;font face="Tahoma" size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="font-size: 12pt; font-family: &amp;quot;Times New Roman&amp;quot;,&amp;quot;serif&amp;quot;;"&gt;March
13.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoBodyText"&gt;
&lt;font face="Tahoma" size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="font-size: 12pt; font-family: &amp;quot;Times New Roman&amp;quot;,&amp;quot;serif&amp;quot;;"&gt;I
talk with Saddam about the Carib Independent Organisation. He wants me to make a seal.
A logo, some sign that can represent the group of Carib people. Saddam wants to develop
some activity in Carib Land , the little bit of land that was put aside for the few
survivors after the treaty of 1901. Signed by a group of countries it was to make
sure that the extermination of Caribs had to stop. All that want to be part of the
organisation will get the sign of memebership, and if they have an address, they will
get information about the agenda when it is made. In the planning is the building
of an ice house, a walk-in freezer to preserve the catch of the fishermen on Winward
Rocky Harbor, the only place the Carib fisherman can get out in the Atlantic. I am
a Guest of honor of Sadam and as such I give him the advice to organise fish-farming.
There are clean and pure rivers and lakes, places to farm fish for sale. He has already
developed his own cocnut drying instalation and he sells coco meat to the copra factory.
There are&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;ways to use the rivers for energy. Letting it
drive a waterwheel after it falls throuhg a long pipe. 
&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoBodyText"&gt;
&lt;font face="Tahoma" size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="font-size: 12pt; font-family: &amp;quot;Times New Roman&amp;quot;,&amp;quot;serif&amp;quot;;"&gt;I
suggest a hydro driven generator to feed the satelite dish to connect straight to
the Ethernet. Carib Independent Organisation, for short: CIO. I suggets to call&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;it
Carib World Organisation, or Interdependent in stead of Independent.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoBodyText"&gt;
&lt;font face="Tahoma" size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="font-size: 12pt; font-family: &amp;quot;Times New Roman&amp;quot;,&amp;quot;serif&amp;quot;;"&gt;My
feeling is good, maybe I can help Sadam to find another person to take over the house
he is running now. There are about eight places in the house that I know of, where
people live, some single, others together. Rents should be collected every month.
However Sadam has to put the details on paper if he wants me to do something. He has
a certain authority but he does not excercize it at all. 
&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoBodyText"&gt;
&lt;font face="Tahoma" size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="font-size: 12pt; font-family: &amp;quot;Times New Roman&amp;quot;,&amp;quot;serif&amp;quot;;"&gt;He
tells me with the help of a crude map he draws, how his people are pushed from their
original lands on the lee side of the island of Dominica to the windward side. They
manage to grow enough food and they manage to sell abit to the rest of the island.
The main road that goes around the island is from the Dominican Government. The side
roads are the responsibility of the Carib Local Council. If 
&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoBodyText"&gt;
&lt;font face="Tahoma" size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="font-size: 12pt; font-family: &amp;quot;Times New Roman&amp;quot;,&amp;quot;serif&amp;quot;;"&gt;such
an authority exists?&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoBodyText"&gt;
&lt;font face="Tahoma" size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="font-size: 12pt; font-family: &amp;quot;Times New Roman&amp;quot;,&amp;quot;serif&amp;quot;;"&gt;In
my workshop a few items are ready to go. 
&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoBodyText"&gt;
&lt;font face="Tahoma" size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="font-size: 12pt; font-family: &amp;quot;Times New Roman&amp;quot;,&amp;quot;serif&amp;quot;;"&gt;Jan
Willem asked me how he can generate more traffic into his internet café. I now think
to change the front of the shop, make&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;it inviting, like
a trap, that people want to enter out of attracting suggestions. Which sort of store
fronts attract most traffic?&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoBodyText"&gt;
&lt;font face="Tahoma" size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="font-size: 12pt; font-family: &amp;quot;Times New Roman&amp;quot;,&amp;quot;serif&amp;quot;;"&gt;Interesting
name these days: Gore Vidal. He knows what he is writing about. Wow, if I had a taperecorder,
I could speak in some stories.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoBodyText"&gt;
&lt;font face="Tahoma" size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="font-size: 12pt; font-family: &amp;quot;Times New Roman&amp;quot;,&amp;quot;serif&amp;quot;;"&gt;Sunday
March 16&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoBodyText"&gt;
&lt;font face="Tahoma" size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="font-size: 12pt; font-family: &amp;quot;Times New Roman&amp;quot;,&amp;quot;serif&amp;quot;;"&gt;Early
morning I work on two silver rings when I hear the special noise of guinea fowl outside.
Lately the yard gets visited by three of these turkey-like birds. A few days ago the
guinea cock attacked my little rooster and almost killed it. I admire the courage
of the rooster, it defended itself almost untill it went down for good. The intruder
finally left to its own territory that is under the next tamarind tree where the pigs
live. They are as big as turkeys, but with black feathers full of small white dots.
On their head is a red comb and on each cheek they have red combs hanging down, very
strabge. The noise they make is very peculiar. The males are only slightly bigger
than the hens but have no difference in dress. I went out and laid a string from my
balcony to the place where they usualy pass in search for food that I throw to my
one or two remaining chickens. A little later the three came eating the corn I had
put in the circle of the string. I pulled and they scattered. I put the trap ready
e second time. Some minutes later I cought one, put him in a bag and started preparing
the slaughter. I took the enormous big stainless steel Chinese chopper and a small
sharp knife, a strainer and the garden hose to the little table in the yard. Then
I took the bird by its legs out of the bag, and as its head was right away in the
good position over the wooden table chopped it of with one clean blow. Kept the bleeding,
wing flapping dying bird away from me under the table and hung it in the tree to bleed
empty. Freddy came at that moment and looked in amazement how I inserted the garden
hose to the headless neck of the bird, and filled it with water untill a leak sprung
somewhere. Then I skinned it quickly, chopped of legs and wingtips, and gutted it.
In a few minutes it was chopped in the strainer, washed, and taken inside the house.
There I filled a jar with the pieces, chopped onion, garlic and ginger, put spices,
turmeric and curry, and filled it up with soysauce as marinade. That went in the fridge
for later. Mireilla came to pick up her earrings and asked how I caught it. I explained
how it worked almost the same as the fishing I did in the days of my boat life. Then
I caught fish with a line, pulling them out of the sea around me, now I pull fowl
on a string out of the garden around me. Truly amazing.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoBodyText"&gt;
&lt;font face="Tahoma" size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="font-size: 12pt; font-family: &amp;quot;Times New Roman&amp;quot;,&amp;quot;serif&amp;quot;;"&gt;Freddy
worked on a ring while I filled the washing mashine and wrote on this story. When
Freddy left he mentioned the $ 10,- buffet and bingo to start at 2 PM in Hollywood
casino. So I hung the laundry and at 1:45 took my bike to the casino. Bought a card,
ate the buffet and left the card with Freddy and Alfredo and some friends. I have
no patience for bingo, or any other game of chance for thet matter. Home I worked
on the silver rings and earmannikens for Sophia when I heard some noise in the yard.
Five little piglets were roaming in my flowerpots and uprooting some. I went out to
chase them away but when I saw that they were not afraid or shy, I thought of something
else. I found a 5 meter long rope, an old rusty cast iron pan and some catfood. Put
the three things in the right position and soon two piggies had their heads in the
pan, eating the catfood. I pulled my rope and missed, they scattered. I replaced the
rope on the pan, waited 4 meters away and in no time one piggy had his head in the
pan again. This time I pulled and had him like a dog on a leash. The rope held the
piggy good and I tied him to a high branch from the tree. He run and screamed, but
soon understood that the harder he pulled, the tighter the rope, so he sat quiet most
of the time. Then I called Sadam and Daniello to announce the capture of the piggy.
It was about 25-30 kilo, as heavy as a full bucket of water. When Daniello came I
proposed we go to the Chinese restaurants to sell it. So we put it in the bag and
in the car. But what a surprise, when we found out that no Chinese would buy a live
piglet! We went to six or seven places but everywhere it was the same. Two times the
Chinaman would come to see, but never they would buy. So we took it to Saddam. His
friend Tyrell, who is a fullblood Katanago, happened to be a butcher of little pigs!
So the little beast was taken to behind the house for slaughter tomorrow. I had the
richest hunting day in my life so far, a guinea rooster and a piggy!&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;
&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoBodyText"&gt;
&lt;font face="Tahoma" size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="font-size: 12pt; font-family: &amp;quot;Times New Roman&amp;quot;,&amp;quot;serif&amp;quot;;"&gt;Monday
17 march, 4:29 AM&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoBodyText"&gt;
&lt;font face="Tahoma" size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="font-size: 12pt; font-family: &amp;quot;Times New Roman&amp;quot;,&amp;quot;serif&amp;quot;;"&gt;Talk
on the world service of the BBC is on. USA is going to attack Iraq for sure in the
next coming days. I say it is because the heat will be too much for the US troops
if they wait any longer, and because the USA wants Iraqi’s oil. No other reasons for
going in now. The talks are like a cat circling a plate of hot milk, nobody mentions
the two reasons that I put here. That North Korea is having nuclear weapons does not
stir up any dust in the USA it seems, but I think, and time will tell, that as soon
as the war with Iraq is in full swing, North Korea will attack US forces. With their
missiles capable of hitting South Korea, Japan and the Philippines, the devastation
could be enormous. &lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp;&lt;/span&gt;
&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoBodyText"&gt;
&lt;font face="Tahoma" size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="font-size: 12pt; font-family: &amp;quot;Times New Roman&amp;quot;,&amp;quot;serif&amp;quot;;"&gt;Anyway,
the USA is the only true terrorist country and it has only Spain and England as friends
or alleys left in the world. After years of primitively advertising gunfights, car
chases and explosions on 99% of its TV programs, it is so full of people who know
nothing better, that war, fighting and destruction is the only thing they know. As
I have written earlier: English is a most primitive language and those who speak only
English are resorting to the most primitive of all actions, which is violence and
war. The English and Spanish have returned to their old fashioned way of colonialism
with the USA to supply the army. It is a disgusting world we are living in, of most
primitive and savage politics.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoBodyText"&gt;
&lt;font face="Tahoma" size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="font-size: 12pt; font-family: &amp;quot;Times New Roman&amp;quot;,&amp;quot;serif&amp;quot;;"&gt;My
world is nice though, chatted with Bart, went with Linda to the car inspection and
Nagico insurance, she has the car on her name and now wants to insure it, but her
driving license is out of date . She is so stupid that she never renewed it, now she
has to do it all over again… I stopped the insurance that is on my name, it would
not pay anyhow in case of an accident if she is driving. 
&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoBodyText"&gt;
&lt;font face="Tahoma" size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="font-size: 12pt; font-family: &amp;quot;Times New Roman&amp;quot;,&amp;quot;serif&amp;quot;;"&gt;When
I was home again Leah came, took a shower and took a little sex with me. I sucked
her pussy with my now expert knowledge of the female anatomy, observing her shaking,
trembling and movements until she begged me to lay on my back so she could sit over
me and ride my rock hard dick until she came. While she sits over me and has her hands
on my shoulders, she puts her head in her neck, eyes closed and she moans. I put my
thumbs on her nipples and turn them slowly while I cup her soft breasts. Next month
19 April she’ll be 21. She cumms explosively and falls on my left side, spent all
the way, she draws her legs up and is done. “What about me,” I ask. She turns her
face to the pillow, rests her head on her hands and sticks her ass in the air, for
me to take it doggy style. I hold her sweet great backside between my hands while
I enter her deep. She hurts a little, so I stay half out and half in. I let her vagina
opening massage my penis head and the feeling is good. Slowly a little more, I feel
the cumm is on the way, Leah moans when I enter a little too deep. I withdraw almost
all the way out, only to shove in again until I cannot hold it any longer. In slow
long strokes the sperm shoots in the condom. Wow, sweet ass, you did it again. God
is near. Nature’s blessing follows up on me with a little shower that is just enough
to dampen the dust on the roads when I drive her to the corner of the street to French
Quarter.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoBodyText"&gt;
&lt;font face="Tahoma" size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="font-size: 12pt; font-family: &amp;quot;Times New Roman&amp;quot;,&amp;quot;serif&amp;quot;;"&gt;The
war of USA brutality against Iraq will go ahead in a day or two if I must believe
Gunslinger Bushwhacker. I predict a nuclear strike against American interests by North
Korea when it starts. The American armee will fast have to go to Korea and the war
will be on two fronts I foresee. Who knows what secret communications Saddam and Kim
have with North Korean technology. I see shit coming for Uncle Sam. 
&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoBodyText"&gt;
&lt;font face="Tahoma" size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="font-size: 12pt; font-family: &amp;quot;Times New Roman&amp;quot;,&amp;quot;serif&amp;quot;;"&gt;Here
on Sint Maarten we also have a Saddam. But our Saddam is not a Hussein. He is a Carib
under-chief and he runs a house with about a dozen people at the end of Davis Drive.
He is also the head mechanic of Island Concrete and Danilo lives there too. He has
a monkey in a cage and a lot of old cars standing around. He asked me to help him
develop a logo for his government, something like “Carib Independent Organization.”
I know that generators can be put in his country for free, driven by wind or water,
both are plenty in their territory.&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;A Canadian company
ill install it as long as one buys the product made by it. 
&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoBodyText"&gt;
&lt;font face="Tahoma" size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="font-size: 12pt; font-family: &amp;quot;Times New Roman&amp;quot;,&amp;quot;serif&amp;quot;;"&gt;The
idea became the Kalinago Support Foundation.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoBodyText"&gt;
&lt;font face="Tahoma" size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="font-size: 12pt; font-family: &amp;quot;Times New Roman&amp;quot;,&amp;quot;serif&amp;quot;;"&gt;Got
registered at Chamber of commerce under no. 81442 in 2006, February 9.&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoBodyText"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="font-size: 12pt; font-family: &amp;quot;Times New Roman&amp;quot;,&amp;quot;serif&amp;quot;;"&gt;&lt;font size="6"&gt;&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;o:p&gt;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoBodyText"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="font-size: 12pt; font-family: &amp;quot;Times New Roman&amp;quot;,&amp;quot;serif&amp;quot;;"&gt;
&lt;o:p&gt;&amp;nbsp;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoBodyText"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="font-size: 12pt; font-family: &amp;quot;Times New Roman&amp;quot;,&amp;quot;serif&amp;quot;;"&gt;
&lt;o:p&gt;&amp;nbsp;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoBodyText"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style="font-size: 12pt; font-family: &amp;quot;Times New Roman&amp;quot;,&amp;quot;serif&amp;quot;;"&gt;
&lt;o:p&gt;&amp;nbsp;&lt;/o:p&gt;
&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;4th July tomorrow, 2008&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;I will take the operation to fuse the ankle/&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;The law of 5 year is hereby over ridden by 3 years, that so long after
the accident the results count on. The handicap is not getting less. If I could I
would reopen the case. Get the witness back and get a conviction for reckless driving
on mr Brown.&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;I was this year in Barbados and Las Vegas. Robert Futsi invited me. &lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;He gave me a lot of things and treated me like a king. In America we
got a wheelchair and he pushed me around. Very comfortable.&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;Andrea has less than 100 days to go before she can indulge a bit in
the good life. Linda keeps an eye on the house when I am of-island. And will clean
it up good before she comes.&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;I work a little with the gold and silver casting. Other goldsmiths
want to know how it works too. &lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;I sit a lot with the internet, today even next to my pond in the yard.
With the laptop Robert gave me. &lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;Somehow I maintain a perfect emotional difficult life after my sailing
years. The spirits are kind to me. The powers give what you need.&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;Darling Anie is born poor, lives poor and shall come up from it and
learn to become part of the real world. As a lily with its roots in the mud, she can
emerge from the decay and illiteracy if she only could.&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;She has given me times of great pleasure and now it becomes a needed
exercise to keep in shape a little. What a wonderful piece she is, I love her badly.
But it is time to find a young woman of my body type. The union is not perfect because
she is big and I am not big. She needs more than I can give, she gets it from her
BF now, and it is good. Better half a wife than no wife is what I say at my age. She
needs to get her ID card so she can work.&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;Today I met a nice rabbit type girl like I am a rabbit type body. Anie
is horse type woman. Karina or Carina she said was.&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;&lt;span style=""&gt;&amp;nbsp;&lt;/span&gt;I asked Carina right away if she wanted
to be my GF for $300-$400 a month.&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;She would think about it. I gave her my number.&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;I will start writing down my expenditures some time soon again. As
if that makes it go away. &lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;Do as little as possible. Make your surroundings beautiful. &lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;I go plan the operation.&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;I think I will be able to walk again after a year of hobbling along. &lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;In 4 hours starts the American Independence day, the national farce
of a rogue nation&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p class="MsoNormal"&gt;
&lt;font size="5"&gt;
&lt;br&gt;
&lt;/font&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
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&lt;font size="5"&gt;end of September 2008&lt;/font&gt;
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&lt;font size="5"&gt;I did the operation on my right foot ankle on Sept 1, by dr. Bocher.
After 5 days in hospital he put a cast and I am home in a wheelchair and try to grow
the bone together. Doing little or nothing, making pure gold, writing, looking movies
from Marty and Sherri.&amp;nbsp;&lt;/font&gt;
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&lt;font size="5"&gt;2010 august I can walk reasonably well with a special shoe with a brace.
I take Lyrica and Tramadol and feel OK.&lt;br&gt;
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        <font size="4">That god is needed in society
is clear. That god needs society is not at all clear. Does god need society at all?
No, god needs nothing. But without god worship  the society would fall apart.
The show must go on. There is no other play possible, everybody plays its part. People
in special fashioned clothes pretend they have closer contact with god than others.
That is very dangerous for the people around him. They get the idea that god has left
them for him. They try to hear all what he say. Nevertheless, houses of worship to
this unattainable god are becoming a plague in an intellectual environment. These
politics with the most impossible idea of a god are not bad for the show, but horrible
for the message they proclaim. How can a free entity stay free? By not believing but
knowing the god within. All other entities one then meets will recognize thy god in
thee. And peace will happen. It is the snake who seldom lets go of its tail.<br />
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      <description>&lt;font size="4"&gt;That god is needed in society is clear. That god needs society is not
at all clear. Does god need society at all? No, god needs nothing. But without god
worship&amp;nbsp; the society would fall apart. The show must go on. There is no other
play possible, everybody plays its part. People in special fashioned clothes pretend
they have closer contact with god than others. That is very dangerous for the people
around him. They get the idea that god has left them for him. They try to hear all
what he say. Nevertheless, houses of worship to this unattainable god are becoming
a plague in an intellectual environment. These politics with the most impossible idea
of a god are not bad for the show, but horrible for the message they proclaim. How
can a free entity stay free? By not believing but knowing the god within. All other
entities one then meets will recognize thy god in thee. And peace will happen. It
is the snake who seldom lets go of its tail.&lt;br&gt;
Good night.&lt;br&gt;
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