I am not much suicidal any more and found out that My brother has a beautiful daughter that is in a dance group. I hope to see her dance on my island, there is one called "Motiance" and another group has been formed. Is time I write down the names and children. I never had the slightest desire to be with the family, I never felt what I feel here in the West Indies. All the feelings are so much intenser. So I follow the news and find the human race not good enough for me to be a proud member of. Here follows a little comment I wrote on an article about the hoax of birth certificate of the President of the USA. "Whoever the goon is that the real masters have chosen, he will be protected until they have no more use for him, your digging and asking for answers is irrelevant. In reality you Search his birth because you want him dead. Well, they who want him dead are not alone. As if dead or impeachment would change anything. If clever uncorrupted hackers can get inside weapon dealers computers, and disrupt them or blow their bombs up at the point of manufacturing then we can say that we are advancing. The minds of the monsters are deep dark holes and there is no compassion, none. I advice all men to do vasectomy. Deny [the leaders of] this unjust world another person to come into their control. Where the unborn are now, it certainly can not be as bad as on the planet here. Make no more kids. Prevent the suffering and teach compassion to the living. The dead and the unborn are fine where they are." I have my 65th birthday and I hope my 24 year old neighbor friend girl will come and lay with me. There is nothing so nice a birthday present as a young woman friend to come and lay with me. I hope you have an old man as lover, young men can not appreciate young women for real, old wine taste better and the best nurses are young women, they bring a dead man back to life. And all that is true, natural and they may call it hedonist. I am a humanist, no affiliation with god in this matter.