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Whatever you all think of me, I can say that I have all my life dated woemn age 19. The relationships lasted from short 2 to long 8 years and where always fantastic. When 22, I met Margona from Sweden 19 yrs old, we were 5 years fine until she went off with another guy. The at 28 I met Katharina 19yrs, from Holland, in Amsterdam. We lived like man and wife, for 5 yrs, and when it got to hot in the RED SEA on our sailing boat she went home, looking back at a good time with me. Then at 35 I met Israeli Sabra Vicky, 19 yrs old, just finishing her military service. She joined me and was my boatwife for 8 years until in the Caribbean she left with a handsome Brazilian. Devastated and lonely I met Linda, from Dominica , she was 19 and I was 46. We lived together 3 years and parted but are still best frinds today. Then came Sariela who was a few years younger than 19 and Valentina, a few years older than 19. But last year I met Anie, who lives nearby and is 20. I am 61 now and we are very happy when we are close. Sex a little, that sure, but mostly, just talk, cooking, video games, laughter. I asked them often why are you with me girls? They had dozens of reasons: same age boys are kids, we want a man, young boys have no father power, they do not know their place in life yet and most important young men are jealous and posessive. That pissed them off the most. I leave them free, who am I to say what they should do or not do? I admire them for their young vigor, their power, their fresh loving look, and a lot of other things. And my advice to you who looks for younger lovers is to go South. Where the life is more natural and the people know still how to share love. The knowledge of the old goes to the young, the power of the young invigorated the old, It is an exchange of forces and so both are happy. She learns from me, and I keep young by absorbing her young language and style. Charley Chaplin did it, Edith Piaff did it, and Bob Marleys father was 58 and his mommy 17, see what a star came from that union. whomever talks against young and old together knows not of real life. Come to the tropics, Caribbean, Africa, Thailand, and experience the fullness of loving tenderness away from the stupid always better knowing cold girls from the cold countries.
And then you want a serious relationship you say? Let me tell you that all my relationships were and are dead serious. I give my all and everything each and every moment. And sometimes two girls competed for my love, and then I introduce them to each other and have them make friends. It has happened that they went in bed with me together, but ok, that was just a few times. The royal treat they gave was just because I deserved it is what they said when I asked wow, how come you two do me together now? Ah, cumm to the tropics and start a life!
I am here again to educate and help to modernize your old fashioned view of sexual conduct. Because the way you and most older people have been thinking about sex has only led to HIV infections, teen pregnancies and abortions, frustrations, feelings of guilt and domestic violence, rape and unhealthy sexual practice.
Your habit of hiding the truth about the beauty of sex has never done any good or helped young curious people one bit.
I agree that sex is not the only matter in the life of men and women. It is however the means by which all men and women came and will come into this world. And it is on the minds of every young person, if not all of the time, then much of the time.
Humanimals are the only animals that can consciously enjoy sex for other reasons than procreation. Western religion-makers of old needed to control the masses and as sex is enjoyed by everyone, they made sex a sin, and they condemned sex as long as it was not done like animals, for multiplication only...Which scared the ignorans enough to do what the church told them to do.
In the East this mean idea was never developed and there it was that ways where discovered to reach heavenly ecstasy and even enlightenment through artful sexual conduct. They call this art Tantra. The pleasures of the body are cultivated, and things like bondage, rape and sado-masochism are unheard of in the East. They are the product of the churches condemnation of the most natural thing that can happen between two humanimals.
In mother nature’s world, sex is the main reason for everything that happens, for how things look, smell and sound. Flowers that turn into fruits do that for procreation. Fragrance of flowers and also smells of humans are to attract the other gender. It is for the joy of living that sexual activities are created by God. All of us are equipped with the tools to enjoy each another. Colors and fragrances of flowers are to attract insects that will enter the flower to get at the honey that is deep inside so that the insect will get pollen on its skin which often is hairy, like the bee, in order to pick up as much as possible to bring it to other flowers so they can reproduce.
Songs that birds sing in the forest, are to attract birds of the other gender, in order to meet and breed. Even the good taste of some berries and fruits eaten by birds are sexual tricks from the trees and bushes that produce them. The birds and other animals that eat them do often not digest the seeds inside these fruits and carry them far away from the original source.
Lipstick, eye shadow and other cosmetics are to make men look, and to arouse them. Today’s fashion of bare backs with a few flimsy strings, super low pants that reveal belly buttons and at times more, are to arouse men, because men get visually turned on.
What the Church does, to use the sexual urge as a means to control people is nothing but a crime against humanity. We have seen that the so called celibate priests go to young innocent boys to satisfy their sexual urges.
It is up to us, responsible adults, to inform the young ones about the great pleasures that can be had with good sexual conduct, how to avoid pregnancy and diseases, how to get the most out of each encounter. Forgiven are those adults that themselves never had the pleasure and cannot transmit this knowledge. If you are one of those you should abstain from informing the young and the curious, because what you didn’t experience yourself, you cannot teach.
Beware of the one who knows not, but be warned even more for the one who pretends to know...
My girlfriend got a dildo, 3 speed with batteries, very realistic, from Santa Claus. Unfortunately there was no instruction sheet. Being very religious she says that for a man masturbation is not allowed by the Holy Book that states that a man should not spill his seed on the earth. As a woman has nothing to spill she thinks that it is OK for her to masturbate, can you confirm this? Before she gives it a try, she wants to be sure.
Religiously ignorant boyfriend
One does not have to read your columns to get old fashioned viewpoints on sex. Almost every home has the book that caused so much trouble already. A bit of a pity is that the translations are mostly very outdated and difficult to understand for modern young people, however, read on and find out for yourself. And I say with the spiritual Master Osho, that freedom brings great responsibility. And I am also trying to make you free, not only from fascist types of structures. I am trying to free you from Christianity, Hinduism, Buddhism, Mohammedanism, all religions. They are all fascist, because their basic idea is belief. They destroy your reason, they destroy your inquiry, they destroy your intelligence. They give you borrowed, century old rubbish and call it knowledge. You call the BIBLE holy and every day you worship it, with great respect, without knowing that this is the most pornographic book in the whole world. If the supreme Court of America is really fair, the BIBLE should be x-rated. But the same is the situation of other religious scriptures. All are pornography. I want you to be free from any ideology so that you can be yourself, and you can search and you can go into the unknown. That inquiry into the unknown is such an ecstasy, such a great excitement--it is the only pilgrimage. Here follows alphabetically the beginning of the list of some of the porno related items from the BIBLE: Abortion, Hosea 9:11-16, Isaiah 13:18, Numbers 31:17 , Exodus 21:22, Numbers 5:11-21 Adultery, Leviticus 18:20, Leviticus 20:10, IISamuel 11:2-4 Bestiality, Leviticus 18:23 and Leviticus 20:15-16 Breasts, Solomon song, 1:13 and 4:5, 7:3,7 Child abuse, Genesis 22:9-10, IKings 3:24,25 and 6:28,29 Child murder, Leviticus 20:9, Psalm 137:8-9. Dissolution of the family, Divorce, Exhibitionism, Feminism, Flat-chested women, Fornication, French kissing, Gang rape, see Judges 19:24-29. Homosexuality, Human Sacrifice, Immigration, Impotence, Incest, Interracial Marriage, Masturbation, Murder for sex, Necrophilia, Pedophilia, Polygamy, Prostitution, Raunch, Ritual child sexual mutilation, Sexual slavery, Size Queens, and more and more. Here is no place to list it all, the Bible is too full of pornographics, for details go check internet: http://www.otoons.de/sex/NC-17Bible.htm
One does not have to read your columns to get old fashioned viewpoints on sex. Almost every home has the book that caused so much trouble already. A bit of a pity is that the translations are mostly very outdated and difficult to understand for modern young people, however, read on and find out for yourself.
And I say with the spiritual Master Osho, that freedom brings great responsibility. And I am also trying to make you free, not only from fascist types of structures. I am trying to free you from Christianity, Hinduism, Buddhism, Mohammedanism, all religions. They are all fascist, because their basic idea is belief. They destroy your reason, they destroy your inquiry, they destroy your intelligence. They give you borrowed, century old rubbish and call it knowledge. You call the BIBLE holy and every day you worship it, with great respect, without knowing that this is the most pornographic book in the whole world. If the supreme Court of America is really fair, the BIBLE should be x-rated. But the same is the situation of other religious scriptures. All are pornography.
I want you to be free from any ideology so that you can be yourself, and you can search and you can go into the unknown. That inquiry into the unknown is such an ecstasy, such a great excitement--it is the only pilgrimage.
Here follows alphabetically the beginning of the list of some of the porno related items from the BIBLE:
Abortion, Hosea 9:11-16, Isaiah 13:18, Numbers 31:17 , Exodus 21:22, Numbers 5:11-21
Adultery, Leviticus 18:20, Leviticus 20:10, IISamuel 11:2-4
Bestiality, Leviticus 18:23 and Leviticus 20:15-16
Breasts, Solomon song, 1:13 and 4:5, 7:3,7
Child abuse, Genesis 22:9-10, IKings 3:24,25 and 6:28,29
Child murder, Leviticus 20:9, Psalm 137:8-9. Dissolution of the family, Divorce, Exhibitionism, Feminism, Flat-chested women, Fornication, French kissing, Gang rape, see Judges 19:24-29. Homosexuality, Human Sacrifice, Immigration, Impotence, Incest, Interracial Marriage, Masturbation, Murder for sex, Necrophilia, Pedophilia, Polygamy, Prostitution, Raunch, Ritual child sexual mutilation, Sexual slavery, Size Queens, and more and more. Here is no place to list it all, the Bible is too full of pornographics, for details go check internet:
http://www.otoons.de/sex/NC-17Bible.htm
One of the women I sex is married, I found out lately. I asked her how she can justify being with me. She replied that her husband could not satisfy her, but she could satisfy him any and all times. So, she argued, I have the right to get what I need from you and he has to behave himself. If I catch him with another woman I shall divorce him, because he has no reason. Now, as I can satisfy her, through my excellent self control, I asked her if I could have other lovers besides her. Indignantly she said that if she found another woman around by me, she would kill her. Do you think that right? Should I not make as many women happy as possible? Of course they must be single and of legal age, and with the necessary precautions, what we call today: safe sex.
Climax Master
… Queen Victoria knew about sex and its consequences, however, any woman who makes 9 children is obviously not aware of the ramifications of her sexual conduct. Nine times child birthing is no joke, the poor woman in her ignorance must have suffered a lot. Also, no woman can be pregnant 9 times and bring up so many children well. Her only excuse is that in those days, condoms did not yet exist.
In order to divert from the subject you dare assume that I know nothing about other aspects of human relationships and you dig up my past. Well, I was (ab)used by two women who left me after taking a child from me. That was, I know now, for my spiritual development. I learned that (Gautama the) Buddha left his wife to find Enlightenment, that Jesus (the Christ) never went into relationships with women, but was sympathetic with prostitutes and that Mohammed, (Prophet of Allah), had nine wives, and allowed his followers to have 4 at the time. ( Which explains where the gay men come from, if the ratio man-woman is about 50:50) Any way, the subject is about young persons sexual information. And carnival is coming.
Sex brings joy into this world, it will always be a most intriguing aspect of life.
Then you change my “sound sexual practice”, into: “judging a partner”. It is not the same and judging is a most unholy and impossible thing to do. Does not the Bible say: “Judge not that Thy will not be judged?” Witness the number of divorces, after people judged each another to stick together forever. Although we are not discussing my past, I was fooled by two women who judged to live with me for 5 and 8 years, when we were mature and adult enough to choose and sex each another. Did they judge my intellect or my money? Once they had my child with my (by them judged right) genes, they took off with our matrimonial bank account.
We talk about sexual education, and Tantra. People are here on earth to Love each another. You may think of another kind of love than me, but my Love includes yours, mine is the Love of God, all encompassing and for everyone. Love is where you put your attention, my attention is everywhere, not only at sexual matters. My Love has nothing to do with sex, but sex surely can bring you to this (Gods) Love. Sound sexual practice everybody should learn about ( book: Sexual Secrets, the Alchemy of ecstasy, by Nik Douglas and Penny Slinger, available at our local bookstore, or amazon.com)
Sexual education in Europe starts at a very early age and note that the highest number of teen age pregnancy of all developed countries is in the USA . By the way, there is also the highest infant mortality.....
This is the subject. You did not help a 12 year old girl who asked how to avoid pregnancy . You said the best way is to have no sex. That is the same as answering a child that asks how to avoid tooth pain by saying: eat no sweets.
Thy Will will not be done. As Gods advice not to kill or lie or steal, etc., is ignored by grown up mature judge-ripe persons, so your advice not to have sex will be ignored by youngsters. The mother did not choose to inform the child. Obviously she wants a grandchild. What else is new? Nobody be surprised when next year another child-mother fails her classes. A 15 year old mother with a child of two years old has real, true problems . It can be helped if someone like you had told her how to avoid pregnancy when she was 12.
In finishing, please tell me what exactly is the benefit in refusing a child the information to avoid pregnancy in detail, completely, sex, condoms, pills and all? Nobody is ever too young to hear the Truth. Truth is Love is Truth. The Truth shall set you Free, remember? The Truth is: explicit informative education. To be had from the parents first and foremost, but if they do not know , then the schoolteacher, or in this case, The Womans Desk, or the house doctor, or you or me, or get books about it. But don’t tell the curious and seeking person to just say no. That has never yet worked.( see the number of teen pregnancy.)
A conversation with a young American girl who is having a relation with an older man. She is quit bold and I try to transmit or convey her style as close as possible.
I’ve been reading advises many times and I find that you always advice against us, young women, or girls, having relationships with much older men. Where did you get that negative position from? Who are you, and where do you come from? Are you giving your advice in the interest of the Caribbean young people or are you an egotistic woman who just wants to rule her own style? Most people may not know, but fact is that when He got born, Bob Marley’s black Jamaican mother was 17 and his white English father was 52. He was three times her age! My question is, will any such couple’s child be like Bob Marley, Saintly and making wonderful music for all people? Will history repeat itself? From Bob Marley’s parents we learn that the most unlikely alliance can give the most wonderful result. Will you stop advising against young women making love with older men now that you have also learned the Truth about Bob? Or will you continue preventing possible Stars coming into the world? Any way,I will make love to my very sweet old man for he is a young spirit in an old body, that’s all.
Young black with old white
Out the dairy of a young mother of 16; I got my babygirl when I was 14 years old.
My problem is that I do not get “off” when I have sex with my boyfriends. We like to make love as a pass time and recreation, because it cost nothing and it gives us all sweet, warm, sexy feelings and it makes us better and dearer friends.
We stroke and massage and kiss and hug and whisper sweet intimate jokes to each other. It’s real fun. Of course we always use condoms. The boys get “off” all the time. I don’t know what’s wrong with me because I don’t feel that wonderful relaxing pleasure feeling which other girls tell me is called orgasm. It must be so wonderful when I hear them explain it to me. But I don’t feel anything special, other than the loving sweetness and the pure togetherness.
Would it be better if I try an older man who don’t get off so fast? Or will I get it spontaneously when I am older? Is it something I can learn or do, or do I have the problem because I got my baby already?
My mother who is 29 years old does not know why I cannot get my “climax” as she calls it. She just say to keep on trying. What do you think I can do? Is there a sex doctor I can?
Some time ago, I read about a lady who was asked to perform some for her unusual sex acts in bed with her newly required lover man. Not that he was gay, wrote she, but what he wanted was strange to her. She did not explain in detail what was asked of her, but she asked advice from the wise woman in the newspaper. The wise woman did not answer the question other than telling the lady not to give in to a man that gave compliments in the street, that was how she had met him, and other nonsense advice, that would not help any questioner at all.
However, mentioning the word “gay”, makes one think of man to man action and that implies back door performance. In case he wanted to use her back door, I comment that it is not proper to go through a back door where a front door is available. In case he wanted her to check his back, I elaborate:
Every woman should study male anatomy if she cares for him, to find out that most men will develop prostate cancer if: 1, he lives long enough and: 2, that gland is ignored. The prostate gland is the place where the “milk” (yogurt, cumm), is produced, which holds and keeps sperm alive until ejaculation. The prostate gland should be exercised and possibly massaged when a man gets over 40-50 years of age.To stimulate the gland and prevent atrophy, sickness or cancer, contractions of the sphincter are very good to do, several times a day. The gland is located inside the body, between the legs, easiest accessible from behind. When a doctor examines it for swelling, indications of inflammation, or cancer, he inserts his finger in the anus. A healthy prostate gland feels in size like a chestnut, firm and round. The feeling is quit pleasant and is erotically arousing. That is why gays who act the female part enjoy much as the male administers his member just there, stimulating and rubbing his partners prostate gland. You have in the meantime understood where the name prostitute comes from. She who relieves the prostate gland of excessive pressure for a reward is called so. Inside tender massage of the gland with a (long) finger or with another soft thing, especially made for, available in sex shops, the active contractions of the sphincter and the eating of cooked, yes, cooked tomatoes(!) seem to prevent prostate cancer. For a fact, Italian men who eat cooked tomato [sauce] on their spaghetti almost every day, have less prostate cancer than any other .
Women who want to give their men unknown pleasures could explore the male backside in more than one way. When on the verge of ejaculation, a touching of the anus can augment his excitement manifold.
Please do use condoms and not Vaseline or oil based lubricants, only water based jelly’s, available in every supermarket, drugstore and pharmacy, wash with lukewarm water and use those condoms, try colored ones, or with taste of strawberry or banana, think of carnival coming , ribbed or smooth, use them. Abundantly. Enjoy your God given outfit to the full; it was not created to be ignored.
Sleazy is in my dictionary explained as common, base, cheap. Balls are spheres, globes but also parties, hop ups, dances, proms. Fed up with base balls or common dance parties, or cheap proms?
Are you jealous to see young girls going with men your own age because you missed your chance to have an older man love you when you was young? Don’t you know that men, no matter how old, always will be boys?
That aside, you ask my definition of love. Well, love is life, is God, is devotion, compassion, concern, affection, fondness, warmth, adoring, worshiping, admiring, even idolizing, and respecting. All of the above is how I define love. And more, love is where you put your attention.
Indeed, as you state, her hormones are running wild and if I was half a man I would correct her with mature love. Well, I am not only half a man, I am a whole man, total, undivided, with all of the mature love already described. I do not have to put her in her place, she is already there and she greatly respects me.
Using the old Jewish (Old Testament) proverb of “Guarding fleas is easier than a girl in love”, does not make me a dog, or are you anti Jewish as well as fed up with base balls/cheap parties?
She is for sure looking out for men like me, who are easily aroused; she is not at all interested in others.
Then, I do not abuse her in the least, I’ll ask her one of these days to write to you how she enjoyed our togetherness. We are not married and do not intent to marry, so your quote of the Bible does not impress us much. Especially as many people who live by your outdated Bible are at present on trial for sexually abusing 11 year old boys and other very young children, in the USA. Do you ever read the rest of the newspaper?
And lastly, about my ego: that cannot be checked, it is gone, true love is egoless, ego and love do not go together.
Please come again, at your loving service any time.
Giving in to that girl in love.
My women and girl friends love me already many years. They also know about each other. I take care of them as good as I can, and I am faithful to them. I am as honest as a judge, I never lie to them. I like you to tell me what you mean with those baser feelings you talk about, when you think a man doesn't understand what love between one man and one woman really means. Our love goes to the core, to the deepest point of our souls, we merge into one, we have known each other for many lifetimes and we know our love is forever. But our love is not restricted to one person only. That is not natural, dictated by dogmas, churches, laws and is nowhere in biological evolutionary natural life to be found. Of all animal species there are only two or three rare cases which are singled out by the advocates of marriage, who have singular unions, the other thousands have not. If two people voluntarily rest together all their lives, blessed are they, if they have enough love, tender care and attention for others as well, who are you to judge that or find them less than the two who are only restricted to each another? Jesus is my guide and His love was without restrictions, total and all encompassing. And baser feelings, what are they else than cuddling, holding each other, reaffirming the comfort of togetherness, making of a baby, bringing more love into the world? Today with AIDS protection and safety are first important, perhaps it doesn't lead to pregnancy, but apart from that, the physical part of loving is in no way any baser than a conversation, watching tv together or having a walk along the beach, dressing the kids, or what? If you think sex is no good, than how did you come into this world?? And what love does a woman deserve other than the love she gives? Love is a two way lane, and knows not possessiveness.
Tell me which way to go. I have in my life met a number of young women who went into a relationship with me. I always thought them freedom, independent, and equality. They used to be shy, withdrawn, submissive and sweet. In a couple of years they became bold, outgoing and dominating. With the result that they went their own way, took their own apartment, take men only for the pleasure of the money and a short time of physical relief for the sexual urge. Now I am all alone and as I’m growing older, the women have less or no interest in me. How stupid I was, to teach them girls to be free like me, or what do you say. How do I get a woman now that I get older? I’m always in love with them, their differences attract me so much, only together do I experience life fully, and with a female I feel that God exists. Alone I feel inadequate and useless, as if God has no more interest in me.
The answer you gave to the 16 year old girl who asked if she should try the next boy in order to find out if sex was different with different boys, was very useless and not at all helping the girl. Sexual activity is the one and only God given pleasure that can lead to intimate love and better understanding between people. Sexual art must be learned, just like cooking. With the same ingredients an amateur cook makes a simple primitive plate of food. A chef who has experience makes a wonderful exquisite delicious plate with those same ingredients. He who has studied the art of cooking knows what I’m about. The same is true with sex. I can feel from your answers where it concerns sex that you have never had the luscious intimate sexual experience that leads to spiritual enlightenment. This ancient knowledge is called Tantra and brings the human being through sound sexual practice into a realm of higher consciousness. This in turn brings better behavior, dignity, understanding and health. Tantra has been practiced for thousands of years in Eastern countries. The book by Penny Slinger and Nik Douglas, called Sexual Secrets, The Alchemy of Ecstasy, for sale at Van Dorp or can be ordered there, explains what every young woman and man should know to avoid problems and disappointments, to enjoy their bodies and to give great lovely pleasure to each another. It is time you stop answering young people as if we live in the time of Queen Victoria and as if the ancient rules of the Bible are still useful. Sexual education is extremely poor in western countries, your answers are proof of that, please do get some real facts and information Queenie, so you can help youngsters instead of trying to have them just say no and letting them experiment in the blind. At the very least you could have advised the girl to do nothing without a good supply of condoms at hand, because your answer will surely not stop her from finding out what you did not.
Sexpert
Here comes Lolita, and she is very real. She is hot , this is (Sint Maarten) scandalous. (not French departement Saint Martin). Her name is changed for privacy.
Since time memorial, the combination of Virgin and Whore has been the Woman that Men admire most. Before the Jewish Patriarchal (God=father) religion came into being, religion was Matriarchal. God was a Woman and a girl and a mother and was worshipped as such. With the name Aphrodite in ancient Greece, Venus in Rome, as Inane in Sumeria, Astarte in Phoenicia, Ishtar in Babylonia and Isis in Egypt.
In those days in temples where the Goddess was worshipped, a virgin was to be a prostitute for one time only, to become initiated in sexual knowledge, and eligible for marriage.
Then came the Jewish religion makers, who scared women and made men their protectors. They replaced the Holy Goddess with a male God. Later Christian religion makers added new stories to the Bible, and in order to take advantage of Her still tremendous Supremacy, they took the former Goddess apart. Applying the principle of divide and rule, they split Her in two. The Virgin, (most impossible christian combination Mary, virgin+mother simultaneously) and the Whore, Magdalene, (JesusÕ devoted admirer).
Men are attracted to either or both.
A young (virgin) woman with childish face and firm breasts will always compete successfully with a grown, motherly woman, when it comes to seducing men. The religion makers created an impossibility to be worshipped; the virgin mother. Worshipping an impossibility leads nowhere, and the religion makers knew it...
Young women, nearly ready to become mothers, have a God given strong attraction over men.
Everywhere in the world growing up girls find the power this gives them very exciting. Some successfully exploit it. Also here in our own society. We have a very young mother, almost still a virgin.
Now you'll read how Lolita, our child wench, came to be what she is. How creation's natural attraction between the sexes is taken advantage of for money.
Her mother got pregnant at 14 years of age and baby Lolita was born when mother was 15. Father unknown; and not a year later, mother was selling sex. She had to feed her child after all. No education or schooling, but the education of the street. Lolita grew up in the little shack where mother received her men. Sex was her economic education, together with raffling and gambling. As soon as her breasts started showing at 11 years of age she became the object of interest of men that where with her mother. She was sometimes taking part in the activities in the big bed, encouraged by mother. Just stroking and fondling and kissing a little, to the delight of all involved. Mother could now charge more for something out of the ordinary. Lolita was good at it and basked in the warmth and the interest, the praise and compliments. She then tried what mother did on her own, and although she hardly knew when, or from whom, she was pregnant as soon as she became fertile at the tender age of 12. The baby grew inside her womb and her baby daughter got born when she was 13. It was delivered by Caesarean method, as her birth canal was narrow. It was good, men like it better so, said mother.
Her mother had never been to school, and did not put her daughter to school either, and now, after the baby and all that, Lolita did not feel at ease with other children who did not have experience like she. She never learned to write and read. But she was so much wiser.
Grandmother took care of the baby, far away, and at 14 Lolita was feeling very good when she discovered that she could get almost anything from any man by touching their private parts. They would be as putty in her hands and do whatever she asked. Which was exactly what she did when she let herself be picked up at bus stops pretending to need a ride. From asking for bus money it went to asking for a five dollar note, a ten note and more. Of course most men wanted something in return, and that she knew very well how to give, had she not done that all the time, with her mother together? When asked her age she always says that she is 17, going 18. It is for her the safest thing to say.
Long ago she found out that she was worth a lot, when her mother furnished a man to sex with her. He paid three hundred dollars she told me proudly, but, that was for her mother, not for her. She did not like that at all and at 15 years of age she had her own shack for 150 dollars a month. She does not want to make money for her mother any more. If she is going to sex, she says, she does it for herself, and she wants to choose who to do it with. Asking if she does it with any man, ugly or nice, old or young, sober or drunk she answers: “Any man of course, as long as he pays and I need money”.
The rent, she easily gets together by seducing a man when she strolls the roads looking for fun as she calls it. Fun she has, she says, especially when she lures a man, and tantalizes him, to make him believe he’s going to get her, but not yet, maybe later. Some times she gets money without giving sex, she tells me with a smile.
With her innocent child face she knows exactly how to use her little breasts and bare midriff to her advantage. Today’s fashion, super low cut jeans and tiny tank tops, bare back with a few strings, makes her look tremendously sexy. Asked if she considers herself to be a big girl or a young woman, she answers: ÒI am an old woman in a young body”, and she laughingly walks away, into the night.
The night hides everything, all bad thoughts, there is nothing ugly here, no evil, she does not suffer, she likes what she is doing. She is good at it, knows nothing else, her mother didn’t know anything else, and her daughter maybe knows no better. She loves Jesus, and He loves her, is all that counts.
But is she safe? She could contract a sickness. Is she strong enough to refuse the men who want it without protection when offering more money? What does she know about hygiene? She may not be so happy and carefree for long...
“Unless,......” you say, yes, I listen, unless what?
Get real, who has the money to pay her lodging and food and her schooling, to keep her from plying her trade? Is here a monastery that will lock her up so she will play hooker no more?
And the most disturbing, the real impossible part of the issue: What can replace that Feeling of Power she has over men? When she leads them on so they will do anything to get relieve from the urge she has built up.
Nothing can replace that feeling of Power Over Men.
So lives child whore Lolita; if we like it or not. She is free to do her thing, and she knows, if nobody else, Jesus loves her.
Sexpert
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